#been loving off goldfish for the past month. a lil snack cakes here n there n occasionally some mac n cheese but mostly just goldfish

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why can i not clean my room?

#the bin #i was planning on cleaning it today but my sister called out and is having a friend over so im not #but its in a state :/ well maybe tomorrow i guess #going to try to draw maybe ill make smth or maybe i wont #feeling weird in my lofe all the time sucks a lot but im trying to improve it #i think first step is to clean my room second step is to clean my kitchen third step is eat actual fucking food oh my god #been loving off goldfish for the past month. a lil snack cakes here n there n occasionally some mac n cheese but mostly just goldfish #and goldfish r good but like. also not good for me for sure #well now that im not dreading the mornings so much cause they arent 3 hours of miserably working in a very empty kinda dark store #and instead im in close proximity to my v friendly coworkers i think maybe ill try actually waking up real early n eating and washing my #face and stuff before i go to work like a normal person. maybe. maybe not. but im gonna try #i need to be able to wake up at 4am easily anyway bc i could be working at 5am so its prob better if i wake so early anyway #but i dont like to go to bed that early either. well. at least winter means the sun isnt up for too many hours which is nice #idk. this new job has made everything about my life so much less sad and crushing #even starting it and being there is much less bleh than my prwv job was when i started. i think cause i talk to my coworkers a lot #and its not a constant and continue thing of work that does not end the whole time. the work comes and goes with orders #its nice. much kess monotonous. and since my life outside work is all the same every day its awful if work is also that #maybe omce im working more hours ill feel bad again but i honestly think ill still feel ok. and im not aiming for 40 hours a week anymore #either. more like 36. so i think its good