#and im sure they have more shit to do at home so its not like they'll be sticking around for a long time tomorrow

[ohnoitsdevoo]

i love to draw ocs during school while having a shit ass day. makes me feel good. but???? im still having a shit ass day and i still feel bad????? jot like. "oh i did something now i feel bad" like "oh i feel terrible physically and mentally and im scared whats gonna happen next"

venting in tags a little bit kind of ihhuuh

#kinda vent #oscar vents?????? #oscar draws something #oscar says shit #i sure just did that! #woo! #school is RUUIIINNGGIJNG me #ive had more bad days at school than usual #like its happening daily now #and im overthinking too much #aandd idk hwat to do #i have not seen my therapist in over a month and i dont wanna get a new one and i wanna cry and everythign is going BASdddlyyyy #BUT DRAWING helps #i kinda feel a little bettwr i guess #but uhhhh #yeaaahhhh im having a shit ass day. #my house isnt my comfort place #i dont HAVR a comfort place dude #i am too scared to go home bc i feel like my moms gonna yell at me and stuff and im gonna end up crying and im SO ANXIOUS #i dont like venting really #because i feel like it will trigger and scare peop.le #so i dont vent to people often when i need to #yk? #venting makes me feel guilty #but it makes me feel something else #i dont know what elsee #but i hope i didnt like. #scare any of u #or trigger anybody #im done venting BYE!

[tibli]

this past week has just. not been very good to me tbh

#had a really scary health issue over the weekend #have classwork due every sunday #my bosses are usually rlly nice to me #but today they kind of like. dogpiled me for listening to music at work when i didnt realize it would be an issue #bc it helps me focus and work faster #and one of them said that was 'bullshit' #and kinda made me out to be inattentive and unfocused when they make more mistakes than i do #and i already felt kinda shitty today bc im having car trouble AGAIN so i was doing my damnedest not to cry at fucking work #then i came home and my parents kept hounding me abt sleeping in the living room since my bed isnt fully built yet #and bc of the health thing im not taking my adhd medicine anymore #which has made focusing THAT MUCH HARDER for me #i just feel like it cant ever be just one thing at a time #its always a bunch of shit at once #im gonna be honest i know all this shit sounds stupid as hell and none of it matters in anyway #but that sure isnt stopping the ideations lmao!!!! #tibtalks

[zoppzoop]

GAAHAHHHHH

#venting in the tags #maybe its just past darkness and the Bad Thoughts which i shouldnt listen to are clouding my brain too much #but i feel so fucking weird and inadequate over everything rn #im unable to work on drawings as i usually would have and its kinda plaguing everything which it should like yeah i love drawing but #i cant let just one aspect of me ruin everything. right? the fact that i havent been able to draw as well as i usually can should make me #feel sick to the stomach and unsure about everything i do but it happening and i hate it. #plus i got the ipad id saved up from the comms to buy and its fun and nice and all and maybe i just need more practice with it but i feel #like im not able to draw on it even more? and i spent the whole day trying to get used to it but its just not as good?? and then when i went #back to the no screen wacom i couldnt get a hang of it becuase idek its just not happening #and also the fucking art block wants me dead i swear i want to draw so bad and i have so many ideas but the moment i start anything its just #crumbles down into nothingness and i hate everything i do and gods fuck i want to cry but i can because there are people at home and #usually im a big 'crybaby' when im at home but i dont fucjing wanna be like that anymore like i can handly my shit myself im fine. #i dont need to just fuckinf cry abiut it becuase thats not gonna fox anything but also i feel like crying might just make me feel better #but then id have to hear shit from my family and i know theyre just teasing in a /pos way but i dont wanna fucking deal with that #plus my brother iust talking to him os annoying sometimes like he talks about things so condescendingly and fucking hel dude shut #the fuck up i dont need you telling me that my art is something people can 'just do' and the fact that i was able to get the ipad #'basically for free since i got that money from the little drawings i make' as if they dont fucking mean anything to you like #shut the fucking fuck up dude i worked hard on those and even though i dont like my own shit sometimes i still fucking work hard on those #fuck you you bitch #i think a lot of things are just piling up and i need to sleep #tomorrow will be a new dawn and a fresh start and maybe ill hate myself less #ps. note to anyone reading the tags #im fine i just needed to yell out and express my frustration a bit. some sleep will help surely.

