#IT LEGIT WOKE ME UP BC I WAS LIKE 'that cant fucking happen.'

[ninjasmudge]

last night i had a dream that i was playing minecraft and i noticed i had 77 blocks of cobblestone in one slot instead of it being capped at 64 and it was so jarring to me that it literally booted me out of the dream. like sure you can fly now and your childhood home is a pharmacy but 77 pieces of cobblestone? unthinkable. wake the fuck up.

#minecraft #tagged so i can find it ig #PROBABLY MEANS I PLAY TOO MUCH MINECRAFT TBH #IT WAS 77 COBBLESTONE DO U UNDERSTAND HOW JARRING THAT WAS #IT LEGIT WOKE ME UP BC I WAS LIKE 'that cant fucking happen.' #shark talks #l

[pinkmoondoll9shihtzu]

all the talk about demons is really interesting to me so i wanted to share my demon story (although im not traditionally religious so i usually resist the term demon bc i feel like it has really specific connotations to most people... but my experience with a negative parasitic entity)

lived in a 200 year old house in an extremely spiritually active area of land where weird shit happened often and there was a creepy vibe always but this was the worst thing that ever happened there and the most sinister by far. most of the creepy energy just felt like nature spirits which are indifferent to human life. but basically my sibling had an extremely bad drug addiction and a lot of mental health problems and his room became extremely unpleasant to go into, there was a terrifying energy always like if you went in there to get something it felt like you were about to be grabbed. he moved out in very upsetting circumstances and after he was gone I think the negative entity which had accumulated in there feeding off his unhappiness had nothing left to consume so it started to come out. the first thing that happened was only mildly weird, the door to his room like locked and unlocked itself on its own when my sister tried to go in. now that i'm typing this i realize i cant actually remember a lot of the details, and stuff like the door being locked inexplicably is fairly normal weird old house stuff, but it felt so sinister and terrifying at the time, we were all aware of it even though it wasn't directly expressed. the thing that made me realize there was an actual entity in that room coming out was my mom woke up and found a tissue box on the foot of her bed. it wasn't the one from her room because that was still there, and because it was blue (my brother's color) we realized it had come from his bedroom. so this thing took the box of tissues out of my brother's room and put it on the foot of his mother's bed to torment her. idk this sounds so mundane typing it but it was legit one of the most chilling things i've ever experienced. i felt that the entity was like a black hole, nothingness that fed on nothingness and created more nothingness.. like the exact opposite of a living creature. I tried to force it out by visualizing my energy pushing it out of the room and i think it partially worked.. idk hmm....... i hope this isn't too much demon stuff i dont wanna bring down the vibe of your blog.. this is 2012 3arth n01ses btw i just didn't want this to be findable via my blog bc its personal family info

it's ok i dont think it brings down the vibe ^^ i like to talk about this stuff especially as i feel very protected at this stage in my life i am inclined to pass along some of my feelings towards ~the spiritual war~ as many people are looking to gain insight. to me it feels very objective to analyze & discuss..

and i relate to this story a lot o_o i've experienced poltergeist activity and it's no joke,.. when an entity becomes strong enough to start messing with the physicality of this realm it is absolutely horrifying even on the most minor scale. there's been a few haunted houses i've lived in where it's happened but this story really reminds me of when i was living in new mexico at my exes house..

my ex and i shared a room that was a newer addition to the house. but the main part of the house was over 100 years old & an alcoholic man had killed himself in my exes childhood bedroom during the great depression. i could not fucking be in this room, like, the second i stepped in there i was filled to the brim with dread & discomfort like the walls were closing in on me. no one else seemed to feel any type of way about this room, but my exes dad had said something interesting about it. it was next to the bathroom & the house was so old that the pipes were made of clay, so in winter they had to dig underneath the house to like, repair the pipes or alleviate pressure on them or something?

anyways the first winter i was there one day my exes dad mentioned that he saw a tiny shadow man run across the yard into the hole under this room. to me it instantly felt like something ancient. and i felt the man who killed himself in that room was being tormented by this thing. because in present times this is still a very dysfunctional household, especially concerning addiction. that room especially just felt so fucking heavy.

one time i was going to the bathroom at midnight, my ex was out with friends, her parents were sleeping in their own room. as i walked past the haunted room the door was open and i heard a voice say "hello!" but it sounded distant, like it was echoing, but not echoing in the room, it was echoing through dimensions. i became TERRIFIED & i ran into the bathroom, i sat there listening with the door open just to try and assess the situation, like maybe my exes dad woke up or something? then i heard loud footsteps walking out of the creepy room towards me. i slammed the bathroom door shut. the footsteps stopped and there was no more sound after that, neither of the parents were awake. i was so shocked. its still hard for me to believe.

but i do feel the man who killed himself in that room gave the entity a huge surplus of energy to work with. and it was causing all types of chaos in that house. i also find it interesting how it waited for my ex to be out of the house before presenting itself to me. because it was rare for us to be apart at that time. since it was her childhood bedroom i feel the entity has a special attachment to her. and it's very similar to your brother. i'm sorry your family has had to go thru this ): but you're not alone.. and you seem to be taking a higher path from my own observations it seems you've learned a lot from this experience and allowed it to elevate your cosciousness rather than falling victim to it. so good for you, your soul is strengthened, really the best case scenario from this.

thanks for another message...your intuition is on your side <3 PMD9 xxxxxxxxx

[dexaroth]

had a dream about a portal gun that allows u to travel back (blue) or forward (orange) in time (very long desc so I'll hide it in the read more thingy)

it started in an entirely new concept of my apartment where everything was new. i had to deal with some weird neighbours that were evicted and looked off to me but this section's highlight was a parrot that i cant for the life of me remember what they did since this part formed like right after i started my deep sleep phase. brain certainly lifted this from the kakapo/green parrot post i rbed but they looked very different in my dream. they were big and had like a black coat of feathers on top and only their belly was green so points for originality i guess

not as interesting so, proceeding. the middle phase was me getting bored/angry of whatever happened there and so i picked up the portal gun (somehow from somewhere, cant tell) and went back to when i was in school (i guess u just think of where u wanna go and it goes there in the past)

in today's version of the dream it was so long after I dreamed about it that i forgot how exactly it worked so I looked at the bottom of iy and the company's name seems to have russian characters, I can't recall what it was called but it was like tyrenyykyy or something with those letters. i didnt have the manual so i went to their website and the most powerful version (which was the one i was using) just cost $250. the company also sells.. clip art for ppl that make candy?

the gun itself has a constant receipt printer that describes the time u are in (like, [cafeteria - right before jonh left]) which i discover later that controls where in the timeline u wanna be in since at that point i just hopped in the past portal once and got to meet one of those human-apes that r our ancestors and double checked the website so thats how i figured why there was a scroll wheel next to the blue and orange portal buttons

