#and i really really want to be a teaching assistant too obviously i don’t condone how TAs are treated by the university

[theresa-of-liechtenstein]

jus rambling lmao ignore me but like just lingering on the graduate division website for my program and half of my brain is like i don’t know should i even bother going for a phd i’m not the brightest person i’m kind of slow and i feel like i’m always working twice as hard to get worse scores than other people and my grades aren’t best of the best i’m a straight 3.5/3.6 gpa and i’m not part of any clubs or anything i just play my little violin on tuesdays and thursdays and spend two hours a week being insane about physics in front of other undergrads and i’m not allowed to be a transmission electron microscope authorized user bc i’m baby i’m honestly just kind of a cringefail loser who likes materials science too much and gets butthurt when people inevitably drop me because i talk about school too much and everyone hates school or whatever. and then i remember i’m an honors student and literally working in a lab and due to write a paper and present at a symposium next year and half my tuition is paid by a state merit scholarship so even though i might be kind of stupid in the classroom sometimes, overall people did see something in me in 2020 and i haven’t been kicked out yet so people must still be seeing something in me. but idk.

#the program i’m aiming for is where i’m at for undergrad and it’s fully funded #also i feel like i know people here and i don’t want to leave my parents without help #and i really really want to be a teaching assistant too obviously i don’t condone how TAs are treated by the university #but i love love love talking with students #it touches me so much that students will trust you if you show them you’re on their side #and as frustrating as my research is right now it’s fun to not know what’s around the corner #hmm. thoughts #<- just for journaling purposes ig #iskul bukol: undergrad edition

[agender-nb-wix]

