#adhd stuggles

[cathalbravecog]

#another warm up turned full piece #whatever #i have adhd .. ! #(CURRENTLY STUGGLING) (HAD OTHER STUFF I REALLY WANTED TO DO) (HASNT DONE SO IN DAYS) (PUTTING TOO MUCH PRESSURE ON MYSELF) #(WHILE DOING NOTHING) (I FEEL LIKE OTHER PPL WILL EXPLODE ME FOR THIS) (IS LITERALLY FINE) (AUUUUGHH) #oh well . habe a fint i had a wacky day so fint fint it IS #toontown #toontown corporate clash #bright colors #eyestrain #firestarter #guz art

[normalbirb]

honestly, as the one labeled as the stupid kid growing up, its a bit insulting watching the gifted kids complain over how worthless they feel for not being labeled as gifted anymore. im not gatekeeping trauma cus i understand your situation comes with it too, but its not the end of the world if you arent gifted. i should know, i never was.

#my school basically hired someone to prove i didnt have dyslexia so that they didnt have to help me #years later and i find out i have severe dyslexia memory issues adhd and autism #but by then it was already too late #today i know im not stupid i just have learning disbilities that make shit harder for me #but it was hard gowing up not understanding why i stuggled so much more than my classmates #and being treated like i was just less bcs my grades were garbage

[gardengobbo]

April 30th 2024

Not much of a garden update here, but I assure you there has actually been some progress. So here's a photo of one of my dove frens I took one the 28th.

Keep readin' if you wanna hear me blab on about the video posts and ADHD. You've been warned, it's long 😂

So I've been enjoying doing the video-style posts instead of typing 90 paragraphs of nonsense, but I don't want to keep recording with my phone since the videos take up a bunch of space. (As well as me having to take off my dirt-coated gardening gloves every time I want to record.) I could just delete the clips after editing into one video, or just all of them after uploading, but I prefer having things backed up instead of just uploaded online.

I know I could back them up to my computer too, but part of the reason I enjoy the quick clips of nonsense slapped together with minimal editing is because it's simple and I can do it all on my phone. Either plugging it into my computer or even uploading them to Google Drive on my phone then downloading them onto the computer adds extra steps.

Extra steps that seem inconsequential, but something I know about myself is I'm very all or nothing. It's very hard for me to only do half of a thing. In this example that'd be editing the videos together and then hitting the block that I've finished that part and uploaded, but now I need to plug in my phone to the computer to transfer the video files. Or if I back them up to drive, it only has so much space before it yells at me to upgrade lol

Drive seems like the most logical option though as it would give me the freedom to at least have more time before I have to download the backups, however I know for a fact that when that point comes I won't record any more videos even if I want to because I need the space to back them up, but I dont want to sit down on the computer to download the Drive backups because I'm doing other things and will get distracted if I do.

This is a struggle for me in a lot of aspects, can't do Z because I need to do X but I can't do X until I do Y, and I need to finish ABC before I can do Y, but all I really want to finish is Z. And worse is that most times to do Z, there isn't any need for the other stuff. It's just me wanting Z done in a certain way that to do it that certain way, it requires all those other steps. This happens in the garden a lot too, so this rant is kinda still relevant 😅

Thankfully all of that hasn't caused an issue with me just not doing garden things because I want to record it, because trust me when I say that's happened a lot in the past too. (That being me wanting to make a little video of something but not being able to figure out how I want to set up the cameras so I don't do the craft or whatever because I want to record it so it just never happens but sticks in my brain as the thing I want to do but can't till I figure the recording process out.) Depression is the reason why I haven't been gardening 🤣

All this to say I have like, 2 days worth of clips I want to edit into a post to show the progress so far. One day is clips on my phone, the other I recorded with a little action camera and I'm not sure how that's turned out yet since that requires me to upload to the computer to see better. (See computer related snag above as to why thats not done!) Today I might go even further and just bring out my small digital camera I got years ago to do vlogs with, that I never vlogged with.

Which leads me to my last point, and Ima make a poll for thoughts on the idea after this post cause I know this is a lot to read and most folks won't care, and that's fine! I think maybe I will use that camera for vlogging finally. I'd have to learn how to use an actual video editing software, and it'd have to be lightweight cause my once-top-of-the-line-parts-now-10-years-outofdate computer struggles hard to play Helldivers 2 right now, I can't imagine trying to run something like Premier Pro. But to be honest all I want to do is add auto-captions like Ive already done previously so I'm sure I can fine some free or cheap program to do so. I'm just not sure if like, amateur gardening vlog style videos where I mutter to myself as I pour dirt is really a genre of content lmfao. And if it is, it's probs better off on here or tiktok but I'm going insane trying to not film landscape everytime I go to record something.