AUGH ITS FADING ALLREADY AAAA

ok so i did some shenanigans that tied in with previous dreams i had in the same places (to me thats incredible. it doesnt happen often but when it does i go ecstatic and remember it while im dreaming, its like a half-controllable dream) but the most interesting part was when.. obama was in the school (completely made up im not american, that came from me watching mr. robot and noticing he was there) and i like went to him like hey old man look what i got. and he was impressed and i was trying to say 'i can go back more than 20 years back!' but i forgot how to say it in the form of 'decades' (i still dont know lol) and he laughed in a condescending way bc how stupid i was and tried to take it away so i immediatelly used it and went in the past again and realized how i could use this to stalk an entire person's life which i promptly forgot about and went to try to climb a place where some adults didnt let me go when i was a kid

the most fun in that was feeling like u were a criminal and should be stopped so it got u adrenaline but when i got there nobody gave a shit. didnt even acknowledge me existing there (which in my mind should have been even worse bc i was all grown up and idk, invading a place. it should have been even more interesting then when i was just at recess being watched) so i just layed in there like i died and woke up disappointed lol

alright uh this does not sound even near the fun i had dreaming about it.. fuck. i legit cant remember anything else but to me it was amazing to experience. u could alter the size of the portal too and that affects how far or forward u go and u also just go through a void when ur transitioning like in a way a game would do. it also had no handles just some plastic knobs u were supposed to put ur fingers in between but i remember i had to hold it like a baby bc it was so incvenient. also looked nothing like the og besides being made of white plating and looking like a peanut shell in shape

idk how interesting dream journals are to yall but its been a long time since ive had one of these complex story dreams. ones that u can separate into chapters and you wake up with an ending. i used to see more ppl posting them a while ago but i think that was a google+ thing so eeeehhh

i must be forgetting some very important details bci woke up like 'i gotta tell tumblr about obama. i gotta tell tumblr about obama' and i had just realized some stuff happened before the portal (the appartment part) part so i was like sheesh i lost like 80% of what happened there :[

i guess to me the bulk of the fun was going past and present and seeing which kinds of ppl were there. which kind of events. if i was still recognized as a student (which now that i think of it, i was wearing my uniform the moment i portaled to there.. huh.). none of the people i saw as friends were my irl friends, none of the events that happened there happened irl. it was all a re-use of a previous, already distorted dream i had. same scenario, same actions. i mustve thought this was what made the highlight (obama being there) just that much groudnbreaking lmao. "here's an entire new reimagining of your previous awesome dreams, with a way YOU can control them in whatever way you wish.................. AND, here's obama. bc u saw him appearing in that series. ur welcome" said my brain and i just pogged so hard at that

genuinely love so much when ppl share their dreams. its such an awesome thing to read about, its like trying to figure out how a machine works and then the machine reworks you instead

uh anyways. the dream has already faded out by this point, i usually just go wow!! i dreamt that?? at most after 5 minutes of the dream and then i put it in the back of my mind inside the 'epic dreams i had' catalog. i cant recall anything else interesting so hope this was a somewhat worth read lol

#dextxt

[carebooks]

[3.01] legacies, why?

first off, why is Alyssa still a student?

she legit sent the headmaster and his daughters to a dangerous prison world because of some rivalry of mean girl-ness with Lizzie?

well, she also did discover the prison worlds when she was a kid and Alaric and Emma mind wiped her or something which left her with a bad impression on them both since they threatened to send her there because of ‘bad behavior’ likeeeee which is why she included him in the spell but she endangered two *at the moment* innocent teenagers cuz of a damn rivalry, she wasn't taken over by dark magic or anything that was all her, she coulda just sent Alaric and Emma if she were there too

then again, one could also ask why the fuck is Josie still a student when she literally killed another one and attempted to kill her own sister too. we'll get to her later

i hope Kaleb and Jed just stay friends that eventually turns into a relationship bc i cant handle them fighting over this toxic undeserving girl

Like, pls, don't have them still be into this girl, it isn't a good idea

the worst part of it is she's the only Asian female representation (except for Kaylee, but you know what I mean, Josie is portrayed as white while Alyssa Chang is not) on the show and she's the mean girl everyone hates, like come on people

Chad’s a total broni, he really wanted that pegasus

why are Maliwhore monsters still coming?

Dammit Julie Plec, I thought we talked about this.

Honestly you know what? I would've been fine if they just started the season a few months in the future and they made a small comment about Maliwhore and how they fixed it, just deus ex machina style, it's over and done time for new big bads and new plots

landon being stubborn to be brought back was so funny for some reason

FOR FUCKS SAKE JULIE PLAGUE STOP USING THE WORDS 'HERO' and 'BAD GUY' IN YOUR SHOW

Raf legit said Hope was in a 'hero coma' and Landon dying a 'hero's death' all leads to tragedy and Landon was like 'can't let the bad guy win'

for fucks sake

THIS ISN'T A SUPERHERO SHOW I THINK ACTUAL SUPERHERO SHOWS HAVE USED THESE KEY WORDS LESS

and

in other news, Wade remains one of my favorites,

Alaric just happened to have the actual sword of Excalibur? really?

well the green knight showed up after nimue, lady of the lake and the sword just got stuck in a rock

im seriously considering starting a petition for Julie Plague to just fucking listen to the fans about what we actually wanna see on this show

everyone just ran away asdfgjkllh

pedro just stepped up, love him, but the key is to limit his appearances to keep it up, if you use his running gag on the show too much it's just bland after a while

oh my god, Jed, stop being into Alyssa, you're clearly meant to be with Kaleb

how much you wanna bet Nimue is evil too? (i was wrong, but she was def annoying)

the reaction the kids had when nimue said 'or your world will be plunged into darkness' and kaleb just laughed, that was perfect and MG adding 'we've dealt with this before, a lot'

like, yep, that's how you know it's getting old

Julie, stop using 'end of the world' as a reason for the kids to do something it's so boring and anti-climactic cuz guess what? we KNOW they're gonna win and the world'll be fine

oh gods, you people are so reliant on Hope

for fucks sake, it's worse when it's Alaric that delivers that line like you're a grown ass man who's been in this game for decades, you've seen it all, and yet you've come to rely on a 17 year old to do everything for you

no wonder she wants to stay asleep

Alyssa leaving and saying 'Good luck beating one without me' ?????

tf, that's what they've been doing since??like?? always??

so apparently you can only wield the sword if you have kings blood in your veins and even though she isn't actually royalty, Hope is sorta royalty in the werewolf community and her dad was the king of New Orleans, so i guess what im trying to say is she's totally a princess and she coulda wielded it

ok, if im disappointed by everything in this season (and according to the first ep i have no doubt i will be)

the only requirment i have for this season is for Hope wolfing out at least once, that's all i ask for this season, not a plot that makes sense, not a lack of superhero bullshit, not even a good villain, just Hope wolfing out

wait, so is Raf like royalty too? that's actually not bad, he and Hope coulda been such a power couple

landon kissed her and she woke up

thats so stupid

thats so stupid

thats so stupid

thats so stupid

AND legit in contrast of their previous ep where Hope legit says 'im not kissing someone sleeping, consent is a real thing'

wow, Julie, letting them have their fairytale moment but nothing for Hosie huh?

her waking up because she doesnt want to face the grief was so boring, why not make it an actual foe going after her?? some magical problem i mean?? it feels like they left on a biggie like she's not waking up and its a big deal but next thing you know it's not a magic problem or a foe, she just doesnt wanna face grief, ffs

its good that josie's leaving to get better, otherwise her whole plot in the show woulda been her being sad and not wanting to help out cuz she's scared of herself and getting picked on so yeah

what-

lizzie you didnt ruin the field day, a monster did that, relax

OH GODS SHE DID NOT JUST GIVE HIM A SUPERHERO NAME

UGHHHHHHHH

OH MY GOD HOPE AND LANDON STOP TALKING ABOUT SUPER SQUAD AND BAT SIGNALS

GODSDAMMIT

klaus mikaelson would be so disappointed in this show

you know what i'd like to see?

some goddammed consequences

like let the kids mess up and have actual tragedies happen in town that they have to deal with

honestly the writers don't know a good thing even when the whole fandom is literally yelling it at them

#legacies #hope mikaelson #legacies season three #legacies season 3 #legacies review #maliwhore #julie plague #legacies season three review #legacies season 3 review #alyssa chang #lizzie saltzman #josie saltzman #milton greasley #rafael waithe #landon kirby #polaroized

[ificanthaveu]

SHAWN MENDES MILWAUKEE RECAP

-the CUTEST lil flower photo booth outside. we love that.

