#but since ive already got the stage god the worse feeling for me after sb dies is when your brain still hasnt caught up with the loss

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oh. so NOW i REALLY get what other people in the submas fandom meant when they mentioned angst burnout

#siiiiiiighs #yall just need to chill #idk that one post where sb talked abt their own ptsd also kinda hit me like #hm maybe thats why ive been mad too #i dont know #i think things should tone down and we should just start talking about trains again #also the temptation to write emmet just going through grief but actually managing to get out the other side #bc lost isnt an end all #grows each and every day #i mean this is to no degree as severe as an actual human family member let alone a twin #but i literally lost my pet on wednesday. last wednesday. im not going into specifics #but since ive already got the stage god the worse feeling for me after sb dies is when your brain still hasnt caught up with the loss #so you keep expecting things to be where they were and theyre not. nothings there and no ones there but you look ANYWAY #id apologize for venting but these are literally my own tags #anyway back to submas i was already getting tired of the overly edgy stuff awhile back but i think now i think im all out #eh whatever thats the point of curating ones own online experience ill just rb what makes me happy