[br1ghtestlight]

watching these tv shows about serial killers has me thinking about how my younger brother was only like 10% bad choices away from being an Actual murderer. he's calmed down a lot now but even 5 years ago i wouldnt have put it past him to try and kill me or my sister, he used to try to stab us with a kitchen knife and we'd lock ourselves in the bathroom FJDMDMDKDSMJ

#there is...... so much context to our lives and his behaviour #he always had a horrible temper anger issues and violence ever since he was a literal toddler #he got in trouble at school for a thousand different reasons and would try to fight kids in the neighborhood. he was HORRIBLE #and im sure our parents enabled him or made him worse in a thousand different ways #he loved my older sister but ALWAYS hated me and my younger sister bcuz we were closer in age #he was horrible to us. which is weird to say bcuz he's like 4 years younger than me but duuude the shit he used to say and do #also he was an anti-sjw transphobic nazi for like a good few years #THAT BEING SAID he is my brother and he's better now and a lot more chill & doesnt do anything bad anymore #just plays video games and posts pro-palestine stuff on twitter. probably a good thing he was removed from the home when he was #also i was a pretty terrible kid too maybe less outwardly violent but i cant even blame him lmao. Anyway its weird to think #if our lives had turned out slightly different he would have murdered me and my sister when we were kids #family is weird #txt

[piplupod]

one of the cashiers at the grocery store i go to is so fucking fixated on shoplifters and it drives me crazy any time i check out through him (i try to avoid him but his checkout is often the most open/empty - hm! i wonder why! - and im often on a tight schedule w the bus). he brings up shoplifters every opportunity he gets and he seems so convinced that theyre a huge problem.

BUT WHAT REALLY GETS ME ,,, is that today the customer in front of me was needing a price check on one of the items bc it should've come out to be cheaper, so he was kind of apologetic abt it and saying "ah well, yknow, six dollars is six dollars, especially with how expensive groceries are right now" and i was nodding and agreeing (trying to show that i dont mind the wait and also solidarity my guy good for u for speaking up and getting the price fixed on that) AND THE CASHIER AGREES. FULLY ACKNOWLEDGES AND BEMOANS THE FACT THAT GROCERIES ARE CRAZY RN. AND THEN GOES ON TO COMPLAIN ABOUT SHOPLIFTERS. HUH ??????

so you agree that groceries are unreasonably expensive... and that sometimes ppl can't afford them... and yet ....................

#HE MAKES ME SO FUCKING ANGRY CMONNNN THINK ABOUT IT DUDE.... #i knew him in highschool (small town things lol) and im pretty sure he was one of those kids who thought cops were really cool. so. yknow. #not surprised. just annoyed fdjkl #i would say smth like ''oh does ur paycheque get docked if shoplifters come thru or smth?'' but i dont want to piss him off #i would like to remain civil with the cashiers here bc its the only grocery store i can get to most of the time fdsjkl #but like. i would love to find out why he hates shoplifters so much #when i worked at DQ in highschool and ppl stole dilly bars or FULL CAKES... i did not give a single shit #even though the managers and boss would get kind of angry at us (but they knew we couldnt do anything abt it really lmao) #and then we had to put locks on the customer-facing freezers which was a hassle for us #AND STILL. I NEVER FELT ANGRY AT THE SHOPLIFTERS. BECAUSE WHATEVER DUDE LIFE IS EXPENSIVE GO GET THAT ICE CREAM!!! #also i was not paid enough to care LMFAO and i know for a fact that this cashier isn't paid enough either bc my brother used to work there #I DUNNO DUDE. HONESTLY I HAVE MAD RESPECT FOR SHOPLIFTERS #i've potentially done it a few times and its fucking terrifying esp w the amount of cameras installed now fdsjkl #i dont do it now even though i need to more than ever bc i was making myself sick every time i possibly did it #i'd get home and sit in the bathroom for an hour trying to make sure i wasnt about to throw up from the stress fdsjkl #also it was stupid to do honestly (but . needed. so yknow.) bc again. i dont have any other options for accessible grocery stores really #ANYWAYS. fuck that cashier i hope he realizes what a little narc he's being and gains some class consciousness or smth idk #all for one and one for all etc etc etc we're all in this together my guy #pippen needs 2nd breakfast