So like, I dunno, I guess youtube? I can probs figure out how to sorta make it acceptable for portrait orientation viewing after the fact? I have no idea but if there's a gap in video updates for today, that's why 🤣

Alright that's all for now. I gotta get up, get sunscreen'd, and get out there! As long as it's not raining still... it was last night 😅

#not really a gardening post #but theres a birb! #and me rambling about my stuggles with adhd and junk #a blog update of sorts i guess

[indig0trolls]

If i can just get through two more..... two more...

#cheesecake is calling. #there are few things worse for the adhd than trying to force yourself to do something you're stuggling #struggling with* #newt ooc

[eldritch-araneae]

You know, I'm always surprised when ppl talk about any long living aliens and imagining how centuries and thousands of years would be a blink for them. There are two things that always confuse me.

I imagine if you always had a good grip on the passage of time, it won't really change for you. The only thing would be different, that you won't have to rush thing, bc technically you have a LOT of time in the world to achieve your dreams.

Ppl often think it's specifically about characters who lived very long. But the things is - some human do it too. For example: you have ADHD. For me, time concepts often are so abstract and untouchable I legit don't feel it at all. It can be 5 minutes, it can be an hour - it's all the same. For me, it feels like standing still, only day/night cycle indicating it. But the feeling also constantly shifts.

#ara talks #ara's random thoughts #like something that happened few days goe might feel like it was a month ago #or remember something and suddenly realise that 10 years had passed while feeling it was yesterday #or completely lose days and even a week #like time for me is so wacky and i stuggle to keep track of it a lot #which i fuess why i get confused by this idea above #even tho im not really human i know a lot of real humans with adhd has sinilar thing

[secretkeeper007]

I am the queen of taking so long to decide what to eat that by the time I've made a decision i don't have enough energy to cook

#adhd #the stuggle is real #food tw

[whatthefoucault]

Do I Have A Crush or Are They Just Gender: an Autobiography

#queer stuggles #i mean my gender is adhd so #maybe also adhd struggles

[zerogravityinq]

I have another cover but then I don't like it so I am going to fix it (and completely invalidate the video I made of the process ffs) and work on some other fict covers and watch solo leveling (!!!!!!) And some other stuff I am working on. I am like several feet in multiple rabbit holes and I am only 5ft6 so send help

#if i dont have adhd in some capacity #then modern science has failed me #inq stuggles: first world problems edition

[littledragondork]

Shout out to me reblogging the same post twice within a 20 minute time frame because I forgot I had already reblogged it

#my adhd ass is stuggling

[bellewannabe]

Fuuuuuccccckkkk

#seriously i am so fucking pissed. #my parents get mad that i leave things downstairs qnd my room is a mess #i say yes because i need furniture that lets me organize things better so i can actually put things away/find things #they dont want to help me get said furniture but still get mad that i dont put things in my room. #fucking handed me all of my important fucking meds in a random shopping bag like everything else i bring into my room and havent put away. #causing me to stop taking all of my fucking meds because they are not visable #causing my adhd to act up and stuggle a ton #now i need to find some fucking anxiety meds until i can get in contact with my fuckign doctor and i cant find them #i am so fucking pissed why in gods name would you give someone something and tell them to put it away while they are doing something #let alone somwone with adhd and a room that is a mess #i am so pissed i cant fucking see straught

[bravepony]

Mental Health Failboat

Undiagnosed something. Being bored, or not having anything productive (and active) to do when not at work for 10hrs, gives me so much anxiety I get to the point of feeling ill. Like, initially being bored is just painful. But I can deal for a day. A three-day weekend is a horror. By day two I’m a wreck that can’t sit still, has run out of doom-scrolling, can’t watch a show, can’t play a video game for more than five minutes, and am crawling out of my skin. I’ve previously been diagnosed with anxiety/depression as a child, more so depression as a young adult, but this is...new. Lots of stress with new job, new city, not helping. How do people be bored. And relax.

#mental health #real life #the stuggle is real #adhd? #anxiety #lack of mental healthcare #fuuuuck this sucks #Boredom

[box-dwelling]

While I enjoy headcanons of characters stating they're a certain form of neurodivergant, it really frustrates me when in fics the voice of said character is replaced by a kind of generic said disorder voice rather than maintaining the original characters voice. It's neither a big deal but it's a big pet peeve

I see this the most with AA stuff but it really bugs me when for example Edgeworth just becomes generic autistic voice and Phoenix becomes generic ADHD voice. Especially because I have both and headcanon them both as such. Because it's not needed. Edgeworth's canon narrative voice is autistic as fuck. It's just not a stereotype. He struggles to read people, he misses social cues, he can't express himself well, he relays anything he can back to his hyperfixation. He's also grumpy and funny and witty and intimidating and smart and understands social ques only if theyre incredibly formal and archaic and none of that takes away from him being autistic. It upsets me when that gets flattened.

