#aUghj. anyway

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everytime i’m faced with wild overt misogyny that’s just platformed like it’s nothing i remind myself that people don’t actually have to feel this way about women. men are fully capable of treating women like human beings and viewing them as such. “but socialization but male fantasies but patriatchy speaks through us even when we don’t recognize it” sure but actually regardless there exist men who are fundamentally not raging misogynists and they generally seem happier and better adjusted. misogyny to me isn’t disappointing because “oh i can’t believe Men, as an essentialized category of person, are like this” it’s disappointing because people make the choice to be like this. “it’s my biological imperative as a man to dominate you” okay well it’s my biological imperative as a freaky bitch to dominate you so what now. what biological imperative is making you comment “onlyfans detected opinion rejected” on every picture of any attractive woman. i think i will always be understood by most people as a woman and i’m learning to accept that and trying to like it but misogyny makes me feel very trapped of course. but misogyny is a choice. which means some people make the choice to be misogynistic which is profoundly frustrating. but many other people choose not to be actively misogynistic and i believe anyone could choose not to be actively misogynistic if they wanted. so it’s a whole thing

#lotte.txt #womanhood is a fun thing to participate in with women who do not hate women. otherwise it’s very stifling and starts to not be worth it 4 me #for other girls — cis and trans btw — i think relishing in womanhood still feels worth it even when it’s very difficult and i admire that #but apart from my fashion sense and bloodlust i feel very detached from womanhood as like this primal animate Essence #but i don’t really want to be a man either. i like being a Weird Girl i like being a Hot Weird Girl #i’m more of a Hot Weird Girl than a Hot Weird Boy and i’ve discovered that through trial and error #and calling myself nonbinary/fluid accurately describes my experience in a lot of ways. but i also sometimes feel like the label doesn’t.. #serve me? if that makes sense #like i got really into kibbe in 2020 and it was like oh shit i’m a soft dramatic. how cool that there’s something that describes my body #but after a while i got exhausted with kibbe because yeah. by the logic of the system of course i’m a soft dramatic #and i operate with that knowledge in the back of my mind. but also so what. i am aware of the shape of my body now #and now i feel the label has very little left to offer me #like if you’re asking? sure i’m a kibbe soft dramatic. but i don’t hold kibbe’s system as law or view it as crucially important #that is very much how i feel rn about calling myself nonbinary #like if you want me to think about it? yeah i don’t strictly conform to the gender binary #but i don’t believe gender itself is useful for my growth - i don’t hold the institution of the gender binary sacred - why bother #why draw attention to where i exist within the system when i’m tired of defining myself in terms of the system at all. yk #aUghj. anyway

[welcometogrouchland]

Remember when people would make gifsets and analysis posts and stuff about the meanings behind characters names, and find a interpretation that- regardless of whether or not it was intentional- added like another layer to the characters story??? That shit was amazing I miss it

#ramblings of a lunatic #ppl probably still do it in all fairness but I've only seen it in cases where the name is very relevant/the significance is clear #i got caught up thinking about how damian wayne's name (when u use his moms name as his surname) means ''tamer of demons'' #and how that ties into his arc and i. aughj. kills #but i also have been thinking about Dick and Steph (i was reading batgirl 2009) and i realized their names have similar meanings? #like richard means strong in rule or something to that effect #obviously has to do with the english king richard and this connection is referenced in Nightwing 2016 issues 16-20 #but STEPHANIE comes from the greek stephanos which apparently means ''crown'' #and then you draw the elaborate web of connections between Steph and Dick's characters and all their similarities and differences #and i become evil <3 #i also have Feelings and Thoughts about a possible intention behind cass' name. visa vie the Cassandra of greek myth #but consider: it is very late and i should sleep #anyway shoutout to toh also the name game on that show was EXCELLENT almost every name had significance to it #but not so much it became distracting y'know? good concept good execution we love to see it!

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Anyway. Evil 2day

#AUGHJ #ok. anyway. #vent #blurry

[bidinonsense]

For some reason all I can think of is Purple imitating Stick!Alan by taking his glasses and putting them on

Just

Imagine this

Purple: "Can I borrow that?"

Alan: "my wh–"

Purple takes his glasses anyway and puts them on*

Purple: "Thanks"

*0.2 seconds later*

Mango, in the distance: "ALAN WHY ARE YOU SLICING ONIONS WITH ONE OF MY STAFFS"

Oh and yes I will be bothering you on occasion *cackles evilly but chokes and coughs midway* aUGhJ

Hmm.. it's really good idea about new art)))))

[maricarrot]

YOUR TBHK REVERSED AU IS??????? I WANT TO EAT YOUR ART AND THE LORE ABOUT IT IM SCREAMING IT IS SOOOOOOO😫😫😫😫😫😫😫😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 ESPECIALLY THE ONE WITH AKANE BEING A TRAITOR(?) AND CRUMPLING THAT MISSING PAPER OR SUMIRE BEING AOI’S DESCENDANT HELP PLEASE TALK MORE ABOUT IT

I’M SO GLAD YOU LIKE IT!!! IT MAKES ME SO HAPPY AAAHHjdkdm

I’m not very good at explaining things as much as I am with visually showing it (not very good at it either), but I will do my best!!!

First off, about Aoi and Sumire, in the actual story they are similar and the thing about how, even if it isn’t confirmed as of right now, Sumire may be related to Aoi. It was more of a spontaneous decision more than carefully planned, but the more I thought about it, it would help in showing a couple of things regarding the Akane family and/or the world as a whole.

In this au, Aoi and Sumire’s roles have switched. At least, the time they are alive have been switched. Aoi was set to be a sacrifice for God, while Sumire lives as a student going to the same school as Hanako and Mitsuba. There was the issue of how Aoi would actually be able to go to the Near Shore, since we’ve seen where the kannagi go when they are sacrificed, and Sumire was the yoshiro of No. 6 so she didn’t have the same fate as the others. But as Sumire had grown spiteful of the townspeople when she was growing up, there would be a chance that Aoi would probably feel the same way if she were in Sumire’s place.

For Aoi to be able to meet Sumire or even Nene, she can’t die from actually being sacrificed. It was a stupid idea but it made the most sense to me at time, but why not have Aoi be so spiteful that she decided, “you know what? I think I’m gonna go out with a bang” and make a huge scene before she died. Because of that, she didn’t actually die being sacrificed, but during the commotion. Years later, she’d meet Nene, Akane, and others like Sumire.

I think they’d meet in the school garden or something while Aoi is looking for Nene, I don’t know

As for Akane, in the beginning, I actually didn’t know what to do for his backstory or what I should do with his look, but now I have it and it is a mystery!!!!

Not actually, but Akane’s backstory is more of something I still don’t have all laid out, but I do know what the general idea of it is. I can’t really think of a reason why he’s one of the few who actually grew up despite being a supernatural, but it plays into him going around crumpling papers of dated missing posters. As for Teru calling Akane a traitor, it’s more like Teru is calling out how he literally left to go hang out with humans and “pretend” to be one, like he’s not doing the same thing. It’s totally different because he has a mission, apparently.

AUGHJ THIS IS A VERH LONG EXPLANATION I’M SORRY

I feel like I went off topic trying to explain Aoi and Sumire’s whole thing, and it took a whole for me to even begin typing out what was on my mind

I’m more used to trying to give hints in details in art or whatever but I’m not very good at it at oof

But ANYWAYS I hope that this was at least a little bit helpful, I tried to make it all coherent because I was explaining this verbally it’d be a total mess

#reversed!tbhk #yeyeeyyeyeeyyeyeyeeye