[bunnyb34r]

Really wish this brain fog would pass bc I have a shitload of posts in my drafts i saved bc i wanted to read them but my brain said no. And it's tax season so I'm getting important papers in the mail and I cant fucking read them. Well I can read them but it's just words. Nothing is connecting up there. Thank god mom is here to help read that shit and translate but fuck do I hate this shit

Why can't my brain fucking WORK

#it feels like when i kept getting concussions in 9th grade (had 4) and i couldnt fucking focus and my reaction time dropped significantly #like we were doing a basic reaction time experiment in science and i said oh lets not use mine when we submit it (group of 3 pick best #result) and my friends were like pfft whatever go. and i did and they got real quiet and were like oh... #bc they didnt realize i was concussed concussed like bitch my ability to vaguely see in the dark is GONE i cannot see my rt is SLOWED #my brain cannot WORK RIGHT #it's recovered since then (yay neuroplasticity) but i still have bad brain fog from fibro and it's like god at least when I was concussed i #could easily be like listen i had 4 concussions i need help. no problem. but with brain fog it feels like give me a min im stupid today #i hate it!! i hate feeling broken i hate feeling like my brain is half working! it sucks!! #i got insurance shit the other day and had to ask my mom to make sure it was just a basic 'yeah youre covered heres more access' and not #something i needed to act on and it was so frustrating #marquilla #and whats worse is sometimes ill be talking or typing and think im making sense and then ill look back at it later or someone will ask me ab #it and its like oh... im sorry my brain is not working atm and i cannot get out what im trying to and what is getting out is jumbled #the absolute worst is when it hits when im driving and it's like hey you're 2 hours away from home snd now LOST get home bitch :) #luckily it only happened when i was 40 min from home and in a familiar enough area but my brain couldnt find the right 'path' #sucked but i actually knew i was actually on the right path when i saw this house with a lesbian flag sgsgdgdgdgdgdgd like oh! here!!

[despite-everything]

it can be so fucking hard to be close to people who have very different understandings of time and respect than you.

#im just going to bitch in the notes so i can get it out of my system #it fucking hurts my feelings when my friends are significantly later than they said they would be #they are driving up and visiting me which i do appreciate #but its like. 95% of the time im the one meeting them wherever and whenever works for them #and theyd made it sound like theyd be coming hours ago and they werent #and finally got on the fucking road and their eta was 13 minutes ago and they still arent here #and its like. i get that they have their own lives and traffi and shit #but ive told them many times that it genuinely upsets me when this happens #to the point that if they werent already on the road id just tell them to fucking stay home #its the biggest stressor in our relationship and it seems like theyll get better for a bit after we talk about it #then it gets bad again #and it sucks because i was excited! and now im feeling bitter and upset and i either have to swallow it #or bring the mood down #and im sure they have more shit to do at home so its not like they'll be sticking around for a long time tomorrow #if they do i'll be shocked #but like. id thought of fun stuff we can do and im cool with not doing them but a better fucking heads up would be appreciated #i shouldnt have to ask 3 times to find out when youre coming #especially when i give a very long time between asking to not be a bother #and it just feels like they dont respect me or my time. i couldve done so much more this afternoon #but ive been here fucking waiting for them. #and i told them i was worried this shit would happen once i no longer lived right near them #and they said it wouldnt be a fucking problem. well guess what. #and i have had to defend them to my dad who i live with as well #and then this shit happens. it sucks #anyway. i thought they'd be here 2 hours ago. #whatever. nothing i can do about it now. #tree talks

