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I read Chuggaaconroy’s statement today.

It’s a lot to process, to say the least, but… I think the best way to summarize it is that Emile did indeed fuck up. Multiple times in fact. But it seems like he was kind of a victim in his own right at places.

I don’t know if I’m going to resubscribe to him for the time being, nor do I know if I’ll add TheRunawayGuys back to my fandom list. All I will say that I feel bad for everyone mentioned in the document, as well as Emile himself. Everyone suffered in their own way, and I hope they can all heal and move on.

#Chuggaaconroy #there’s just… so much to process #I don’t really want to post a link to the document here because I don’t know if anyone else has done it yet #Or if anyone will actually want to read it #You can find the link to the statement on Reddit specifically in the TheRunawayGuys subreddit #And the Chuggaaconroy 2 subreddit (which replaced the original r/Chuggaaconroy subreddit when it became an archive) #I regret everything I said about Emile over the course of the year #I never should have said that I hoped he would suffer. Because he did. A lot. #I don’t regret feeling conflicted about all of this though. Turns out some of my suspicions were somewhat accurate. #I’ll stop the tags here before the tag list becomes unbearably long but as one last thing that could be potential funny #I actually had a dream involving Emile the night before today. The night before he made his statement. #And I can’t tell if that dream was a coincidence or an accidental prophesy.

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I finally got to see the new Wild Kratts special, and I want to cry. That might be one of the worst episodes of the show I’ve ever seen.

#Wild Kratts #Martin why did you write this shit? #I don’t want to get into detail because it would spoil the special #BUT WHY?! WHY WOULD YOU WRITE THAT SHIT?! #That was the WORST redemption I’ve ever seen! EVER! #WHAT THE FUCK #WHY DID MARTIN WRITE HIMSELF AS A DICKHEAD WHEN ANIMATED CHRIS COULD HAVE DIED ON AT LEAST ONE OCASSION?! #That’s not playful bullying that’s being a piece of shit! #Is the show going to get worse?! Did I waste my time watching this show?! #WHYYYYYY

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Peeled Zygarde forms? And maybe a Xerneas and a Yveltal if that's not too much to ask? 👉👈

Woo boy this one was a bigger one. But first off:

overcooked bacon and point doe

and as for the zygarde family...

everyone is here!

#I hate this. I hate this so much. So I’m reblogging this. #If I had to see this with my own two eyes #so do all of you #pokemon #xerneas #yveltal #zygarde

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I am 22 years old now!

*Insert obvious Taylor Swift reference here*

#Xyz's birthday #I think I'll start using that tag from now on #should I bother with the taylor swift tag? This isn't about her. #I'll just leave the tag out. You probably get the joke.

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I think it would be funny if Lumiose City had to undergo redevelopment because Zygarde blasted those fuckers with Core Enforcer.

#Pokemon #pokemon legends: z-a #This is pretty much the same scenario as the one I came up with before Legends: Arceus came out. #But I still think it would be funny if a little bit fucked up #what did Lumiose City do to deserve this fate? No idea. #Probably destroyed a couple of homes for wild Pokemon or something.

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Rooster Teeth is dead and while I shouldn’t be surprised, I am. Never thought I’d see the day.

I genuinely don’t know what to say about any of this, but as a former fan… it doesn’t hurt, but it still sucks that one of my former interests is gone (technically).

#Rooster teeth #I had a feeling this was coming when I found out Achievement Hunter was shut down last October. #But holy crap the time it took for the entirety of RT to shut down after AH did #Was only 5 months. #While I don’t have an interest in any of their shows anymore #I really want to know what will happen with RvB RWBY Camp Camp etc. #I just hope they won’t be gone for good just in case I regain an interest in them.

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You know, I was expecting to see remakes of either Black and White or Crystal.

BUT POKEMON LEGENDS ZA?! WHAT?!

#pokemon #pokemon presents #Kalos is finally getting the story with Zygarde it should have gotten back in Gen 6 #Assuming Zygarde is in the game which it probably is #MEGA EVOLUTION IS COMING BACK BABYYYYY! #Looks like Pokemon Legends is actually becoming a spin-off series! #Perhaps it will cover different time periods for different regions but they'll all likely take place prior to the mainline game the region #was first introduced in #I don't know if I should be as hyped as I am about this because I thought we were going to get a Crystal or Black and White remake. #But if this game gives us the Zygarde story we deserved to get in Gen 6 then I'm okay with waiting for one of these two to get a remake!

