#big boy drugs

[savvisaylor]

The feminine urge to use and abuse some loser incel that's never felt the touch of a woman is intense…. Having some pathetic loser, clean my car, do my homework, suck my tits, and let me use him as a human dildo just so I'll acknowledge him is so fucking sexy🙈

#cnc brat #cnc k!nk #rough cnc #soft cnc #r@pe fantasy #r@pe kink #r@petoy #cnc somno #somno breeding #cnc fr33use #cnc free use #somno fantasy #femdxm #male sub #cnc stalking #savvisays #subby things #subby boys #subby men #abuse k1nk #submisive and breedable #ebonycurves #r@p3b4it #r@pe threats #r@pe k!nk #rough kink #big tiddy gf #natural titts #thick babe #cnc drugging

[arthurslesbian]

au where arthur genuinely thinks this time is it, this time i'm gonna die, so before he goes he turns to do the one thing he's always wanted to do, that he'll regret forever if he never does, the one thing he can't die without doing and that's kiss merlin

#merthur #so many situations in which this could be the case #when tristan de bois came knocking if arthur hadn't been drugged #bcuz ofc merlin would know but he wouldn't about excalibur #at the labyrinth of gedref #truly proving what's in his heart 😭 #and that's just season one #what about before the big battle 😭 #when merlin says he can't come #'if i don't make it back' even tho he's mad #or when they roll up to the isle of the blessed before merlin knocks him out #fic idea #I guess

[audible301]

Im rewatching Young Blood Chronicles and trying to explain the concept to a friend who knows nothing about FOB and has never seen it and it truly is a wild thing to try to explain

#so then Joe’s ascending to heaven but the kid that Big Sean shows up in the elevator and sends him to hell and he does drugs with satan #and Satan is Tommy Lee #youngblood chronicles #young blood chronicles #ybc #save rock and roll #fall out boy #fob

[throttlegainwell]

I'm actually taking a casual break from writing fic for a few weeks to focus on other things, so while I normally keep the Scrivener fic binder open a lot of the time to get in a few lines here and there, I closed the window recently.

But I'm actually only mentioning this because Cade (my cat) accidentally turned on Scrivener and opened the Fic binder, which is hysterically funny to me. I'm trying to take a break and he's gently suggesting that I write more porn or something lol.

#writing tag #this is the same cat who kept reaching out his paw to close my laptop while i was writing my thesis #because he could see that i was stressed #ever since i finished my thesis he hasn't done that at all #i love that dude he's my big boy #btw after he got neutered and was still super fucking high #he walked up to me stood on his hind legs to look me in the eye and put one paw on either shoulder to get up face to face with me #just leaned in and stood like that stoned off his ass #he also slung one arm over my shoulders exactly like a human would it was hilarious and impressive #he was very clingy on drugs #sorry i'm just chatty because there's supposed to be a big storm coming saturday so i'm not feeling very sleepy

[peridyke]

my gf is about to drop acid and I am going to make tostadas <= average thursday for lesbians

#txt #tw drugs #ill trigger tag acid because its like a big boy drug or sometbing. i dont know actually

[bluastro-yellow]

there's only one end-of-the-day debrief :'( ?!?

#looked like a recurring event #I hope I'm getting a good grade in Kim #pointless microblogging #disco elysium #disco elysco #<- why does this tag keep coming up #what is it #some thoughts: #I'm a cop second and a disco lover first. hope those kids don't make drugs in the church after all #I'm helping them #do I need to tell the hardie boys or whatever to do their job of helping citizens?!? come on guys #you should already have helped that pigs woman #we definitely weren't trained for that lol. cops badly handling interactions with distressed mentally ill people. too realistic #thank GOD I didn't hit on that woman at the start of the game. would have made everything more awkward #but I did tell her I don't remember jack shit. whoops #I really like how there's multiple solutions for problems. probably normal for games like this but I appreciate it #I can actually become racist if I listen to Titus?? I thought I'd be faking it. I pulled out #*meathead or something. the big racist guy who guards the port #I wonder what happens if I do. Kim still would have to be my partner #does that union guy really want to help or does he want to turn the place into his playground. make the fishing village better #instead of destroying it! he's really good at sounding innocent tho