Witchcraft Asks #1-105

My previous post is the original ask meme with just the questions. 1. Are you solitary or in a coven? -I'm technically in an online coven, but I don't really interact with the members very often. I probably should but I keep forgetting. 
2. Do you consider yourself Wiccan, Pagan, witch, or other? -I'm pagan and wiccan, and I'm a wix (gender neutral with/wizard). 
3. What is your zodiac sign? -Libra, and I fit the stereotypes well. 
4. Do you have a Patron God/dess? -Artemis, the Deity of the Moon, Hunting, and Childbirth, and Athena, the Deity of Wisdom, War, and Arts and Crafts are both my Patron Deities. 
5. Do you work with a Pantheon? -Nope. 
6. Do you use tarot, palmistry, or any other kind of divination? -I've been trying to learn rune divination, but I'm not very good at it yet. 
7. What are some of your favorite herbs to use in your practice? (if any) -Flower petals, even though I can't use them often. 
8. How would you define your craft? -Very open-minded and DIY, but still semi-traditional. 
9. Do you curse? If not, do you accept others who do? -I'm extremely on the fence about cursing, but I have absolutely no problem with others who do, just as long as the punishment is reasonable (I don't condone casting a killing curse on someone who cut in front of you in a line one day). 
10. How long have you been practicing? -About 3 years, on and off. 
11. Do you currently or have you ever had any familiars? -Nope. 
12. Do you believe in Karma or Reincarnation? -Karma yes, reincarnation I'm not sure. 
13. Do you have a magical name? -No. 
14. Are you “out of the broom closet”? -Nope. 
15. What was the last spell you performed? -The Donald Trump curse. 
16. Would you consider yourself knowledgeable? -Not at all, but I've been trying to learn as much as I can. 
17. Do you write your own spells? -Yes, or I find a spell online and change it. 
18. Do you have a book of shadows? If so, how is it written and/or set up? -Yes, it's as organized as I can make it. I have multiple tables of contents and I try to keep everything organized and neat. 
19. Do you worship nature? -I don't worship it, but I do deeply respect it. 
20. What is your favorite gemstone? -I'm not sure. My favorite STONE is Black Tourmaline. 
21. Do you use feathers, claws, fur, pelt, skeletons/bones, or any other animal body part for magical work? -Not yet. I'm waiting for my snake to shed so I can use her shed skin in a spell. 
22. Do you have an altar? -No, but I want one. 
23. What is your preferred element? -Air. 
24. Do you consider yourself an Alchemist? -Not in the slightest. 
25. Are you any other type of magical practitioner besides a witch? -I don't think so, I don't know all the types of magical practitioners. 
26. What got you interested in witchcraft? -It's always called to me, even before I learned that it's "real". 
27. Have you ever performed a spell or ritual with the company of anyone who was not a witch? -No. 
28. Have you ever used ouija? -Yes. 
29. Do you consider yourself a psychic? -I've never called myself one, but I guess you could say so. 
30. Do you have a spirit guide? If so, what is it? -I don't think I have one? 
31. What is something you wish someone had told you when you first started? -You don't need to get a bunch of fancy stuff and you don't need to follow traditions strictly; witchcraft is very free and open to interpretation and change. 
32. Do you celebrate the Sabbats? If so which one is your favorite? -I hope the Sabbats are the celebrations in the Wheel of the Year. My favorite is Samhain, despite my terrifying experience with a spirit last Samhain. 
33. Would you ever teach witchcraft to your children? -If I (for some reason) ever have children, and if they were willing to learn, then yes of course. 
34. Do you meditate? -Sometimes. 
35. What is your favorite season? -Fall. 
36. What is your favorite type of magick to preform? -Herb and candle magick. 
37. How do you incorporate your spirituality into your daily life? -Little prayers and sigils, usually. 
38. What is your favorite witchy movie? -I'm not sure. 
39. What is your favorite witchy book, both fiction and non-fiction. Why? -I'm not sure. 
40. What is the first spell you ever preformed? Successful or not. -I was in my gross stupid emo phase and I was 12, and I cast a spell to turn myself into a vampire. Obviously, it didn't work. My first REAL spell was when I changed my eye color very slightly, it lasted about a month I think. 
41. What’s the craziest witchcraft-related thing that’s happened to you? -A spirit attempted to kill me during Samhain. 
42. What is your favourite type of candle to use? -The ones with glass around them that I can hold 
43. What is your favorite witchy tool? -Candles. 
44. Do you or have you ever made your own witchy tools? -Nope. I dried some carnation petals though. 
45. Have you ever worked with any magical creatures such as the fea or spirits? -Yes, I work with spirits often. 
46. Do you practice color magic? -Yes. 
47. Do you or have you ever had a witchy teacher or mentor of any kind? -Nope. I'm almost completely self-taught. 
48. What is your preferred way of shopping for witchcraft supplies? -In a way my parents won't find out. I prefer in person so I can feel the energy of what I'm buying. 
49. Do you believe in predestination or fate? -Yes and no. Some things are meant to happen, others can be changed. 
50. What do you do to reconnect when you are feeling out of touch with your practice? -Learn correspondences and cast spells. 
51. Have you ever had any supernatural experiences? -Yes, quite a few. 
52. What is your biggest witchy pet peeve? -When a big spell doesn't work. 
53. Do you like incense? If so what’s your favorite scent? -I love incense but I can't burn it very often, so I don't know what my favorite scent is. 
54. Do you keep a dream journal of any kind? -No. I used to. 
55. What has been your biggest witchcraft disaster? -I'm not sure. 
56. What has been your biggest witchcraft success? -I'm not sure. 
