#SIIIIIGHHHH it’s so complicated because i haven’t actually lived there since 2019 but id love to but it’s probably expensive but i could

[malusienki]

is it strange i don’t consider the place i live right now home? i mean, it *is* home. but i feel more connected to chicago home than there home…?

#maybe it’s because i’ve spent so many summers at my grandparents’ or because i’ve lived there [essentially] between moves #but just.. augh… #and now that i’ve gotten older and i guess i realize WHY i love it?? er like. i have more reasoning than just “babcia house” #man. it’s so hard to explain my feelings about it so i feel awkward 😭😭😭 #idk i guess something clicked in my head this past summer #especially after just walking miles around the city itself with my dad #i was like.. wait #SIIIIIGHHHH it’s so complicated because i haven’t actually lived there since 2019 but id love to but it’s probably expensive but i could #maybe go to school there???? #AUGH! #sorry. im rambling #too much future stuff it’s too early for that