[scattered-winter]

I really wish my mom would just fucking. respect the fact that I have no desire to be religious and that I don't know if I ever will be because it feels like she's subtly trying to convince me to come back and idk. I just kinda wish she'd respect the fact that I don't want to have anything to do with it

#like. when i first left the church she encouraged me to go to therapy to Get Everything Worked Out and i did !! #i went to therapy. did all the work. took a look inside and went ''yep. still queer. still nonreligious'' #and left a more emotionally healthy + put together guy. #and when she asked me about it and i said i still was quite sure i didnt want to go to church #she was wringing her hands like ''oh...winter youre so twisted up and confused inside...you need to get all this figured out..'' #and for a while i TRIED. but eventually i put my foot down and was like. Mom. i am not confused. i am not twisted up inside. #and she looked pretty upset ans flabbergasted because HOW could HER KID possibly FALL AWAY from the church and become a HERETIC!?? #or something idk #so now we've reached a sort of impasse. where im semi happily living at home w them and not having to do religious shit #and she lets me. but idk she always brings up god and church and shit in conversation #and i dont even think she's TRYING to !! its just a really big part of her life and its important to her #so she tries to use it to comfort me or whatever. but it falls flat because its not important to Me. and she just cant comprehend that. #and idk. idk #im just rambling at this point but i also feel like. i cant really be the person i am around my family #because she's pulled me aside and made me promise i wouldnt do or say anything that could Lead My Siblings Astray #so i cant really talk about queerness. or my own experiences as a queer person. or how people should be able to choose for themselves #what they believe in. #and since im living in their house when im old enough to not be im afraid that if i break the rule she'll kick me out #and i do NOT have the money for my own place rn #and throughout it all there's this underlying feeling that she doesnt want my siblings to Be Like Me #which only reinforces the feeling ive had all my life of being the family black sheep. lol #anyway. sundays are particularly shitty in this regard because theyre Church Days. #so idk. im just thinking out loud rn #winter speaks #personal

[aahsoka]

i am getting paid very little to sub but i very much do care about whats going on with these kids and i wanna leave them all with something good

#i wanna do more research into stuff im bad at but i also am paid SO VERY LITTLE #jordan talks #even if i become a teacher like ill still not be paid a ton #but rn its like basically 11$/hour which is …….. not great haha #and i wanna improve the sub program so bad #like give us some extra paid trainings so we arent fucking up the kids #also rip to the school system in this state i know it is kind of horrible #i want there to be more engagement with the kids of color! #and i dread when our conservative government starts trying to band books n shit like in florida #i know they have tried it in my hometown in another state #and i know they already passed that bill banning trans girls from girls sports #even when we fought SO HARD against it #hhh #i did at one point think about running for school board when i got older bc #the candidates Suck #anyway #i do like it it does feel fulfilling i love being able to tell my bf about all the silly things the kids did when i get home #i am still not sure what grade levels id prefer #high school gets up way to early but i might consider it if i can skip having a first period lmfao #I do love little kids in elementary but it is so difficult to get them to listen lol #middle school is like a good compromise but they are also . going through such a weird and rough time in their lives #elementary school teachers should be millionaires

[pepprs]

posts like that break my stupid fucking heart lol. i hate being in this situation and i hate that i hate it because im convinced im delusional about how bad it is right now and that it’s my fault for being a terrible selfish daughter and also it could be SO much worse. but no im not entirely terrible or selfish and yes this situation is bad even if it’s not the absolute worst it’s ever been or ever could be. i know we’re working on fixing some parts of it but that does not negate that i am living a suffocated life right now and never have fully known that freedom even when i haven’t lived in this house and still have so much work to do to finally get it and im so overwhelmed by this that i keep putting it off and running away

