#catch me. a grown adult. going to a career fair for high schoolers just to scope it out

[j-esbian]

i know it’s a common millennial gripe that kids are coerced into picking their life trajectory so young, that a lot of people pick college because they feel that it’s What You’re Supposed to Do, rather than what’s right for them, but like. despite all of that, i really thought i was different

#it’s like. i had a Situation so i was like ‘no college is totally my choice’ but even then #really not a lot of thought went into it #not that i regret it but i just wish kids had access to different kinds of guidance #honestly very little info about anything beyond ‘which college will you go to’ #assumed that you already know what you want to study #my high school was pretty focused on. either you’re gonna study the humanities or you’re going into healthcare #i know i have these moods every few months where i entertain ways my life could be different #lately i’ve been thinking. i barely even know what engineering as a profession MEANS #i like to make things. i’m not opposed to math. i just never even considered it as an option #because i liked to read as a kid and that’s what all the english majors said #i’m just. tired. and i feel so bad realizing the fact that #multiple generations say the same thing. and yet nothing changes. because kids still feel like #they need to get their life planned out at 18 #i don’t know a good way to get through. because kids always feel like ‘rip to you but i’m different’ #and maybe they are!! but we need better education and guidance imo #idk. i just feel completely lost still scrambling for a path to not feel like a failure #and i have no idea what that means because i’ve already exhausted the option i’m familiar with #catch me. a grown adult. going to a career fair for high schoolers just to scope it out #the good thing is i could probably pass for 17 #mine