4.14.24 Sunday
8:57 am
I still have windblow... Until when this water interruption... John needs to shower before his shots update coz this is really his savings... My coffee is shouldered again by my friend Ely and I borrowed money yesterday to buy bulbs/ bombilyaz.... That should be paid by Uncle DD, coz the fundings for here is handled by him.
This is not my ideal life... This is not my ideal aging life...
Hmmm.... There is a bad news about Chef Cedrick, he is a cat lover... I'm now a certified and confirmed dog lover and I don't know I suddenly hated cats.... For no specific reason I just suddenly hated cats for so long, since I became a dog lover...But still adoring his "superman" image guy... I feel protected...
On Pilot Garret, we are compatible on being a dog lover, if you angels saw his brown cute dog named "Bella"....In a way I almost know what kind of guy he is... I can tell 50% of Pilot Garret's personality aside from he is really my super crush for being a "Barbie looking" guy... His eyes is super cute....
Anyways, I still wanna leave this place Cavite. My 2 uncle's are not able to help me on my lifestyle these days... My Uncle DD is handling the fundings, for some new angels they are really famous here in my on-line journal. I have 2 tumbler.com on-line journal,where I gave a full detailed description of my family these days that we can no longer see as US... I mean they have mental illness, I mean they are still people that you can talk to but they are different now. You know new angels, situation may affect your mental awareness or your memory.
I always keep my memory correctly and sometimes I'm so angry about their changes on their mental view on the way things should be here....
I want a bf who has a higher intellectual ability to comprehend my ugly situation now...
I really need a lift these days... My inside is really crying...
Can we please be 17 again? Help me with these aging for nothing, get me some "frownies" and do something about my "deep smile lines"... Can I be on your back??? A piggyback???
10:42 am
Uncle Jun is fake.... The steel wool and cup for rice are gone here this am... I cleaned it last night. I want him dead coz he will never change...
10:45 am
I found it! Why the cup of rice is inside the freezer on the frozen space.
Who done it??
The steel wool is gone, the red heart cup and the syrup and the black sando, key for my phone are all still missing!!!
12:14 noon
I still have windblow... I need a bf who can lift me up from here but I want the one that I can trust and I want like the faces of Pilot Garret and Chef Cedrik... Please save from these ugly soul in this place Cavite...
I feel self-pity and my entire future is really damage...
12:19 noon
I still have windblow...
My upbringing here originally with my adoptive parent's... They don't want practical joke on a wrong way... I mean it is ohkay to make a joke but not all the time... There must be boundaries on everything.
12:34 noon
I'm super stress since yesterday started on the bulb and I have no job and extra money.... I'm thinking of money...
I'm super stress on this water interruption in this village, Kuya or Older bro. MARVIN told me that they are fixing the tank something is wrong or damage...
My nana and I are taking turns or alternately cooking food here, I'm encouraging her to cook as way of her exercise... But my deep within is crying,I wanted to have an assistant again but life here is really different.. As in you will be shocked if you are a mature person with higher intellectual ability to analyze things...
12:46 noon
For my angels here, this is my 2nd journal here my first is O-Hime Sama Saltysublimeinfluencer. It is a diary and at the same time to heal me and remember important things and to get help from any angels available out there wherever they are in this universe....
3:06 pm
Done,watching "Becky & Badette" it is a tagalog/ local film here in the Philippines.It is about lesbianism for popularity, it is so funny...
I really wanna get a bf to lift me up here... I want the faces above but how can I have him??? I still wanna be with someone mutual. I have so many complex right now and emotional disturbance... How can Pilot Garret kind or Chef Cedrick will like me if I'm just like this??? I can't exist correctly... Family got money problem, I don't have wifi... I feel old,fat and ugly... The reality I need a botox already on my "deep smile lines"... I haven't seen the world... I don't like them here in Cavite.17 years of smashing me without fight!!! I feel self-pity angels... I wanna get vanity and see some parts of the world....
6:14 pm
For my soul mate? Hahaha For my super crush Pilot Garret or my Superman Chef Cedrick....
Mainly for myself... Fit and for my fucking self-esteem...
Bitterish still... Panicking as well thinking of my future...
8:39 pm
Thanks Ely for these coffee, evap.milk & acetone. My credit is 254 for now...
I saw the black guy awhile ago....I asked his name just to know him coz he always stand in-front of our house... Finally, I got his name, it is "Tony"... But just mainly for awareness unlike before I have different motive but now my heart is captured by Pilot Garret and Chef Cedrick...
Tony the black guy said he is waiting for someone, for the key on the gate... He asked if I have a key, I said we don't have access on that, we create our own gate.... That's it, I just said "nice meeting you Tony"... Then, went inside our house...
9:15 pm
Just for memory of story here and there... I saw 2 different black guy here, they are really aliens of the Philippines. In here,in my place here in Cavite there are so many foreigners and most specially black people. I think the black people have a group organization here in Cavite.