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The amount of conflicting feelings I have about the Chuggaaconroy situation right now is scaring me.

Should I feel bad for him now that I know he had gone to a mental institution? Should I hate him with every fiber of my being for betraying everyone’s trust and being creepy towards women?

I know what he did was wrong, it 100% was. But… does it make him irredeemable? Based on what Tim’s posted in response to questions on Reddit, it seems like he is genuinely trying to better himself. Should I feel guilty for saying that he should burn away to nothing, or should I still see him as a monster?

I guess what I’m trying to say is… should I have hope for him to get better, or should I just throw that glimmer into a paper shredder?

#chuggaaconroy #I genuinely don’t know how to feel about this situation right now. #I’m seeing conflicting opinions on whether or not Emile can redeem himself. #There’s no denying that he fucked up. He did. #But does it mean he can’t redeem himself? #Should I feel guilty for hoping that he suffers or for hoping that he gets the help he clearly needed for years? #I don’t want to be a piece of shit for either turning my back on someone who’s suffering #Or for supporting someone who may or may not have committed a crime if the Google doc from Werster is telling the truth.

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God is dead and Chuggaaconroy killed him by sending freaky messages to a 15-year-old back in 2010.

#chuggaaconroy #I’m sorry I keep bringing this up but a new allegation just came out about him. #And JESUS CHRIST WHAT THE FUCK DID I JUST READ?! #I don’t give a shit if it was 2010 YOU CAN’T SAY SHIT LIKE THAT TO A MINOR #I did the right thing by banishing him from my YouTube feed Jesus fucking CHRIST. #I’m probably going to add his name to my blacklisted tags I can’t take this anymore.

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I’m banishing Chuggaaconroy from everything to the best of my ability. Fuck you, you piece of shit. You backstabbed EVERYONE. Grow the fuck up and get help.

#chuggaaconroy #fuck you chuggaa #you got me through so much shit and YOU just HAAAAAD to be a creep towards women. #You better change or I’ll find a way to make you suffer. #*this isn’t an actual threat because I’m not that kind of person #I’m just full of hatred and spite right now.*

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Hey everyone

It’s like 5 A.M as of me writing this, and I’m just… so tired.

I know I haven’t posted in a while. I just don’t know what to do with this blog, but that’s not important right now.

What is important is this: after the whole situation with Chuggaccnory over the past few days… I need help. Serious help.

I can’t handle being betrayed like this. I’ve been a fan of Chugga since 2018, but a few years before that, I enjoyed his content until I was like… 10 or so. I got back into TheRunawayGuys and his content as a whole when I was 16, and I’ve been a fan ever since.

Well, if you know what he’s been accused of over the past few days… yeah.

My childhood. My teenagehood. My adulthood. All three of these have been ruined by this drama and the allegations.

I just… I need help. And yes, I’m being serious.

Who do I turn to now? How am I supposed to cope with all of this? How do I stop myself from wanting to commit suicide?

I think I need to contact a crisis helpline, this is just too much for me to handle…

I doubt anyone will see this or care, but if you do… I hope you will be able to provide some help. I desperately need it.

#tw// suicide mention #chuggaaconroy #this fucking sucks man #I wanted to believe Emile when he said he was going to change and be better but I don’t think he will #I’m tired of crying over this. I’m tired of feeling guilty. #I just… want all of this to be over. But I’m worried that I’ll accomplish that by killing myself. #And I don’t want to do that. #If you are reading this… don’t feel pressured to help. I’m not demanding for assistance with coping with this. #But… I hope you can help. I’m really scared that this will be the end of my life.

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Time to bring this back!

Tommorow’s Christmas Eve, everyone!

#Nintendocaprisun #TOMORROW’S CHRISTMAS EVE #FUCK I MISSPELLED TOMORROW IN THE ORIGINAL POST #Sorry for being gone for about three whole months by the way #truth be told… I don’t really know what to do with this blog. #Although I might save the rest of that tangent for another post because this is about Christmas Eve.