#purrs #also it’s like.. how does ANYONE live without the autonomy and shit you inevitably get as an adult. or the way people take you seriously #more and give you space and stuff. because i know i will miss some aspects of living like this but i think life after this will be so much b #better and freer. yeah it’s scary to make your own choices and move your own ways but also ummmm i am not living in a good situation and #there are so many fucked up things happening here. also i was gonna say something else ughhhh what was it. omg #OH yeah well idk if this was The thing but my parents don’t want me to ever have a place of my own bc they’re worried about my safety. i am #also worried about my safety but i think maybe i would like some independence. and i can’t work it out in my head lol #OHHHHH WAIT i remember. ok. so also. im 23 years old. my mom moved out of her parents home when she was 25 but she was already like dating a #and stuff and i.. well you know. but it’s like im 23 but i don’t think im even going to be able to afford a place of my own that is also #nice to live in. so i am going to have to find a roommate which is fine and also i want one anyway bc again i think it’s safer living w #other ppl and not just me and i just have to make sure that my future roommate/s are like.. not as bad as my 2 roommates i had on campus LOL #but it’s like I don’t think im going to be able to even split the cost for a place that is more than just bedrooms a bathroom and a common a #area. and ite like. when in my life if at all am i going to have other rooms to furnish besides my own bedroom. and when in my life am i #gonna be acceptable to my parents to live by myself. and when in my life do i stop talking to them every single day and depending on them fo #for every single decision. when in my life is my mom gonna treat my 40 h/w job (that in fairness i just started and technically haven’t EVEN #starred) with the same seriousness as my dad’s 40 h/w job. and when in my life is this fucking pandemic gonna end so i can go to conferences #and not be a burden or a disappointment and when in my life am i gonna find a life partner etc etc etc. i know i sound naive ungrateful #entitled etc etc and i don’t know what to say about that other than that my mom would think the same and already does lol but im tired of #longing and i would like to be able to function at a bare minimum level of freedom and comfort <3 #delete later #also my parents don’t want me living in the city on top of not wanting me to live independently. so. lol <3

[kirishwima]

when will i move out. WHEN

#october actually but october cant come fast enough #i came home an hour ago from work #i planned on just taking care of my mom then showering and sleeping idek about dinner rn #and now my dad comes along and tells me he invited my siblings over for dinner #when my mom cant get out of bed and my grandpa is still heavily mourninf #and then he got mad when i said i cant do this today i need a heads up #he says 'u just need to say hi and go' but like...dude srsly #w my mom unable to help #im the hostess bc he cant do shit #and sure theyre my siblings but esp w my eldest brother its more like having guests over #we're like. acquaintances at best #we're close enough w my other brother but i still have no energy for anyone rn #i just cried myself to sleep the other night i need. time to myself to rest #my dad got so huffy about it and im like dude. #ur wife is getting surgery on wednsday and ur looking to have a boys night at home?? #where ill have to run around to get beers and bring snacks and care for everyone #bc like a typical man my dad is absoloutely unable to do any of that #im so pissed off #burrito talks #delete later

[arolesbianism]

