#didn't seem much yesterday

[manonamora-if]

November Check-In

As mentioned in my previous weekly update, monthly check-ins will be posted on the 1st of every month, recap'ing what's been done and what's the plan for next month.

Recap of last month's progress

IF Events in the Next Month

Plan for the next month

Still long post ahead. If you want a mini version, head over to itch.io!

October progress

The plan for last October was to:

Play and review more IF games ✅

Finish the La Petite Mort remaster: ✅

Either continue a WIP or fix another semi-completed game ❌

maybe try to add another block to the SugarCube Guide? ❌

The first was easily completed, since I reviewed about 40 games (out of the 75 entries) from this edition of the IFComp. This was more than last year in terms of quantity and time spent (more long entries this year), so while I did not play/review all entries, I'm happy with having done all that so far. Maybe I'll revisit the rest at a later point.

The second was a bit difficult. Working on the re-writes started pretty easy, but I ended up being completely short for words half-way through (even if I could visualise the scenes). Switching to translating the completed passaged helped pick up the pace, but I did this a bit too late, looking back. This meant I rushed through the last week, just before the EctoComp deadline, to complete a working state. This also means that while the game is complete, there are kinks that still need to be ironed out. This include the missing full passages (half-written or drafted, but not translated), missing translation (especially for the last passage), and taking care of the last UI friction. Another update is coming.

Having spent so much time on the first two, and IRL just swinging its bat at me, the last two points were not touched at all. Still, it's not bad, and other things came about:

The Bare-Bones Jam managed to get two dozen entries, which is pretty decent considering it happened at the same time as the EctoComp and the voting of the IFComp.

Lots of interesting discussion happened in the @neointeractives Discord server, especially covering the IFComp (moderation can't sleep).

I somehow managed to wing an entry for the inkJam, with In the Blink of an Eye. Don't know how I managed, I certainly wasn't in the right state of mind. Also turns out it was a 4-bird-1-stone, since I translated it in French.

Had an actual AMA on the blog, that was properly scheduled!

So still quite a bit considering life... (it's really been a lot, haven't processed most of it yet)

-_-

What's happening in November?

Nanowrimo for the writers, which can be a good incentive to progress the writing of a game.

The IFComp, EctoComp, and inkJam are always looking for players/voters. If you want to play a few short-ish games, take advantage of that!

The @seedcomp-if is always looking for inspiration (text, images, code, etc...) in this current first round. If you have half-baked ideas or anything, really, come submit something!

Over @neointeractives, we just wrapped up the Bare-Bones Jam and we have a new jam in the work... the ShuffleComp! Stay tuned ;)

-_-

The PLANtm for November

Still play more IF and maybe review. With the Bare-Bones Jam and the EctoComp over, that's a good 50 games to try out. (I've started with the inkJam already)

Finish the edits of Harcourt Ch5 (and get MelS to send me his Ch6 writing)

Fix one of the semi-completed games: either the Egg parser or TRNT (and make it a proper parser)

Finish that darn SugarCube Guide: there aren't much left in the guide to cover, but there are a few things to fix.

I would also like to compile the short drabbles from @crimsonroseandwhitelily into something more substantial. Either as a side page or within the game itself.

Taking the list of TO-DO from August…

To-Do not require much of new stuff:

translate Escape Goncharov! into French. ✅

fix the bugs in EDOC + overall the French version to match

fix the bugs of TRNT + find a way to add the missing pieces (mayyyybe translate into French?)

fix the formatting of DOL-OS + translate into English ✅

update LPM with the missing content + translate into English ✅

It's really been going down, which I am super happy about! I've made quite a bit of progress on that part since I made that To-DO (considering waves at life)

The rest of the To-Do pile was:

Finish The Rye in the Dark City (and maybe translate?)

Finish P-Rix - Space Trucker (and try to translate)

Finish Exquisite Cadaver (translation unlikely, current gameplay too complex to port for French)

Add a chapter to CRWL + fix/reopen the blog

Re-working TTTT to its originally planned state (lol, not likety)

Re-working SPS Iron Hammer (samesies)

Coding TTATEH (MelS dependent - shooting for end of year)

Emptying my inboxes (they are not all answered tho)

Honestly, this pile probably won't get done this year....

