#So ive been posting less about it but that’s okay

[ibeewashere]

Fjord: I swear there’ll be buttons and shiny shit if you go into the water with us!!

Nott: Oh really!!! Wow I’ve totally changed my mind!!!! Look at this fucking bastard Jesus fucking Christ

#fjord and Nott being goofy asf 🥰 #they’re so silly #ALSO HI. #I had a little flicker in my critrole hyperfix for a bit there #So ive been posting less about it but that’s okay #back to your regularly scheduled programming #unless my autism decides it fucking hates me #which it might!!! very possible tbh #but yk #still hyperfixed on critrole #at least for now #yk they’re just. #they’re just silly little guys #critical role #btw spoiler-free space please if possible!! spoilers have ruined enough 😭😭 #critrole #nott the brave #cr nott #veth brenatto #fjord cr #fjord stone #critical role fjord

[prosebushpatch]

Alright, so, yesterday, I recorded every single POV in each chapter in The Lunar Chronicles like a normal person and that's what this blog post is about. So if you want to want the overview of me going pepe silvia over the fact that one of the love interests has less POV chapters than two side characters, boy have I got a post for you!

#rose and rambles #the lunar chronicles #marissa meyer #my dudes im losing my mind over the lunar chronicles #in the best way possible of course #its just #okay #so it's always been a huge source of inspiration for me but ive only just recently gone back to reread them #and i don't know im analyzing things no one else will probably care about BUT LISTEN #THIS SERIES IS INCREDIBLE #i think the actual blog post comes off less unhinged than i feel about it but boy oh boy #know my mind is nothing but pepe silvia #might do East next because the povs there also captivate me #East and then West? hmmmm yes #anyway happy turkey day! #hope you're all eating well and having a lovely time with family and friends

[the-kipsabian]

scrolling tumblr is so hard rn cause i see so much of the best friends stuff from the angle i dont want to (chuck should have picked trent. im just gonna say it) but i dont wanna unfollow anyone and blacklisting tags is so hard cause i wanna see chucks and ocs separately but not in this light together and also i dont know what people tag these with if anything and im just hngggggg

just makes me sad

#ive been very open to people shipping it so far but with this its just too much for me even if the posts arent shippy #dont wanna result into unfollowing and blacklisting a lot but theres just ssssoooooo much of it rn #and probably will continue to be. ough #so i guess im just gonna be here much less and at very selective moments or whatever until i maybe feel better about this #or when it blows over. who knows #anyways this week has been an absolute mess from beginning to end and im exhausted and sad and i just wanna sleep forever so #bye #tag me or send an ask if you need me i guess. i also emptied the queue earlier so theres not gonna be any posts woo #idk this just makes me tired. wrestling as a whole again makes me very tired. everything is tiring #i just dont think my place is here rn. not that it matters but yeah. i just feel mentally like absolute shit wowie #okay bye #night is an absolute mess on main

[toytulini]

i know doctor who has never been Perfect, and i love capaldi, i love twelve, but christ alive its a hard watch sometimes