Phoenix's canon voice is also adhd as hell. He's constantly thinking on his feet. He doesn't think ahead. He's impulsive. His mind runs way too quickly for him. He feels things in a very big way. But he also won't discuss his feeling unless there's a knife at his throat.

It's that old adage that if you meet one neurodivergant person you've met one neurodivergant person. These characters have neurodivergant traits but it's not the entirety of their character.

Honestly my tip for writing them as those things is just write their canon voice and those traits will come out. You can give more explicit references. Maybe Edgeworth gets uncomfortable with a texture. Maybe he stuggles to have his routine broken. Maybe Phoenix talks about taking meds.

#ace attorney #phoenix wright #miles edgeworth #wrightworth #narumitsu

[fr0gc4t]

a ramble/confession, and some non-dualism tips

if u seem to already consciously know that ur god AND also think in limiting beliefs, ur not alone. i do it too. it’s way more common than u think.

sometimes we understand a concept and think it’s true, but our egos don’t think in the way that would actually comply with that concept, and that stops us from fully shifting into belief and freeing ourselves from ego. “belief” and “knowing” aren’t always the same thing.

prime example: YOU knowing that ur “desires” r already urs, and then ur ego switching the process completely and being like “so where is it?”. we all know that happens to a lot of ppl in the loa/non-dualism community. the ego is tricky bc its nature is to try and intimidate us. then we slip back into ego-based thinking. happened to me, and is still happening atm. and also i wanna remind ppl that, like healing, awakening to ur true self is often not linear. and that’s totally ok as long as u don’t give up. i was pretty much almost fully realized but then i let my ego get to me again and since then i’ve been trying to get back into that state but just haven’t succeeded at changing my thoughts/improving my self-concept (adhd is making it very difficult).

look. ik it’s kinda weird to have someone post a ramble abt FALTERING at living non-dualism. most of the time, we talk abt the opposite to remind ourselves if our power. but i think it’s important to be open and vulnerable when ur struggling, especially when other ppl could learn from ur struggle.

like i said. not getting i right the first time is OK AND NORMAL. ik ppl say “changing ur self-concept is effortless” but LET’S BE REAL FOR A SEC: that’s not true for everyone, especially neurodivergent/mentally ill ppl, and ppl with intrusive thoughts (i’m all of those, btw), bc our egos r EXTRA spicy.

awakening to ur true self as the god of ur reality is healing, and healing is HARD. in this case, since whatever we are aware of is true, it doesn’t rly have to be, but when u have inner demons, MY GOODNESS IS THIS SHIT DIFFICULT (but still sooo worth it, i promise u).

so good for u if it’s not difficult. really, i’m happy for u. i just also want to bring to light my situation, which is: hearing ppl say “changing ur self-concept is effortless!!” just made it harder to change mine.

I AM NOT TRYING TO SAY ANYONE IS SAYING THESE THINGS MALICIOUSLY. I’M LITERALLY SO HAPPY AND PROUD OF U OMG. i just think that the non-dualism community should be a little more vulnerable, bc FAILING IS NORMAL WHEN TRYING TO CHANGE UR MINDSET, ESPECIALLY FOR PPL LEARNING HOW TO MANAGE NEURODIVERGENCE, MENTALL ILLNESS, TRAUMA, INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS, DEPRESSION, ANXIETY ETC.

AND THAT IS TOTALLY OKAY!!!

i see ppl say things like “i don’t want any limiting beliefs near this page!!!” when limiting beliefs and learning to overcome them r a normal part of this process and should not be shunned, and should rather be met with compassion and understanding. AND SOME PPL DO MEET IT WITH THAT!!! but there r also many who don’t. i understand not wanting to hear ppl’s limiting beliefs in some situations, but not being open to hearing them at all just creates more stigma around being vulnerable abt faltering in this journey and needing some further encouragement or advice. positivity is only good until it becomes toxic positivity. (AGAIN, NOT POINTING FINGERS AT ANY ONE PERSON. I’M TALKING ABT ALL OF US, INCLUDING ME)

my adhd makes it so hard to stick to a new habit long enough to get used to it. and as a result, i have faltered a bit. okay, maybe a little more than a bit. AND THAT IS OKAY. THAT IS NORMAL. THAT IS SOMETHING WE NEED TO TALK ABT MORE.