#dev log #monthly check-in #manonamora #interactive fiction #darn #didn't seem much yesterday #but I've really been doing a lot

[woolysstuff]

I AM SO NORMAL ABOUT HIM

Evil!Sun my beloved (Edit// This Evil!Sun is from TSAMS and is not an AU of mine guys)

Bonus doodle

#NO NO LISTEN #I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR AN EVIL SUN DIMENSION FOR SO LONG #AND YOU BET I SCREAMED WHEN I SAW YESTERDAYS UPLOAD #AND I FUCKING LOVE HIM SO MUCH YOU DON'T EVEN UNDERSTAND #alright i'm calming down now #I am totally normal about him guys haha (lie) #I really like the fact that he was actually like #really smart #maybe even smarter than moon #and I love how he just #doesn't give a shit #at all #euuuugh #he <3 #/p #Honestly seemed more morally gray than evil if anything #and i feel like moon just kinda #started throwing insults at him #at random #like i'll be honest some of the things he called him didn't really make sense to me #but hey maybe that's just me #oh god this is getting kinda long uhm #wooly draws stuff #tsams #the sun and moon show #tsams spoilers #tsams sun #tsams evil sun #sundrop #wooly's stupid brainrot

[chayannesegg]

red team definitely loves lore and acting, but I really think it's be understated how much blue's actions are in-character. a major upset for red is how blue and green could just betray them immediately and start playing the game, but from blue's perspective this was completely logical and justified. from blue's perspective, this is a game that they are going to play (and try to win!) and the deaths don't mean anything to them bc it's part of the game. it's not a personal thing or a moral question for them. have bad, tubbo, pierre, tina ever shown a particular value for player deaths? no. and all of them have been quite willing to do adapt their approach with the circumstances and their needs.

tina tried being nice and it didn't work? she'll work with bad then. bad can't get his eggs back? he'll start kidnapping workers until something happens. fred's been kidnapped? tubbo is going to unravel quackity. with tina and bad, the easily shifting morality makes sense. they are both demons (or demonlike i know tina was iffy on what canon she wants for herself). with pierre, he's very used to be being a pawn in the federation's games at this point, this is just another game he has to play (idk much about ayrobot sorry).

tubbo is also used to playing the game. he has always reacted futilely to the federation's whims even if he didn't want to! look at his quest to fix ramon's machine. he and phil fought over that, bc phil couldn't understand why tubbo would just give in and break ramon's machines, betray his side? but from tubbo's perspective there was nothing he could do. feds were insistent, he was powerless, and the damage was already done by him being asked to do it. and this game is no different!! he's brought this mentality to pac too. who would otherwise be having a crisis about killing fit and losing everything. tubbo really helped him out by pointing out it was the futility of the game. pac gets to enjoy having a purpose and play the game even players like missa, who haven't participated in killing, have adapted to the game shift well. missa gets to feel useful and like he's not been left behind! he's enjoying himself and wants to participate! most of blue team was lonely, isolated, and purposeless. now they have been given a team, a purpose, and a reason to talk to people! of course they've taken well to this change! why wouldn't they?

#qsmp #qsmp purgatory #qsmp tubbo #qsmp badboyhalo #qsmp tinakitten #qsmp pac #qsmp aypierre #qsmp missa #qsmp soulfire #team soulfire #also lmao this is literally my first time posting on this sideblog PLEASE tell me if i tagged right #i wish i knew enough about green lore and stuff to write a post of equal detail. i could probably do etoiles bagi fit but no one else #also wish i knew more of pol rivers and lenay!! #pol seems like he's just chilling and he hasn't participated much in the mechanics so i didn't have much to say #rivers i know so little about :( but she seemed very into the game yesterday! i just dk how it fits in with her lore #lenay i also know little about but she seemed to be in a missa like boat where #she got to learn about the game and be part of a team where she's been pretty isolated/not on? but again idk her lore

[da-proti-toku-grem]

how do you know the difference between a huge anxiety attack and a panic attack?

