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xsezzie · 7 months

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Profile Tag Game

Hello: My name is Sezzie, I know I can be rather blunt and robotic at times, but I promise you I don’t wish to intentionally hurt you. I am always open to having a chat whether it be in my DMs or through asks.

Chat: Tickling - Of course I like tickling, no shame in that. It’s completely normal… some people get flustered by it? Oh well, those people are the cutest~ Hm? You aren't cute? Well, I guess someone will need some tickles to convince them otherwise!

Chat: Identity - I wonder who I was yesterday, who I’ll be today, and what I’ll be tomorrow… I wish I knew who I was.

Chat: Masking - That thing I just did now, it was incorrect. I will be sure to act correctly in accordance with societal norms next time. If I do not act correctly then others will become disgusted or angry... Just as I would if you were to do the same.

When It Rains: Ugh, this would be nicer if it was at night time…

After the Rain: Everything either looks really clean or really dirty depending on the area… oh look, the birds are coming back out.

When Thunder Strikes: Ah… so relaxing.

When It Snows: What’s that?

When the Sun Is Out: Everything is as it should be…

When the Wind is Blowing: Ugh, my hair is messed up now…

Good Morning: Get up already, the world is perfect at this hour. The bad people don’t come out until later so it’s best to enjoy it while it lasts!

Good Afternoon: So hungry… must do my best to not eat a big meal…

Good Evening: Better get inside… they will be coming out soon.

Good Night: The optimal sleeping hours for those who suffer from depression are 10pm to 5am. Setting yourself a strict bed time will do wonders for your mental health, so hurry along, time for sleep.

About Sezzie: Alphabet - A fellow neurodivergent coworker taught me to think of all my disorders as “my alphabet”… so my alphabet currently is GAD, MDD and BPD… with ASD and ADHD in the process of being diagnosed.

About Sezzie: Writing - I actually hate that I’m the writer in the family and cannot physically draw. But, having a high literacy IQ certainly comes in handy when I’m creating. I’m glad people are able to feel my writing when I put the effort into it.

Something to Share: Name - My real name means “princess” apparently… I hope I don’t come off as one.

Interesting Things: Senses - Ah I love exploring sensory things. Honestly, I believe that feeling sensory pleasure is very soothing and not always supposed to be NSFW as most see it.

Sezzie’s Hobbies: Each of my personalities seems to have different hobbies, but if had to take a guess on the true me… writing, worldbuilding, and video games would be on top! I do also enjoy learning new things and gardening.

Sezzie’s Troubles: My existence troubles me… too dark? Well, deal with it. Life isn’t sunshine and rainbows, and I’m tired of coddling the special ones.

Favourite Food: I do not have the ability to have a favourite food due to my sensory eating issues… my addictions and interests change constantly. Ah but if there is one I’ll always come back to… Chicken Kievs hehe

Least Favourite Food: All of them! I like the art of food but eating? Bleh. I wish we didn’t have to.

About @otomiyaa: Ahhh she is my idol! I have been following her for years.. and only recently got the courage to begin talking to her more. I get nervous and think I come off as some weird fan that thinks they are friends with their idols. Forgive me Otomiya-SAMA!!

About @ticklystuff: He is the first person I began talking to when I joined the community. I feel like I owe him something for all the kindness and chats we have had together. I wish I could talk more often about hot MEN with him hehe

About @ticklish-n-stuff: Sakura-chan is one of the few people I can let my guard down and show my more "embarrassing" or "fangirl" sides to when it comes to characters I like. I am grateful to have her in my life. She also gushes about MEN with me and we have a blast discussing tickling.

About @nataliewritez: Nat is my adorable little sister and is a joy to chat to about anything. I can't believe we have known each other for nearly 2 years already!

About @fanfic-chan: Dessie is so adorable and such a comfy person to be around! Also the biggest lee ever hehe

About @ticklygiggles: Little does she know how cute she is. Perhaps I should go tease her sometime soon...

Tagging @fanfic-chan @nataliewritez @ticklish-n-stuff @ticklystuff @italeean @thatonetickleblog @anzynai @stopiteatpopcorn

#genshin impact #profile game #profile tag game #personal

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ethicallysaucedlibraryfaggot · 2 years

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Samantha Crafts Unofficial Autism Checklist for AFAB's

I just came across this resource and though I would share it. All but maybe 2 of these things apply to me and it is very validating/eye-opening.

A couple disclaimers:

1. This is not a diagnostic tool, its the result of an Autistic persons gathering and compiling the lived experience of Autistic afabs and so it may be valuable in a clinical setting as well as in ones personal journey.

2. Any reference to intelligence is not exclusive to IQ or academic capabilities or acheivement

3. Craft uses she/her pronouns in this work but as an afab agender person I believe it is relevant to most if not all afab people on with autism (self diagnoses included). I will leave it up to trans women and trans feminine people to decide how relevant it is to them.

4. Craft has historically used the term Aspergers and has a book including that word, she seems to have made some attempts to adjust her language in the present but is choosing not to do so retroactively. This choice does not align with my values and I have taken pains to make sure the version here excludes that language. If one got through, I apologize.

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(Section A consideration/prolific artist in place of writer and/or both.)

Section A: Deep Thinkers

A deep thinker

A prolific writer drawn to poetry

*Highly intelligent (Highly intelligent does not relate to IQ levels. Autistic individuals are often dyslexic and have dysgraphia and other learning disabilities but can be highly intelligent about particular subject matters, out-of-the-box thinking, and verbal fluency/fluid intelligence capacities.)

Sees things at multiple levels, including her own thinking processes

Analyzes existence, the meaning of life, and everything, continually

Serious and matter-of-fact in nature

Doesn’t take things for granted

Doesn’t simplify

Everything is complex

Often gets lost in own thoughts and “checks out” (blank stare)

Section B: Innocent

Naïve

Honest

Experiences trouble with lying

Finds it difficult to understand manipulation and disloyalty

Finds it difficult to understand vindictive behavior and retaliation

Easily fooled and conned

Feelings of confusion and being overwhelmed

Feelings of being misplaced and/or from another planet

Feelings of isolation

Abused or taken advantage of as a child but didn’t think to tell anyone

Section C: Escape and Friendship

Survives overwhelming emotions and senses by escaping in thought or action

Escapes regularly through fixations, obsessions, and over-interest in subjects

Escapes routinely through imagination, fantasy, and daydreaming

Escapes through mental processing

Escapes through the rhythm of words

Philosophizes, continually

Had imaginary friends in youth

Imitates people on television or in movies

Treated friends as “pawns” in youth, e.g., friends were “students” “consumers” “members”

Makes friends with older or younger females more so than friends her age (often in young adulthood)

Imitates friends or peers in style, dress, attitude, interests, and manner (sometimes speech)

Obsessively collects and organizes objects

Mastered imitation

Escapes by playing the same music over and over

Escapes through a relationship (imagined or real)

Numbers bring ease (could be numbers associated with patterns, calculations, lists, time and/or personification)

Escapes through counting, categorizing, organizing, rearranging

Escapes into other rooms at parties

Cannot relax or rest without many thoughts

Everything has a purpose

Section D: Comorbid Attributes

OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder)

Sensory Issues (sight, sound, texture, smells, taste) (might have synesthesia)

Generalized Anxiety

Sense of pending danger or doom

Feelings of polar extremes (depressed/over-joyed; inconsiderate/over-sensitive)

Poor muscle tone, double-jointed, and/or lack in coordination (may have Ehlers Danlos Syndrome and/or Hypotonia and/or POTS syndrome)

Eating disorders, food obsessions, and/or worry about what is eaten

Irritable bowel and/or intestinal issues

Chronic fatigue and/or immune challenges

Misdiagnosed or diagnosed with a mental illness

Experiences multiple physical symptoms, perhaps labeled “hypochondriac”