We did it boys we got our first game crash in oni 🎉

#rat rambles #oni posting #it's not even that far past cycle 300 yet my laptop just sucks ass #Ive made it further with more colonies and dupes before without a crash so I was a bit surprised at first #but also this is my first time coring out my starting planet so thats probably why #Im going to try to stick with this save as long as I can handle it but Im definitely not going to be able to make more colonies #or at least not any like active and populated ones #my current plan is to use my current dinky rocket to help me make a shit load of databanks and then research straight to the radbold engine #I've never rly worked with radbolts outside of research stuff so I thought it'd be a good experience to have #plus I usually use petroleum and well quite frankly I dont think I can do that rn #well I mean. I Could. but Id rly rather not until I can get my rocketry program set up properly #mainly because I rly don't wanna rely on the teleporters for my renovations of my teleport planet as I want at least a digger and a #scientist going over there and prefferably an extra dupe or two as well #theyd be there in atmo suits to activate the material transporters and dig into the oil biome and set up pipes and shit for the oil wells #and then Im going to transport the oil back to my home planet using the transporters and refine them there #then I can Finally get a gas range going and hopefully set up some extra generators #Im not sure if I want to use either full time yet but depending on how many oil wells there are Ill consider it #once I get all that set up then Ill probably start working towards setting up more farms so I can upgrade my food quality some more #and then grab jorge 👍 #after that idk if Im super interested in doing too much more #I might do the rest of the story traits for funsies but other than that Im not sure if I can manage this world for long enough to get to #the real late game shit considering it's already chugging like hell rn #Ill probably have to deconstruct a bunch of latters and shit pretty soon to try to manage the lag better #and also sweep everything outside up even if itll take forever #Im at a good point where everything is rly stable eccept for my power gen #my power gen is currently perfectly acceptable and it will keep being good for a good while but its definitely not a permanent set up #I just dont have enough hatches and pips for my coal production to keep up and my pip ranch us become increasingly more and more of a issue #mainly because of how cold my base is and how annoying its been keeping the trees alive #another future issue I have to worry abt is my water tank overflowing #but thats a much easier problem to fix I just need to build a bigger tank

[29121996]

.

#sometimes i forget that . i am not immume to my.good things corrupting me #this is embarrassing sctuslly ..getting fuckign Anxious over a venus kazimi like. #dawg calm down oh my.god . ur gonna be fine. everything.sill be fine lol #for the greater good (my mental health) #but my god ppl om the internet know how to word things that do infact trigger me #n i can never tellcif i am being sensitive or not n i so infact . #it doesnt matter n yet . im crippling in fear over this shit ONCE again. for the rexord #i have bren doing my best toclike stay off the internet . it was doing my head in #but . anyeay whatever. its fjne im having a bad day apparently #n im staying home for wtv reason like . i wanna go out but im just . #i wanna try n save this money n get my cwllo fixed . #its the one thinf on my list im desperate tovget done #bc everything else will fsll into place after that . bc ill have something else i dnjoy to do w my time #n atm i want nothing more thsn tovjust practice . fuck the sheet music in tbe othet stuff i gotta organise #im . yea sorry . #WAITT my sister got a ptinter . i can print the sheet music i have ready to go. #besides im sure if i look hard enough i can find . my folder w my ensemblr worm #i have thought abt conquistador daily btw . she was so fun tocplay ah :( #n going out also means . Not e tirely sure if ill b awake before 1pm . bc this placr closes at like 2. #so . i do have to go to bed realtively early if i wanna do this . n i do. im biting thr bullet #im impuslivd but not when itll benefit me. go figure. anyway. i have just enough. ill be Fine . #worst case . my dad has these awful tailors i can chop up #and he can also buy my grocrties this week 👩‍🦯 #worst case . i fkgure itnout somehow. i always do but . i gotta bite the bulley on this i cannot do this anymore #i need something else to occupy my time. n this is the one thinf i knoe for sure will be worth the investment #bc if not. i can literally just Sell it for like $300 (if its worth rven That lol) #like shes a good cello but damn shes dinged up and xhipped. im not paying for that to b fixed #it adds character.

[unholyeverything]

I just realised tomorrow marks the 7ths week of me being sick and feeling like garbage lol It's some ups and downs but generally it's been a while since I've been healthy and none knows whats up which is nice.