maybe these stuggles r an “illusion,” but that doesn’t mean we should pretend like we don’t have them. we don’t always have to put on a happy face and go onto tumblr and vaunt to try and fight the intrusive thoughts. if u know anything abt the psychology of intrusive thoughts, FIGHTING THEM DOES NO GOOD. we should accept them and let them be there, knowing that THEY CAN’T HURT US.

even then, they might stress us out. and that’s when we might need to vent. and venting is NOT a bad thing. sometimes it’s the only way i can cool off. but instead of venting into ppl’s inboxes, we should make our own posts, like this one, in constructive language (i suggest writing the angry/anxious stuff first in ur notes, then, when ur calm, rewriting it in a constructive sense and posting it on tumblr). we need more openness to sharing our struggles. mental health struggles r sooo real (even if our human minds r illusions), and we need to make the non-dualism/loa community a safe place to talk abt those struggles and see if anyone can relate, or maybe used to relate and has adivice.

being gentle and open to this conversation is just as important as affirming that we have what we desire. bc, well, if u have the struggle i have, or something similar, u know how difficult it is. hell, i even thought abt going back to loa and trying to get into the void instead of keeping on my non-dualism path bc i thought it would be easier(???) and now i realize that that doesn’t even make sense bc both of these things require improving ur self-concept, which is what i was trying to avoid.

THAT IS LITERALLY AN EXAMPLE OF THE THING I EXPLAINED AT THE BEGINNING OF THIS POST (which was supposed to be the main topic… i rambled a lot. oops.). i knew that i had to change my self-concept no matter what, yet i thought that getting into the void wouldn’t require that. sometimes the thoughts just don’t add up. and it’s bc of the ego! i actually only became aware of that now actually.

THE EGO JUST WANTS TO CONFUSE U AND TAKE CONTROL OF U. i’m just still letting mine have power over me… but now that i’m aware of it, i can try again, this time with a different perspective.

faltering is normal. not being able to change ur thoughts the first time is normal. having this kind of weird cognitive dissonance is NORMAL. THE IMPORTANT THING IS TO NOT GIVE UP, AND SUPPORT EACH OTHER.

you failed to change ur mindset and ended up spiraling? needing a break from trying to change it? i don’t blame u, this stuff is hard. it’s okay tho! what u need to do now (or when ur ready) is: FORGIVE URSELF AND TRY AGAIN. and don’t be afraid to start the conversation of “can anyone relate to this?” or whatever helps u.

we can do this. we can change our thoughts, even with any obstacles we may face, bc we are stronger than our egos. WE’RE GOD, FOR CRYING OUT LOUD!!! we can do ANYTHING.

the first step is knowing that faltering is okay. next is realizing that our knowledge of who we are doesn’t always match our thoughts, and that that is the nature of our brains. the next step is forgiving ourselves and moving on.

hopefully this rant wasn’t too jumbled or confusing, i kinda just wrote it here without any planning lolz. i need to figure out a format.

and i hope some of u could relate to my struggle. be as open as u want in the replies. i will not judge. if u need to make ur own little rant, it’s fine by me.

also, sorry for being gone for a while. i don’t use tumblr very much anymore. i’m slowly falling away from all apps except pinterest, amazon and depop 😅 but dw, i won’t let myself fall too far. i luv tumblr and the non-dualism and loa community has changed my life and opened my mind in so many ways. even if i haven’t succeeded at getting all my desires quite yet, it’s okay. i will succeed. maybe not right away, but i will. and so will u. (*ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈)ꕤ*.ﾟ

#this was a loooong post tysm for making it to the end!! #u have earned a cupcake for making it this far 🧁 #archive ໒꒱ ⋆ﾟ⊹ #non dualism #non duality #nonduality #nondualism #advaita vedanta #advaita #manifesting #manifestation #law of consciousness

[sim3on]

𝙍𝙄𝘿𝘿𝙇𝙀 𝙒𝙄𝙏𝙃 𝘼 𝙋𝘼𝙍𝙏𝙉𝙀𝙍 𝙏𝙃𝘼𝙏 𝙃𝘼𝙎 𝘼𝘿𝙃𝘿

WARNINGS : mentioned fighting, but nothing too severe :)

NOTE FROM THE POST OFFICE : my first work for the twst fandom !! hopes he's not ooc. every person with ADHD acts differently!! this is mostly based on my own experience as a person with ADHD

Stuggles in the beginning with accommodation but get a lot better !!