Questions place in the world

Often drops small objects

Wonders who she is and what is expected of her

Searches for right and wrong

Since puberty has had bouts of depression (may have PMDD)

Flicks/rubs fingernails, picks scalp/skin, flaps hands, rubs hands together, tucks hands under or between legs, keeps closed fists, paces in circles, and/or clears throat often

Section E: Social Interaction

Friends have ended friendship suddenly (without female with AS understanding why) and/or difficult time making friends

Tendency to overshare

Spills intimate details to strangers

Raised hand too much in class or didn’t participate in class

Little impulse control with speaking when younger

Monopolizes conversation at times

Brings subject back to self

Comes across at times as narcissistic and controlling (is not narcissistic)

Shares in order to reach out

Often sounds eager and over-zealous or apathetic and disinterested

Holds a lot of thoughts, ideas, and feelings inside

Feels as if she is attempting to communicate “correctly”

Obsesses about the potentiality of a relationship with someone, particularly a love interest or feasible new friendship

Confused by the rules of accurate eye contact, tone of voice, proximity of body, body stance, and posture in conversation

Conversation are often exhausting

Questions the actions and behaviors of self and others, continually

Feels as if missing a conversation “gene” or thought-filter

Trained self in social interactions through readings and studying of other people

Visualizes and practices how she will act around others

Practices/rehearses in mind what she will say to another before entering the room

Difficulty filtering out background noise when talking to others

Has a continuous dialogue in mind that tells her what to say and how to act when in a social situation

Sense of humor sometimes seems quirky, odd, inappropriate, or different from others

As a child it was hard to know when it was her turn to talk

Finds norms of conversation confusing

Finds unwritten and unspoken rules difficult to grasp, remember, and apply

Section F: Finds Refuge when Alone

Feels extreme relief when she doesn’t have to go anywhere, talk to anyone, answer calls, or leave the house but at the same time will often harbor guilt for “hibernating” and not doing “what everyone else is doing”

One visitor at the home may be perceived as a threat (this can even be a familiar family member)

Knowing logically a house visitor is not a threat, doesn’t relieve the anxiety

Feelings of dread about upcoming events and appointments on the calendar

Knowing she has to leave the house causes anxiety from the moment she wakes up

All the steps involved in leaving the house are overwhelming and exhausting to think about

She prepares herself mentally for outings, excursions, meetings, and appointments, often days before a scheduled event

OCD tendencies when it comes to concepts of time, being on time, tracking time, recording time, and managing time (could be carried over to money, as well)

Questions next steps and movements, continually

Sometimes feels as if she is on stage being watched and/or a sense of always having to act out the “right” steps, even when she is home alone

Telling self the “right” words and/or positive self-talk (CBT) doesn’t typically alleviate anxiety. CBT may cause increased feelings of inadequacy.

Knowing she is staying home all day brings great peace of mind

Requires a large amount of down time or alone time

Feels guilty after spending a lot of time on a special interest

Uncomfortable in public locker rooms, bathrooms, and/or dressing rooms

Dislikes being in a crowded mall, crowded gym, and/or crowded theater

Section G: Sensitive

Sensitive to sounds, textures, temperature, and/or smells when trying to sleep

Adjusts bedclothes, bedding, and/or environment in an attempt to find comfort

Dreams are anxiety-ridden, vivid, complex, and/or precognitive in nature

Highly intuitive to others’ feelings

Highly empathetic, sometimes to the point of confusion

Takes criticism to heart

Longs to be seen, heard, and understood

Questions if she is a “normal” person

Highly susceptible to outsiders’ viewpoints and opinions

At times adapts her view of life or actions based on others’ opinions or words

Recognizes own limitations in many areas daily, if not hourly

Becomes hurt when others question or doubt her work

Views many things as an extension of self

Fears others opinions, criticism, and judgment

Dislikes words and events that hurt animals and people

Collects or rescues animals (often in childhood)

Huge compassion for suffering (sometimes for inanimate objects/personification)

Sensitive to substances (environmental toxins, foods, alcohol, medication, hormones, etc.)

Tries to help, offers unsolicited advice, or formalizes plans of action

Questions life purpose and how to be a “better” person

Seeks to understand abilities, skills, and/or gifts

Section H: Sense of Self

Feels trapped between wanting to be herself and wanting to fit in

Imitates others without realizing it

Suppresses true wishes (often in young adulthood)

Exhibits codependent behaviors (often in young adulthood)

Adapts self in order to avoid ridicule

Rejects social norms and/or questions social norms

Feelings of extreme isolation

Feeling good about self takes a lot of effort and work

Switches preferences based on environment and other people

Switches behavior based on environment and other people

Didn’t care about her hygiene, clothes, and appearance before teenage years and/or before someone else pointed these out to her

“Freaks out” but doesn’t know why until later

Young sounding voice

Trouble recognizing what she looks like and/or has occurrences of slight prosopagnosia (difficulty recognizing or remembering faces)

Feels significantly younger on the inside than on the outside (perpetually twelve)

Section I: Confusion

Had a hard time learning that others are not always honest

Feelings seem confusing, illogical, and unpredictable (self’s and others’)

Confuses appointment times, numbers, and/or dates

Expects that by acting a certain way certain results can be achieved, but realizes in dealing with emotions, those results don’t always manifest

Spoke frankly and literally in youth

Jokes go over the head

Confused when others ostracize, shun, belittle, trick, and betray

Trouble identifying feelings unless they are extreme

Trouble with emotions of hate and dislike

Feels sorry for someone who has persecuted or hurt her

Personal feelings of anger, outrage, deep love, fear, giddiness, and anticipation seem to be easier to identify than emotions of joy, satisfaction, calmness, and serenity

Difficulty recognizing how extreme emotions (outrage, deep love) will affect her and challenges transferring what has been learned about emotions from one situation to the next

Situations and conversations sometimes perceived as black or white

The middle spectrum of outcomes, events, and emotions is sometimes overlooked or misunderstood (all or nothing mentality)

A small fight might signal the end of a relationship or collapse of world

A small compliment might boost her into a state of bliss

Section J: Words, Numbers, and Patterns

Likes to know word origins and/or origin of historical facts/root cause and foundation

Confused when there is more than one meaning (or spelling) to a word

High interest in songs and song lyrics

Notices patterns frequently

Remembers things in visual pictures

Remembers exact details about someone’s life

Has a remarkable memory for certain details

Writes or creates to relieve anxiety

Has certain “feelings” or emotions towards words and/or numbers

Words and/or numbers bring a sense of comfort and peace, akin to a friendship

(Optional) Executive Functioning & Motor Skills This area isn’t always as evident as other areas

Simple tasks can cause extreme hardship

Learning to drive a car or rounding the corner in a hallway can be troublesome

New places offer their own set of challenges

Anything that requires a reasonable amount of steps, dexterity, or know-how can rouse a sense of panic

The thought of repairing, fixing, or locating something can cause anxiety

Mundane tasks are avoided

Cleaning self and home may seem insurmountable

Many questions come to mind when setting about to do a task

Might leave the house with mismatched socks, shirt buttoned incorrectly, and/or have dyslexia and/or dysgraphia

A trip to the grocery store can be overwhelming

Trouble copying dance steps, aerobic moves, or direction in a sports gym class

Has a hard time finding certain objects in the house but remembers with exact clarity where other objects are; not being able to locate something or thinking about locating something can cause feelings of intense anxiety (object permanence challenges) (even with something as simple as opening an envelope)

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This unofficial checklist can be copied for therapists, counselors, psychiatrists, psychologists, professors, teachers, and relatives if Samantha Craft’s name and contact information remain on the printout. This list was created in 2012 and updated in May 2016.

