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Hi, I noticed you posted pics of mana at the nail queen expo 1999. Did you get them from the video, or were they scanned from a print version? Asking because i’d like more leads on the event and mana’s participation. Ty!

I scanned them from real photos someone took at the event, i found the listing on mercari.jp if memory serves it didnt share much information on the listing about it. similar to the buck tick ones i have my guess is that it was a photographer for a magazine or something that developed some amount of the photos as tests then sold them later (some bt ones i have are either exactly ones from magazines or extremely similar angles).

sorry i couldnt help more

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If one day I happen to be inactive that means I happen to be having a mental breakdown while wearing my Ateez hoodie and blasting For Your Love by Måneskin

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love when i get on the train going the wrong way

#camilletalks #well i’ll get off at a busy station and pretend i’m not dumb

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i’ve been feeling in a funk recently, idk maybe starting birth control back up messing with my emotions, work being constantly minorly unstable, anxiety about planning my road trip and asking my dad for the money for my mom and is trip to japan (which had its own can of worms).

but this evening having my dad come home and see a news story about one of the scotus decisions and then starting to talk with me about how we’d talked before about it just started to put me over the edge. I don’t agree with the decision but my dads always got to be devils advocate or some shit and was probing me about it. it was just like fuck dude i don’t want to have this pseudo debate right now or think about rebuttals to your points because of some extreme hypothetical of a nazi asking for you as a graphic designer to do something and this case of the woman being like gay marriage isn’t in my religion isn’t the same!!!!

so i tell him i don’t want to talk about this right now and he asks why not and i start to get upset and walk away and then he gets on my case about getting upset and tells me to go away and it’s just like FUCK DUDE do you not understand after 25 years that stating my opinion in front of you and asserting myself with him is fucking frightening sometimes????

god this is probably one of the closest times i’ve come to just leaving the house out of anger if even just for an hour but again i’m too fucking afraid of the aftermath i’ll just continue to internalize this is worse and worse ways!!

love the thoughts i have wishing i was more suicidal so i could just off myself to spite him or at least have done it earlier so i didn’t have to live with this shit anymore

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mmmm this relationship getting frustrating again me thinking once again it isn’t right for me/i’m not the girl for him 🤔

like i am definitely not as kinky as him and i think that i need to make that more clear and im definitely feeling uncomfortable with him mentioning us living together or shit like… uh that’s cute and all and i trust you but we really don’t know each other that well yet so please stop with this like i know i seem like the girl of your dreams but i’m really not

and i do guess i see this as temporary, i’ll give him my attention but i do want to experience more in life i’m starting to feel and the idea that i’ll only have one relationship in my life is ehhhhhh not cool

we’ve had a discussion about my hang ups but not these ones yet…. which is going to be a trip

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ahhhh my tumblr is breaking rn i can’t see anything i’m typing but i just have to get it out and say that i need to stop crushing on people that are nice to me because they’re being friendly (or so i think idk romance cues fail on me)…..

literally just a guy i’m going with and we have fun together ITS NOT THAT DEEP ME PLEASEEEE

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successfully made it to my gate tokyo here i come

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uuughhhhshhhhhh trying to schedule an appointment for another obgyn with my new insurance and i think i have to call to make an appointment which i fucking hate so much please just let me schedule online!!!! I would almost rather continue to deal with my period coming back than call!!!

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that was fucking amazing the need to go to another bt live is STRONG

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well i’m at the concert waiting in the merch line

#camilletalks #made it in one piece a little hungry but i was so nervous i couldn’t eat and was running later than i wanted

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fucken what is this

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ughhhh the urge to do an xwing pilot cosplays still really strong 🥹 stuck between it and a jedi cosplay….

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why the fuck does everyone on tumblr live in seattle

theres something in the water here that causes us to get that mental illness that loves a niche social media

#camilletalks #or its the seattle polycule or something

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yeah i really like the 2008 speed racer movie what of it

#camilletalks #idk there’s just something about it actually being a good live action anime adaptation

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been thinking about the sequel trilogy lately, how it could have been better and it just came to me that they’re total avoidance of the prequels was even dumber than i thought before because just look at all the love the kenobi series is getting.

much of it is love for ewan and his kenobi but look at how much fans love hayden too??? can you think of how much the sequels would be elevated if they had taken the leap into including pre-vader anakin?? luke and even leia talking about or seeing visions of him?? more discussion of the failures of the jedi order during the republic days and how luke could have fallen into relying on their influence and traditions rather than forging a new path? and that leading into; kylos fall, rey getting stuck on jakku, han and leia being separated, ANYTHING.

#camilletalks #star wars #sure hindsight is 20/20 but i think it’s pretty easy to show that there were many CLEAR failures in the sequels #it’s not just kenobi that proves disney wrong too imo but it’s the most whole hog with the prequels

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couple days late on updating my age oops!

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