57. What in your practice do you do that you may feel silly or embarrassed about? -I sometimes sign words in spells, and I feel like I look silly. 
58. Do you believe that you can be an atheist, Christian, Muslim or some other faith and still be a witch too? -Yes, definitely. 
59. Do you ever feel insecure, unsure or even scared of spell work? -Many times. 
60. Do you ever hold yourself to a standard in your witchcraft that you feel you may never obtain? -No, I don't hold myself to many standards. 
61. What is something witch related that you want right now? -A mortar and pestle. Or some herbs. Or an altar. Or more candles. 
62. What is your rune of choice? -I'm not sure, I don't have them memorized yet. 
63. What is your tarot card of choice? -Same as above. 
64. Do you use essential oils? If so what is your favorite? -I don't own any, sadly. 
65. Have you ever taken any kind of witchcraft or pagan courses? -Not yet. 
66. Do you wear pagan jewelry in public? -I sometimes wear a necklace with a stone in it, but that's it. 
67. Have you ever been discriminated against because of your faith or being a witch? -No because I'm not out of the broom closet. 
68. Do you read or subscribe to any pagan magazines? -No. 
69. Do you think it’s important to know the history of paganism and witchcraft? -Not in extreme detail, but I think it's important to know the basics. 
70. What are your favorite things about being a witch? -I can change the world as easily as whispering a few words. 
71. What are your least favorite things about being a witch? -All the stuff I feel compelled to memorize. I have a shitty memory. 
72. Do you listen to any pagan music? If so who is your favorite singer/band? -I didn't even know pagan music is a thing. 
73. Do you celebrate the Esbbats? If so, how? -I don't know what that is. 
74. Do you ever work skyclad? -Again, I don't know what that is. 
75. Do you think witchcraft has improved your life? If so, how? -It's given me a sense of control, and it's given me the strength and knowledge to change my life for the better. 
76. Where do you draw inspiration from for your practice? -Tumblr mostly, and my own mind. 
77. Do you believe in ‘fantasy’ creatures? (Unicorns, fairies, elves, gnomes, ghosts, etc) -Some. Not all. 
78. What’s your favorite sigil/symbol? -I came up with a sigil that's meant to bring peace and calm. My favorite symbol is the yin yang. 
79. Do you use blood magick in your practice? Why or why not? -No because I have a phobia of needles. Maybe with a knife, but I'm also recovering from self harm addiction, so I see that as a relapse. 
80. Could you ever be in a relationship with someone who doesn’t support your practice? -No. My partner needs to at the very least support me in my witchcraft, and she does. 
81. In what area or subject would you most like your craft to grow? -Spellcraft. 
82. What’s your favorite candle scent? Do you use it in your practice? -Mint, and yes. 
83. Do you have a pre-ritual ritual? (I.e. Something you do before rituals to prepare yourself for them). If so what is it? -I almost always cast a circle and I always ask the elements to assist me. 
84. What real life witch most inspires your practice? -I don't know many real life witches. 
85. What is your favorite method of communicating with deity? -Prayer. 
86. How do you like to organize all your witchy items and ingredients? -Sorted into groups of similar items so I can find what I need easily. 
87. Do you have any witches in your family that you know of? -Nope, not that I know of, 
88. How have you created your path? What is unique about it? -I don't really know. I don't think about that very often. 
89. Do you feel you have any natural gifts or affinities (premonitions, hearing spirits, etc.) that led you toward the craft? If so what are they? -I can sense and communicate with spirits, and I have very limited and vague premonitions. 
90. Do you believe you can initiate yourself or do you have to be initiated by another witch or coven? -I can initiate myself. 
91. When you first started out in your path what was the first thing or things you bought? -Candles and herbs. 
92. What is the most spiritual or magickal place you’ve been? -A campfire led by a Native American male witch, and he cast a protective barrier around the camp with the help of the campers. 
93. What’s one piece of advice you’d give someone who is searching for their matron and patron deities? -Follow your intuition, not what others tell you. 
94. What techniques do you use to ‘get in the zone’ for meditation? -Mindfulness meditation videos. 
95. Did visualization come easily to you or did you have to practice at it? -It came very easily. 
96. Do you prefer day or night? Why? -Night, because I am more drawn to the night time, and because there is less light so it is easier on the eyes. 
97. What do you think is the best time and place to do spell work? -A little after dusk in a park. 
98. How did you feel when you cast your first circle? Did you stumble or did it go smoothly? -I stumbled plenty of times, but it went very well. The elements were very understanding and helpful. 
99. Do you believe witchcraft gets easier with time and practice? -Definitely. 
100. Do you believe in many gods or one God with many faces? -Many deities. 
101. Do you eat meat, eggs and dairy? -I'm currently trying to become pescatarian, but for now I don't eat red meat and I'm starting to remove chicken meat from my diet. 
102. What is your favorite color and why? -Gray, because it represents the middle, mixes, and balance. That is also my name. 
103. What is the one question you get asked most by non-practitioners or non-pagans? How do you usually respond? -Do you cast curses? I usually respond with "only if I feel I need to". 
104. Which of your five senses would you say is your strongest? -Hearing, and that is both a good and bad thing. 
105. What is a pagan or witchcraft rule that you preach but don’t practice? -Don't worry about making things perfect, substitute ingredients work just as well.

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