#toy txt post #they just made him so egregiously and blatantly RACIST? like to the point where im like was this like? an on purpose characterization #choice that i just strongly disagree with? or like? is it a consequence of the writers trying to be less racist by including more #characters of color but failing by not checking their own implicit biases so now not only is the doctor racist but like. egregiously so bc #theres so many more opportunities for him to be racist? like just #and if youre sitting here like hes not!!! how dare you: pay attention to the difference in how he treats characters of color vs white chars #he hates soldiers. okay fine thats been fairly consistent. okay but 12 RLY hates them. he hates them so much he cant stand Claras bf Danny #who should be the doctors like ideal soldier bc he was a soldier who didnt want to be anymore and just wants to chill and do good in the #world and for ppl to be safe so hes just a nice math teacher and the doctor calls him stupid and treats him as if hes fucking rambo? but #the doctor is largely fine with: kate lethbridge stewart? hes fine with ogood who may not be a soldier in her own right but shes actively #participating in UNIT as a scientist in a way thats way more ~soldiery~ than anything Danny is doing? and like they clearly wanted that to #be a point of tension to point out the doctors hypocrisy of how the doctor is like a high ranking officer/general whatever #and like thats fine and fair to point out but it just sucks that they do all that and dont seem ti realize how fuckijg racist they wrote #him? he was fucking besties with winston goddamn churchill but he refuses whatshername. journey blue? as a companion bc #shes a soldier. well bro you could make her not a soldier by removing her from the fucking battlefield maybe instead of getting morally #outraged about it? not to mention noticing how when he goes from '900 yrs of space and time and ive never met anyone who wasnt important' #wandering around being fine with UNIT apparently declaring him dictator of earth in emergencies (HELLO?) but dont worry he'll let us know #he disapproves by picking some random UNIT guy to be a really condescending asshole to. pay no attention to the fact that this UNIT #guy happens to be another character of color. ~the 12th doctor is too faceblind you cant call him racist~ well for a guy who cant tell #humans apart from sontarans his accidentaly racism beam is off the charts. its crazy. god #god i wish he'd gotten written better than this #when they do write him good they write him good. but godddddddd its so #doctor who

[thestarofcottonland]

twice now i have had dreams that seem to span days wherein i reconnect with [man i posted about a date with licherally last year] and am more intimate with him than i ever was......i had a boyfriend for five months since we lost touch and i had a date just last week that went very nicely.....why am i being tormented ! i have never stayed hung up this long this is insane!!?!!

#i move on so fast always like okay. i can have a crush for a long time but thats willingly. ive been more or less cast aside by this fellow #and so ive actively tried to put him out of my mind i dont look at his instant gram i try to focus myself elsewhere #and yet he is in my dreams? literally for the first time like in the couple months when i was so upset about his ghosting me - #i wasnt dreaming about him then! i never dreamed about him while i had a boyfriend! why now! #part of me wants to read the science of soulmates cause this is such a unique experience for me in curious but i also know that #i shouldnt give it that kind of validity cause ill just stew on him more and get upset about it. #just dream about someone else girl for the love of gosh golly #if youve read all these tags youre so nosey i love it. im posting for you specifically love to share my love drama on here :3 #squeaks

[readymades2002]

something difficult about writing/storytelling but only in short disconnected bursts is that writing anything longform is very difficult. there isn't as much time to practice long-term character development or subtlety (implying character instead of immediately clarifying) when its not really meant to go anywhere but a notes app. its a little frustrating...i'd love to do something more longform though. i've considered maybe just doing some short writing scenes in my various original universes a lot recently mostly because i just havent had time to draw anything fancy recently </3 maybe that would be something...

#briefly talked about it with a coworker today bc i mentioned my brother makes music #and she got excited because she paints and she showed me some of her work (beautiful btw!!!) #and said she hopes he pursues music and doesnt get his heart crushed by retail like we do #we still make things but ive been thinking about it...it really is like #i feel like ive had less TIME to make things but ive also developed more interest in my own ideas #and in constructing them on their own terms. its hard to describe and even harder to share because its #not churning out fanart for a response i guess? #i dont know. i do feel more satisfied with what im planning but theres less to share #anyway i promised her i'd show her my art sometime so essentially i have to flee the country now #she does lovely work she paints pictures of pets and it seems so nice. she seems so happy with it! #its like...i love it. im a little jealous of it. i feel so much pressure to Do Something New with my art #try to craft scenes and settings (i think setting is such ann important part of storytelling but i have so much trouble drawing it!) #and try new compositions and poses and just not have everything look the same all the time #its led to a lot of work im proud of but its also hard to create under those expectations... #i wish i could find a niche and settle into it comfortably. i think fun character drawings could be that for me #but its...it frustrates me to post those because it feels like if its easy and i like doing it and how it turns out then im not trying #okay i think im done now. sorry for these rambling introspective posts lately lol im #trying to warm back up to posting so i can use this website again (despite how very very bad it is)... #i want to see my frieeeeeends <//////3 i want to be here without running away <///3

