#Yesterday Don't Mean Shit

[k-i-l-l-e-r-b-e-e-6-9]

Pantera - Yesterday Don't Mean Shit

#Pantera #Ozzfest (2000) #Ozzfest #Devore California (2000.09.02) #Yesterday Don't Mean Shit #Groove metal #Groove Metal era #Lyrical themes: Metal Personal issues Life Violence Love Hate Death #USA #Phil is definitely drunk & high here but somehow it's an amazing performance.

[todayisafridaynight]

a bit late to the driving discussion but i cant even imagine the amount of road rage mine experiences everyday, i think being in a car with him would be terrifying

let me play contrarian and say the real stress of being in the same car as mine is that he probably does 80 in a 60 mph zone while talking on the phone

#snap chats #aka me 🥴 just the speeding part no one ever calls me <3 #no but LISTEN you mean to tell me he drives a sports car and doesn't rev that bitch down the highway. yes he does #there's a bunch of jackasses in my area with sports cars and they ALWAAYS have to make everyone know theyre driving one #WE GET IT YOUR PENIS IS SMALL STOP REVVING THE SHIT IN A SCHOOL ZONE #if anyone's getting road rage it's cause this motherfucker whipping and weaving. i do not believe he uses turn signals #i don't think he's a blinker user NO THAT'S ONE OF THE TESTS OF HUMANITY LOWKEY TO BE OFF TOPIC #there's putting the shopping cart back after using it and whether you use your blinkers or not #i dont think mine uses his just cause he's goin so fuckin fast so why bother #myyyyy god i was driving yesterday and the amount of jackasses that Do Not. Use Blinkers. killing you immediately #FUCK WHAT PART OF THE US JUST NEVER USES BLINKERS I FORGET. SOMEWHERE IN THE SOUTH I THINK CAUSE OFC #point is use your blinkers it helps everyone including yourself it is NOT HARD

[databent]

why the fuck is it that some people cant seem to acknowledge that people can just... be disabled. not through any fault of their own, not because something "happened" to them, just because, you know, sometimes people have disabilities. like, come on

#.pdf #rd #kd #just a warning these tags are long. like. really incredibly long. i had thoughts. #sorry for the vague ass post i'm just upset about some stupid shit my dad said yesterday. #namely: outright telling me that he doesn't believe i have non-24 (circadian rhythm disorder). #and that even if i do he doesn't believe it's possible for it to actually be a lifelong and disabling condition. #*also: this post isn't meant to imply that disabilities that did have some inciting incident are more accepted or anything. #it's just that i'm frustrated with the “you're disabled? why? what happened?” sentiment a lot of people seem to have. #nothing happened to cause my disability. i'm just like this. no i can't change it. what the fuck do you want me to tell you? #i'd guess it probably has to do with society's focus on work and productivity and career-mindedness above all else. #and when someone comes along that doesn't fit in with the way things are structured it just doesn't compute. #because the idea of people who can't dedicate their entire lives to working is so fundamentally contradictory to their view of... i don't- #-know. meaning in life? fulfillment? that they feel a need to reject the possibility altogether. #this is mainly when dealing with invisible disabilities from what i've seen. because i think there's a tendency to view visibly disabled- #-people as belonging to a different category altogether. which of course is its own issue but i'm not visibly disabled so i don't feel- #-like it's necessarily my place to speak on that. #anyway. i just want my struggles to be acknowledged as real. because they are. and i need people to understand that I Have A Disability. #albeit one many people don't even believe could be real because there's a sort of belief that circadian rhythms are purely a product of- #-external forces like sunlight so “you can't possibly have yours be different and have you tried just going outside more?” sigh. #sorry i also just remembered my dad telling me he doesn't believe i can have something so rare because the chances of having it are too low. #which is some ridiculous logic to me. rare doesn't mean it's impossible. some amount of people have to wind up with it regardless. #i just lucked out i guess. #n24 tag