-couldn’t find the floor entrance lol but overheard people talking so we found it

-had to ask a bunch of different pictures for people bc most of them sucked oops

-chatted it up with girls behind/next to us and they were such sweeties!!!

-a bitch goes HARD at concerts

-alessia FUCKN cara is a saint and has the voice of an angel and we r blessed to be in her presence

-she sang out of love and it’s my fave so i was so excited

-scars to your beautiful made me cry like a baby :)

-made friends with all the girls around me and what some AMAZING SWEETHEARTS i wish them nothing but happiness and thoughts of shawn mendes

-there was a tall man a few rows ahead of me who’s head was conveniently where shawn was most of the time so ya girl had to lean

-the aggressive guitar strumming on there’s nothing holding me back is the only reason i am alive and thriving

-ZUBIN IS AN MVP AND I JUST RLY LOVE HIM OK

-stitches can still get me hype like the first time damn

-SEÑORITA KILLED ME like holy shit man bury me alive it was so slow and beautiful (will probably post video of this)

-and RIGHT INTO ikwydls...to the part shawn says he can never remember soooooo boy why’d you pick that part then??

-#1 mutual stan, dani here, saying that her dreams have been fulfilled

-the “I NEED TO KNOW” at the end of the camila mash up....wow....he really did that

-a SMILEY and SWEATY boy (but i cant talk bc i was also both)

-the LED bracelets? fuckn cool. nice job shawn.

-OK SO HERES THE GOOD PART IF YOU DONT READ ANY OF THIS PLZ JUST READ THIS PART

-during never be alone people were tryna get to the B stage and the security was like back the FUCK off, but lucky us, we were in the rows right next to it

-so security steps back and we SPRINT and we get right by the barricade (well one girl ahead of me but she was short so all was good)

-and he walked up on the stage and i swear i saw heaven

-and he sang my fave of all time, i wanna dance with somebody

-AND I S2G HE LOOKED AT ME AND ILL TAKE IT TO MY GRAVE (since i did not get a hand touch :()

-he only high fived like a lil chunk which made me a lil sad but we forgive and forget

-the mash up of all those songs? me? emo! did she cry at ALTM? you fuckn bet!

-real talk, ALTM is the reason i made it through freshman year soooo thank you shawn mendes a million and one times for that masterpiece

-connor was right in front of us for a lil bit!! a videographer king!

-LOTP is a classic, a banger, and 5 years old??????

-the fact that i stayed up until midnight for that release and here i am 5 years later, still being a huge fan of him, is the absolute coolest thing and i’ve loved growing up with him (i just made myself cry fuck)

-during LTBY he had his back to us and we were all kinda like aw damn but then the girl behind me was like “ok this VIEW” and i’m like girl look at u lookin on the bright side

-so i stared at his beautiful beautiful back side

-THEN HE MOVED THE MIC and he was like.....RIGHT THERE and we freaked

-ruin? one of my favorites? just feet away from me? we stan.

-THE ICONIC RUIN GUITAR SOLO HAPPENED LEGIT RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME AND I WILL THANK JESUS FOR THAT EVERY DAY FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE

-particular taste is everything i’d hoped it’d be and more

-he did the “yup” and my soul left my body

-fallin all in you hits me in the best place wow we love her so much

-YOUTH YOUTH YOUTH first, his speech? amazing. a king of words. and fuckn listen to him. WE HAVE A VOICE. USE IT.

-i said the same thing last time, but it is so emotional when it is just us, him and his acoustic. there’s something so special and intimate about it that really makes u understand the song on a new level

-my snapchat crashed during IICHY and i lost the first chorus :)

-but i got the end so we gucci

-him sitting on the edge of the stage and singing why is the cutest thing ever, don’t fight me in this

-MERCY IS SO GOOD. SO MUCH EMOTION.

-aaannnddddd the finale. i cried during IMB, ofc. it just means the world to me bc i cant relate to love songs bc i’ve never felt that. i’ve never truly been heart broken or any of that. so when my favorite singer release a song about struggling with anxiety? you bet i cried.

-i took my bb sister to this with me for her first concert and i gave her too high of expectations for the rest. i don’t think she understands they she’ll never be that close to any other artist. i’m just too good.

-also one of my friends was there and sitting farther up and she know how much ALTM and IMB meant to me so she sent me lil messages saying how much she loves me during them and a bitch was emo :( i don’t deserve her :(

-confetti!

-i got a cute shirt too so yeet

-i’ll probably remember more shit later

-if you’re hesitant on going to a shawn mendes concert...FUCKING GO. i’ve gone 3 times and each time is different and he’s so amazing and it’s obvious he loves what he does so damn much. SUPPORT THIS KING.

-i have no voice. i’m so tired. all 110% worth it.

-woke up this morning and i am very sad bc i am so in love with shawn mendes

#sm #me #fiserv #shawn mendes #shawn mendes the tour #smtt #milwaukee #shawn mendes milwaukee #shawn mendes the tour milwaukee #fiserv forum

[seungstarss]

🐓🐓🐓🐓🐓 jungwon is a chicken shit little bitch 🐓🐓🐓🐓🐓 just kiss her alr i know u want to 🐓🐓🐓🐓🐓🐓 what the fuck r u waiting for 🐓🐓

IM TEAM YNWON BUT THE MORE MORSELS WE GET OF THEM THE MORE DEPRESSED I BECOME??????? bc idk if im rdy to find out what happened between them 💔 feel like they fought in their last words and then kapow friendship gone friendship OBLITERATED. i’m so sad rn 😭 THEYRE LITERALLY THE CUTEST TGT LIKE OH MY GOD HES SO CARING W HER AND DOES ALL THESE LITTLE THINGS TO KEEP HER SAFE I— &@$-)/&: MY HEART!???? THE BLANKET??? YELLING AT HER OUT OF CONCERN???? i feel like it’s kinda painful for jungwon to be around her given that he obv remembers everything so now i feel like yn is kinda lucky she doesn’t remember 💔 pls i just know he lost his shit when he woke up and saw yn sleeping in his house HONESTLY I JUST FEEL RLLY BAD FOR JUNGWON TBH BC I FEEL LIKE HE LOST SO MUCH??? LIKE YES YN CANT RMB ANYTHING BUT JUNGWON LOST HIS CLOSEST GIRL FRIEND / THE GIRL HE LIKES and his STUDENT PREZ TITLE AND PROBABLY ALL HIS FRIENDS FROM THE COUNCIL TOO :( AND HES STILL BLAMING HIMSELF FOR THE ACCIDENT like ok idk what happened but i’m sure it wasn’t entirely his fault but he’s probably just internalising everything hence why he went all emo n shit ☹️ heart been broke so many times i feel so bad for them now:((( let them be happy wtf sei why r u such a sadist 😭😭😭😭

