#day summary umm. i felt bad ? also played the sims from morning til like 4 or 5 pm

[laikahh]

i wanna go to sleep so bad but my throat is sore as fuckk and its making me feel like shit

#day summary umm. i felt bad ? also played the sims from morning til like 4 or 5 pm #woke up at 6 btw #dad made dinner. it was good cause of course it was hes a great cook #i wanna be as good as him someday #back to the feeling bad thing. mghh its like #im worried that hes (guy ive pissing and shitting my pants over for the past month or five) like. seeing my posts #cause like. man. ive been saying some really mean stuff about him lately havent i? and like. been making all of this about myself #when like. hes the guy whos moving away. hes the one thats in a super stressful situation rn #with the Everything i am not going to talk about cause he deserves some privacy. i dont have it nearly as bad #i dont have it bad at all !!! what the fuck am i even upset about. some fucking ''abandonment'' i Made Up #im not being abandoned what im going through is like. collateral damage. but like not even. #im just. worried that hes seeing all this. seeing me be like this. and that he doesnt like it #and now he doesnt know how to like. even approach talking to me again. or something like that i dont know !!! #what am i even upset about. he gave me some of the best memories ill ever have and made me feel like im alive #& now its over. oh well. it is what it is. my suffering isnt unique there are thousands of people like me. lets find community in that. #ugh. i only ever feel good nowadays when i imagine it all working out for us #i want to be with him and i want him to want me and i want him near me and i want it all to be easy. love shouldnt be this hard. #wooo yeah okay im done. i love it when the mood swings. the mood loves to swing it is its favourite activity in the world #voidcore.txt