[queen-mabs-revenge]

we've had a rough few days with food, but miss ma'am actually headbutted my hand out of the way while i was filling her dish this morning to get stuck in so 🤞🤞🤞🤞

#was syringe feeding her yesterday out of desperation to get the calories in #I think that may have got her appetite going? #I'm despairing at the dry food but it's about calories and weight by any means necessary so I don't give a shit rn #she's drinking water so I'm just rolling with whatever she wants #little baby mo

[sherlock-is-ace]

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#panic attacks leave me feeling like shit for the rest of the day and that seems illegal #what do you mean i go through th worst feelings ever for a number of minutes and when it ends i still feel like absolute shit #the embarrassment of being seen as you lose all control of your body and emotions #and then your brain staying foggy and shitty all day #panic attacks should be a one time thing #i hate them! #kdfhgdfg #i was researching phsychiatrist yesterday because every day it's getting harder to deal with my brain hating me #but boy oh boy are they expensive!!! mental health doctors are never covered by my health inssurance and they're one of the most expensive #types of doctors out there and you can't just go once. it's a long term thing #so i very much doubt i'll be able to afford it #specially because my stupid work is not regular so maybe i can afford like 2 sessions and then never again for like 4 months... #i hate this so fucking much #and it's sort of a vicious cycle because i can't pay for therapy because i don't have regular work #and i can't find regular work because my anxiety paralyzes me most of the time... #but it's fine... could be worse #we still can afford food and pay for services so it's fine #i just wish my entire wasn't in other people's hands you know? #the people ruining this country the people who politely say ''thanks but you're not a good fit for our team'' etc etc #angel talks #personal #please ignore this post it's actually fine. i'm fine and not in danger of doing something stupid or whatever #it's all fine i'm just venting cause as i said my brain is foggy and putting things out there helps a bit

[forestofsprites]

i've flipped my routine around these past few weeks and the result has been me absolutely and completely enamoured with the daily walk. i have become a walker. just generally going for strolls!!!

#i wanted to get back into weight training. bc i miss being fucking ripped i won't lie #but realistically i just pop my shoulder joints out and i don't need to make my arthritis worse. so that's a slow and steady sit #i have replaced it with The Daily Walk #and my god i've gotten hooked #every day i'm adding a little more to my route and my body is taking it so well i'm incredibly proud!!! #yesterday i bumped into a mouse and a salamander #i've also realized that when i'm home next week i can dye my hair blond again #OH AND I'VE bumped into redacted twice. including this morning. and i was so normal and it totally didn't brighten my day or anything #friends. friendship. making friends. and such<3 #it's nice getting some strength in my body again. somewhere #i mean i'm shit at getting my right leg to lift all the way so it keeps getting a bit . dropsy #and i know my limits!!!!! #but it's nice:] #there's a lot that can't be controlled life-wise but shit if i give my sweet autistic brain a routine peppered with #my interests??? like fucking catnip babey

[k-i-l-l-e-r-b-e-e-6-9]

Pantera - Yesterday Don't Mean Shit

#Pantera #Reinventing The Steel #Yesterday Don't Mean Shit #Release date: #March 21st #2000 #Full-length #Groove Metal #Themes: #Metal #Personal issues #Life #Violence #Love #Hate #Death #USA

[eoinmcgonigal]

it's really upsetting me so to get it off my chest i'm gonna confess that the positivity posts i saw yesterday really hurt. i didn't realise that was a thing in this fandom, and i wish it wasn't because those things inevitably leave people feeling left out and like their presence isn't worth anything to the fandom (plus readers, rebloggers and commenters are integral to fandom community but don't usually get a shoutout). i'm already struggling because of this horrible trend towards using threads in discord which renders most of the servers inaccessible to me, i feel extremely isolated and alone and unwanted, but i was doing okay muddling along churning out fic and a few silly polls and posts now and then until yesterday. the fic i posted today just made me feel so sad after i posted it. it was a lovely fic :( but like what is the point. if i'm worth so little i might as well not be here. why put the effort into making things if no one notices. i already feel so lonely it's like i'm being torn in two, posting things now and then brought me comfort but idk what i have now