ANYWAY U ATEEEEE U ABSOLUTLEY ATEE THIS CHAPTER recall best smau award 💪 watch me eat my own words when i read bet tho

OH EM JAY HI MAI😳😳😳🤩 gosh jungwon and his lil tsundere act like we all KNOW ITS AN ACT SO STOP!! Oh em jay, everyone is so worried about the happy moments. LEGIT EVERYTIME I POST A CUTE MOMENT PEOOLE ARE LIKE "SHIT THIS ISN'T GOOD, LEMME REMIND MYSELF THAT THIS IS AN ANGST FIC" BUT WHO SAID THEY WOULDN'T GET TGT 😌😉 WE ALL KNOW JUNGWON PANICKED A SCURRIED AROUND THE ROOM FOR 10 MINS CONTEMPLATING ON IF SHOULD WAKE YN UP OR NOT :((( BOY REALLY LIKES HER AND HE REALLY DO BE TRYNNA CONTAIN IT😭 but yes, we'll get more info soon so you can connect the dots on the accident,,,, we still have that sus Yuri bitch and jeongwoo interrogation :0

NAURR,,, I JUST LOVE ANGST ITS SO GOOD STAYQGAJAUQO but girl you're so sweet for sending me this and always supporting me 😭 I cannot explain how appreciative I am of your feedback :"(( ily

#mai ☆ #maiverie asks ♡ #mutuals ଘ(੭˃ᴗ˂)੭ #— recall 𐀔

[hoodedfigure-no99]

Started out normally, I was hanging out with funny enough, my ex and a friend I havent seen since high school.I’d woken up from a nap, and decided to go outside. When I was outside I saw these really neat storm clouds come rolling in, its at night so the light show started to look really cool, bc it was a t-storm. I run back into the house to grab my cell phone so I can take pics. I get my camera app up and I feel this heat on my shoulder, and a flash. I turn around like “wtf” and I see something falling like a meteor. Homeboy doesnt break up and hits the ground but it wasnt a meteor I guess but it sure as fuck did soemthing, I see a dirt shockwave and another shockwave after it, I started running toward the open garage, and theres this fucking blue whiteness that follows the second shockwave and it just knocks everything out. Power, everything. It nearly blinded me and I was terrified I was going to be stuck outside when it hit and boom i’d be gone or something. My friends were still there, though super confused. I came in panicked. They tried to calm me down. Wasn’t happening. I swore up and down it was an EMP attack. (Cut somewhere in here where I get a small small plate of food from a random stranger lol it was so out of nowhere) I begged for my car keys so I could go home, so I could get clothes, check on family and pets, come back with them if need be. It took convincing, but eventually my ex gave me my car keys (to be fair I couldnt find them because the house was a mess.

As I’m trying to get my shit together there was a commotion in the back yard. A lot of little dogs got loose, and for some reason it wasn’t night anymore but hey. For some reason I watched these gators straight up start terrorizing the lil pack of tiny dogs. It was sad. I watched one get taken underwater and get chomped ugh. I get into my car and for some reason I was in Las Cruces? Not sure why bc both ex and old friend live in the same town as me. I drive til I hit a mall. This is a familiar mall as I’ve dreamed about this mall A LOT, so I knew how to get from one end to the other. I found a store and ended up getting a backpack/tent combo for like 66 bucks. I put my small backpack in it, I had talked to a few people, panicked still but they didn’t seem like they had experienced what i’d seen, as their electronics and power was working. There were a lot more people rushing through the mall though as if they were trying to idk if they were running away but whatever. I’m talking to one of the cashiers who has me sit down bc i’m that upset and confused, another person who i didn't see as they were way out of my peripheral handed me a business card with some other things attached. Said to give him a call if I needed help. Said also that the card & the stuff he gave with it would help too. I look at the business card, idk what was on it now, but the other business card sized things were like random bible verses that i really cant remember now. I’m like, “oh…okay?” and idk what happened there but homie was gone. Slipped them into my pocket.

I get my stuff together and make my way out of the mall and walk my dumb ass to the Organ mts. Idk why I didnt just take my car?! I had a meltdown trying to get past the mountain, I stopped midway because my ditzy ass thought i’d legit bought the backpack tent combo and left it (woke up and realized I’d put my regular backpack in it and wore it smh), I sat on some rocks and freaked out til I woke up.

#wtf is this formatting tumblr #tried copy paste from docs #i had to write this at 4:30 this morning #tired but couldn’t go back to bed #dream #nightmare

[startwithbrooklyn]

THE GREAT ND REWATCH OF 2021 / SEPTEMBER 10-11, 2019 // the car crash

-"stop acting offended" oh god sis 😰🥶

-"lucy knew hudson family secrets in the past, tiffany knew hudson family secrets in the present. both of them are dead." and you ARE a hudson family secret, hes trying like a pretty little liar to keep it 😭

-"you suspect everyone of everything, you always have since you were little" 🤔 *professor voice* "the ad hominem is a fallacy of relevance where someone rejects or criticizes another person’s view on the basis of personal characteristics, background, physical appearance, or other features irrelevant to the argument at issue.

An ad hominem is more than just an insult. It’s an insult used as if it were an argument or evidence in support of a conclusion. Verbally attacking people proves nothing about the truth or falsity of their claims" https://thebestschools.org/magazine/15-logical-fallacies-know/#adhominem

-"if you keep suspecting the people closest to you of horrific crimes you're gonna end up alone" this quote becomes fascinating in the context of our future knowledge of nancys parentage foreshadowing "i've been alone my whole life" threatening nancy with solitude comes off weird. the price of being too perfect i suppose.* wonder about ryan's take on this as a parent. strangely i think she honestly wouldn't mind being alone (on some level anyway)

-wonder what exactly makes captain tom a "legend". he was featured so prominently in the press that a serial killer engaged w him and made him out to be a hero.

-"didnt want his mom to see" where was aces mom this ep and w the poisoner? wonder why they only chose to reveal her s2. maybe to give captain tom more of a feature?

-"he was letting us down" ...or just you?

