#but bc I wasn't as obvious with my symptoms I never got diagnosed with anything

[waitineedaname]

ritsu has the flavor of nd where he went undiagnosed for years bc his sibling's autism was much more obvious to people so he slipped through the cracks

#source: me #my sibling's sensory issues were much more obvious than any of my stuff #so she got diagnosed with sensory processing disorder #but bc I wasn't as obvious with my symptoms I never got diagnosed with anything #and didn't realize I might have something going on until high school lol #and I think the same goes for ritsu #bc mob's autism is much more visible #and ritsu's like ''well I don't have the same things going on as my brother so I guess I must be neurotypical'' #<- clueless. dumbass doesn't realize autism is a spectrum #it doesn't even occur to him that he might be nd until he's dealing with a sensory overload #and shou is like ''dude have you ever talked to anyone about your sensory issues?'' ''my what?'' ''oh my god.'' #personally i think ritsu is in the weird gray zone between autism and ocd #I'm totally not projecting at all haha what are you talking about <3 #also I think him masking a lot fits into the theme with him having to fit into roles other people assigned to him and hiding his true self #part of him learning to be more honest about himself involves him not masking as much. peace and love #anyway welcome to sol's Ritsu Thoughts Hour #time to go back to getting ready to post a fic where I put him through hell👍

[heliosoll]

HELP ever since i started meditating and actively trying to wake up in the void i had experienced little “glitches” in reality. they are nothing major or anything but it makes me feel weird. for example i got a notification for a text from my sister but when i clicked on it and went to the chat the text weren’t there?!? it was a different text but still from my sister. and i know for a fact that she didn’t delete the text cuz if she did it would write “this message has been deleted” or sum bcuz it was on whatsapp. or i checked my period tracker app but when i checked it again on the same day it said something different?!?! these happened today. ik it’s not major or anything but it makes me feel like i’m going crazy; bc i KNOW i saw those it wasn’t my imagination or anything but on the other hand i fear that they were hallucinations and i’m just going crazy. WHAT SHOULD I DO

If you're really worried then you should absolutely see a medical or psychiatric professional! I'm not there with you and I can't see what you're going through so I cannot in good conscience tell you to just not worry. If you are genuinely concerned about your mental health, then you should take every measure available to you to get checked out. I'm not trying to scare you, but there are things out there that can cause things like hallucinations or glitches in reality (like carbon monoxide poisoning). I know it's scary to think about, but the earlier you get help, the better your present and future will be.

That being said "little glitches" in reality are actually fairly normal when people start to consciously manifest or shift. Not everyone experiences them but some people do! They're basically what you're experiencing; you know for a fact that something happened but later on it's like it never did. This can be really jarring, for obvious reasons, but if it's just glitches due to manifesting/shifting, then it's nothing to worry about. (You can always manifest them away!) These glitches aren't harmful, just small changes in perceived reality due to someone actively trying to change their reality.

You haven't mentioned manifesting or shifting but considering you sent this to me and you're trying to get into the void, I'd figure I should mention it. Again, if these glitches are because of manifesting or shifting, it's happening because you're actively doing things to change your reality (or your 3D). This can manifest in small ways like the text being different or your app saying something else. I also went through this when I first started shifting as do many other people! For example, I followed people on sns whom I know I had never followed, a show I like had four seasons instead of three (it wasn't new), and a song I liked was never released, among other small things.

Again, if you're worried that it's serious and not related to manifesting/shifting, then I'd recommend looking for other potential symptoms like changes in personality, temperament, memory loss problems, decline in health, sudden sleep problems, etc. I don't recommend diagnosing yourself, you should go to a professional, but you should pay attention to other areas of your life in case it is a health or mental issue. A professional will ask questions about changes in those kinds of things, so be prepared. Trust me, I know it's uncomfortable and scary, but there are steps you can take to help yourself. If you genuinely think it has nothing to do with manifesting/shifting, then you should bring this up with someone as soon as possible. If you genuinely think it's because of manifesting/shifting, then just keep watching to be careful and manifest that you don't continue to experience them.

#letters 🎀