Disclaimer: This is one person’s opinion. It is not meant to replace the DSM-V Autism Spectrum condition definition, nor is this list meant to serve as an official diagnostic tool. 1000s and 1000s of individuals around the globe have used this list, in conjunction with the DSM-IV or DSM-V and a professional mental health professional’s guidance. It has been an important tool for females, particularly, but individuals across the gender spectrum identify with the list. The list has been translated into different languages. It is based on over 8 years of communicating, almost daily, with those that are diagnosed or self-diagnosed Autistic. It is not all-inclusive. Some will fit into categories and not be Autistic. This is meant as a springboard for discussion and more awareness.

Author’s Note: I am diagnosed as Autistic/gifted-intellect, and have dyslexia, dyspraxia, GAD, PTSD, hEDS, POTS, fibromyalgia, and other chronic pain conditions. I am not unusual in my presentation; many Autistic adults have many coexisting conditions. This post was originally composed when A***********s Syndrome was a stand-alone diagnosis. At that time, not much was written or discussed about females on the autism spectrum.

In 2022, I was diagnosed ADHD, OCD, and complex-PTSD.

#autism #neurodivergent #asperger was a nazi #hans asperger was a nazi #autism in women #autism in afab people #audhd #actually autistic #ocd #ocd awareness #queer autistic #agender #samantha craft

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neuroglitch · 8 months

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I think sensory processing issues aren't seen as specific to asd is because

1) sensory processing issues are either an incredibly common symptom found in a lot of neurodivergencies or their own separate disorder that is commonly comorbid with asd (I personally like to think of them as their own separate thing as many people in my family have sensory processing issues but otherwise would be considered neurotypical)

2) it's only in the most recent edition of the dsm that sensory processing issues are mentioned in connection to asd, specifically in the "determining severity level" section (I personally dislike this change since I don't get why you'd use a sensory disorder to determine the severity of a social skills/communication/executive functioning disorder)

But basically it boils down to sensory processing issues being acknowledged as a common symptom in multiple disorders before this current wave of asd activism, combined with sensory processing issues only recently being officially connected with asd in the dsm.

Also I just want to say I really appreciate your posts about symptoms not being tied to one diagnosis and about relating and stuff. Sensory processing issues run in my family, and I had ongoing trauma my entire childhood that started before I can remember, so it's literally impossible to say in my case whether I'm autistic, have sensory processing issues and trauma, or some combination of those things. I've also got some type of dissociative plurality thing going on but it doesn't really match the experiences I've seen other people describe and like. It's just really nice seeing the acknowledgement from someone else that not everyone is going to fit neatly in the boxes created by the dsm or online disability communities

Hey!! Yeah I think you are correct on account of the sensory processing - it's a trait commonly seen in a variety of difficulties (and even on its own entirely), and not as heavily associated with ASD specifically. And I feel like if hard pressed, most people would eventually agree that no ONE symptom or trait cannot exist in the same form in someone who's not austistic. And in that way I find myself questioning the protectiveness over certain terms that are used to describe some of those experiences. Esp when it's directed at other disabled and marginalized people who are looking for community and language to describe their experiences.. (not arguing anything, just thinking out loud :p)

I'm happy my post resonated with you!! I relate to what you describe to a degree, as well as I relate it to the experience of a number of my loved ones. And it's really one of the reasons I'm so against this "disorder superiority", where symptoms occurring outside a confirmed specific 'correct disorder' are considered misconstrued at best, fake at worst.

Which leads to everything from people telling me I "must be austistic" because I'm so awkward and weird, to people insisting my friend must have terrible "repressed childhood trauma" she has forgotten bc she has experiences of identity compartmentalization, to people hating on me for being "endo" until they talk to me for ten minutes and then insist I have osdd, to me anxiously trying to avoid using terms like stimming because it's not "mine" and I'm a bad ally if I don't say "fidgeting" bc only autistic people stim (but I also fidget and it's not the same thing), claiming my heavily traumatized partner can't have the symptoms of DID because most of the major trauma happened after he was 10, etc etc.

And it's shit bc for someone like you, it's not like you don't relate to autistic experiences a lot (orherwise you wouldn't be wondering), but unless you are willing to publically agree that you're austistic, there's going to be people who will be armchair diagnosing you if you talk about you experiences, or who will find it distasteful for you to discuss your experiences.

Similarly to how people on occasion have been SO MAD about my odd little plural identity stuff, until they conclude that I'm osdd but has been misled by the evil antipsychiatric agenda or whatever.. and it's like.

If the ONLY thing I would need to do differently for those people to stop being unhappy about my public behaviour is to diagnose myself with osdd (a disorder not present in any diagnostic manual where I live, and based on a set of symptoms that has been repeatedly (i believe wrongly) counted among my psychotic symptoms by all psychiatrists I've ever spoken to), then that's fucked up.

I DO NOT NEED TO CONSENT TO BEING CATEGORISED USING ANY WHICH SPECIFIC DIAGNOSTIC MANUAL FOR MY EXPERIENCES TO BE VALID.

[Do these people think that these sets of symptoms didn't exist before they got described in the Big Book? What ahistorical arrogance! To assume that yes, now, at this Peak of Psychiatric Science, we have finally successfully described all things ever correctly, and there could be no more left to discover or describe - yet clearly 30 years ago (or in most of the world) they were (are) missing a lot, according to these very same people?! Baffling.]

Ultimately it really doesn't matter whether any of us could or could not technically be diagnosed with this or that thing. And frankly, as an educated psychologist this may sound petty or even hypocritical.. But fucking hell, I am tired of the amount of deference to our psychiatric overlords and the DSM-bible..

And the amount of toxicity and exclusion and abuse and gatekeeping that is hiding behind "but science says...!".

It does not. It literally does not. I'm not gonna go into it heavily, but the classification of mental disorders is not a particularly data driven project.

Sorry for going off on a whole ass rant... oops... i think I'm in a Mood lol

#psychiatry critical

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froggy-1988 · 10 months

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Personal update

I am currently going through the official process of diagnosing autism- I score high on the test done so far so... (I'm undergoing a lot of medical treatment at the moment that I find difficult due to sensory stuff and if I actually get the diagnosis then I'll get more help with accessing the medical treatment I need).

In a few days I'll hopefully find out if my tumor that's making me so ill is cancer or not and get a treatment plan through.

I'm kinda really anxious right now, my local police force - like the actual police offices I have to deal with if I have a problem - are causing issues. A few nights ago the parents of an autistic girl (underage) called the police asking help finding her, she was out at night, had been drinking and was vulnerable.

The police found her and took her home - but once in her home the girl turned around to one of the officers and said "you look like my lesbian nana" --- this resulted in them trying to arrest her - seven police officers surrounded her and dragged her out the house despite her having a problem with her spine and when her parent shouted "she's autistic - she loves her nana" the insulted officer just shouted back "I don't care". The girl was obviously having a meltdown and was hurting herself. The police kept her locked up for twenty hours without access to family or psychiatrist. They tried to say they were arresting her for a homophobic slur - it didn't work, just the word lesbian said without a negative connotation doesn't count as a slur. Then they tried to arrest her on a public disorder offense - except they couldn't because she was in her own home at the time of arrest so not in public - they let her go. Releasing a statement that pretty much said yes there's a video on social media but don't believe it we've got videos too (it was a long video quite a lot of the situation was obvious from it) - then they said our offices have the right to go about our business without facing insults.... Then when it was obvious that wasn't going down well they removed everything and blocked all social media contact.

Basically it's a bit of an anxious time to be going through an autism diagnosis- and with the pain from my tumor I am having the occasional meltdown - Iwas good at avoiding them and masking but things are more hard at the moment. I really feel for that girl and everyone whose been through similar. I worry for myself and for my son whose also going through the process.

Police really need training on what autism is - what a meltdown is - and how to de- escalate a situation rather than just pushing through aggressively - and to question their own self righteous beliefs - I mean cone on guys, telling somebody they look like the lesbian granny you love is probably not and insult - especially if it's coming from an autistic child who probably can't read a situation as well as some might.