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I don’t know if I should talk about any of this, but… here we go…

So… for anyone who’s stuck with me for the past year or two (which I doubt anyone did, but if you did… thank you), you’ll know that I had been going through a lot of therapy and filled out self-report forums to figure out if I have ADHD or not.

To recap, here was the first post I made in December of 2021, when I first began to suspect that I had ADHD.

Here is the second post I made in June of 2022, when I first went to therapy and filled out the self-report for ADHD. My dad also filled out a report based on his observations on my behavior when I was young.

And here is the final post I made in July of 2022, when I first began to suspect that I might have autism spectrum disorder (ASD). You’ll have to look in the tags to see what I said when I first began to suspect ASD as well as ADHD.

Well… it’s been over a year since I last provided an update on the ADHD/ASD situation. To make a long story short, after seeing my therapist for two years and seeing a psychiatrist for almost a year, I finally underwent a neuropsychological evaluation in July of this year to get a definitive diagnosis on any mental health or neurodevelopmental disorder I might have had.

Today, I got the results.

And I was right.

As of today, I’ve been officially diagnosed with ASD and ADHD. This revelation, despite the fact that I knew it was coming, still shocked me to my core.

What do I do now that I know the truth? Where do I go from here? Will my life change in any way now that I’ve been diagnosed with ASD and ADHD?

If anyone has any answers, feel free to tell me in the replies or in reblogs. As relieving as this diagnosis is, I will still need some time to process this information and figure out what I should do next.

#adhd #autism #neurodivergent #neurodiversity #an ADHD and ASD diagnosis is… confusing. #Not because of the diagnosis itself #but because I was so unprepared for it to be a real diagnosis I would get #I don’t know what I should do with this knowledge #Who can I tell? Can I trust anyone with this information? #Will I be discriminated against? Will my college life be impacted by this diagnosis? #So many questions but no answers… #Or at least I don’t have any answers right now #Eventually I’ll find them but for now I just don’t know what to do now

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Does anyone else hate Pearson, or has the site convinced me I’m a dumbass.

#pearson #mylab #I LOATHE this God forsaken site #I once took a college math class using Pearson’s MyLab #And I got dangerously close to failing the class towards the beginning of the semester #And I don’t think it’s because of me being bad at math #I never failed a math class in my life #Hell I even had a 100 in Algebra I for an entire semester in my freshmen year of high school #And now I have to take microbiology through Pearson MyLab #And I feel like a fucking moron #I normally do very very well in anything related to medical science because I have an interest in the subject #So either I suck at microbiology or Pearson is gaslighting me into thinking that I’m an idiot #I feel like it’s the latter #College #Oh and also I would prefer to not support a business that had the idea of turning textbooks into NFTs #yes that was an idea Pearson actually had #Yes I’m just a disgusted as you are

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PRECIOUS BABY!!!!

#pikmin #pikmin 4 #I want one! #This little guy will help you sleep at night #he will keep you safe from what lurks in the darkness #okay back on topic I'm sad that I'm concerned about the financial impact of getting this game #because I loved everything I've seen so far in all of the trailers for Pikmin 4 #Ice Pikmin Oatchi and Glow Pikmin are adorable #nintendo #nintendo direct

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WHAT

THE

FUCK

IS THIS GAME?!

#nintendo #nintendo direct #super mario bros. #super mario bros. wonder #although I'd rather call this game Super LSD Bros. #I love how they just say a lot of things happen #YEAH NO SHIT BUDDY #WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS #WHY IS THE GOOMBA A PENIS #and I thought Weird Mario was gross-looking...

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So I forgot that I made this post nearly two years ago, and considering what’s happening in Canada at the time I’m reblogging this, I can’t decide if this post has aged like milk or aged like wine.

WHY ARE THERE SO MANY WILDFIRES RIGHT NOW? WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON?!

#canadian wildfires #thankfully I don't live anywhere near the two wildfires that broke out not too long ago #but I do live in the northeastern U.S. meaning that I have seen and smelt the smoke from the fires #since it's being blown in the direction of my state #I just hope everyone who's caught up in the fires are okay... #and that no one is having medical issues as a result of breathing in the smoke #both in Canada and in the U.S.