#been to the doctor so many times #and at least my general doc is trying but she cant figure out what's wrong #and the throat specialist I've been to twice in one month got a very helpful “sounds like stress and you imagine all” for me #like thanks i keep having my ear throat and nose inflamed constantly and nothing i tried so far helped but surely its stress #my doc suspected a virus but we also didnt find any active anti bodies #so i was just told to rest and was off work for two weeks that also did nothing #so i worked again even tho my doc was like maybe not but i got psychological issues being home with nothing to do #gotta go to my dentist tomorrow to see if the source is there #but im sure its my ears but I'll never go back to that doc #i was there twice a month cuz it kept getting worse and got a stress stamp #stress i didnt even have lately cuz i got a healthy fuck you all work motivation now #and now I'll lose all chance for promotion cuz i cant do my usual 200% and my bosses translate that with: she broken now bye #going great #also don't really have motivation to draw anymore #I started to build model sets but idk if anyone would wanna see those #I also got a cyst on my ovaries and got an appointment in july #that gives me serious pms like i never had it before but ok #someone knows a doc that'll remove the whole uterus i don't need that shit anymore #anyways in case anyone's been wondering where i am lately or if anyone even read this my asks are open if anyone wants to ask smth #or ask my OCs they live rent free in my head and are very precious to me #even my new car is named Michael #he's cute and my record so far been 190km/h #one day I'll do the 225 he can do #just get off the road that day pls #that car was the onyl thing i worked for so idk what to do with my life now #save for car repairs maybe #anyone wants a pic of my child #he's orange #I'm very proud of myself i managed to save up for him quiet fast #these tags are wild but I'm feeling a bit more energetic thanks to some plant supplements my uncle gave me

[chisungie]

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#the fact that fox rinne card and bunny meru card exist drive me fucking crazy im ngl #the bunnymerus story was funny as fuck too 😭 unlucky girl failure rei sticks to luckiest bunnymeru #who gets all out of his element bc everywhere he goes smn really lucky happens and he doesnt know what to do #with babygirl kaoru hakaze tagging along and niki randomly showing up to claim food like. u tossed all my fav #lil scrunkles into a blender and im in love w it #ANYWAY. BUNNYMERU AND FOX RINNE. Good shit. CrazyB have more animal cards w usable fits than i expected tbh #its so cute i love them sm #BUT ANYWAY THOSE TWO. i keep getti g sidetracked Those tWO. DRIVE ME INSANE. #im p sure i use this outfit lineup for homescreen on2 accs LMAO sORRY I LIKE IT A LOT and bunnymeru bloomed so pretty im ngl #fox rinne bloomed is nice i like using it as home cg ANYWAY. wish theyd do that for kogyrei too please please please #last wolfie outfit koga had was w his cute beloved dog leon (THATS HIS NAME RIGHT?) and it was INA WHOLE RPEVIOUS GAME. #ES1 ERA. A WHOLE ERA AWAY. oh he also had halloween where he was.. A wolf.. Big bad wolf..? Or am I just assosciating w anzu.. #ANYWAY.. IG HE HAD 2... BUT HE HAS NONE THIS ERA >:( HAPPYELE.. IM BEGGING... #44597 #i dont even play regularly but like pLEAAAASEE #i used to play ur game on like 3-4 diff servers please show me some love </3

[ri-a-rose]

so i have my new phone and im very happy with it and yeah

#my dad said i mightve gotten a virus but like i factory reset my other phone and that did not help so i think it just got damaged under #the screen but like id had that phone for like 3 years so im happy i used it that long #sometimes in the past ive bought a new phone every year so holding onto that phone for at least 2 years was an accomplishment #anyway im happy with things for now #i see my parents this afternoon and pick up groceries and then tomorrow im cleaning a bunch #my landlords have insurance accessors coming on tues so thankfully i have mon off of work so thats all im doin mon #ritalks #im hoping my mom can come mon evening just to help me make sure everythings tidy and maybe toss hoarded clutter #i tend to collect clutter and having my mom go through things w me asking do i need this helps me minimalize and feel idk more mentally #stable or something lol like clutter just fucks w me mentally so tossing shit i dont need it good or i get stuck #i came home from my sisters wedding and left my suitcase in the kitchen and kinda fucked myself over bc its clutter and its made me #mentally stuck in clutter or whatever #tbh the suitcase is still in the kitchen but ive worked around it a bit #tbh picking the case up would really make things easier but it would mean bending over and really i just need to drag it to the living #room and unpack it on carpet #anyway im rambling lol ignore me