-"you two are that kinda close" its been like 2 months since they met sis i guess that is 'close' to you

-"how are you and your family?" laura says that to ace in the recording --> s2 ironyyyyy

-love how mcginnis forces the nurse to update these random strangers at the hospital lmaooo

-i love how nancy kinda thinks shes the only one doing supernatural things like shes always surprised to find people who think its legit, even hannah gruen who takes it so straight faced and seriously, nancy always respects her but gives off a little "you might be taking this a bit too seriously" vibe imo

-bess w that unintentional save on the phone to nick lmaoooo

-rawley side eyes the fuck out of nancy as she literally breezes past him to get to mcginnis 😂

-wonder how mcginnis owes tom exactly

-mcginnis looks just as reluctant to admit he cares about ace as nancy does lmfaoo

-damn she knows him really well, all he communicates to her are fucking facial expressions (and her back lmao)

-"theyre not my friends" vs "i'd try anything to save my friend" - is ace the first one she calls a friend? like, the actual f word? 👀😳

-in sharp contrast to nick, george is ironically good at mysteries bc shes always suspicious of everyone

-"okay. dead lucy-" *everyone groans* 😂

-*breezes past carson in his own house* what a mood lmao

-wonder if adam beach supported this feature or if he thought it was disrespectful/cringe

-"there are many things you and i need to discuss" 👀😳🙈👗👑🤰😰🥺🤱😔

-so do we think ted has been corrupted by simon when bess opens that door orrrr was that just ted doing 8 year old things

-love this nick/bess bonding tho

-so carson-wolf, nancy-whale, george-turtle and ace-bear. wonder if those specific animal choices have any particulr meaning. 🐢"a turtle, cool" 😂

-carson definitely has his white "do not understand but dont wanna offend" face on 😭🙈

-when i first watched this ep i could not stop saying "nifty!" the whole time 😂🤦🏼‍♀️

-carson's like "okay ive had enough of indulging this make believe crap dont tell me somethings wrong w my very clearly wrong kid"

-"this is serious" lmfaooooo at this point nancy only appeases mcginnis' beliefs bc shes desperate for answers at any cost (ie "i can just ask tiffany what happened")

-wonder how long carson has worked on this cover story for when nancy inevitably asked (the fact that he got the most curious child in the world is so fucking painful yet funny)

-nancy like 😌👉🏻👈🏻"hey mom, my friend accidentally wandered into your world for a minute, could u help find her?" lmaoo

-"are we even dating?" its been a week baby chill lmaooooo

-lisbeth + hairstroking 💙

-okay bess nails her with this clothing/fashion analysis but everyone dismisses fashion so readily as frivolous that bess gets underestimated on sight

-15 years ago + "i made you that promise when you were six" = ace is 21

-"the moment he thought his father was going to die" i'll take carson - irony for 1200 alex

-wonder who tom was chasing before his crash

-"these boots dont belong" god damn george's big sister instinct activated on sight 😭

-wait how tf did she get that bear in her hand

-"you made a difference, right?" whens the last time someone told you that

-nick and bess are the weakest fucking links w mysteries lmfaoooo

-UNPOPULAR OPINION : "you're a cop!" nancy + cops - mcginnis and rawley fuck her over/view her sexually/as competition and let her down along with karen- but she likes lisbeth who is the opposite, suspected her from the beginning due to the previous people "betraying" her (she and the chief start this show in an odd place with zero trust bc she thinks she can do it better) but lisbeth passes the test; lisbeth is willing to bargain with them and doesnt question where they got the hudsons info. now nancy does not hesitate to call lisbeth for the murder of owen (ie the hand prints) and going after josh on the roof, even tells her the blunt truth about calling the agleaca (lisbeth is NOT woke to the supernatural btw) "use me" she does want to work with police, which she is infamous for not doing previously, because of her connection to bess? because they were men? karen didnt have enough power, or didnt take her seriously? what makes lisbeth so trustworthy? or is it only nancys desire to avenge owen? but she just didnt trust the other cops to get the job done- maybe she still doesnt, but at least she trusts lisbeth for the time as an authority figure when all others have failed. all cops (karen, chief and rawley) in nancy's trust lose her respect/secrets out but Lisbeth has to prove her worth to get in. maybe its something about engaging w women. i mean women can still fail her of course (lucy kind of, kate+reveal, karen) but in terms of feminist themes, the show capitalizes on these exchanges between women for the living and the dead: ghosts/demons who are male (ie simon) are pure evil (think "mr roper" at the asylum being in particular focus when it was the whole family who died) but something like the agleaca (of human origin) is made to be a sympathetic case/highlighting how women have suffered historically and are take revenge as ghosts, able to find power in death that they did not have in life, and circling back to nancy trying to give them previously denied justice through working with other women.

-"let me do it" 👀👀could it be? empathy? a sacrifice on behalf of someone you still wont call a friend?

-"killer boots." *struts like a badass with 'im a bitch, im a boss' playing in the background*

-okay lbr. how on earth did lucys dress come off her body in the ocean? like. is that legit??

-"it's just so not how i would handle things" SIS THIS SHIT COULD ALMOST PROVE YOU TWO ARE DNA RELATED FOR HOW YOU FUCKING HANDLE THINGS like nancy? are u on crack? lmfaooo carson absolutely came for u and he absolutely should have

-"i understand that impulse, it runs in the family" make it a true daily double, alex🙃

-"you stole evidence and sent it out of state because you believed it was the right thing to do" no, you just think you know better than everybody else tbh

-wowwwwwww i cant believe lisbeth really decked her but another half of me can i fucking love lisbeth

and lastly

-oh ted. 💔🥺

#brooklyn's ND primer #nancy drew cw #the Great Rewatch of 2021 #you best start believing in ghost stories miss drew - you're in one

[taylorunicorn13]