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nyxetoile · 11 months

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Ive been headcanoning amanda as autistic for some reason and every single time i read one of your fics and i see a Quirk that i can attribute to autism i get so excited.

Like theres this moment where amanda mentions needing to get nice yarn because “these hands dont touch acrylic” i got really excited and went “thats Texture Issues, babey!”

Anyway Amanda is autistic and her special interest is niche broadway musicals. illuminati confirmed.

I've sort of been waiting for this ask 'cause I as I wrote more and more for her it became obvious to me that Amanda is some sort of neuro-spicy. The only neurodivergence I gave Amanda consciously is Sensory Processing disorder which, as you point out, is a symptom of ASD. Given her age and gender, she would have been extremely unlikely to be diagnosed with anything as a child and most of her "quirks" probably would have been attributed to losing her mother young. So, feel free to head canon her as autistic, or anything else you like, she is definitely some flavor of ND.

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rags-roleplay-blog · 1 year

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Character File for: “Piper Reed”

Name: Piper Reed

Gender: F

Age: 16

Occupation: high school student, volunteer at Princeton Plainsborough Teaching Hospital

Place of residence: her family’s home in the city (I don’t know much about New Jersey so I don’t know where she would live specifically, sorry)

Family: Mom, Dad, two older brothers (both med school students)

Pets: Spud (short for Spudnik), her emotional support dog

Diagnoses: autism spectrum disorder, AD/HD, anxiety, sensory processing disorder

Background:

Piper grew up surrounded by doctors of all kinds. Her mom’s a nutrition specialist, her dad’s a brain surgeon, and her two older brothers are in med school. Because of her diagnoses, her parents underestimate Piper and provide her with more assistance than she’s comfortable with. She’s constantly having to prove herself to everyone, but her parents don’t always recognize her accomplishments. They insisted on getting her an emotional support animal despite her insisting that she doesn’t need one, and they got her one anyway. It’s all very frustrating for her.

Piper wants to be an oncologist one day. She’s wanted to treat people with cancer ever since one of her classmates in kindergarten had to leave school after being diagnosed with leukemia. When she told her parents about her dream, they suggested she start small and volunteer at the local hospital to get a better sense of what cancer patients have to go through. As soon as she started high school, Piper did exactly that. She joined a volunteer organization that allowed her to spend her weekends cheering up cancer patients in the pediatric ward. She plays video games with them and tells them stories where they’re the heroes. She does anything she can to bring a smile to their faces.

[Image will be added soon!]

#house oc #house md oc #house md #character file #Piper the volunteer #Piper reed #Piper

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systemsteamjunk · 1 year

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Long Bad Therapy Rant

I will be leaving my therapist as soon as I can get any sort of assessments that she will agree to. This past session she stopped listening to me to google (google!!!) whether or not aspergers was still a "valid diagnosis" when I mentioned that I was pretty sure it wasn't. She then said it was only around June this year that it stopped being a valid diagnosis (I did not check but a lot of my autistic friends were like ??¿? it has been at least 5 if not closer to 10 years according to several many other professionals) and said she thought maybe I had that and not "full blown autism". I was talking about having others front and introduce themselves to my partner/my partner mentioning someone else being out and asking if I knew who it was, how I had been losing time and only able to 'know' vaguely what happened during that time instead of having any actual memory of it or not knowing at all and having my partner fill me in (if they were around; I lose a lot of time when they're at work so then I just kinda have to guess based on what the situation is and what changed between my last memory and present awareness) when I returned from dissociation station and she goes "I don't think you have DID, you don't lose time or have amnesia, maybe you are just depersonalized or splintering. I worked with someone who had DID once and he used to pretend to be Batman so I had the police watch him." Part of the reason I started seeing a therapist was to try and find ways to retain memory and she said we'll start with the fact that you have no memory of anything before high school and we'll do that by Asking Your Family For A Rundown Of Your Trauma (which I did one thing with and then she refused to help me process it when I asked for help and I Know that asking for a Quick Lil Timeline of trauma is a bad idea for me). Also did not know what OSDD was when I mentioned I started looking into these things because I had a friend with OSDD. Referred to alters as "characters". Also mentioned my issues with sensory overload and she was like "okay so what you do, right, is focus on all five of you senses" which maybe could work in some situations but I think if I am starting to experience sensory overload in public and then focus on what I can feel I will end up ripping off my socks and shirt and panicking. Yesterday I went to a work party with my fiancee and I was like "I cut out some sensory things and then when I got home I decompressed by doing as little looking, listening, smelling, tasting, and feeling as possible" and I think if I hadn't done that I still would be unable to put clothes on. Neither of these (autism or any specific dissociative disorder) are things that I feel I personally am able to self-dx so I do want some assessments done (even if she won't refer me to someone to do assessments for dissociative disorders, it would be helpful to get a general assessment; I will still be leaving even if that's the only one I get) and I am pretty sure I am part of a system and would just like some guidance on what to be looking into and would like a diagnosis to help when I'm dealing with Big Doubt Times and also to be able to look for someone who maybe specializes in whichever dissociative disorder I have or to get a more solid "you are not part of a system and should look into X instead". This woman literally thinks that all I have is anxiety (I am diagnosed with GAD, MDD, and PTSD) and apparently "aspergers" and anxiety is the only thing that needs treatment when the majority of my anxiety is managed with medication and things I have learned from other therapists.

#osddid #traumagenic system #autism #osdd #did #can someone please help #like how do i locate a therapist who will actually listen to me #and one that will admit when they are out of their depth and refer me to someone else #she thinks she's doing Great and I don't know how to be like I am actively trying to leave you #like i know it's a thing but she thinks i don't need more help when i am consistently asking for more help #do I just go “this isn't working; can you suggest someone else?”#or do I just say this isn't working and try and find someone else on my own?

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tobydandelion · 2 years

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A Very Autistic Adult's Very Weird Journey to Independence

TW: Emotional abuse and eating disorders.

I've decided that I'm finally at a point where I've thoroughly processed the emotions of my past enough to start telling my very strange story. I'm at the most stable point I've ever been in my life, even though I know I've still got a lot of bumps in the road ahead. I finally have the tools to face the world, and I feel like screaming my experience into the void is a comfy way to start practicing truly reconnecting with humanity.

For the past 9 years, I had been trapped in a very toxic and all-consuming relationship. When I met her, I had just arrived in Des Moines, after being disowned by my family. I was 20, homeless, not yet diagnosed with autism due to my family's distrust of psychology, and at the very beginning of understanding my gender identity. It was actually a trangender support group that brought us together; she had also just begun hormones and using her current pronouns, and had a rough relationship with her parents, and we connected over our similar experiences and trauma. We also connected over our geeky interests and how neither of us could really get along with the others from the support group. We felt like two outcasts that, despite everything, managed to find each other. And for a long time it felt like that's all we'd ever need.

I had managed to have a couple jobs in the first half of our relationship, but both ended fairly quickly after multiple episodes of what I thought at the time were panic attacks, but now in hindsight have come to understand were actually autistic meltdowns from overstimulation and 'social battery' depletion. It was after quitting my second job that I was finally able to get in front of a psychologist who put everything together and came up with the diagnosis of 'Autism Spectrum Disorder'. (And quite far on the spectrum at that.) My whole life I had been having 'panic attacks', when trying to make phone calls, trying to do paperwork, talking to people in groups, and in stores or other bright places, and never understood why no amount of exposure to these things ever made them any easier. I had felt like it was my fault, like I wasn't trying hard enough to 'get better', but I was finally on the road to separating anxiety and overstimulation, and understanding that preventing one could reduce the other. I was finally able to start healing and understanding myself, and how I could finally start to pursue happiness.