[hatecharredarch]

So  I  was  talking  about  this  with  friends  in  disco  but  the  fanon  of  Dabi  being  blasted  out  of  his  mind  on  drugs  24/7  is  one  I  hate  sm,  because  like,  yeah, there  is  something  very  wrong  with  him  but  its  more  in  the  spooky  /  undead  vein  than  anything  else  and  I  would  think  that  is  so  obvious.      Like  I  guess  that  fanon  got  popular  before  all  the  background  "reveals"  for  him  but  at  the  same  time  Nomu  always  existed  as  a  thing. (  Undead/reanimated  human  corpses )  so  it  kinda  baffles  me  how  the  fandom  took  a  look  at  Dabi  and  just  said  "its  hard  drugs"  keeping  in  mind  he's  literally  inspired  by  stuff  like  the  revenant  zombie  and  frankenstein's  monster.      Like  anyway,  fanon  sucks  in  general  but  my  point  is  I'm  sexy  and  big  brained  so  I  choose  to  go  a  bit  harder  on  those  horror  inpsos  because  of  course  I  do,  but  since  canon  fully  supports  me  on  it  I  gotta  also  point  out  as  bizarre  as  it  is,  it  would  even  appear  that  parts  of  dabi's  body  have  fallen  off  in  the  past.      I  mean  for  one  we  can  see  its  pretty  obvious  Dabi's  entire  face  could  come  apart  if  not  for  the  staples  in  his  cheeks  and  chin  but  theres  also  the  fact  that  Hori  did  an  art  piece  where  we  can  see  Dabi's  tongue  is  stapled  on  as  well.  That  seems  to  indicate  it  could  have  fallen  off  at  one  point.  Literally  theres  no  other  reason  for  the  tongue  staples  otherwise.      There's  a  similar  implication  with  one  of  his  arms,  its  stabled  right  around.  And  like  I  said,  we  saw  with  Dabi's  face  the  staples  aren't  there  for  the  aesthetic,  they're  actually  holding  him  together.  And  like,  yes,  we  know  when  Dabi  burned  he  lost  pretty  much  all  of  his  lower  jaw  and  obviously  his  tongue  would  have  been  part  of  the  area  that  was  damaged/completely  burned  away,  but  we're  still  aware  that  when  Dabi  initially  awoke  after  being  "reconstructed"  by  Garaki,  his  grafts  weren't  as  pronounced  (  They  were  normal  and  seemingly  "healed"  )  and  he  didn't  have/need  staples  to  hold  himself  together.

So  yeah,  this  means  even  if  his  tongue  was  replaced/reattached,  there  came  a  point  where  it  either  fell  off  or  stated  to,  hence  he  had  to  staple  it  on.  Like  I've  kinda  mentioned  before  Dabi's  scars/burns  are  def  going  through  a  type  of  dehiscence, meaning  his  grafts/scars  are  discolored  and  separating  from  the  parts  of  his  skin  that  are  not  serving  as  constant  ignition  points  for  his  quirk. This  gives  Dabi  a  "rotting"  appearance,  again,  like  a  zombie.  On  top  of  this,  its  canon  info  that  Dabi  just  smells  like  burning  skin  and  death.  Like  thats  his  essence. Mirko  specifically  makes  comments  about  it  which  are  present  in  Hawks  report  so.  Yeah.  Endless  points  for  the  zombie  aesthetic  and  due  to  the  fact  we  also  know  Dabi  is  somehow  able  to  "stay  alive"  after  suffering  burns  and  injuries  that  would  easily  kill  ANY  normal  person  with  NO  other  reason  for  why  it  hasn't  killed  him,  I'm  pretty  chill  going  ahead  and  saying  Dabi  is  some  type  of  undead  already.  Like  some  type  of  "accidental"  proto-Nomu. I don't particularly care if thats a specifically canon thing but I think thats the suggestion and none the less it truly makes NO sense otherwise so it will pretty much be canon to this portrayal.