I ALMOST MET HER

I ALMOST MET HER Disclaimer, it's a very long story guys, it contains a lot of emotions, regret, happiness and sadness in just one post. 15th of October, 2017 One of my mutuals on twitter, changed her name to "Taylor Nation" and sent me a confidential DM (msg usually sent by Taylor Nation to all deserving swifties who got luckily invited to Taylor's secret session") I really thought it was frickin real and i even sent her my complete address and legit included "PHILIPPINES" on it. Little did i know, she was just playing around and messing with my feelings (but she is my friend tho, and i cant hate her cause she's one my fave mutuals ever) but damn guys, it really wrecked my whole damn life, i thought Taylor wants to me too 😔 i thought Taylor knows my name and how i look like. And after few hours, i was able to get my composure back and already accepted the fact that I WILL NEVER EVER MEET Taylor Alison Swift. I've been a twitter stan for a very long period of time, and always complain on how Tay put so much attention on tumblr swifties, and never appreciates twitter swifties (sorry) and since using tumblr confuses me a lot, i decided to stay on twitter and use it as my major fangirling tool lol Then lately, Taylor has been joining instagram live of some lucky swifties, so i tried my luck on IG again and made myself look like an idiot by going on IG live just to get Taylor's attention, but after 3 attempts of trying, I gave up. Then last Wednesday, 18th of October, 2017 ONE DIRECT MESSAGE ALMOST CHANGED MY WHOLE LIFE. At around 11:54AM, i got a notification again from Taylor Nation, saying "CONFIDENTIAL MESSAGE" damn babe, it's just so funny how i literally ignored it for a min bc i think someone is trying to make fun of me again, but SHIT JUST GOT REAL!!!!! GUYS!!!! I clicked on the account, and yeah, confirmed! TAYLOR NATION JUST SENT ME A DM!!!! It took a while for me to absorb everything and reply on their dm cause I was literally shaking, crying and screaming the whole frickin time bc it was frickin real and no longer a prank. I even woke all my relatives up and they thought that something bad happened to me lol and yeah it took me 4 frickin mins to send all the personal info that they need from me. And you know the drill guys, cause once Taylor Nation sends that so called "CONFIDENTIAL MESSAGE" you already know what will happen next, *internally screaming* "SECRET SESSION" babyyyyy!!!! And after getting their DM, i was so happy, it felt like I was in cloud 9! Ive never felt that genuine happiness before, added to the fact that i was also completely unstable, i wanna scream and tell the whole wide world that I am so close to meeting Taylor Swift but I cant. So i just spent the whole night and day waiting for their reply and thinking of happy memories that I am soon gonna be making with Taylor. Then Thursday morning, 19th of October 2017. My phone rings, it was a very unfamiliar yet too familiar, international number! My heart beats faster and my voice starts to tremble as I answer and say hello to the happy girl on the other line! "Heyyy Camila, ohmygod, it feels so nice to finally be able talk to you, wow" OHMYFUCKING GOD !!! THE SINCERITY AND HAPPINESS ON HER VOICE WERE SURREAL I AM TALKING TO TAYLOR NATION ON THE THE OTHER LINE She keeps on saying WOW lol so i finally said, "Hi, are you Taylor Nation? And ohhh, I'm not Camila, it's actually Cristina" (LOL GUYS, I'VE BEEN USING CAMILA'S NAME ON TWITTER FOR SO LONG, I THINK THEY THOUGHT THAT IT WAS MY PET NAME OR WHATEVER) so that's how our conversation started, she also introduced herself and i was so stupid for not remembering her name for being too hyped. All i remember was these lines "TAYLOR IS INVITING YOU TO A VERY SPECIAL AND EXCLUSIVE EVENT" "IM TELLING YOU THAT THIS IS A BIG OPPORTUNITY FOR YOU TO FINALLY MEET HER" FUCK FUCK FUCK TAYLOR WANTS TO MEET ME TAYLOR KNOWS ME TAYLOR IS NOT IGNORING ME AND ALL THIS TIME, TAYLOR HAS BEEN STALKING ME AM I DREAMING? Then, i caught myself off guard when she said "I know it will really take a long journey for you, knowing that you're from the Philippines, but are you willing to take it?" I said YES (cause bitch i love taylor so much and of course ill do anything to meet her) So i asked her, "when and where" And she said "It's actually this coming Sunday in Los Angeles, can you make it?" The happy tone of her voice was still there OKAY, GUYS IM DONE MY LIFE IS RUINED I AM A TOTAL MESS "I DONT HAVE A PASSPORT AND VISA" How can I make it in L.A in three motherfucking days? I AM SO DEVASTATED So thereeeeee, she was explaining a lot of things and the only thing i could recall was "looks like you're not going to make it" and i can hear the sudden regret and sadness in her voice. I AM SO SAD. FROM BEING IN CLOUD 9 TO GODDAMN HELL REAL QUICK But before we end our conversation, i asked her one last question. "HOW DID YOU GUYS FIND ME?" I hear her laugh on the other line before she answers me "We have our own ways, we have our eyes, and we've been monitoring you for a very long time, you're such a great fan, and we love how you show your love ans support on Tay even when she's on break and especially during her TRIAL, and i really love your account" OMG WHAT TRIAL? YOU MEAN HER CASE? SO ARE THEY REALLY STALKING ME IS TAYLOR REALLY STALKING ME DID TAYLOR ALSO HANDPICK ME? THE THOUGHT OF TAYLOR STALKING ME WITHOUT ME KNOWING SOMEHOW CHANGED EVERYTHING. SHE KNOWS MY EXISTENCE. IT MADE ME FEEL BETTER I LOVE HER SO MUCH AND IT HURTS I HATE MYSELF FOR LOSING THE BIGGEST OPPORTUNITY OF MY LIFE I AM FOREVER CARRYING THIS BURDEN Also the pictures, I've been creating in my head, of me happily spending the best time of my life with Taylor in her apartment in LA, with Meredith and Olivia, was G O N E. Like G-O-N-E. GONE in just like that. My world literally crashed after the phone convo that I had with TN, it changed my whole perspective in life and also as a swiftie, i thought that I will never ever get this chance. I even told myself that if Taylor would ever invite me to her Secret Session, i would legit do anything just to be there with her. But what the fuck did just happen? I'm almost there! I've been waiting since forever. It was already Taylor who's inviting me and I just put her down 😔 This is the worst thing that could ever happen to a huge and dedicated swiftie like me. My family and friends used to say that "your time will come" and i guess that's it. That's how it works, that's how I lost the chance. The opportunity was already there, but the timing wasn't right. Ive been keeping this sadness all alone cause i made a promise to Taylor and TN to keep it until the LA Secret Session was over. And yeah, btw to all my fellow swifties who hasn't been noticed by Tay yet, don't lose hope. And also, just a quick reminder to all international Swifties especially Filo swifties, guys don't ever say that she's being unfair for not giving chances to us, i am telling you guys, she's giving equal opportunities to all her swifties and really doing her very best to meet all of us 😊 And if your time hasnt arrived, then it's not your time yet. And to Taylor Swift, i know you can't wait to meet me too and I am sorry I could make it this time but I am never losing hope, you know how much I love you, and if today's not our day then it's not our day yet. See you soonest buddy!!!! I love you with all my heart. I lost the chance to meet her at the Secret Session but at least Taylor Alison Swift knows me and somehow that was everything. Love, Cristy/TaylorUnicorn13 Supposed to be one of the LA Reputation Secret Sessioners @taylorswift

#@taylorswift

[mousepatrol]

8.8.17

so the reason im not posting this on the correct day is because our power is out right now. I completely forgot, but our powers supposed to be out from 8pm to 3pm which is completely stupid because the sun goes down right at 8 so that’s when I would need to start using it. I mean, they could have done it at around midnight when all reasonable people are asleep, or at least ten, when people are usually done eating and theyre just hanging out. You know? Also Im using word for this so that’s why things are being autocorrected

so, my day. Trash galore, folks.

I turned off my alarm last night because I didn’t think it was doing me any good and I was getting worried that I was just making myself sleep deprived for when school starts, so I went to bed around 3 or maybe even 4 (cant even fucking remember why at this point, I didn’t have shit to do) and then I woke up at 1145. Could have been worse but also could have been a lot better. So I wasn’t that tired bc I hadn’t been woken up 120000 times and I managed to actually be awake for a while. I fucked around on the computer for an hour and then made some pasta because apparently I cant eat anything else anymore. My appetite is shit

I ate like… only half of my food before I had to get ready to leave bc my mom was having a showing of the house and that means I have to leave. So I decided I was just going to go to the gym oh but I forgot something happened while I was going downstairs to cook

I made a short textpost about this already but I ran into my mom (who was in my brothers bathroom and I therefore thought she wasn’t home) and she told me that my dad had cancelled the flight he had for when I go back to school. So basically he was going to come out with me and help me move in even though I told him I wouldn’t really need that much help this time, since I already have all of my stuff and my new place is furnished. But when I had just gotten home, he insisted, and so he booked a flight with me. Also my parents told me that my car should be low on gas when I put it in storage so it was and it turns out that’s completely wrong so he was going to help me with my car also. It needs to go to the shop too just for like oil and stuff