Armed with my fresh diagnosis and the very beginnings of understanding my own sensory needs, I started volunteering at the local animal shelter. It was so bright and loud and full of people and other overwhelming stimuli that I would have meltdowns almost every time, but I started to at least be able to internalize it into 'shutdowns' until I got home. It was around this time that She started to illegally obtain cannabis for me, so that I could use it on a daily basis to better manage my stimulation levels and anxiety, and prevent shutdowns and meltdowns. I had previously used cannabis legally in California where I grew up, (for 'anxiety'; now I understand in hindsight it was actually preventing the overstimulation that causes meltdowns), but my ineptitude at social situations and inability to understand anything other than the most basic math prevented me from obtaining it illegally by myself. So with Her help, I got an actual job at the animal shelter, and carried on with fluctuating functionality as She continued to provide the medication that allowed me to have a semi-normal life.

When medical cannabis finally became available in our state, I was so excited to finally stop being afraid of getting caught with something illegal, and asked her to help get me into the program. I'm very disabled by phone static (phone calls basically cause instant meltdowns due to all the different noises that are happening at once), and overwhelmed and confused easily by paperwork, so I thought she would help with this just like she had with all my medical things in the past. But with this, she wouldn't help. I didn't understand at first, I thought she would be just as excited as me to stop living in fear about getting caught, and it would save us so much money to not pay street prices or drive out of state for it. But she didn't want that.

I realized it was the control. I had been too close to the situation to see, but with this realization I noticed so much else that she had been doing to try to keep me as exactly as disabled as she wanted. She had always refused accommodation like keeping the lights dim, had always refused to stop talking when I begged her to leave me alone due to depleted social battery, and would send long rambling texts that were intentionally confusing when she knew I was emotionally overwhelmed. And she would scream at me and shake me for trying to ignore her while I was trying to avoid meltdowns. I thought she was just ill, and I had tried to be patient and let her heal on her own terms, but her decision to keep my medication under her control solidified my understanding of what she had been doing to me for years.

I finally decided I needed to get away. I asked her to leave a few times over the course of a six month period, but she had always convinced me that I still needed her. She had been right. I was trapped and she knew it. I couldn't get to work without her, couldn't work without the medication she provided, and couldn't even get help with these things because I couldn't make phone calls or understand social services websites, or reach out to anyone I already knew due to my total social isolation.

But when I stopped hating myself and stopped masking my autistic traits through the process of deciding to leave her, I finally noticed I'm kind of physically attractive to certain groups of people. (Including myself! I'm autosexual, look it up!)

I had started letting myself stim at work, mostly by dancing and moving to music as I worked. I started to get physically fit from doing this, and had a lot of fun discovering how many people enjoyed my appearance. Turns out I had 'good bone structure', and as a passing trans man I was a fetishized object to quite a few people.

She and I had always been polyamourous, and had recently made the decision to find other side partners using Grindr. I began using it for practice communicating online, and began researching the allosexual mind, and started to understand how I was perceived by others who found me attractive. This was very fun and exciting, but also solidified my understanding of the resource that is my appearance and fetishized qualities. I started to understand that I could use these resources to escape her, so I stopped consuming cannabis in preparation for getting it legally with the help of a new theoretical significant other. Though I resolved to never do anything I didn't want to do, and never present anything other than my whole, genuine self. Not only because I'm a terrible liar, but also because I knew that was the only way to retain my newfound self-worth and inner peace.

I discovered through trial and error that I could still avoid meltdowns and shutdowns without cannabis, but only if I stopped masking completely, and took extreme measures to regulate my sensory intake. I began stimming as much as my body told me to, wearing earplugs 24/7, wearing sunglasses indoors in all but the dimmest light, started excercising regularly, limited all screentime to dark mode only, stopped watching videos, and started listening to music nonstop. I discovered that with all this, I felt better than I ever had in my life, even with cannabis. I had always felt a constant anxiety and general unease, but it was gone. For the first time in my life, I felt like I actually could be a real person. An actual participant in the world. It was like waking up, and I started to actually look forward to the future. I finally felt human, like I could finally make a place in the world for myself.

But taking care of my sensory needs, according to Her, was mania. She stopped buying me the foods I could eat with my orthorexia, and tried to convince me to go to a hospital. I tried to explain that since cannabis was still in my system, going in for a psyche evaluation could ruin my chances for medical cannabis in the future. But now I understand that was her plan. She saw my growing independence and was terrified of losing her stranglehold on my life.

I finally decided it was an emergency to get her out of my life and start getting actual help. I was starving from her refusal to buy food I could eat, and in constant sensory distress from her screaming and turning lights up on me.

So it was finally time for action. I told the animal shelter about my situation and that I probably couldn't return, locked Her out of the apartment, used an emergency fund I had stashed away to doordash a month's supply of food and toiletries, and started telling my situation to the few sweet folks on Grindr with whom I had made what I thought were genuine connections, in hopes of getting help with phone calls and paperwork. Of course, I decided I couldn't ask directly for this, but would let what I needed help with come out in conversation naturally, to avoid getting taken advantage of. I knew that the only way to do this safely was for the person to genuinely care for me as a whole human, and my ineptitude at social interaction prevented me from reading people's true intentions. So I began telling my story and explaining my disability to anyone who asked of these things.

After opening up about her abuse, one of them suddenly proposed, saying he would take care of me. In hindsight I understand that this was predatory, taking advantage of my fragile emotional state, but as I had never understood dating and social situations like this in the first place, I accepted, knowing this would mean help with the things I needed help with. He lived hours away, and I had only had two dates with him before this. But I genuinely enjoyed his company and thought he was a very courteous, caring, patient person based on these interactions. And after the years of abuse and control, I still thought I needed another person to run my life for me.

Luckily, I met someone else who shook me out of this mindset in time. He wouldn't help with phone calls or paperwork either, but he helped me understand that I could get that help without completely handing my agency over to another person, and that the proposal was a predatory move. He actually contacted my 'fiancé', and got him to admit his intention was never even to marry me anyway. So I was able to avoid that terrible trajectory, and stayed on track to gaining full independence. (If you ever happen to read this, thanks buddy. I'll never forget what you did for me and how you've helped me grow and learn. <3 )

So I continued making connections, and having lots of fun along the way. I was able to retain my optimism and mental health, (despite the ticking clock of eviction from my apartment due to my sudden lack of income), through the dialectical behavioral therapy tools I had developed from the therapists I had watched on YouTube before deciding to leave Her. As well as surrounding myself with hopeful, comforting, and motivating music. And I continued to take extreme measures to care for my sensory needs, and still only presented my full and genuine self, and still never did anything with anyone that I didn't want to do.

Then it finally happened. Someone who I had been talking to finally understood how disabled I was and what I needed, and I trusted him enough that I provided him with all my legal information and personal documentation, and he helped me to get a social worker.

It was just in time, as the eviction was closing in. This wonderful friend helped me to go to court and stop the eviction, but as the landlord wouldn't work with the social worker's agency to take payment, I still needed to find a new place to live. My social worker discovered that I needed to get on disability income to assist with getting me permanent housing, so I continued to make connections and tell my story to those who wanted to hear it. Luckily I found a friend in time who would let me stay with him for a little while. He had actually asked his landlord if I could stay, so once again I have a time limit, (specifically until mid September) and will need to find someone else to live with while waiting on getting approved for disability. My social worker discovered that my records from my original diagnosing psychologist are unobtainable, as the doctor has retired. So now I'm going to have to wait for rediagnosis for both medical cannabis and the social security income that will allow me to live independently.

But if I can find someone else to live with before then, I will be alright. And I know I can. I've learned a lot recently, and become a lot better at asking for help. I'll keep making connections and reaching out, on various platforms now, until I find someone who I can live with until disability approval, and as always, I'll make sure to have fun along the way, and always be myself.