#i'm in a deleting everything kinda mood #no one remembered me? oh. okay :( #fuckin hurts so much #i want to finish the johnny stuff but i feel so unbearably miserable now and i don't want to spend hogmanay like that #but i also can't bear to leave it unfinished #i wish i'd never scrolled my dash yesterday then i'd never have known about those posts #it brought me so much joy to write and share those fic #absolutely crushing to discover i don't inspire the same joy in the fandom #i was kinda impressed with having written so much i thought it was kinda cool #maybe it's just really fucking annoying idk #sorry just so lonely and upset and the places i find sanctuary are falling to pieces and i'd actually like to die now thanks #so much shit is going on irl you have no idea and i don't have a support network it's terrifying #nothing i do is worth anything #no one wants me #did u no my mother discarded all the photos that had me in them? kid me just. discarded. she took everyone else and threw me out #shit like that hurts i wish i had a new family or friends to chat to as a distraction when shit gets bad #i mean i get discord dm notifications (not server mentions) if anyone dms me but lol guess how often that happens #i get tumblr dm notifications it's been the only place i've talked to anyone for ages so shoutout to those two wonderful people #god i just. want to be included? #i tried #i failed #fuck. #maybe this is goodbye idk i had stuff to finish up/share #and a million more fics i wanted to write #i don't even know if i can face doing tomorrow's johnny fic #i wanted to do the 12 days of christmas too :( #but the fact now exists that i just... wasn't good enough for this fandom :'( #also i can't face the notifications tab #if it's not a Direct Message i won't see it #god there was SO MUCH i wanted to share! there were gifs i was gonna make to share the suffering and gift fic and silly posts

[twilightarcade]

I loooove when people respond to you being mad by being mean to you. Like yeah thanks that's really improving my mood

#wordstag #IM NOT EVEN DOING SHIT TO THEM I AM DOING THE BARE MINIMUM TO MAKE THIS A FUNCTIONAL INTERACTION #I am not yelling at you. I'm not saying anything mean to you. Why do you keep bothering me about being mad #THEN THEY KEEP GETTING ALL OFFENDED !!!!! LIKE YOURE GOING TO POINT OUT HOW I SEEM TO WANT TO BE LEFT ALONE #THEN MAKE IT ABOUT YOU. OUHHH WHY DONT I WANT TO BE WITH YOU? WHY AM I GIVING YOU THE COLD SHOULDER ? ☹️ #like. Cod. Maybe stop being mean to me and I'll want to be with you again. But it's literally not ABOUT you #but for real I announced my intention on making a cake because like. I do that for fun. It brings me joy. Gives me stuff to do #and they would NOT stop bullying me over it yesterdat for some reason ????????? #because I was supposed to make it yesterday. Then didn't. And it turned into a game of #'Ohhhhh I wonder when Neptune's gonna make the cake ☹️☹️☹️ when are you gonna make the cake neptune? ☹️☹️ #you know I would have cake right now if neptune had made the cake but she didn't isn't she so terrible and lazy ☹️☹️☹️☹️' #like bro. You're lucky I like baking and cant eat a whole cake myself or I would personally ensure that you never saw a cake again. #vent #I guess. Hate to put a personal post in a commonly used tag but don't have a vent tag over here because I DONT !!!! #like cod whatever. I think we just need to sit in the dark for an hour or whatever. #eat some grapes.

[francisforever2014]

nyt games opinions:

wordle stupid asf today hello??????

connections my beloved . we practice lateral thinking in this bitch!! except for the purple row bc it's always dumb as helllllll like wym "words that are animal sounds spelled backwards with a syllable taken out" -_-

strands is my new best friend/enemy . kinda fun but sometimes incredibly stupid . two days ago the theme was romeo and juliet and one of the words was balcony??? like ok.

the mini <3 so easy but it makes me feel smart

#AND DON'T GET ME STARTED ON YESTERDAYS STRANDS. #'lock step' to mean haircare is the dumbest shit i've ever heard #it was easy but like the themes are so dumb plsssss #i just treat it like a normal word search <3 #edit: strands today was fine .

