#but would require major rewrites... like on one hand i could just ditch it. whatever. but it does have some nice snippets throughout

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so apparently in order to "finish" my "wips" I have to "work" on them. it's in the name or something

#just have not been feeling the writing mood this year lads. doing my june spreadsheet to track writing and its like hmm... do i even bother #went back to my 2018 sheet and there are multiple months there when i got less than 15k done so like. quantity is still more than double! #i am getting at least 30k a month written. but feels bad when last year i got a minimum of 40k a month written #like yes that was in the throes of my obsession with cod ywan and after 2 yrs that has cooled... but still. would like to write still :') #browsing thru all my wips to get accurate stats for my spreadsheet like whyyyyy are there so manyyyyy #i have 175k of unposted codyw an. can i get some of that out there. #though like over 80k of that is one fic which needs another 50k probably. augh. and also a rewrite #because its the 3rd thing i ever wrote for that ship and I didn't know what it was about. 2 years later and 80k in I know what it's about #but would require major rewrites... like on one hand i could just ditch it. whatever. but it does have some nice snippets throughout #and the message is one I've been trying to get on paper for years and just augh #annoying. wanna post smth this weekend but have nothing near done... #personal