Grew up sheltered and just assumed that ADHD made people “troublemakers” and didn’t realise the other things that weren’t just hyperactivity could happen

Knew you struggled with sitting still (constantly bouncing with a leg, needing to keep your hands occupied) and focusing on a singular thing (talking with the people around, reading about your hyperfixations instead of doing your classwork, doing two separate assignments at the same time, yes it did unnerve him when he realised you were doing insanely well on the assignments that you did at the same time)

Didn’t realise how easily you burnt out or how hard it was for you to retain information

Pre-overblot he did blow up on you often for forgetting one of the rules because you struggled with remembering all of them

Has apologised about that several times after overblot :(

Helps you study and created a specific study regiment for you !!

If you learn better through visuals, he will demonstrate everything, and i mean everything. Uses coloured rocks to demonstrate different potion ingredients, will stand in front of you and demonstrate the form for different spells etc

If you learn better through reading and absorbing the information that way, he will write multiple documents in a way that makes you interested. Will use your hyperfixations and special interests as comparisons and examples

If you learn better through speech he will literally have a conversation about it with you during random times of the day

Knew from before that different people learn in different ways so he’s really good at adapting to the way you learn and doesn’t mind doing it

He wants you to get good grades !!

Struggles a bit more with how to deal with when you are burnt out simply because that’s not something he’s ever really encountered before

Reads a lot of books about it, and realises it’s not something that just disappears over night

Helps you throughout it all !!

Will always listen if you want to talk about how you feel when burned out, and sits next to you and helps you with all of your school work

Not that he wasn’t before, but if you’re in the same grade he will hint a lot more to what the right answer is then if you weren’t burnt out

Realizes that you need rest to properly recuperate but doesn't want you to fall too far behind :(

Will invite you to private teaparties just so you can talk about your hyperfixations and special interests and actively engages in a conversation about yhem

If you get easily overwhelmed by loud noises or bright lights he will always be there to get you somewhere quieter and darker !!

Definitely scolds people quieter if he knows you're in the room

If you have specific stims for specific situations or emotions (ex. tapping your fingers together when stressed, making certain sounds when bored or overwhelmed), he learns and memorizes them all.

Your health, both mental and physical, is the most important thing to him !!

Overall 8/10, had a shaky start but gets a lot better

#riddle rosehearts x reader #twst x reader #twst riddle #twst riddle x reader #riddle x reader #twst wonderland #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland riddle x reader #twisted wonderland riddle #are there anymore tags lol #happy its not like the obey me fandom where there are like a billions tags for one characters lol #hope the grammar is okay #i couldnt be bothered spell checking

[gallusrostromegalus]

Artist asks: 8, 17, 23!

8. What's the most fun and the least fun parts about your process?

Most Fun: getting into the super-repetitive, unnecessarily detailed "fiddly bits" and seeing what textures I can make.

Least Fun: Drawing's hard on the body! ADHD means art can really mess up my sleep schedule, carpal tunnel's always an issue and since moving to digital I've been stuggling with eyestrain problems too.

17. What do you love getting compliments about?

I love seeing people have an emotional reaction to my work, like "this really cheered me up!" or "WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU" in the case of 3AM Discord Eye Crimes.

If I've included a joke or a reference to a meme or something it's nice when someone else sees it.

The absolute best was when I was doing scientific work and a bat Scientist went feral about my getting what pollen on bat fur looks like right. That was SUCH a bitch to do but hearing the guy go off about YOU'RE RIGHT IT'S ONLY ON THE GUARD HAIRS THE POLLEN HAS SPECIAL STRUCTURES TO GRAB THE KERATIN SHEATHS- made going insane for 52 hours straight on that piece worth it.

23. What's something you hope people notice when looking at your art?

The modern internet has really conditioned us to look at images only very briefly so what I really want is for them to really notice it lol.

...This does require me finishing and posting stuff though, doesn't it?

[thebubblesareevil]

Sooo

I can really collect your brain vomit for a story? I would've thought you had wanted to write it yourself

Dude I am working 2 jobs and I have adhd I am stuggling with writing just 1 if there is anything that I want to write specifically I will label it as such but other wise I am begging you to write them and if you need more brain vomit I am happy to provide the only story I am writing right now is my not fated but meant to be series

So to be clear if it is labeled brain vomit it is an invitation for other people to write it

I just suck At writing prompts

#danny phantom #ghost king danny #dick grayson #cold current #dc x dp #danny/kaldur #big brother danny #kaldur'ahm #dp x dc #au #brain vomit