#agh i dont have any confidence im saying it right! whatever

[readymades2002]

hm okay so marcille’s wish seems to have Two facets to it. there is the thing she says she wants, which is to create opportunities for people that a difference in lifespans can block off, and what her fear drove her towards, which is never having to watch everyone die before her again. we’ve seen what that difference in lifespan means before, how everyone else resents elves for looking at everyone as children with short memories who don’t know what’s best for them, it’s very much an established thing! and the way it’s talked about in this chapter DOES worry me a little bit, like, narratively speaking.

lifespan is...like. it’s different than other axes? the idea of living a thousand years is NIGHTMARISH to me and i think that...that is a heavy weight to give others to carry without their input. i do think that it is, dare i say, Not Good to do that.

but the way it is refuted, and the way lifespan differences are shown to be kind of a social class...thing, it does make me feel a little weird because on the ONE hand literally its very scary yes but on the OTHER is this a metaphor for something and is this refutation a metaphorical response to that something. you know. marcille wanting to eliminate inequalities between lifespans as something that Just Isn’t Good For Everyone or something to that effect. idk the translation including the phrase “racial disparities” DID put me on edge here too, i know in Fantasy World they use Race to mean something more like species which is not uncommon by any means but i still think its a very poor choice of word and keeping the history of fantasy “races” and their...Inspirations in mind makes it worse. i might be reading too much into it but 1) thats what i do and 2) seeing that one GODDAMN kabru shapeshifter joke really REALLY Got Me ugh

for now i am gonna look at it more optimistically though and say that marcille’s motivations simply looking at them as they are are very interesting. i don’t doubt that she wants others to have more opportunities denied to them by their lifespans (though i think the solution of “simply make lifespans longer” instead of “do something about elves holding power” is a short-sighted one. VERY in-character though, that’s not a complaint about that. just thinking as i go) but she is motivated by her own fear. marcille is kind of a selfish person! she is self-centered and a little thoughtless and she’s been through a lot that drives her to soothe the fear created by it. she may be convincing herself of her good intentions, of her care for her friends, but ultimately, she does not want to be alone. i mean who doesn’t but its the kind of thing she is willing to go to questionably ethical lengths to achieve with only her own desires in mind. i think that the birds outside her wizard tower (have you seen the birds. for the record the birds in dunmeshi are simply divine. excellent birds. wonderful birds) point to her motivations well. losing a bird (especially one as long lived as a cockatoo!) affected her deeply. she’s disturbed by the lion conjuring a puppet of her father, but she keeps him around anyway. the temptation is great and the fear of loss powerful! there is marcille who is very put together and knows what to do better than anyone else and who believes in her own accomplishments and abilities enough to stake the world on it, and there is also marcille who is thoughtless and petty and insecure and terrified of being alone and it makes for a very dangerous combination! she’s such a fascinating character!!! i think this is an excellent arc for her

#dungeon meshi spoilers - #dunno if this is coherent. i love media #i REALLY think marcille is a well written character with complex motivations and morals so im hoping HARD that the intention #isnt like. 'well waving a wand and wishing for equality isnt realistic' im phrasing that simplistically but that...viewing of wanting things #to improve. does that make sense? i think that solving the problem by just wishing for everyone to live longer #is...silly. its not a narrative trope i thought i put a lot of thought into because its very unrealistic and i think staking some kind of #Stance on it is silly but turns out i do have thoughts on it and those thoughts are a lot of 'youre missing the problem i think' #i feel the same way about...ugh. okay the thing coming to mind is the ending of pmmm but i DO feel that way! #i dont know how to word it but. in pmmm it felt like the writing of someone who does not take the idea of abolishing a system seriously #which. i mean fucking obviously he wouldnt but im hoping thats not the case here!!!!!!!!!! #i mean unlike in pmmm this solution is being presented as a flawed one but if the exploration of that ends here itll be disappointing #agh i dont have any confidence im saying it right! whatever

[rintarhue]

HIHI KOPI-CHINNNN IM GLAD TO SEE YOUR DOING WELLLL. IM SURE YOU'LL GET THROUGH YOUR MEETINGS! HWAITING ~ GAMBAREYO BABES!!😤😤 and yes ofc <3

DDNSJANAJSOA ISTGG TOKYOREV IS MY FAV ANIME AND MANGA NOW ITS JUST SO AAAAAAAAJDJSJSJSJSK and omfg stop i've probably cried enough tears to form a river at this point bc of it😞 LMAOAOAOAOA BONTEN just bonten🤤🤤🤤 but ayo my babies kazu and mitsuya timeskip looks are always so good GODDAMNNN😩😩😩😩😩😩

YESS anime and manga always make me so happy😭😭 i just wanna go through the screen and escape reality😔😭 and AAAHHH TYTYTYTY ig im doing a bit better but im still hella stressed the days are going by so quickly im going to school Sept 1😞😞

And yes😭😭😭 they say they're not pressuring me, but in reality they are bc i need that push to decide😭 i feel like i keeo running away from the responsibility of making a decision but its bc i just rlly dont know what i wanna do😭 and yesss thank youu😭 its mainly just the fact i dont have any certain interests in any subjects nor do i have any hobbies so idk what to choose😔

Although, my mom offered I do transition year, which is basically a one year programme you do after your Junior Cert in Ireland, which is optional for students and well basically its all about work experience to try a bunch of things out to see what suits you etc etc. Mainly just about the outside world rather than focusing on your academics. And well im more of an introvert as well so it helps with your confidence and yk all that stuff which my mom thinks will really help me in the future and stuff and well i think i would need it to bc then it would give me another year to just breathe and think about what i really wanna do but tbh whats rlly stupid is that im scared😭😭 i dont wanna be alone afterwards😭 bc it means that all my friends will go on a year ahead of me, and ofc graduate secondary school before I do which obvs i will be happy for them but yk i just dont wanna be left alone :') im not that much of a social butterfly and bc the year below me is full of UGH PEOPLE😭 ik i should be focusing on my academic life in school, but the thought of being alone for another 2 years and my social life just scares me in general.