And eventually, very soon now, I know I can become truly independent. It's just a matter of time before I have full autonomy over my life. I've gained a lot of patience and strength through this journey, and learned how to effectively stand up for myself and communicate my needs. And I'll keep learning every day. And I'll keep adding new music to my therapy playlist! I'll remember to Try Everything that might help me learn and grow, and I'll remember to love myself first, and never let anyone or anything stop me from always being myself.

There's my music therapy playlist, in case any other very autistic trauma survivors who happen to read this post might enjoy it. :3

And if anyone who reads this feels bad for me: Ew, stop it. I'm happy and hopeful, and living proof that loving yourself is always enough. <3

#autism #actually autistic #disability pride #disabled pride #lgbtq #autistic pride #autistic positivity #trans pride #neurodivergent #actually neurodivergent #asexual #asexual pride #abuse recovery #self love

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softlittleheartsandsparkles · 9 months

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I feel like i've asked you before to do a trigger warning when mentioning bpd even mildly. I have trauma, my abuser was a borderline. So reading even a tiny bit about bpd really triggers me. can you please do a tw when mentioning bpd. it would make this space much more friendly to me.

I feel like i've received this request before, yes. But I think my answer at the time was no, and I'm still at a big no. I don't really feel comfortable with tagging a complex mental disorder with a tw. Because I briefly mention it with no details. I feel like that idea itself might give someone mixed ideas. And who's to say next someone doesn't ask for psychosis to be tagged because it makes them think of their abuser. That's not fair to anyone suffering with psychosis. It not far for anyone with bpd, and its not fair for anyone with any other diagnose who could then be asked to be flagged. My biggest advice is always to just unfollow if you don't like what i'm posting. You can take better charge of your triggers more than asking someone to tag. & trust me there's many really cute blogs that don't speak about disorders. I also don't mind my follower count going down. Please take care of your health. Trauma talk: My ex use to beat his head & fists against walls, doors and other object when he got upset with me, blamed me for it. It became "Your making me do this" 'I can't help it, I have to do this" "just stop talking so I can stop." (and stop talking could be me begging/asking him at the time to stop. if I didn't say anything he'd say i'm being heartless and selfish. I should be begging him to stop. there was no winning.) He also would call it "autistic stimming" if I brought up how uncomfortable it makes me. So not only was it my fault he'd bashed his head/hands against walls/other solid objects, in disagreements. (I.e. he'd say "No. I do not want *bashes head* you to go to school.") but also he's stimming so i'm not being accepting/ableist. To him it didn't matter he'd do it to highlight a disagreement. He'd do it if I brought home veggies for myself to eat, (he hates veggies, said they trigger his sensory processing disorder. Like visible seeing them was enough. Hed complain he'd have to toss his food out now because they share the same fridge space. so i'm a "selfish bitch" for doing this to him. However oddly enough he never did this when our vegan roommate moved in. She told us prior to moving she's vegan and these specific outbursts stopped. so... hm.) If want to do things for school (field trips for marine biology. he'd get upset so I wouldn't go.) or want to buy myself something with my money or wanna hangout with friends. These are things we'd disagree about, he'd bash his head and it be the end of whatever. Cause he'd go until he's red. It also didn't matter if I said "Okay, I won't." it became a "well I have to do this now, you made me." He did the same thing to a roommate/ex roommate. Our ex-roommate was in the process of moving out, my ex (bf at the time) tried to convince him to stay, when the guy said no, and went to his room to collect his things, my ex then walked into his room and bashed his head into the wall, going "YOUR MAKING ME DO THIS." in some failed hopes the guy would stay. The guy left, came back with his dad the next day and my ex sulked in our shared bedroom, didn't come out to say goodbye to the guy or anything. The reason why I bring this up, isn't just to be like, I got trauma. Its actually to say I personally don't think about him any time I read someone's bio that mentions autism. I don't automatically think this or that person is going to be like him. (There's also the fact I believe I may be autistic too. but idk xD) I personally separate people from diagnoses, and wait for people to act out poorly & address that. And some people, they never act out poorly, so that assumption wouldn't fit. & that means I could miss out on friendships due to a biased I could easily believe. So, Rather than assume "all people with (blank) act like (blank)" . I don't. He's signed up in my brain as his behavior is just his. He's just an asshole. Diagnose don't excuse it, or even explain it, I feel like he used terms to sneak by, but yeah. I personally don't blame diagnosis for crappy behavior. I blame the individual.

#scribbles #tw: trauma talk

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moontouched-cryptid · 11 months

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Ooc: Demetra is a questionablly good person, if you look at it the right way. She's got a moral code and compass.

She's also (secretly)* a Giovanni with much of what that entails.

Name: Demetra Philomena Giovanni Nickname: Demi

Pronouns: She/Her Sexuality: Demisexual/Questioning Age: Young adult in appearance. Height: 4'11” Clan: Gangrel** Giovanni

Generation: Unknown Demenor: Feral Nature: Survivor/Feral Path: Humanity (low) Aura: Black veins, very thick.***

Also: Dolche. A creature made from matter/death magic.

General TW for allusions to incest, child abuse, child endangerment, body horror, abuse (emotional), abuse (religious), cannibalism, murder, dealing with trauma, ABA, Ableism, forced masking/pretending to be okay

Demi is somewhat based on me and her family tried to make her act allistic. She is Autistic and was not diagnosed.

Demtra has sensory processing disorders, as well as emotional processing ones. So she will be volatile sometimes and excitable at others. And can get overstimulated quite easily.

There will be references to incest due to her family.

*(got caught because she's an arrogant dumbass) **She is a filthy liar who lies and did the forbidden sippy (mun cannot spell it and doesn't want to look it up every time) ***At least THREE times (god forbid a woman do anything)

#pinned post

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bee-squared-official · 3 years

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Julian Bashir: *does a thing*

Me: oh hey I do that thing too

Autistic community: oh hey I do that thing too because I am autistic, maybe Julian Bashir is autistic

Me: that makes perfect sense! Anyway, now to move completely on with my life and ignore the implications

#when people have a story like #I told me dad I like boys and girls and he says everyone is like that #who’s gonna tell him?#I’m the dad #who’s gonna tell ME #when people are like i told my mom I’m trans and she says everyone feels like that #who’s gonna tell her #I repeat #I mean I know I’ve got sensory processing disorder #shoutout to the therapist who diagnosed it #idk I just #it’s not like it would improve my life if I knew #it’s not like I’d have any benefit from being autistic #but sometimes I feel like it would explain a lot #but then again I’m also a massive hypochondriac so maybe it’s all in my head #but sensory processing disorder is real and I thought that was just in my head too

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chrisevansdaughter · 2 years

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Life works for us and against us

Summary: Reader gets adopted by Chris and has a sensory overload whilst out getting decorations in a Mall at the weekend when its major busy.

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Pairing: Chris Evans x Adopted!Daughter

Warnings: Mentions of panic attacks, medication *Citalopram that is mentioned is primarily used in the US to treat GAD*, mentions of medical conditions, doctors visits, sensory issues / overload and just PURE Chris FLUFF with him being a dad.

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Y/N’ POV

Life wasn’t the best for me from the start, bouncing around in foster homes and in the care system wasn’t where you’d want to grow up.

Being in the system taught me how to fend for myself and hide how I really felt, since I’d always have issues with anxiety and problems with different situations that would overwhelm me in a sensory way.. That with what I’ve learn now are nervous tics aren’t things people want to add on to their shoulders with a foster kid.

But there was one person who didn’t mind the ‘extra’ care my now diagnosed problems came with.

That person being Chris.

**time skip 4 weeks later**

CHRIS’ POV

It’s been 4 weeks since I’d adopted y/n and it’s been amazing, it’s taken awhile for her to warm up to me and my family that is now our family and I couldn’t be happier. During the month she’s been my daughter we went to the doctors on her social worker’s advice to get her tested for sensory and anxiety disorder since there was traits and red flags in their words that link to both of those.