This is just for the back-track story... I had different motive but it was as well pure... I was looking for a bf and money assistance,the other black guy it didn't push through coz he was a student and young and I just saw him twice there at the store. A motive to ask assistance coz if he will be my bf but it didn't go that way...
Then, while being depress and panicky accidentally saw Pilot Garret, it is a heavenly feeling to see his face, that "Barbie looking guy" got some strong arms.
Just to balance my emotion but again no one is a 2nd choice coz it is about fate and who will take me seriously on youtube... Then, I accidentally saw this "Superman" Chef Cedrick, who would say no to that aura... I can feel that I'm protected or feeling safe with those strong chest and strong broad shoulders...
I don't know what will happen... But I'm longing to feel and I need assistance and my mind and eyes and my heart now wanting to have my super crush Pilot Garret or Chef Cedrick the Superman...Hoping men are men but praying having a good soul to lift me...
I feel stress these days, I wanna hug, a very tight hug and saying yeah! Baby it is ohkay... I really feel lil now... My self-esteem is really,really low... I feel fat,old and ugly... I feel panicky on my beauty, coz the bf that I want that Pilot Garret and Chef Cedrick are pretty men and tall and big... Like what I posted if ever, I don't wanna melt-down on beauty though I did and do and my nature is vanity in spite of being a dog lover...
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Nabalewala si Cedrick Juan sa tie win nina Piolo Pascual at Dingdong Dantes sa 1st MIFF sa US
Bakit ba may awards night din ang kauna-unahang Manila International Film Festival (MIFF) sa Los Angeles, California sa Amerika kamakailan?
Ito ay sa kabila ng pareho rin ang mga pelikula na pinagpilian sa timpalak, ang sampung opisyal na kalahok sa katatapos na 49th Metro Manila Film Festival (MMFF) na idinaos sa buong Pilipinas.
Ang mga obra maestrang itinanghal sa US ay ang "When I Met You in Tokyo," "Mallari," " (K)Ampon," "Broken Hearts Trip," "Penduko," "GomBurZa," "Rewind," "Family of Two," "Becky & Badette" at "Firefly."
Ang sabi nga ng dating peryodistang pampelikulang si Ronald Carballo, bakit hindi na lang ipinalabas ang mga pelikula at magiging tampulan pa ng kawalang katarungan kung nanalo ang isang entry o creative sa Pilipinas pero talo naman abroad.
Pagdududahan pa, halimbawa, kung talagang mahusay si Cedrick Juan na siyang Best Actor sa MMFF para sa "GomBurZa" pero talo siya ng nag-tie na sina Dingdong Dantes para sa "Rewind" at Piolo Pascual sa "Mallari."
Pero kanya-kanyang programa nga ang bawat awards group.
May karapatan ang MIFF na magbahagi ng kanilang parangal na may sarili ring pamantayan.
Pero bakit hindi na-nominate man lang su Christopher de Leon bilang Best Actor sa pelikulang "When I Met You in Tokyo"?
May laman naman ang akting ni Christopher at malaki ang papell na kanyang ginampanan, di ba?
Gaano na 'yong nominasyon man lamang? Boy Villasanta
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Nabalewala si Cedrick Juan sa tie win nina Piolo Pascual at Dingdong Dantes sa 1st MIFF sa US
Bakit ba may awards night din ang kauna-unahang Manila International Film Festival (MIFF) sa Los Angeles, California sa Amerika kamakailan?
Ito ay sa kabila ng pareho rin ang mga pelikula na pinagpilian sa timpalak, ang sampung opisyal na kalahok sa katatapos na 49th Metro Manila Film Festival (MMFF) na idinaos sa buong Pilipinas.
Ang mga obra maestrang itinanghal sa US ay ang "When I Met You in Tokyo," "Mallari," " (K)Ampon," "Broken Hearts Trip," "Penduko," "GomBurZa," "Rewind," "Family of Two," "Becky & Badette" at "Firefly."
Ang sabi nga ng dating peryodistang pampelikulang si Ronald Carballo, bakit hindi na lang ipinalabas ang mga pelikula at magiging tampulan pa ng kawalang katarungan kung nanalo ang isang entry o creative sa Pilipinas pero talo naman abroad.
Pagdududahan pa, halimbawa, kung talagang mahusay si Cedrick Juan na siyang Best Actor sa MMFF para sa "GomBurZa" pero talo siya ng nag-tie na sina Dingdong Dantes para sa "Rewind" at Piolo Pascual sa "Mallari."
Pero kanya-kanyang programa nga ang bawat awards group.
May karapatan ang MIFF na magbahagi ng kanilang parangal na may sarili ring pamantayan.
Pero bakit hindi na-nominate man lang su Christopher de Leon bilang Best Actor sa pelikulang "When I Met You in Tokyo"?
May laman naman ang akting ni Christopher at malaki ang papell na kanyang ginampanan, di ba?
Gaano na 'yong nominasyon man lamang? Boy Villasanta
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