[jinhyun]

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#no but what is it with people that feel entitled to have you do your job for them for free #like this dude that mind you is not even my friend has called me ten times since yesterday #there was this unknown number texting me on wsp saying hello and then wouldn't stop calling me throughout the day so i just ignored it #and then at night my cousin texted me saying that x person was trying to contact me and said i wouldn't answer #and i was like what do they want #and she was like 'legal advice' LIKE ?????? #i'm IN THE PROCESS of becoming a lawyer i'm not even one yet meaning i can't act like one and get paid for it #and sure i do help my friends and family with legal stuff for free bc i love them but like. people who aren't close to me i don't really #have to??? #it takes actual time out of my day to help them out #and to have this guy who just called me AGAIN today and now texted me like 20 minutes ago telling me to pick up my phone i mean??????? #idk what you need but either be willing to pay me or get an actual lawyer my dude i'm not obliged to do shit for you #i mean if he just texted me it'd be /fine/ ig but it's the fact that he's demanding to talk on the phone with me when i have anxiety and #hate talking on the phone #like just tell me what you want and go. i'll see whether i can help you out or not but just stop spamming meeeeeeee #i'm deleting this later i just needed to let it out JDÑSJDÑS i don't even wanna check my phone anymore lmao

[grahamdollton]

#my peculiar wife #i'm not rewatching speaking of sex atm i just found this in the vaults (my screenshot folder) #then again i might rewatch it today because i feel like shit and seeing him in such a..... state..... might improve matters #at least yesterday wasn't a total bust #and by that i mean i actually had a decent day yesterday which i haven't been able to say in ages #i left my cave and went to an estate sale where an incredibly attractive middle aged gentleman with silver hair let me have #these two big wooden roll top boxes full of cassettes (many of which are sealed blanks!) for five bucks..... #i haven't gone through them thoroughly yet but it looks like there's a lot of early appalachian gospel #can't go wrong there......... #the man kept calling me sir #sometimes it baffles me that i “”“pass”“” these days because my hair is so damn long and i keep my face clean shaven #so that's nice #with how depressed i've been sometimes i hate to acknowledge when i have a decent day or even a decent moment #because i almost superstitiously feel it will act as a magnet for my depression to swoop in and feed on it #and out of that fear my depression has developed this sort of..... personified stubbornness #where i both consciously and unconsciously avoid what might allow for an opening for “decent moments”.. pleasure.. joy.. whatever might #might grant me relief from pain even just for a moment etc #i don't know what i'm trying to describe here all i know is i feel trying to announce or acknowledge any sort of happiness i experience #feels like i'm directly endangering it #my brain is too scattered right now to try to articulate anything and i don't know why i'm doing so in the tags of a photo of #my peculiar wife james spader #just trying to exist again and not let myself be a hermit to the extent of harold smith which is very much the path i've been on for a long #long time #and i'm chipping away at that nonexistence in strange ways but chipping away nonetheless.......

[officialkendallroy]

instead of actually doing something i will rot away the entire day in my bed thinking about the thing i wanna do and then be upset because i didn't do it and just wasted another day

#the entire day yesterday i thought about how badly i wanna go swimming somewhere #but the fact that swimming means having your body exposed and people fucking hate fat people didn't make me do it #bc i would be alone and whenever i do stuff like that alone they fatshame the shit out of me #and i dont have anyone to hit and ask to go swimming with me bc i don't have friends lol #so im stuck in this cycle of loneliness and boredom that makes me want to actually kill myself like no joke #today i will think again about the fact that i want to go swimming

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

i have classes again! (i do not know if this is good or not yet) so i will not be able to draw as often. that or i will be drawing extra as a way to procrastinate working on assignments