[brainrotdotorg]

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#sorry to do two of these in a row #but bro i fuckign hate having my brain #do the corny ridiculous shit that it does #im sitting here eating some heated up fries and they arent as good #and my brain deadass went #'wow... so symbolic....' #'they dont have the warmth they once held.... theyre a cold fascimile of how they used to be......' #'you truly can never go back...... it will never be the way it was before.....' #'how apt..... how appropriate.....' #GOD DAMN JUST LET ME ENJOY MY SHITTY POTATOES #THAT ARE GONNA GIVE ME THE FUCKING HICCUPS!!!! OKAY!!!!!! DAMN!!!!! #you can laugh its okay. its stupid #almost started crying because i can never catch a break from. making connections. #how did my brain get wired to be like this to fuckign. treat myself like im a character in a novel #i swear to god. i always used to daydream about my life being like. a show that my guardian angel was watching #i really hope that bitch is writing an essay about these past few weeks ive been having #she has a lot of content #babe. do you see the potato symbolism too #i hope she does it would make me feel less alone #google how do you delete a tumblr post

[arc-angel-o]

Everytime i think of something clever, especially in the twists department of this fic, the ofmd ouat au. I'm like "oh. This is how it felt to write Once Upon A Time. No wonder they got carried away sometimes."

It's also destroying my sleep schedule. It's when I'm about to fall asleep that I get these ideas

@goatyoat read the tags, too. Don't worry about the first few tangents in there

#draft: ofmd ouat au #this fic is izzy's fault but im also really excited to write more edward #so much so that it might end with steddyhands #but im not sure #i like the idea of izzy with roach or lucius in this fic #cause that was the original idea #but idk #if i did a second season maybe izzy would get a love interest then #or ive been considering changing how the curse affects izzys memories of sam #so far ive been writing it so that curse izzy doesn't remember sam and then has to grieve all over again when the curse is broken #but maybe #sam will be hidden like belle was #and izzy remembers him as dead under the curse #if i do that they'll be reunited #cause the less times i kill off sam the happier i am #maybe i should write a new post about the different sam routes and ask the bellhands tag #i gotta find out if my main ouat mutual likes ofmd #cause im tempted to ask goaty about this stuff but he doesn't know ofmd stuff #goaty if you're reading this lmk if you're okay with me talking about this au with you if i can't find someone else #ive been mainly bothering my mom about it for now poor woman #this fic is taking over my brain help #idk what im saying it's almost time for my morning alarm to ring

[magniloquent-raven]

robin?

SHE

#about the ''everyone is wrong about them but me'' #i have seen some Takes™️ about her characterization in s4 alright #and while i do think that the duffers are just. kinda bad as follow thru and consistency #robin being more talkative & awkward in s4 really isnt that hard to justify in-universe #like when we first meet her she's just steve's coworker who is starting to realize she kinda likes hanging out with him #and in s4 she's not only closer friends with steve and therefore probably more comfortable around him #which would change the way she presents herself #but having someone she can totally be herself around could very well change her overall behaviour #idk ive just seen some posts going around saying that she was so smart and cool in s3 and now she's ramble-y and weird and im like #wow. okay. #i came out of s4 being like ''hm she was very autistic coded this season. neat'' #so idk man seeing people equate her being less guarded with her being...dumbed down? #sus #like. yeah this season hasnt brought up the fact that she speaks several languages and is very gifted in that sense but #its not like it wouldve been especially relevant to anything they've done so far #her being really smart about this one thing might've been like. at the forefront of her character in s3 but #yknow. that doesnt mean Smart About Stuff is all she's allowed to be

[orcelito]

Maybe im not a true goroboy bc I've been in p5 fandom this whole time but only became a goroboy after playing royal

