#bc surprise surprise I wanted to make sure my f*thers

[lesbianstarlightglimmer]

One day I won’t worry about what my f*ther will do. One day I won’t worry about what my mom will think. One day I won’t feel like running away when I hear someone get angry even if it’s not aimed at me. One day deciding where to eat w someone won’t be such a stressor (nor will eating with them). One day my decisions will be my own and I’ll be proud of them. One day I’ll be able to express myself without fear of being made fun of. One day I won’t be talked down to and treated like an adult. Etc etc etc

#meows #ask to tag #sorry. not only am I hurting physically my brain decided to hurt me #doesn’t help my brother woke up an old memory #of a time where I went w my mom to pick up food #but her being her she rushed off before I could check the food #bc surprise surprise I wanted to make sure my f*thers #food and make sure it was there + right #but they put it in one big bag and my mom started driving #which made it infinitely harder to check food #and apparently my brothers chicken sandwich wasn’t in there #and I think something of my f*thers food was messed up I’m sure #and I kept profusely apologizing bc I can never apologize enough in this damn family #and he yells at me for doing so #and I forgot until my brother brought it up when my burger from dinner #somehow had only one bun #(bc when he drove to get his missing sandwich #he didn’t check it and it was cold and missing a bun)