Like its  also  been outright stated  he  is  supposed  to  be  dead.  Canon  claims  the  only  reason  Dabi  is  alive  ( And  I  use  "alive"  very  dubiously,  for  all  these  reasons )  is  because  of  his  hatred/anger.  Which again  this  is  the  exact  concept  behind  folklore's  revenant zombies.  They're  human  bodies  who  are  dead  but  also  alive/function  as  if  they're  alive  or  rather  are  heavily  between  dead  and  alive  so  they  "function"  as  if  they're  "living"  but  also  sometimes  have  "hints"  of  their  true  nature  of  being  a  pesky  type  of  undead,  like  not  fucking  dying  from  injuries  that  should  kill  them  or  having  bodies  that  are  lowkey  "rotting"  like  the more  "popular"  zombie  type. 

Similarly, Dabi also seems to heavily draw reference to the onryo of Japanese myth, which is also a vengeful undead or spirit and very similar to a revenant zombie. Onryo are also usually depicted in white gowns/kimonos and, well, Dabi's final battle outfit is strikingly reminiscent of this.

The  other  big  difference  between  revenant  zombies  and  the  zombies  we're  used  to  in  pop-culture  nowadays  is  revenant  zombies  don't   usually loose  any  human  intelligence, memory  or  personality  and/or  they  don't  typically  lust  for  human  flesh/brains.  Though,  given  most  of  them  "stay  alive"  or  "come  back"  due  to  an  insane  grudge/hatred  of  someone/thing  that  wrong  them  they  are  often  extremely  bloodthirsty  and  revenge  driven  which  continues  to  fit  Dabi  to  a  T, so yeah, thanks for coming to my latest useless ted talk !

#⊰ ° ‧: ｡* 炎 💠 ━◞ Out Of Character ⊱ #⊰ ° ‧: ｡* 炎 💠 ━◞ Headcanons ⊱ #Headcanons #drugs mention cw #You guys should be proud of me for just saying all this rather than going on big ass a rant about the #very harmful and cringe stereotype of Alt people being drug addicts and degenerates which is #perpetuated by freakish normies who go above and beyond to fetishize/objectify alt people and is very much a big part of why the fanon #depicts Dabi the way it does but yeah thats the nutshell version and a rant I shall continue to refrain from actually going on! #Basically I lie when I say things like “oh golly i dont know how fanon came to THESE conclusions!” bc I'm being nice but trust I do know. #Anyway zombie boy rights. :]

[alilaro]

people joke about the Hat Man like a cryptid, but from experience if you pop 20 of those benzos your ass is gonna have to deal with this

#hid it under read more bc im NICE (and also am a big BABY) #horror tw #eye horror #body horror #ommetaphobia tw #drugs tw #ask to tag #hat man #take more and you might even get to meet his family #this is what jordan peterson had to deal with for years this is why his brain all fucked up #sorry lobster boy but im built different #also pls dont actually do this i have psychosis and addiction problems im just being a clown rn

[hella1975]

listening to call your mom rn (god it feels wrong spelling it like that)

gripping u by the shoulders. this song is everything to me.

