#dare i say holy fuck

[inkskinned]

im gonna start a fight; and, at the same time, i need you to take this in the most good-faith way possible, but:

videos that involve body-checking and intentionally (and uncritically) show a mealplan of an unhealthy number of calories are just a revamped version of pro-ana food diaries.

and yeah, i know there's arguments. i address some of them under the cut. but at the end of the day, we're just coming back to romanticizing mental illness; we've just found a better platform for it.

this is already something we've done. we knew it was wrong and tried to stop it. and tbh. it just wasn't enough.

there are people who argue "well, what if you have an eating disorder, you can't help it if you don't eat!" except that as someone with an ED; we are not infants. we know what we're doing. part of having an ED is that you are like, maybe too self-aware. even if we can't help our own food choices, we don't need to fucking romanticize the disorder - something we've been warning you about since 2013. there are hours of setup, filming, and editing that go into these videos. they do not happen to fall into place randomly. there is a reason they are pieced together to be beautiful, bright, inspiring.

there's this woman who pretty much only posts daily plans under a normal amount of calories, and everyone defends her saying but it's better than nothing! and i'm like. except she opens those with images of her showing off her body and provides no context in the video or caption that suggests that she believes what she's doing is unhealthy. she has hundreds of thousands of followers on a platform designed for young kids and teens. i refuse to believe that by accident her content just happens to be cheery advice on "healthy" versions of starving.

for any other symptom of mental illness, we would be incredibly enraged by this kind of placid acceptance of a "tips and tricks" fast-start guide. imagine if people posted pink & pretty videos saying "best places to cut yourself" as if it was a fucking storytime. we, as a society, are so fucking fatphobic that we would rather accept blatantly harmful displays of self harm than admit that we are obsessed with a hyper-thin body type.

i am not suggesting someone never talks about their disorder. i talk about mine. actually, it's a plot point in my book.

here's the difference: i recognize it's a fucking mental illness. i am very careful to never mention a specific weight, eating pattern, or calorie plan. i always make sure to position it as something that ruined my fucking life. i do not put cheery music in the background and hearts and sparkles over my worst moments. i do not film it in bright light. i do not start each passage with an image of a thin body followed by "here's how to look like her."

eating disorders should not be framed as aspirational. and the problem is that society worships the "after" image, so long as you don't get too sick. there is a reason so many people who quit being "influencers" will later admit - i wasn't eating well that whole time; an obsession with food was completely destroying my life.

we let any uncredited, uncertified person write the most backwards, fucked up shit about how to get the body you desire! because the underlying, secret belief is: well, at least they're thin! and the real thing that fucking gets me each time - they make fucking money off of it. their irresponsibility and societal harm literally pays off for them.

"why do you care so much." "don't like it don't look." "so what if people experiment with new ways of thinking of food?"

thank you for asking. we're about to get extremely personal. it's because when i was 18 i discovered "thinspiration"/"thinspo." and it absolutely influenced, shaped, and codified my pre-existing eating disorder. i went from having some troubling habits and traits to being incredibly unwell within what felt like a matter of days. there were actual pages designed to train me on how to have an ED correctly. it was all so suddenly easy. i was sick; and the nature of the illness meant - i wanted to be sicker.

it takes an average of 7 years for a person to fully recover. i know this personally - even now, 10 years from the worst of it, i still fucking struggle. i am so much happier now and i eat what i want and i literally don't think about food at all (19 year old me would shudder) and yet - i still fucking know the calories of plain toast with butter.

an eating disorder is one of the deadliest types of mental illness. over 1 in 4 people with an ED will attempt suicide.

and i'm sorry. i just do not see the exchange rate of "high rate of engagement" versus "the value of a human life."

#and there's something else in there about like .... #tbh once i got over something like 1k followers #i stopped being specific about my ED for a REASON. #yes on ur personal locked blog that u use like a diary go ahead etc #but we are OBVIOUSLY not talking about that. we're talking about the sheer NUMBER of people i could be talking about #in that one paragraph. that you and i probably were thinking about 2 different influencers #bc they get to say that they're just posting FITNESS and if it's FITNESS it's OKAY and im like #jesus christ lord almighty #every person in recovery from an ED: this is incredibly dangerous holy shit do you know how much this would have triggered me #each of these ppl: how dare you!!!!!!!!! i am only harming those who WANT to engage with my content!!!!! #their followers: leave them alone !!! they can't help that they make an hours-long choice to frame their disorder as if it was #fucking cottagecore !!!! #like girlie this person needs THERAPY #again! i didn't even have that large of a following before i IMMEDIATELY deleted any specific mention of calories food etc #bc i recognize responsibility and i didnt EVER want to even ACCIDENTALLY encourage this #and im not even GETTING PAID FOR THIS!!! #aND THEY ARE!!! #something something something they know this content makes them money #they don't give a SHIT about u babe

[lace-knots]

Woke up this morning feeling so insanely hot

#I have way more pics #going thru em to see what will *not* attract the old guys who always blow up my pics #like... my face and my cock are pretty cute #but I rly don't want them blowing up #this is good tho. I look like a goddess holy fuck #and dare I say #butch bait #trans nsft #t4t nsft #transfem nsft #cute lace selfies!!!