Um so yeah apparently hes the biggest baby ever and my mom still wanted me to apologize to him and I think I did a good job of telling her that no, I should not apologize for my tiny bad thing (telling my dad several times to be quiet in increasingly sarcastic ways, bc I was watching jeopardy and he would not stop talking and I cant hear it when hes talking bc bad ears) when he wont even apologize for calling me a piece of shit and running away upstairs and banging things around and making me scared. That’s not acceptable and even though I recognize that I could have handled it better, I think that my response of annoyance (after days upon days of him doing this same thing while I try to tell him to not) was reasonable and honestly the things I said caused no harm. I wasn’t making fun of him. I was ONLY making jokes that had to do with the clues and turning them into ways of telling him to be quiet because I cant hear. I did tell him more nicely to be quiet in the beginning though. I really did. But he just wont stop with this shit and I don’t have infinite patience, even though it’s a lot better than I used to be

Um so yeah. Ok I wrote that for the last paragraph, interesting. But I mean im not mad about him not going, its not like I wanted him there anyway and I knew it would make me very uncomfortable and he would have to get a hotel bc theres nowhere for him to sleep, but its still a bit jarring and frankly just awful that he did that instead of either telling me okay and being quiet or I don’t know, saying im gonna leave the room while you watch it then bc I cant be quiet. Either of those would have been fine but instead of thinking internally about the things he was doing, he projected stuff onto me and just called me a piece of shit. I don’t really know how you can do that as a parent. I cant help but critique him, but at least im not just insulting him. You know? Is that reasonable? Ugh. But anyway, turns out theres a 711 right next to the storage place so if my car is out of gas I can either use the tiny bit that’s left to get it over to 711 or just like get gas from there and bring it to my car. Either way it is possible. I also just need someone to pick me up from the airport but my mom said she would figure that out. So, really, im fine. It’s the circumstance that is just very upsetting, you know. Its just not something that needed to happen and now im mad/scared of him for the rest of the time im here and im just over it as hell

Ok… so I ate lunch and then got ready for the gym bc that’s where I was going. So I went and then I actually went to target first bc I was out of soap, so I got better smelling soap than the one I had last and some more conditioner bc I was also out and I got a pair of comfy shorts that are a little too small for my ass but ill make due because I need more than one pair of shorts. And those other shorts really don’t fit me, I cannot wear them out lol. Then I went to the gym bc it was arm day and that went pretty well and I did it pretty quick so it was tiring for sure. And I came back and had a nice shower and sang against me! Songs really loud because I got tickets to see them in October that Im really psyched about and I just want to listen to them more. Oh man I love laura jane grace she is just so wonderful omg I am so glad to have her in the community its wonderful

So after all of that I went downstairs to get the rest of my pasta that I had put in the fridge, and it was like 6pm and I realized I probably didn’t want to be downstairs tonight so I also got some crackers and cheese and fruits snacks and extra water because I wasn’t sure if I was going to get to eat again (I probably only ate 500 calories today im upset L). So then I went upstairs to eat and I watched the great british bake off which is really nice and I quite like it a lot. Its calming and fun. After that I did a reply because dex replied to two of my threads today so I got one out for him since I want to get that thread going, aaaand about thirty minutes after that the power went off at eight. I had seriously forgotten about that so I don’t know, I kind of just accepted my fate

Im not really sure what exactly happened there, because I felt like I was fine before (was legit browsing dildos online lmfao like I was just bored yknow) but when the power was out I got kind of upset and just… took my plush cow and sat on my bed as the sun went down and just. Stared. Catherine, bless her fucking heart, texted me after like 30 minutes out of the blue so I luckily I had her to talk to for at least a little while. I was feeling shitty before yeah now that I think about it, after my shower I was upset and felt like I was gonna cry but I didn’t and I just sent james some snaps and he said he was gonna text me but he didn’t and that’s ok I think he went to bed because he didn’t open my other snaps. Its ok. He doesn’t need to contact me every minute for me to know that he cares. I love him so much and I sent him a quick text just to tell him that because I always do that when I feel bad just because eventually he replies and it always makes me feel good.

Ok so I cried like two times between eight and nine thirty when I was just sitting there, laying on my bed and texting Catherine about when school starts. I just felt really down because I remember having to turn the lights off around ten and it doesn’t really get a lot darker than it does in the summer at eight (I mean ten during schooltime when I was younger) and I just remember not having any light and no one to talk to or text and I couldn’t read and my parents would lock my computer out at ten so I couldn’t talk to anyone and I just remember being very very lonely and feeling like no one cared about me and not being able to talk to the people that I felt like truly did care about me. So I remember doing a lot of crying in bed in the evenings when I was like 12-16 and its just really sad, you know? i would cry myself to sleep a lot and all I could do was lay there and listen to music because ive always been really bad at sleeping so it would never come at ten even if I really wanted to sleep then. It just didn’t happen. So sitting there in my bed tonight just made me feel like this little kid trapped in this room and I cant go downstairs because im scared of people being bad to me and I cant go out and in my room I have to sit in the dark and its just all very bad. I forgot about all of that. Im an adult now and I can have the lights on when I want but I guess its upsetting for me to not be in control of that

Come to think of it, its also very upsetting when people tell me to go to bed. I talked to this one girl in my rp a lot (she doesn’t talk to me that much now, she talks to another person, I don’t know why and I do feel lonelier now but I guess she wasn’t that nice to talk to anyway so im alright) and if I was up when she woke up (8hhr time difference) she would spam me messages telling me to go to bed and I already knew my schedule but she wouldn’t shut up. I don’t know, that’s just something

Also I hate hearing people say my name. it makes me flinch every time and I think someones going to scream at me. I think that’s half the reason I wanted to change my name when I was going through gender stuff. I just didn’t want to hear that name anymore. Which is sad. Because I do love it, and maybe its not so bad when im not in this house bc its just my parents voices saying my name that really bothers me

So after 930 I went downstairs and got a candle and brought it up and I did a bit of drawing but it got annoying after about half an hour. At some point my dad came to my door and said something that I didn’t understand, so I didn’t say anything and he went away. Then I read catcher in the rye for about an hour (only got through like 35 pages) and now im writing this entry on whats left of my computer battery. Im charging my phone off of this just so it has power, since it was dying, and it looks like I have at least part of an episode of skam saved onto here so I guess im just going to watch that until I fall asleep because I always fall asleep to youtube videos. Im going to have to download some movie or something onto here so that I have that to fall asleep to in case if something like this happens again. Ok I know this was long but theres a lot of good stuff in there so hopefully this will help in therapy or something later. Things are really rough mentally right now and I just want to go home, you know. Ive wanted to go home for absolutely years, though. Idk where home is. bye