#i think i had a panic attack yesterday but idk...... #god it felt so awful and it went on for like 3 hours #but i also had like a hundred things going on so idk if it was like the accumulation of everything or if it was really a panic attack yk #i was at the fair with my family waiting for my best friend to arrive bc i was going to hang out with her #and yk it's a place full of people and we were standing right next to a huge speaker hearing a man talk #and also each place in the fair has different music playing super loud and you can hear all of them at the same time (+ the flashing lights #all that causes me anxiety every since i was little (even if i didn't know it was anxiety back then) #so i *knew* i was going to have the greatest time and i didn't really want to go there in the first place #but even with that i wasn't really haven't a bad time (yet) #we were just stading there and i was waiting for my friend to call me so we could go somewhere else #she called me to tell me she was coming and right when i hung up the phone i felt a really strong pang on my belly #and idk at first i thought it was period cramps but it was weird bc my period had actually stopped that same morning #also i had taken a painkiller right before going there bc all that i mentioned earlier also gives me migraines so there's that too #so yeah the pangs kept getting stronger and it hurt so fucking bad to the point my legs started trembeling #my vision blured and every sound around me seemed to almost fade away #there wasn't any place i could sit down so i gad to cling to my dad and he had to hold me so i didn't fall to the ground #i think i almost (?) fainted in his arms too #after a while the dizzines went away and my dad went to get me smth to drink and i mostly got my hearing and vision back to normal #all that was like 10 minutes max but then the pangs kept hitting every minute or so for the next 3 hours #we found a place to sit and find smth to eat but i couldn't eat anything without wanting to throw up #my legs wouldn't stop shaking like fucking crazy and i kept going from feeling like i was freezing to sweating from how hot i felt #idk i've had smth like this (w/o the pangs) happen to me before a bunch of times but never That strong and it usually lasted 5-10min max #we ended up having to go home and i had to take some more painkillers and my sleeping pills to be able to calm down a little #i'm pretty sure i fell asleep from exhaustion after everything and i'm still feeling a bit weird after almost 24 hours since it happened #anyways. the thing is idk if all that was caused bc of my anxiety #or if it was smth completely unrelated and i just had such a bad tummy ache that it made me feel bad enough to cause All That yknow #i think it felt pretty much like how i've heard people describe a panic attack but again i'm not sure #yeah......... #maca speaks

[glittergoats]

Part 2 of my AINI doodles since starting the game!

#aitsf #aini #iris sagan #amame doi #kaname date #kuruto ryuki #ota matsushita #shoma enda #lien twining #andes komeji #my art #my greatest accomplishment might be getting a furry design for komeji that fits him well while keeping the spirit of the design #not an easy feat #anyways not much to say didn't get to play yesterday #but hopefully today well make some progress #cannot believe ryuki is actually in love with date #like i dont even think i ship it? like i think it would be a bad relationship but i think it is compelling narratively so far #ryuki is kind of obsessed (and like it makes sense date was someone to admire who seemed to care about ryuki on a deeper level) #and like post explosion thats like a level a trauma i cannot comprehend #idk tho date seems like he wouldn't be committal to that he likes validation though LOL #but hey im like halfway thru the game who knows where this will go #all of this to say i drew them over the supernatural image because that's what the end of explosion ending felt like

[schnaf]

22 days until ode's 22nd birthday

day 15 - rock, paper, scissors

#xdinary heroes #ode #oh seungmin #gaon #jun han #junhan #jooyeon #jungsu #gunil #kwak jiseok #han hyeongjun #lee jooyeon #kim jungsu #goo gunil #forfreddy #ode22 #i lied yesterday. i hadn't prepared today's post #but i want to start preparing my queue now again so i did some math #and :)))) #i thought maybe i didn't have THAT many gifsets too much #maybe it's just the right amount #well i needed 8 including today #i've got two specific ones for the last two days #so i needed 6 #and i have.................... FOURTEEN #gonna keep posting it seems #i wrote tons of tags for this post but they were cut off #so here's the short version #i asked miss freddy what to gif and she named this scene. very valid ♥ #and i did! but i made 3 gifsets in total 😭

[hewwio]

#ive rewatched gonzo yesterday #gonzo hellsing #hellsing #seras victoria #i love the amount of attention paid to Seras #also all of her iconic looks! #ovas are nothing style-wise compared to the gonzo tbh #so i dont understand people hating on it; like it is even good that is doesnt follow the manga frame by frame #sure some moments were really stupid but the first half is so much cooler #idk despite all the silly stuff it feels more mature than the ovas #also i have a feeling that the rest of millenium as they are would seem kinda tasteless in gonzoverse #funny that at the same time millenium is like the only thing that interests me in the ovas ughhh #i wish i could make deep art analysis and stuff but my brain won't work that way #upd as ive re-read it a minute after posting: #maybe ovas are not 'nothing' but they surely arent as stylish #especially if we're talking about soundtrack; ive seen people saying ova has a good one but.. #well i do too like Carl Maria von Weber but they didn't even include the best part of the opera (Jägerchor) duh

[ungrateful-cyborg]

Day 14: Night

#junelezen #junelezen 2023 #seems I lied #My entry for yesterday won't be the only one :'D #didn't have much time to make it better but hey #at least I did something! #FFXIV #My screenshots

[coquelicoq]

so i did just go outside and it is mad slick. i was like whatever i've got shoes and so forth. then the wind picked up and i could hear all the ice-covered branches clacking ominously against each other and decided i should get the hell out of dodge. have you ever tried powerwalking when the sidewalks are sheets of ice? i wouldn't recommend it.