[kazz-brekker]

travis bell at the end of some shall break

#yes i'm posting memes about a thriller about serial killers on christmas day. let me live #just finished reading it this afternoon and all i have to say is HOLY FUCK ELLIE MARNEY HOW DARE YOU!! #pie says stuff #pie reads #some shall break #none shall sleep #books #ellie marney

[butchdykekondraki]

okay sorry not to bring drama from fucking. anon scp confessions over here but . hhholy fuck i NEED people to realize that the bright thing Is Not comparable to damn near anything listed in that ask. bright literally grooming people Is Not the same as alto fucking clef being unsettling about women and you cant bring that up in the same fucking argument about rewrites. i will fucking kill you if you do that

#[ren] #like as a grooming victim myself its so fucking deranged to bring that up as some kind of gotcha #like. #lets not fucking dance around the topic. admin bright used his influence to groom people into giving him nudes. #that is NOT comparable to some guys fucking character being a weirdo. #actually dare i say its really fucking weird to talk about them as if theyre comparable in this argument #anyway. god. for fucks sake dude. let people make rewrites in peace holy fuck it is NOT that difficult to be respectful about ppl not - #- wanting to use a character who was used for grooming #grooming mention

[lovingvettel]

holy shit... seb

(from @/F1toRuleThemAll on twt)

#this is.. a lot #dare i say da- [gets run over by a train] #respectfully.. i am on my knees #FUCK UUGUDFBHKJDFNJ #sebastian vettel #HIS CURLS HIS EYES HIS BEARD #I WANT HIM. IN A WAY THAT IS A PRESSING AND CONCERNING PROBLEM TO FEMINISM #its so sick and fucked up that this looks like the pics they use at my uni for graduates ITS SO SICK #im gonna fuckign combuast holy shit holy shit

[operationslipperypuppet]

i knew jake had revealed that hardwon’s contingency cubby letter was to moonshine but the casual manner in which he lets his friends know that…

anyway release the letter jake

#this is a joke i will decide what the letter says personally and i never expect to find out #but holy shit hurwitz how fucking dare you #jake hurwitz #hardwon surefoot #naddpod #not another dnd podcast #bahumia

[benoitblanc]

...well i just finished andor

#WHAT! THE! FUCK! #so star wars CAN be good?! WHY ISN'T ALL OF STAR WARS THIS FUCKING GOOD #it was SO horrific and SO claustrophobic and SO tightly plotted #there were several times when i found myself asking who was in the worst position in any given ep and couldn't come up with an answer #shoutouts to mon and luthen and vel and cinta- good people but not even close to kind #shoved into a corner doing what they need to #maarva and brasso and bix who are so good AND kind and maarva and bix suffered for it #and poor nemik #denise gough as dedra absolutely commanded the goddamn screen every time she was on it. horrific character but god she can act #honestly in terms of strength of performance i think she was the second-placer in a ridiculously on-form cast #in terms of the first-placer um. diego luna. diego luna sir. what the FUCK #cassian's completely silent meltdown in ep 8 is dare i say the best performance in any star wars media ever #anyway COME TALK TO ME ABOUT ANDOR PEOPLE. HOLY SHIT #arwen.text #star wars #andor

[toruq]

me hearing jack goldspur’s story 

#sso spoilers #??? #i mean its not main story line #but holy FUCK im crying so hard #sso #star stable online #ssoblr #can i also theorize that evelyn was one of the soulriders in a past group dare i even say elizabeth's generation... she may have been too #old tho

[eightw]

sometimes i think about how when yuri on ice was airing i tried to watch it but was so hurt by the fatphobia in the first couple episode i couldn’t finish it. then afterwards i couldn’t find a single person talking about it on tumblr to the point that i convinced myself i’d simply watched the wrong anime

#and daring to say that the fatphobia in yoi hurts is still an offense punishable by death on here #not that i hate yoi i watched it when i was older and could stomach the first couple episodes and loved it #but holy shit is tumblr bad abt this stuff! #literally the worst about body positivity and fat liberation of all the platforms im on #and i have so much other shit i could bring up too #like the way everyone reacted to fat suit thor. or the fact that no one cares the new batman put a fat suit on a villain #the fact that jkr's fatphobia was only brought up at the very end as a gotcha. the fact that i had to see that stupdi fucking post #with the fat person sitting on a folding chair about fifty times on my dash in 2016

[mybodyfails]

air guitar virtuoso | via x

#han jisung #stray kids #skz #kcon #mp #dare i say #hot as fuck #whatever he's doing #it's working #holy hell i need a powernap to deal w this

[thetimelordbatgirl]

Maybe its just me, but if I was in the executive producer for something like Power Rangers, I wouldn't like tweets telling fans to shut up basically if they dare not like stuff in the new season, but apparently Simon Bennett thinks that's okay to do, because being the new Thomas Astruc is fun I guess.