I’d notice little things but I didn’t really think much into it since it’s a new space and she needs time acclimate to the new surroundings. With that y/n was diagnosed with

Generalised Anxiety Disorder

Attachment Disorder

Sensory Processing Disorder

Believe me it’s a lot but it made us understand that there was underlying causes which weren’t a surprise. So I thought it was a good idea to dedicate a room in the house for her as a calm room with comforts that would come in use whenever she’d need it.

One of those times being today.

Y/N’ POV

So I’ve been with Dad for a month now and he’s been nothing short of amazing everything I’ve ever wanted in a dad never mind a family, today was a particularly weird day because we had errands to run so going out really did set off the sensory issues and my anxiety because of the crowds coupled with the general overbearing noise since it was the weekend.

It’s bad because it was almost like a sixth sense since I knew it was gonna be a bad day. It started off going to the mall to get some different bits for the room that we were decorating which was my calm room and just to have a fun day out, since we were still bonding as the new Evans father daughter duo; we were out for about three hours when it really started to get bad..

It started with the little ‘tics’ I have like whistling, clicking and squeezing anything I have in my hand (usually it’s dads hand because comfort and human touch)when I got to the point I was either on the verge of a panic attack or sensory based overload.

Since the way it was currently going Dad decided it was time to finish up and start making our way home as the nervous tics I have were a pretty good indicator to how I was feeling in the certain situation.

CHRIS’ POV

Y/n and I were currently out having a father daughter day to grab some decorations for her sensory room it was later in the day but still busy, it was a tad bit uncomfortable for me personally but for bubba it was 5x worse and more overwhelming, it was visible in her face it was difficult for her.

30 minutes pass Chris and Y/n had just finished in a store getting some weighted blankets,bean bags and pillows for the room; Chris starts to notice y/n stimming or ticking as she called it which meant one of two things was coming. To avoid that situation in public eye view, Chris made the decision it was time to go home.

After getting in the car to make our way back home it got progressively worse, to the point I had to pull over to coach y/n though a panic attack as it was just too overwhelming for her coupled with now being able to pin point where this was all stemming from, it pulled on my heart strings as her new dad I loved her so much as if she was my own to see her going though this but I taught her in the short time I’ve been her dad to embrace this and not see it as problem.

“Are you okay bubs? We’re almost home just another minute.” I asked quietly knowing she’d need the reassurance that she was safe and in a calm environment

“I- no” she mumbled unsure of how she sounded not trusting her voice.

“We’re home now sweetheart so we can go straight upstairs with Dodger to the calm room, okay.” I mentioned Dodger knowing that Y/n took a very quick liking to him with the great comfort he gives her too since this wasn’t the first time this happened since her being my daughter.

**time skip 1 hour later**

Y/N’ POV

After calming down a considerable amount in my room that dad was right about it benefiting me massively, I felt less overwhelmed but still to a point i was whistling and laying with Dodger on the floor stroking his fur; dad was just sitting with me after draping a weighted blanket over me to ground me more than what he hugs could do normally a hug would do it but not this time unfortunately.

“Okay bubba I’m going to get a drink and some of your Citalopram, do you need anything else?” He asked just to be sure that these nothing else I needed.

“No dad I’m okay, love you.” I mumbled still on the floor pressed against Dodger’ body.

“Love you too sweetheart.” He replied giving me a kiss on her forehead before leaving the room.

After meds were had and more cuddles ensued y/n was finally content with a Disney movie on in the background and back to her ‘normal’ self whatever normal looked like for the father daughter duo..

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Fin

A/N I hope you enjoyed my first organic fic that was created for tumblr, it did take about 6 hours including procrastinating to write but it was a joy to write.. Lastly any constructive feedback is welcome and reposting is welcome*please DO NOT under any circumstances share this as your own or on any other platform unless shared by myself*

#chris evans x y/n #chris evans x reader fluff #chris evans daughter #chris evans #sensory processing issues #sensory processing disorder #anxiety #chris evans x reader #chris evans x daughter!reader #adoptedbychrisevans #chrievansdaughter #fluff #reader #chrisevansdaughter #chris evans x teen!reader #chris evans headcanon #answered asks #chris evans fanfiction #chris evans fic

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dashing-darlings · 3 years

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Back to school at Truly Me Academy!

So I planned to post this last week when the schools around me went back in session, but between work, animal sitting, and my job I just had no time.

Anyway, all my Truly Me's go to Truly Me Academy. This is a special school (in my ideal and perfect doll world) which welcomes children who have problems in mainstream school. These kids have disabilities, have been bullied, are queer, or face other difficulties in school. They also accept siblings to make life easier on parents. At this school kindness is key. Kids learn to celebrate differences, receive the support they need, and get specialized learning plans that center around their interests. (In other words I'm creating the school I wish I could have gone to as a kid).

Below the cut is the girls' first day of school pictures and their hopes for the school year (warning long post)

Artemis Soto: 8th grade

Artemis joined the school after receiving her EDS and gastroparesis diagnoses as well as her feeding tube. The school staff are trained in helping her with her feeding tube. And when her class has treats they make sure they always have a gastroparesis friendly option for her (like milkshakes!) Artemis loves physical activity so her teachers make sure she has plenty of time to run around on the playground. She recieves physical therapy twice a week to keep her joints stable. She's excited to finish middle school and enter the school's high school program.

Castor Soto: Grade 4

Castor goes to TMA as a sibling student and also because she has ADD. Her teacher gives her plenty of movement breaks so she can refocus her mind. She also loves the flexible seating and stim toys that are always available. Castor has an interest in medicine so the school nurse sometimes takes her aside to help on medical rounds. It's really made her realize she wants to be a doctor when she grows up.

Astra Marsh: Grade 5

Astra has type 1 diabetes and her old school was not equipped to deal with her unstable blood sugar. At TMA she receives education on how to manage her own condition with built in breaks for her to grab snacks. Even better one of the secretaries has diabetes too and has taken Astra under her wing! The two find time every week to go to the school's kitchen where they create delicious foods everyone can enjoy.

Nova Phillips: Grade 2

Nova is Astra's half-sister who goes to the school as a sibling student. She's always convinced there's a mystery to be solved (like who takes all the purple paperclips?) She's rambunctious and is able to bring many of the shyer students out of their shells. Last year she was voted classroom best friend!

Celeste Murphy: Grade 4

Celeste has been going to TMA since she was in preschool. She has a number of conditions including spina bifida, hydrocephalus, autism, and sensory processing disorders. Her parents were so happy to find a school that incorporated physical and occupational therapy into the school day. Celeste loves that she's allowed to do all of her reports on her special interest, dinosaurs 🦕. She is encouraged to openly stim and her classroom has been designed to be mobility and sensory friendly.

Mitsuki Ito: Grade 5

Mitsuki tried to go to a mainstream school for all of a year before her parents withdrew her. The administration was refusing to let her use the girl's bathroom and she occasionally got mean comments. But her new teacher at this school is nonbinary! All the students are allowed to express their gender in a way which makes them comfortable and there is a number of staff who are members of the LGBT+ community. She's always been made to feel welcome by all the girls in her class and is invited to so many sleepovers!

Andromeda Imara: Grade 8

Andromeda became hard of hearing after a severe MRSA infection in her ears and she has albinism. She and her entire class is learning sign language as a class so that she can take out her hearing aids and still communicate with the rest of the class. She loves sports and is on the school's soccer team. Her coaches ensure that she is always well protected from the sun when she is outside.

Persephone Imara: Grade 7

Please excuse Percy, she's busy being a fashion icon. Percy attends TMA as a sibling student, but that doesn't mean she doesn't get specialized attention. Her teachers realize her love for both botany and fashion and tailor her curriculum to incorporate both! She loves getting to design costumes for the school's drama department.