#almost lost one of the aforementioned shoes...two different times #anyway i was not powerwalking it's just that i would have been if that had been at all physically possible #because i didn't want a tree to fall on me lol #anon from the other day don't read this...let's pretend i stayed inside like i told you i was going to #i did have a moment of guilt when i was putting on my scarf like but what if some hilariously bad fate befalls me out there... #what will anon say??? #IN MY DEFENSE i also tried to go outside yesterday. but i turned around and went back in at the end of the block #because it was so slippery. see! i can make good choices! #but today it's been raining ALL day and it seems so melty from my window and i just wanted to SEE #and it IS pretty much all melted in the streets where the cars drive. just not on any surface where the cars do not go #so for most of the time i just walked in the middle of the street (there are very few cars) and it was fine #until the trees started rattling at me. then i was like no thanks #anyway i hope it melts for real soon and the wind doesn't get any ideas #ice #my posts

[dykes4jamescorden]

just finished episode four of good omens season 2... so far I have liked it a lot more than season 1... guys how bad is the end..

#like everyone seems to hate this season and I feel insane #I watched season 1 again yesterday w my gf n season 2 w him again today #and like. idk. season 1 was fine but I'm having so much fun w this season?? #I didn't care about anyone in season 2 except for the demon n angel guys #so I like that this season is focusing on them more #ik the ending #but like how Bad is it

[astriiformes]

Talked about this with the counselor I've been seeing at school earlier today but my intense, desperate need to leave a mark on the world (not even in a fame way, in like a "I need to leave this place better than I found it in a big, tangible way" one) and the fact that I only value myself when I feel like I'm adding good to it paired with the fact that I've been an insane perfectionist since I was a very young child and tear myself to shreds and lose all my confidence over tiny mistakes is literally going to kill me some day

#had been thinking about applying for a leadership position in our university ostem chapter for a while now #but psyched myself out of it last night before applications closed #because with everything that's gone wrong in the student group i was involved in this year i no longer trust myself to be a good leader #or frankly even a good person #i also had a slightly soul-crushing talk with a professor yesterday about my grade in her class #because even though she clearly thinks i'm brilliant (and basically said as much) i missed like two weeks of class #specifically because something happened with another student who i know i managed to make upset #(on accident. but it seems like she found my apology wanting) #and i feel so awful about it that i decided the only way to handle this was to avoid her so i didn't make her uncomfortable #so now my grade is suffering in a class i could've gotten an 'A' in #and it's just like. what am i even doing #i care so much about making the world a better place but i feel like such a bad person and trying makes it worse #and i know i'm under no obligation to put myself through this kind of stress but i don't know how to value myself if i don't #lately i feel like i'm beating myself up for being too fragile and unstable to even make a good martyr #and i know it's not healthy but if i try to step back i just get sad #like how now i feel awful about not sending in that application. and at least half dozen other similar things #i just want to make a real impact but it feels like the only thing i'm good for is making things worse #i'm not even fun to be around most days. i'm just.... sad

[da-proti-toku-grem]

feeling like a total asshole today 👍

#an aunt's mom passed away yesterday night #i didn't really know her that much just spoke to her a few times for the typical merry christmas & happy new year you know #so when my mom told me i felt bad for my aunt bc i knew they were really close but i don't feel SAD #but my parents seemed to be like so shocked and sad and my little brother even started crying #and i felt absolutely nothing #idek what my mom saw in my face but she went like 'don't you feel anything?' and like wtf am i supposed to feel #like. i'm sorry for my aunt and everything but i just????? #that already made me feel like an absolute asshole but now we have to go there (like 2hours away by car) #and because i am an adult now i *have* to go to the funeral home (?) today and to the funeral tomorrow #and i REALLY don't want to and thought it's making me so fucking anxious bc i haven't been there since my grandma passed away 2 years ago #i really don't want that feeling that i felt back then to come back #not right now #not when i've been starting to feel a bit better this past week #but i'm already failing at that because they started to come back the moment i was told i have to go #and i feel like a fucking asshole because my aunt's mom literally passed away and she (and her whole family) must be heartbroken right now #and all i can think about is that i'm anxious #i'm anxious to go back there. i'm anxious just thinking that i'll have to express my condolences to people that i don't even know #i'm anxious because i'll have to TALK to people and at least try to look a bit SAD but i can't just fake it #bc if i don't look sad my brain tells me that i'm an asshole that doesn't have feelings like apparently everyone around me has #but if i fake it my brain tells me that i'm an asshole bc why tf do i have to fake my fucking personality #why can't i just express my fucking feelings like normal people do and the only thing that i know how to do is fucking complain #like. i know i rant a lot here but it's literally the only place where i talk about my feelings #i NEVER talk about my feelings with anyone because idk HOW to do it #i have like a million things in my mind that i want to tell my mom or my therapy for example but when i finally convince myself to do it #i just CAN'T. the thoughts won't leave my mouth because i don't know how to phrase them properly #so nothing ever leaves my mind unless i make a post here bc apparently writing my thoughts in english (my 2nd language) #is easier than talking in spanish #and at least if i write them here they don't just stay bottled up in my mind #but i'm too tired of myself and my stupid brain that tells me that i do everything wrong :/ #i'm gonna shut up now bc i once again reached the tag limit