But ykno what that's OK bc im here now

#speculation nation #i just see stuff from b4 royal and im like damng you guys really were here the whole time #to b fair i dont think i was in the mental state to stan a character like him when i was younger #aka i was less. idk. interested in the complexities?? #goro's a character i can relate to on an intrinsic level but i dont think i was in the position to actually recognize that #self identification through the other except the Other displays very jarring truths that i was trying to run from #im older now and understand him better. With the help of royal especially. #it does make me a bit sad that i didnt appreciate him as much before. ive been here Basically since p5 was announced #since i was a fan of p3 and p4 beforehand. been sitting here too long lmao #feels like i lost all this time i couldve been appreciating him. but thats okay probably. #im here now and ive been here for uhh. well it was almost 2 years ago now that i started playing royal So #but i didnt get hit with how much royal changed things for me until the boiler room. which i played in uhh sept2020 i think #so 3 more months! will mark the anniversary lok #lol* #i really was planning a whole shukita fic & then completely scrapped the idea after falling down the akeshu rabbit hole in oct 2020 #it took 2 months of Dedicated reading and then i started writing my own. and the rest is history 😌 #this is just a ramble post but i like thinking about these things sometimes. either way im glad to be here #even if im nowhere near as active a writer as i used to be.... 😔 someday ill return. maybe.

[anti-transphobia]

Trying to use a hotline for the first time in like 5 years even though I have zero faith in such systems out of sheer desperation wish me luck

#my not so subtle way of saying 'hey shit is dire but maybe I'll be fine if these people are actually any good at what they're doing - #- but if not its winter and at the current temperature I'm guaranteed to die in less than an hour if I choose to leave the house and not - #- look back. so if you're one of the people i told to reach out to me here if needed (such as my ex) if i don't ever get back to you - #-this is why' #without making a full blown suicide note post because that's CRINGE!!! (talking about my own past behavior) #anyway maybe I'll be fine FULLY up to if these people can actually provide solutions #but no one ever has been able to so. lol. we'll see #at least it won't take too long to die if they can't. sigh. #anyway as i said Spencer if you try to reach out and see this - *shrug emoji* #update: these people are soooooo good at their jobs (sarcasm) #quick summary is they asked what i had hoped to get out of the hotline. i had said insight I didn't have. i said someone who could hear my - #situation and genuinely tell me it's going to be okay. that I'm going to be okay #something the people ive been closest to havennt been able to tell me honestly #and they said they can't. they can't say it's going to be okay #and i started bawling again #so I'm done

[quinn-pop]

for the record, mk’s favorite march sister is amy

(yes im elaborating on a silly doodle i did days ago, yes this is the most unnecessary post ever, move along)

to clarify: im looking at this through the lens of greta gerwig’s little women because in spite of having seen the 1994 version my fair share of times i could tell you almost nothing about it for some reason

i don’t think this is something he’d openly admit because of her more childish scenes. she can be loud and cruel and she burns jo’s writing and so it’s easy to dislike watching her

but she also steps up. “learns her place”. ignores what she feels because she believes she has to become something. although not thoroughly explored in the movie, i gotta imagine how absolutely lonely she must feel.

see where im going with this? i think that would really resonate with him and so her character would grow on him. he’s jealous that she can express her “worst” emotions. he’s annoyed with her pettiness because it’s unreasonable to him. these are the same things he could never allow himself to do or think or feel because he has to be something.

so seeing her change hits. because he did that too. don’t get me wrong im not saying they’re the same character or anything lol but in her he sees the heart of the child he once was and the desperate, lonely person he became.

oh also dedede likes beth because he cries every time a parent or child dies in a movie

#yes i did just write 5 paragraphs about a Nintendo character’s favorite little women character. hi im normal i promise #will i ever be normal about meta knight #okay. i know I posted the little women thing like a month ago now but i wasn’t sure if this was important enough to say #and now ive decided who cares im gonna say it anyway you can literally just ignore this it’s so unimportant why would it ever come up again #but anyway shout out to the one person who pointed out that mk never said who his favorite was #you were so close to avoiding a quinn ramble until then #i did consider clarifying it in that post but i hate saying stuff without over explaining it and the picture itself was already very wordy #it just didn’t make sense #idk why i havent rambled much about ll yet actually that’s a little shocking.. #but this is fun i might shut up less often #yeah this was originally a shitpost but #this is just what I do #im just gonna tag this with kirby headcanons and call it a day #hcs #taking things too seriously let’s go #apparently i lied and that post is only slightly over two weeks old but with how those two weeks have been for me it may as well have been #a whole month #yeah