#ughhhhh i hate transitioning from no classes to classes again this shit sucks #i love being in class but it takes a while before my brain can get used to being in school mode #i wish they just never gave me breaks i would like that a whole lot better #i'm also having a crisis thinking about changing my major #but idk if that's because i actually want to or if i'm just v uncomfortable rn at the thought of having to learn how to be in school again #at the very least i get to go to class looking great today #yesterday i got my hair dyed so now it's neon red orange and yellow #someone told me i look like someone was making their first OC and they had fire powers #another told me i looked like sunset shimmer from mlp #at the very least i look rad as hell and it will make up for whatever horrible thing i end up doing wrong today #i really should've tried to take a class with a prof i'm familiar with but nooooo i waited too long to choose classes #and now i'm stuck with people i don't know who are going to say words to me when all i want is to not say a single word all day long #also i had to wake up at 5:30 today and will probably have to again bc i don't drive so i carpool and they have to work early as fuck #and now i'm on campus and also locked out of the buildings because i can't get the ID scanner to work and the buildings don't unlock yet #at least the feral cats keep me company in these trying times #and waking up early means that i'm just tired enough to not give a fuck anymore so at least i'm not sobbing on the floor (yet) #i'll probably try to save that for after classes end #though i'm feeling strangely okay today which i think might just be the grace period between transitions where i get to act like a human #before i freak out later #or maybe i just missed being in class enough to beat the bad vibes out of me? (probably not but i can hope) #i'm just saying words at this point but that's okay #i'm sure i'm interesting enough for everyone to love hearing about my morning #in which case i want everyone to know that i got the stupidest jacket from the thrift store a while back #and i am rocking it rn #every day i get up and get dressed i look in the mirror and see someone who would fit in better as an art student #but art doesn't make you money and i've lived in poverty too long to go with that #but if i'm stuffed somewhere where i have to have natural hair color and boring clothes at an office job i will probably go batshit tbh #the goal is to be so valuable in whatever field i choose that i get to do whatever i please #like L #anyway i have said so many words

[misfortunegirl]

obligatory photo to sum my feelings up

#youll be bawling out your eyes in front if people who promised to treat you better and theyll just look at you like your а piece of fucking #chewed gum they found under the desk #people never change!!!!!! never!!!!!! #they don't change #they just learn to hide the shitty parts of themselves!!!! #then im the one whos at fault because i got upset and showed “”“”weakness“”“” #fuck you. #anyways. back to texting cute nerd. (⁠~⁠‾⁠▿⁠‾⁠)⁠~ #yesterday maybe??? or so i bumped into him accidentally and ended up brushing my hands over his again.. accidentally while apologizing #i got so flustered girl. i need this shit #i need to feel the excitement of pursuing someone new and them actually showing interest #also he has nice hands. #and soft skin for like the 0.2 seconds i touched his skin #anyways gurlies heres to hopinh hell answer soon. i need that dopamine rush only flirting with guys gives me #what do you mean thats not a good coping mechanism i have B (ig) P(ussy) D(isorder) #its just a part of my charm. i can work it. hell its the only fucking thing i can do #also i was bawling my eyes out at the GYM🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️ #everyone was looking at me like im a fucking insane bitch<- is a fucking insane bitch but not because i was crying #also why do i look so that good when i cry. lana del rey said it. cuz im pretty when i cry #not That good but Damn good. fuck LET ME EDIT TAGS #/⁠╲⁠/⁠\⁠╭⁠(⁠•⁠‿⁠•⁠)⁠╮⁠/⁠\⁠╱⁠\

[k-i-l-l-e-r-b-e-e-6-9]

Pantera – Yesterday Don't Mean Shit

#Pantera #Reinventing the Steel #Yesterday Don't Mean Shit #Released: Mar 14 2000 Genre: Rock #Full-length #Edit #Genre: Groove metal #Release date: March 21st 2000 #Themes: Metal Personal issues Life Violence Love Hate Death #USA