#but i am jsut. so fuckibg sick and tired of being miserable and in pain all the damn time

[yellowhearther0]

fucking. whatever honestly

#neg #not even using my tag im abt to have a cat 5 moment here #vent #negative #yada yada catchall sorry abt this #but i am jsut. so fuckibg sick and tired of being miserable and in pain all the damn time #its so goddamn isolating to know theres something heavily and wildly wrong with you and have nowhere to go and no ability to do a fuckibg #thing about it because the only people in your life you could go to you dont fucking trust #im SICK of fucking waking up every morning having no idea who the hell i even am im sick of sleeping through half my classes because #i feel like im about to pass out constantly im sick of seeing things that arent there in the corner of my eye im sick of spending everyday #that im at home pratically immobile because i barely have the energy to get out of fucking bed im tired of not being hungry ever so i dont #eat enough even though i know i need to eat more #im so fucking sick of it #i just want to know whats fucking wrong with me so i dont want to fucking off myself because i dont know whats happening to me and im #fucking terrified #im so fucking scared all of the fucking time because i dont know what to do or who to go to or what to say because its all too fucking much #everything hurts and im so fucking tired and i want it to stop and i dont know what to do #and anytime i complain i get taken the fucking piss out of but its my fault because i take the piss out of my own problems #and its not fucking fair to get mad when other people laugh along #and plus its not like anyone can ever do anything bc i dont want to put my big problems onto others #and i brush people off whenever they ask if im okay or not #and its not like i dont want help its just im so bad at asking for it and so bad at reaching out and so so bad at trustibg people when it #comes to things like this that i dont think i ever will get help and its entirely my own fault #im facing the consequences of my actions and now im all alone. #fuckibg. yippee