#OKAY STORYTIME THAT NO ONE ASKED FOR: #do u guys remember that girl that was basically my bi-awakening and we had the very stereotypical #intense homoerotic friendship that traumatised the both of us? yeah her #well basically i still have a lot of love for her and we're still friends like she's in my hometown friend group so when i talk about them #i still mean her and out of our entire group she's the ONLY one who didn't go to uni and me and my other friend spoke recently #about how unhappy we know she is bc she got abandoned by us in this awful hometown and we dont think she loves her boyfriend #so much as she stays with him bc she literally has no one else until we come home her life is literally just waiting for us between terms #and i worry about her all the time and one thing that happened a while back was she did drugs w this one guy by the river #and she completely whitied like it was just weed but she was 17 and had never done it before and turns out she's like me #where edibles just do NOT agree with her on a good day let alone when she took as much as she did and she was with a random boy #by the fucking WIER (basically a big dangerous waterfall) and we were all at our mate's house that was a 40 min walk away #and she RANG ME. i was the one she rang. that still sticks with me. and omg it was so scary bc she was so out of it on the phone #and all i managed to get from her was that Something Was Wrong (didnt know what) and that we needed to pick her up #so we did. we got on bikes and fucking RACED to this girl and we picked her up and in the end she asked for her mum #and i was the one to take her to her mum and knock on the door and stand there with her daughter's arm around my shoulder #barely conscious her sick on my shoes and explain what happened. like WHAT #& yeah basically i still have so much love for that girl and i know she struggles with shit hence why that even happened in the first place #and it's like. im still here. i still love you. i'll call your mum. i'll come and get you. just ring me and i'll pick up. stay on the line. #so yeah this song did unimaginable damage the first time i heard it. literally gives me chills and transports me to my 17 year old self #we were young and didnt know what we were doing and the town was suffocating us #AND WE WERE BOTH DROWNING AND DIDNT KNOW HOW TO SAVE EACH OTHER BUT THERE WAS AN UNDERSTANDING THAT WE WERE DROWNING TOGETHER #ask #noah kahan

[hopeaterart]

I am once again thinking about my concept where Mutant Mayhem Shredder is just a troublemaking teen who's trying to turn the turtles into delinquents.

#tmnt #instead of an intense rivalry or complicated history splinter is just like 'remember boys drugs are bad no matter what that yankee says' #and karai is his MOM #listen i just don't want mm shredder to be a big bad threat if he ever appears in a sequel

[xxcherrycherixx]

Plot twist, the seller actually basically only has monster high instead of ever after high and just seem to be a bit confused-

Anyway i got 3 almost complete monster high dolls and mh cupids diary for £15 🫶

#i had to hold myself back so much #like £5 a doll is begging me to be greedy #but quite a few looked damaged or very incomplete #they had a cupid but she was missing her wings and looked to have customized lips 😭 #i have always wanted the scary tales dolls #they slay tbh #and the ghouls rule dolls even tho they aren’t particularly pricey #and venus!!! i like my original line dolls. i prefer the mh dolls yo be their mainlook since i dont collect a lot of them #she is maybe inly missing her jacket?? #not sure since im not a big mh collector #but im happy im getting my cupid diary!!! yes bitchhhh #i need the eah one too tho #i love that one. like homegirl admits to thinking about drugging a boy into loving her 💀 shes a phsyco i want to kiss her sloppily

[biblionerd07]

Okay I know your opinion on Daniel + beard, which 100% 👍👍👍

What about if beardy Daniel also (hypothetically since we know he doesn't) had a couple of tattoos?

Thoughts please 😊

Well you won't hear any complaints from me! tbh I am not majorly for or against tattoos either way, like I know many people have very strong feelings about tattoos and I'm fine with whatever. I do think Daniel is a bit of a baby so the process of getting a tattoo might be too much for him, but now I am laughing imagining like he and Bobby get drunk at Daniel's bachelor party and Bobby convinces him to get a tattoo because of those like ten minutes where Betty thought she wanted a bad boy (and obviously this is the best way they can come up with for Daniel to show her he's a bad boy) and Daniel's all for it and then the needle comes out and he's like 'omg stop wait, call Betty please I need her to come hold my hand 🥺🥺'

#ugly betty #daniel meade #idk why imagining him with tattoos is just making me laugh #more imagining him GETTING tattoos is making me laugh bc he would whine SO MUCH esp with the aftercare #i just think he's a bit prissy and the needle would freak him tf out #alexis would laugh herself silly bc she's like 'come on you big baby i did it!' #he's like 'betty i AM a bad boy okay remember when i got beaten up by a drug dealer' #'i have punched a man before!!!! for you!!!!' #he thinks the tattoo is going to make him soooo cool and hot and then he's just still daniel but now he also has a tattoo #betty's like why did you think this would change your personality like that doesn't even make sense you're so stupid i love you so much #maybe that's me idk #if he had the beard and needed someone to hold his hand getting a tattoo EYE would gladly hold his hand AND his--signal lost

[floral-hex]

real depressing, probably delete when I’m not miserable and about to fall asleep

Ummm how do trigger warnings work here… tw: substance abuse. Alcohol. Uhhhhmmm just general sad times.

