#aiming to reopen in august or maybe july but ik artfight month is kind of an 'off season' khgSKDJ

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rolling on the floor and weeping bc i do not have the time in the day to sit down and work on art that takes concerted effort and thought (especially not now i have very recently learned i have until friday to get most of my stuff out of this house) i am playing a neverending game of "am i going to be able to pull this off or am i going to have to weigh up whether it'd be ruder to make commissions as artfight attacks or wait til august"

#bc god knows july is going to be the only time i can body myself into working at this point #ill prolly just try and ride the Artfight High to do the existing comms without actually uploading them if it would be a dick move to #try and get points out of them gkhjSDB #bc i have a feeling it might be and id feel bad. like. it goes against the spirit of the event or smth? #either way i have given up on opening new comms for now i will deal with the crushing debt later #aiming to reopen in august or maybe july but ik artfight month is kind of an 'off season' khgSKDJ #its!!! i feel bad because I Have been drawing ive been doing the askblog and a few misc things for artfight prep but #those dont take as much time and effort and Deliberate Thought as working on smth for other people and i am crawling with anxiety #full disclosure i even have one done!!! a whole commission sitting there!! forabout a week!! but ive been scared to get into Conversations #so its like. ok. im just gonna. continue shoveling the heap of Life Problems out of the way slowly #and eventually the giant pile will become small enough i can think about other things again and it will be ok #ill have a bit of time at home this weekend with not much else to do so. ill see how wiped out i am #at least things are gonna get good this week there is light at the end of the tunnel to look forward to ..