All the girls are very excited for this new school year, especially as they were just told two new students will be joining them soon!

#american girl doll #american girl dolls #ag dolls #american girl

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docholligay · 3 years

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Don’t reblog this because MY GOD do i not want the input of anyone I don’t fucking know on this, but I feel like I’ve been a crazy person all of these years for shouting about how ADHD and Autism are cousins and all of a sudden I’m seeing discussion about how close they are and like...YES, I’ve been saying this for fucking years.

And there’s an interesting discussion to be had about if they aren’t different--varieties, I suppose--of the same neurological THINGY. I was talking with a psych I got to synagogue once and she opined that nowadays I might have been dxed with autism, even though, I don’t ....personally, i guess, feel that’s true of me.

BUt anyway my larger point isn’t that, my larger point is yes, they are closesly related, which is why one shouldn’t be shocked that a ton of people with ADHD also have sensory processing disorder, to the point that people named Doc, whoa re me, actually just think SPD is a part of having ADHD, in the same way that it’s largely a part of diagnosing autism.

But also but also, they are closely related and so I’m wondering if we’ll ever collectively get to the point that autistic people have largely reached which is:

THERE”S NOTHING FUCKING WRONG WITH ME AND YOU DON’T GET TO DEFINE HOW I HANDLE MY ADHD BASED ON MY INCONVENIENCE TO YOU.

AGAIN DON’T REBLOG THIS. I AM INTERESTED IN THE DISCUSSION BUT NOT WITH FUCKING bpdnonbinarygeminihotaru or however the kids I don’t know are naming themselves on tumblr nowadays.

#god I semi unfairly loathe the character identity names #and that's true even if I back the play 10000%#I'd roll my eyes at adhdlesbiantracer also #show your work don't scream at me in your goddamn tumblr name

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concerningwolves · 3 years

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Hey I'm doing a short story for class about an autistic girl who discovers she have telekinesis and I want to knows how to portray her properly and how beint autustic affect her powets with makint autism sounds baf

Hi anon! I’m very sorry if I’m answering this too late for you; I barely had time to even look at my inbox in October and November, and then when I got time to do so this month, I got overwhelmed by the backlog. Nonetheless, I’ll answer this and hope that even if it’s too late for your original purpose, something in it will help you (/help anyone else who reads this) :]

AUTISM, SUPERPOWERS & FAIR REPRESENTATION

Okay, so, the basic answer to “how not to make autism sound bad” is approach the story with compassion and/or empathy – but that’s a very broad answer and probably not overly helpful for specifics. I’ll start with the “how to represent autism well” part and then break down the superpower-specific stuff from there.

1) Autism should be an integral part of your characters’ personhood, but not their entire personality

As an autistic, I struggle to define where my autism ends and my personhood (i.e., my sense of the “self”) begins, because they’re so deeply entwined with one another. Autism is a condition that alters how I think and interact with the world, and therefore profoundly impacts how I perceive both myself and the things around me. That doesn’t mean, however, that my only personality trait is autism. It all gets very convoluted and existential – would I still be ‘me’ if you removed autism? What is ‘me’? Is it even fair to think of autism as a separate Thing? – but it is worth considering if you want to get inside your autistic character’s head.

A trap that allistic creators tend to fall into is “this character likes [X] / does [X] because they are autistic”. For example, I once saw someone say that their OC likes blue because it’s a calming colour and therefore sensory-safe. This is a valid process on its own: I also like pale blue (+ other pastel shades) because it’s a sensory-safe colour! But where many allistics fall down is in not considering that an autistic character’s likes, dislikes and hobbies don’t have to relate to their autism.

Although the show has its flaws, I do think that Sam Gardener from Netflix’s Atypical is a positive example of an autistic character just liking something because they like it. His special interest is all to do with penguins and antartic wildlife/explorations, and he also enjoys art as a hobby because... he just does. That’s not to say these things don’t intersect – he takes a scientific illustration class in college precisely because it combines two things he likes; it’s also fair to say that autism gives him an edge in drawing because autism brain is excellent at grasping theory/technicalities. But ultimately it’s nice to have an autistic character whose interests and personality traits go beyond the stereotypical special interest.

For more on representing autistic characters, check out [this post] where I go into a bit more depth. (NOTE: that post is on my list of things that I want to revise/rewrite/flesh out, so it might change soon, but the basic stuff is still the same).

2) Autism isn’t inherently “bad” – but that doesn’t mean it’s without issues, either

Autism is not the devastating tragedy that neurotypicals like to present, but it does come with its own difficulties and pitfalls that you should acknowledge if you want to write a well-rounded autistic character. There’s often discourse/debates on my dash about whether it’s fair to call autism a disability. I’d say it is – there are definitely aspects of autism that are disabling, i.e., sensory overload, burnout, trouble communicating, etc. – but it isn’t a disability in the way that allistics/abled people think.

Some aspects of autism are “double edged”, in that they have useful and troublesome sides. Speaking for myself, hyper-empathy means that I’m good at grasping why emotions Do The Thing, which is incredibly useful in filling in gaps in my social sense! But. It also means that I struggle to draw a line between my own emotions and someone else’s, and am simply awful at creating healthy emotional boundaries. As the writer, you create good representation by showing both sides. Let your character have meltdowns! Let them have trouble in social situations! Let them get burnt out or overwhelmed! But also make sure to show that this doesn’t make them inherently burdensome to other characters, and explore the good/neutral aspects of autism, too.

3) So, how would all of this impact superpowers?

A lot of that depends on your world’s magic/superpower system. Some things to consider are:

Does your character need to be concentrating?

Do emotions influence how controlled the power is?

Does the power take a physical or mental toll on the user?

etc.

These are laws you ought to think about as part of worldbuilding, regardless of a characters’ neurotype or ability, but I do believe that autism will have an impact on how a character interacts with their powers. For example, many autistic people have difficulty with fine motor skills and spatial awareness, either as part of autism or due to a co-existing condition [1]. This could theoretically cause trouble if a character needs to gauge personal space/use spatial perception when using telekinesis to direct objects. Where emotions effect a power, emotional dysregulation or rejection sensitive dysphoria could also come into play by disrupting a characters’ concentration or control.

Make sure to show your character working with or around these sorts of issues, and keep a balance between the pros and cons. If sensory input throws off her concentration, what are ways she can get around that? Earplugs for noise, dark glasses for light sensitivity, seamless clothes, headphones... etc etc. On the more negative side, I can only imagine the chaos I might cause during a meltdown if I had telekinesis: objects flying everywhere, lightbulbs bursting, general pandemonium. That said, telekinesis would be great if I could levitate myself and just hang there without any sensory input. Also useful if I needed to get stuff and didn’t have the energy to move because of burnout, or if I could use telekinesis to “weigh down” a blanket on top of me during meltdowns. There are some really fun possibilities here!

Another way to avoid showing autism as a burden/something bad is to give your character a support network and/or accommodations in the story. Have your character find ways to work around issues just like a neurotypical person would, yes, but also have other characters be understanding and ready to help. Thriving support systems are just as important as the autistic character themself.

Basically, address the fact that some aspects of autism are difficult to cope with/require aid but don't overtly focus on that, you know? Your character can get upset, frustrated, or be resigned. She can beat herself up! All autistic people live with this feeling of "not good enough". But show her overcoming this, show her with a good support system, and show her being a person as complex and developed as any other character.

FOOTNOTE(S)

[1] general practise in diagnostic circles is to avoid diagnosing with things like dyspraxia if another developmental disorder is present (i.e., autism), but we’re still learning about what the big ice-cream bar of autism actually covers. What traits an autistic person has can vary hugely from one person to another.

#Anonymous #autistic characters #writing advice #writeblr #superpowers & disabilities

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