Agh that was my rant for the day😭😭 im so sorry NDKSIAISISUSSI and tysm for listening😭 and for the advice i rlly appreciate it <33

I love you soooo much and thank you kopi-chin <33 i will cherish u forever hehe

- ur filipina bestie💍

HI BBY!!!!!!!! THABK YOU SO MICH AHHHHHH T___T

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OHHHHHHH thats true!!! its good to explore but then ud also feel like ure left behind from everyone, which is complete normal to feel! :( but i hope that whatever ur decision is in the future, it'll be a decision u made for urself and a decision that makes u happy!!! its hard to live with regrets than simple what ifs so yeah!! <3 YOU CAN DO THIS BBY I BELIEVE IN U AHHHHHHHH

I LOVE U TOO!!!! CRIES I CHERISH U TOO 5EVER <3 HUGS

#kopi.talks #filipina bestie <3 #moots <3 #IMWMRKJFJCJDFJCJJCFJDJEJ #bonten SEXY

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send me a fruit peach: do you have any piercings or tattoos? yeah i have a tattoo of saturn. its blue & i was gonna add red to make it old-school 3d but it hurt too badly since it was a stick n poke. i dont love it but i dont dislike it raspberry: favorite flower? um like all of them lol. im really fond of wildflowers right now like poppies & forget-me-nots. but also i love catmint bc i have a bunch of those and there are ALWAYS bees & other insects on them lemon: do you have any pets? what are their names? yeah i have a dog named sampson, a cat named sophie, a hamster named Rufus T. Barleysheath and a horse name Winchester (i hate that name so we call him chester for short). also this hurt to type bc we're at a very low number of pets right now & its really sad :(( also we just had to put my bunny down so it was weird not including him :// but his name was bongo mango: what is your trademark? idk what this really means but assuming its what i say often it would be "amazing" but it has a specific inflection that i cant describe online lol passion fruit: how would you describe your style? uh right now its changing but before it was lots of anthropologie & some uo?? idk i just had a very bold & expensive style ig lol. now its becoming slightly more instagoth & im buying more uo items & thrifting a little more often pineapple: sexual orientation? agh idk anymore i identified as pan for years up until like a week ago but now i guess im questioning again strawberry: favorite desserts? ice cream cherry: can you play any musical instruments or can you sing? yeah i can play the piano, trombone, & ukulele, but im really not a fan of playing instruments & i dont really play them anymore grape: if you could take a vacation anywhere in the world, where would you go? right now i'd love to go to sweden, scotland, ireland, australia, somewhere in africa idk where, russia, or the north pole lmaooo. if i had to chose one place though id probably pick australia bc i wanna see the great reef before it dies completely banana: favorite horror movies? i just saw scream & really enjoyed it. idk though i find most horror movies are really bad & not scary in the slightest :// blackberry: is your life an action film, a comedy, a romantic comedy, or drama? uh whats the one where the main character is constantly confused & has a lot of unaddressed problems but is trying her best to work towards a bright future pomegranate: when do you feel the most confident? when im dressed to go out cantaloupe: what are your parents' names? andrew & jill guava: dark & dramatic makeup or natural makeup? um natural makeup but im trying to get into bright & creative makeup tangelo: if you could be any mythical creature, which would you be? a mermaid lmao i always wanted to be one as a child plum: favorite clothing brands? anthropologie, american apparel (rip), & urban outfitters coconut: favorite perfume? happ & stahns, whatever their pink bottle is lychee: satin or lace? lace blueberry: what do you want to dress up as for halloween? im thinkin i wanna go back to one ive done like a witch. or maybe ill try somethin new and be a watermelon. but also im not a fan of dressing up as something for halloween apple: what do you use more, tumblr or twitter? tumblr kiwi: what's something that fascinates you? planes & bees & biology & memory & the human brain & just humans themselves actually watermelon: do you have a job? if so, what is your job title? no job :// i want one, but im very picky & also im only 15 so i cant get one for another 3 (?) weeks papaya: what song describes your aesthetic? this is really hard but im probably gonna have to say space song by beach house cranberry: favorite time of the day; morning, afternoon, dusk, or night? dusk for sure bitchhhh god i fuckin love it nectarine: would you consider yourself an emotional person? no, just an emotionally confused person lol orange: do you have long eyelashes? nah theyre average, not short though apricot: what do you do when you're sad? if its depressed sad i go to my room & surf the internet & listen to music or watch tv & sometimes paint or journal & also i drown myself in dr pepper & starve myself & stay up all night. if its a different kind of sad then idk ig i just get over it really fast star fruit: favorite sea creature? those little tiny crab things that wash up on the beach & bury themselves in the sand really fast so you cant grab them. i forgot what theyre called but i think it starts with an M & also their shells are all over the beach dragonfruit: do you drink alcohol? yeah

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