I’ve been thinking a lot about drinking again. Not that I was ever an alcoholic, but… maybe I was a little. I get a little loose with anything that makes me feel good. Long story short, apropos of nothing, I got drunk one New Year’s Eve a couple years back. It was nice. Then I kept getting drunk once or twice or thrice every week for a year before I decided it wasn’t worth it any more. Stopped being as effective, made me gain a bunch of weight, and was just all around a pricey habit. So… I mean, why would I think about doing that to myself again?

Life fucking sucks. A lot. My mom is slowly dying, some days worse than others. I’m so drained and exhausted and I hate this. She’s been in the hospital for about a week now, her second extended hospital stay in two months. I don’t know how to cope with this. I’m taking care of my brothers right now and it’s just so much. Cleaning, shopping, making sure they eat, taking care of them, the animals, everything, driving to see my mom who’s almost an hour away. I’m emotionally exhausted and I feel so alone and scared and to add on to that my hearing started to get muffled today and I’m worried another wave of intermittent hearing loss is coming on. It makes me feel so closed off. I’m trapped. I feel trapped and suffocating and scared and my mom is dying and I’m so alone and don’t know what to do and I just want something that will, even temporarily, take some of that away. I used my last klonopin today and it didn’t do much of anything for me. I just want to get so fucked up out of my mind that I can’t worry about anything. I’m barely sleeping. I’m so tired. I just want to be held. I want someone to hold me and tell me it will all be okay, even if it won’t. I just want someone to lie to me and comfort me for a little while. I’m so scared. I don’t know how to do this. I can do this because I have to. I don’t know how, though. I’m just flinging myself forward, or the world is pushing me forward, I can’t tell the difference right now. I hate saying all of this. I feel so needy. I know I’m allowed to be needy. My therapist gets on to me for always qualifying what I’m saying or down playing or ignoring my feelings, but I feel like such a burden when I complain. I don’t want to be selfish. I’ll suffer in silence all day, I don’t want to add more stress to everyone else. I have to be a rock. I have to be steadfast. I don’t know where to put it down. I don’t know where to rest myself. There is no where. There is nothing. My ears are full of droning noise and I’m in this dark room and I feel so cut off from the world. Like I’m in a small dark box and outside the box I know my life is falling apart but I just can’t quite make out what’s happening. I can’t see but shadows through dark glass. I want to stop feeling like this.

So I’ve been thinking about alcohol. and weed. and whining on some dating app about wanting to make out. I took a vistaril earlier, too, but it really didn’t do anything for me. It’s not an anxiety attack, it’s… it’s the void. and sadness. and stress. and loneliness. It’s too heavy. It’s too much.

I just need to sleep. What a loser.

#might probably most likely will delete this in the morning #then why post it? #maybe for catharsis #and reading this again in half a dozen hours might bring a new perspective to everything #naps and time can provide insight #you can ignore this #you should ignore this #alcohol mention #drug mention #lonely sad boy mention #sad times #hi I’m Ian. I have intermittent hearing loss and my mother is dying. I’m just a big ol mess. #im falling asleep #or I should be. I need to be. I will be. #I have such a hard time making myself sleep #I just want all this free time to myself but then I avoid sleep and it makes everything else worse #I have to get up in 4 hours to get my brothers ready for school #god I need a long hug #I would 100% cry if someone hugged me #also I need to make out and maybe get high but that’s all superfluous wishful thinking #I’ll be good substitute that with… uhhh… chinese food and the daily disappointing wank 😬🫤 #too many tags. I ramble. any chance to really talk and I open up and let loose #I’m sorry #this was dumb.