#i say new cause even thomas chilled out in the end #but simon so far just purposely seeks out anyone not liking stuff in the new season #and instantly acts like they all just haters and are just mad about sentai #and if that and his habit of replying/basically arguing with fans wasn't eye-brow raising #he has his likes open #so of course we can all see him liking tweets saying shut the fuck up to anyone daring to not instantly praise simons work #and he even retweeted one saying the z-wave should have wiped out that side of the fandom #just...very professional behaviour here #good thing this season is his last for power rangers cause holy hell

[lunatriense]

#schneekos #weiss schnee #pyrrha nikos #that is NOT the face of a girl just talking to a friend #no fucking way #that face says one thing: #thank all that's holy you didn't pop into my dream #cause if you had #there's a very good chance #that you'd have shown up in my bedroom #and I am NOT ready for you to know how I dream about you #…unless you're into that #in which case pinch me‚ cause I must still be dreaming #on second thought #don't you dare #you hear me Ruby!? #if you wake me up from this one I WILL kill you!! #I MEAN IT!!!

[idsb]

dude what the FUCK is wrong with people lmao I just got the tracklist sent AGAIN in a way that was impossible to not see all of. why do people have to be so MEAN??? like what joy do you take in knowing you fucking ruined something fun for people???? how do you find fun in that and yet still waste your time in this fanbase????

#warning to everyone #it was an ask per track all formatted in extremely different ways #holy fuck I'm so sad and so pissed #every time I get an anon who does something shitty I say this and I get no response which says all I need to know but #genuinely whoever you are #try and work up the fucking balls to look inside yourself and explain WHY you felt aneed to do that #I really fucking dare you to tell me

[loveofastarvingdog]

soooo so upset SORRY you cannot tell i am talkign about the holy spirit when i mention god's influence SORRY i did not use the exact words "holy spirit" and "discipleship" SORRY you cannot INFER from my discussion post whag i am saying. for real.

#timothy's txts. #i literally SAY guidance from the holy spirit in the first paragraph and later go onto talk about guidance later #and say god's influence #AS IF I DO NOT THINK THAT INFLUENCE WOULD COME DIRECTLY FROM THE HOLY SPIRIT #AS IF WE DO NOT HAVE THE CLASSICAL BELIEF OF THE TRINITY AND EACH PART OF THE TRINITY BEING FULLY GOD #AS IF TO SOME EXTENT THEY ARE NOT SYNONYMOUS ‼️ #no i didn't really talk about discipleship because i didn't really understand what that part was talking aboit #BUT I HAD TO COVER CONFESSION AND HOLY SPIRIT GUIDANCE AND ATONEMENT AND BROTHER I ONLY HAVE UP TO 300 WORDS ‼️ #there's only so much i'm allowed to say and if i truly tried to parse what the prompt meant by discipleship when it was literally !!!!!! a #fucking throwaway word in parentheses after the sentence......... who fucking care !!!!!!! #i literally addressed confession and atonement and GUIDANCE even if i did not really say holy spirit guidance. #and maybe i'm just too pressed about this!! maybe i cannot read tone over ttext on the interned net !! #but it seems like you are being awfully judgy about semantics that don't even matter as if i am not fighting for my LIFE. DAILY !!!!! #trying not to go too far over the word limit #tw caps #tw swearing #i'm sorry for getting so heated i don't think it was in evil and rude intent but it did feel passive aggressive and brother i am a #passionate man especially when it comes to this #DARING TO SAY I DIDN'T BRING UP THE HOLY SPIORIT. GOOD GOD.

[xyztrio721]

I did it… I beat Xenoblade Chronicles 3…

And that ending… holy FUCK.

#xenoblade #xenoblade chronicles 3 #I won’t go into detail about what was shown in the ending because I’d rather let you experience it yourself #but HOLY FUCK DID IT MAKE ME CRY #this game… is fantastic #dare I say that I might like it better than Xenoblade 1 #and that’s saying something because I love Xenoblade 1!

[pearl-kite]

My first paycheck is only one week's worth, but it's also only $230, including the digital tips

🙃

#kite rambles #if I could somehow get five commissions a week I could get paid the same amount with far far far far less stress holy shit #put in elsewhere because I unfortunately cannot quit without something to immediately start and haven't heard back #because I never hear back idk what I do wrong but obviously it's something #was cramping up all day in addition to just shitty 7+ hour shift with no breaks #so damn tired #still haven't been taught any drinks either so it's a lot of me cashiering at the drive-thru (fine tbh almost like it) #and fumbling at the front counter to juggle cashiering and every single food order and making sure the food is stocked to BE ordered #and it's like part of me wants everything to slow the fuck down #but then when it does idk how to be helpful and also one minute becomes equivalent to an hour #reminding myself that teaching is not much better and was just destroying me more mentally while this one feels more physical #my head hurts #dare I say it aches #I don't really get headaches terribly often #I'm going to bed early even after a big nap today just done night night