[charonte-simi]

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#🤡 #sad boy stuff #attempting to get back on my bullshit but its been so fucking hard to restrict like i use to #hrt has made my metabolism spike and makes me fucking hungry all the time #I've less than a week till i move and up until that day i plan to stick to 18hr fasts every day. more if i can #idk that ill be able to manage cal counting like i use to. but im going to try. #look i know ive strayed from my days of being purely an ed blog so i dont post about this very often. which is good #but its still a thing and i need somewhere to post about it okay #i just feel really bad about myself physically at the moment and would like to have more body confidence once ive moved #simi speaks

[ranboolivesaysstuff]

IMPORTANT POST PLEASE READ

Im gonna be honest and open for a sec, and please do not take this as "oh I HATE my community or I dont like the people who watch me" but honestly as of late (and I did highlight this during the mcc bit), ive felt like I havent been able to really be in my own community simply because of the constant way that "discourse" is handled. Making vague posts and not really tackling issues in a good way, all that is going to do is just show people a big "THIS COMMUNITY BAD" sign and not actually help anything within the community, all its going to do is have the good and potentially good people leave or not join in the first place. The way that discourse is treated that ive seen has been the main reason why I have started to try to distance myself, which has been the most heartbreaking thing I have had to do. I want problems to be solved in a mature, civil way, with either a dm or a reply, not an entire vague thing that only says "bad things are happening" and doesnt elaborate on anything or barely elaboratesa and only gives people on both the inside and outside a bad sign of what the community is. Making posts whenever something happens being like "here we go again" is only going to highlight the wrong things, and actually DOESNT help the issue at all! The problems should be discussed directly with the people who are doing said problems FIRST! Bring attention to behaviors and things that arent good DIRECTLY! And also, YOU DO NOT HAVE TO!!! It is not your duty as a viewer or fan of me to be involved in any of this if you do not want to! Just enjoy the content and make silly posts! As someone who constantly tried to fix and get into every problem as it was happening, it took a huge toll on my mental health, and I want you guys to just be able to enjoy the content without having to worry about what you say about it! Be constructive! Dont make posts again just being like "wow this community is so bad" because that doesnt solve literally anything! If you have enough passion to make the posts saying "wow this community is bad" then only post about that, you are only spreading that negative message, and not uplifting anything of actual value! And if the person you are trying to help is not willing or not listening, BLOCK! MUTE! DONT BRING MORE ATTENTION TO THE PERSON IF THEY ARE NOT BEING A GOOD PART OF THE COMMUNITY!!!! I know I say that if I see problems I will call them out, but I shouldnt have to babysit every single time a thing happens within the community as that just isnt a healthy way for a creator or a community to be handled. This does not mean that I do not care about the issues or dont want them fixed, rather it shouldnt take me having to make some grand statement every single time something happens it should take only your own self reflection and self awareness. And to add onto this, make sure that every once in a while no matter who you are you think and have that self reflection, you should be open to being willing to learn and grow as a person! And again, I do NOT want anyone taking this as "Wow this community is terrible" but rather that we just have things that need to be fixed and changed and THAT IS OKAY! I do not hate the community, I care so much about it that I want it to be a silly place for my content again! I want it to be the reason why people get into what I do because of it again! And I want to be able to just have fun and relax without having to worry about how every single thing that I may say could have someone stirring things up that simply dont help or solve anything! Take care of yourselves. And this isnt coming from a place of "I hate the community as a whole" but rather again I want to be able to exist and make content that we can all enjoy without having to worry about walking on eggshells around me or around eachother! At the end of the day im just a fella that wants to make silly videos for you all, and you are people who enjoy said videos. Nothing more. Nothing less.