#and is shy witb it and struggling just like me… and for her to be so kind like that.. im just overwhelmed by it really. especially this time

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tonight in class we had to pair up w a classmate and talk abt our positionality in doing community engaged work and i got paired w my carpool who is a 50something yr old mom whose kids are slightly older than i am and i told her abt how im bi but my experience of coming out to my family was so damaging that it forever fucked my ability to be vulnerable with ppl / not hesitate in being my true full self even when it has nothing to do w my sexuality and. 🥹🥹🥹🥹 she told me that she recently realized she’s bi too and she hasn’t told anyone yet even her kids and she showed me she’s going to these meetup groups for lesbians and bi women and she showed me all the ebooks she’s reading that are wlw love stories and she told me i need to start doing affirmations and she showed me her journal and all the things she does for self care like buying herself flowers every week just because she can. and i haven’t thought about it too much since she dropped me off at home but its just hitting me now and it kinda makes me want to cry thinking about it. her kindness took my breath away. im not alone!

#purrs #i mean i knew i wasn’t alone but like. to hear this wonderful beam of light of a woman talk abt how she too is figuring out her sexuality #and is shy witb it and struggling just like me… and for her to be so kind like that.. im just overwhelmed by it really. especially this time #of year bc it was just national coming out day which will forever be one of the most painful days of my life lawl 🤑 she doesn’t know the #full story but even for her to be like so firmly passionately like.. how you are treated was wrong. and for her to be IMMEDIATELY vulnerable #like that…. god. i feel kind of weird being more ‘experienced’ than her in some ways like just in terms of being semi-out and knowing that I #like girls for most of my life whereas for her it’s only been in the last few months thst she’s known. but like.. wow!