#strong blogs #8.8.17

[oflgtfol]

ok i had a dream last night that like there was a ghost in my house

so the dream started off with some weird stuff with my dog. i cant remember Specific Events, it was almost like this was the Past and so i knew Of it but it wasnt currently happening. so like my dog has a pink collar irl, and in this weird backstory thing the collar had somehow disappeared, only for us to find an orange version of it somewhere in the house so we put that on

so in the Actual Current Events segment, i was home alone and my dog needed to go outside. so i took her outside as i heard my brother pulling up in the driveway. and so she did her thing and when i was on the patio i saw on the table that her pink collar was back. it had just appeared there. i was weirded out but i was like ok whatever and put it back on her. my brother came outside then and i was explaining to him what was going on

so fast forward to dinner then, my mom got home at some point, and so we were all at the dinner table. in front of the table we have this big bay window thing so there’s this ledge inside it that my mom puts a bunch of decorations on like candles and shit but theres still a small place to like, put stuff down. so we were all talking like normal (i even remember my mom asking about college stuff, like it was so mundane) when suddenly i looked at the ledge, bc i sit right in front of it its hard not to, and there was this plate with like. a sandwich on it, but the sandwich looked like only 2 slices of bread but it was cut in a triangle like a sandwich. so i was like “uhm. where did that bread come from”

now its weird bc i had another like, memory thing. it felt incredibly weird like i knew it happened but it wasnt actually in the timeline of the dream, it was just back ground knowledge within the dream. a few days ago at like 10pm i was in the kitchen getting water and i had seen the same bread in the same place but i was across the room, and i had thought it was just my dad eating something before bed. but then i had seen this large indentation grow on the bread as if something was pressing down on it, but nobody was over there. and i was in the middle of watching a minecraft video so i was just like OK! weird and i just brushed it off and went back to watching the video

BUT. then in the current timeline. i saw a similar thing happening to the bread. i was closer this time so it looked like a hand print but i still wasnt at the right angle so i got up to look and it was. a hand. in the bread. and then i remembered that weird “memory” thing and i just started getting really uneasy

i was like “oh my god its a hand. theres a ghost in the house” and i was freaking out a bit honestly. so i went to sit back down in my chair and then like. another plate of bread appeared right next to the other one. then it disappeared. literally me my mom and my brother were all freaking out and i started trying to video it. then the bread reappeared, but then it disappeared AGAIN but this time it left the plate and a small chunk of bread behind (almost like someone ate 97% of it in one shot)

there were like 30 seconds between each Occurrance so my brother was like “skip ahead!” for my video and i was like “no i dont want anyone to think i manipulated the video”

anyway so my brother just stopped caring by the end of it meanwhile i was like panicking. like theres a GHOST dude. and he didnt care, he just left to go hang out with a friend, and my mom was uneasy but not as much as me. and so i said to my mom “im terrified right now because when he’s out of the house i’m alone for a long time in the middle of the night. both you and dad are asleep so early and when he’s not around i’m all alone for a solid 2-3 hours in the middle of the night. i’m gonna be alone with a ghost at night, i’m terrified”

and like NO ONE was treating me seriously even though like IRL WITHOUT a ghost i’m still so damn uneasy at night. LIKE LEGIT i’m basically home alone for several hours at night because my parents go to sleep so fucking early. when my brother’s home from school it’s a BLESSING because i’m finally not the only one awake at fucking 10pm, the problem is that he’s often out of the house anyway so he may only come home at like midnight or 1am so i’m still Alone from 10-12 or even 9-12

anyway i woke up for school and my first thought was that like. ok my fears were valid but like, the ghost wasnt hostile? and so maybe if we had like. established communication idk. then i’d feel better about it. but like Writing Letters To The Ghost In Your House is probably a fiction thing so lmfao whatever. then i was just focused on not forgetting everything while i got ready so i could type this out lol

#my dreams #sorry no read more cause im on mobile :^(

[sapphirewolf100]

Ok so I’m just gonna... drabble on bout a weird ass bizarre dream I had the other night + an angry dream I had when I took a nap earlier today Warning: some of the stuff is either really surreal/weird or violent/disturbing

Ok so to start off... the weird dream. It was like I was at an elementary school/preschool type thing for some kids I was chaperoning over. But like... the school was at an old house I used to live in? I kept pressing to the kids like “when’s your next class, where’s your teacher’s room” etc. and they kept fuckin around n not telling me. But I eventually found out and I took em where they needed to go n shit yknow then it’s like that portion of the dream came to an abrupt halt it started another dream. ________________________ it was a different timeline. smthn was going on. like the world was all weird n creepy n shit. me n this one dude I think were sent out to look and find this one guy that was missing. and things started to get real creepy real fast. Every time I turned around and tried to peer through blankets of fog to find this guy, these... giant owl-like creatures appeared. They were like 8 feet tall and had long ass legs. They looked like barn owls or snowy owls and they just stared with giant black eyes. Legit just giant creepy owls staring at us. All of a sudden we find our dude we’ve been on the lookout for. Tryna bring him back home and then one of the fuckin owl things grabs him. We were on a wooden bridge when it happened, and the owl creature took him underwater and proceeded to drown him using a rope. shit was fucking weird. then the dude w/ me just kinda sat there devastated. I turned to him, distraught that this guy we’ve been looking for just got murdered by this owl cryptid thing. Then he turns to me and says “Hey, we’ve literally only been out here for like 30 mins and look how much time has passed” I looked at him like he was nuts, then he showed me his phone. We were in the year 2072. What the fuck. Then a girl we both knew called us on his phone and was like “Yeah guys! You just like time traveled or something! Time has been altered and you haven’t aged! you’re the exact same as you would be now!” and the year was supposed to be like 2021 or smthn but then we somehow came into 2072. shit was weird Then we eventually met back up w/ her somehow and I was going thru her phone. She had my username “sapphirewolf100″ on a list of people she considered her friend/someone she trusted and i felt so happy and audibly went ‘awwww’ then it ended. ____________ Onto the angry dream I had during a nap today. Again, this was some sort of school setting again for some weird fuckin reason. Dunno why. And it was like I was at the same old house again where the preschool portion took part in from the previous dream. It was like I was in math class working on an equation. Teacher (who strangely looked like my French teacher that I knew) came over like “hey your work is messed up a little, for some reason the number 3 is written backward” and i apologized profusely and felt embarrassed. everything was normal and completely fine except for that fucked up 3. then someone next to me started to pick on me. tried to put me on the spot and suggest i should “open up more” and take lower classes n shit like that. Teacher butted in and told them to stop, bc that wasn’t nice and they were starting to insult me, etc. I only became more embarrassed as I tried to fix my work and do other problems. I then got up and went to throw smthn away like a piece of plastic or smthn and mumbled to myself “i cant wait to go home” then it got worse. person continued to pick on me. “Ohhh you just wanna go home huh? Look at me, my name’s Neigh and I’m a stupid ugly fat bitch.” that’s when I could feel the anger stirring in me even tho I was dreaming. I knelt over to put something in a bag and I muttered “Rude bitch” then she got up. “What the fuck did you say to me?! Huh?” Teacher tried to butt in again, but it was far too late. person tried to get up out of their chair to swing at me but I beat her to it. Socked her right in the jaw. Stunned her, she couldn’t speak anymore. I continued to punch her continuously in the face. I was yelling “What?! What the fuck you wanna say to me now, huh?! HUH?! Say it to my face, bitch!” and I kept punching the living shit out of her. She was on the floor and unconscious, but I kept going and didn’t stop.  No one tried to stop me. Then it ended. I woke up with my heart pounding so hard it felt like it was going to bust out of my chest.

#neigh dream journal #shit's fucked my dudes #the pure adrenaline and feeling of rage woke me up #when im having angry dreams smthn is very wrong and it's usually an indicator that im not happy w/ life #and tbh im really not i feel so apathetic to a lotta things rn #idk what it is but it feels like pisces season drains me just sayin idk why but it tends to happen #neigh personal things