[bittersweetstargazer]

pov txt's album was so good you almost majorly injured yourself listening to it

#background. #cleaning up bc yesterday was easter and we had ppl come over and there are a lot of dishes that I have to clean #I was emptying out the dishwasher to make space #I needed to put a wine glass back in it's spot but said spot is in a high place that's taller than I can reach #so I needed to grab the step ladder #I was listening to the new album and having a great time #so good in fact that I didn't notice that he step ladder was damaged (which it wasn't the day before) #and so I open it up and it's like shaky and fighting me #which should have been my FIRST CLUE bc it doesn't rlly take a lot of effort to open #and it's open and I'm like okay then and I get to the top step (which is the one that's broken) #and I have the wine glass in my hand and I'm reaching up when I feel the step under me start to bend and buckle under my weight #because it was BROKEN. #I realize that is not how step ladders work and very carefully put the glass down on the counter first bc I didn't to break if I fell #and then I placed my hands on the counter and leaned forward so I was holding most of my weight on my arms #and then very carefully stepped down until I reached the floor #my heart was pounding bc I knew anything could have happened had I not noticed in time #and when I checked one of the screws holding the ladder in place had been unscrewed and at first glance #it seemed totally normal but only after inspecting it did I notice the loose screw #my dad said he'd check it out but ugh I still have so much stuff to clean up

[kaisollisto]

Lilith teases her, ghosting her teeth against her neck. She feels Ava take in a breath before she peels back her lips and bites down. Ava chokes out a garbled moan as Lilith digs into her neck. Lilith can taste the salt of her skin but it’s not enough, she needs to feel Ava. She needs to taste the roaring blood beneath her skin. She sucks, pressing her tongue against the flesh. It’s supple and soothes the ache but she can feel her teeth throbbing. 

“Yours,” Ava gasps out, her hips writhe into Lilith. “It’s yours, please.” She presses harder into Lilith’s mouth just shy of breaking skin for her. Lilith feels a heat pass over her, a raging want that has fueled her. A yearning that has stood beside her hand in hand. A want that rips open her chest cavity and takes without remorse. 

#TKO_writes #uhhhhhhhhh #we're doing a new thing where we write and drop the sample each month #I was supposed to do this yesterday but time is an illusion #the days pass and I am just a rock #really excited for this cuz I hate writing #and the idea of progress and becoming a better writer is :3 #plus I get to read chan's writing ahahaha #fucker #chan I hope u do NOT see this #it's smut #TOT I didn't do enough writing for feburary #and I liked this more than what I have for a diff project #anyway this is prone to change so don't perceive hard #or I'll die #anyway writing avalil smut is harder than it seems #there's so much thinking to be thought #i am sobbing in a corner #sneak peek of my avalil smut </3 that will probably take me 3 more months to write #sorry

[whoiskt]

i give you: out of date meme with my OCs you love very much

#my art #🕳️ #OC #barbie meme #i saw the template and immediately thought of them #unfortunately it seemed to be a couple meme so i didn't do it #but i just saw one again yesterday and i changed my mind and decided to do it anyway #do i sound insane saying these things? i didn't do something fun because i was worried about being Problematic about a thing #that none of you could misinterpret as problematic because you literally don't know much about them lmaoooo #anyways. not a couple. ok. goodbye

[garlique]

i am so fucking tired of doing job interviews and getting the response of, 'oh my god, we loved you so much, you would be literally a perfect fit for x position we aren't hiring for right now!! we're gonna keep your resume on file and put you forward for other positions in the future!' like okay. you understand how that is the most useless thing on the planet and feels far far worse than just getting ghosted?

#sorry i only use this blog for venting atp lmao #the worst part is that for most of these i can tell that they're being genuine #and most of the time the ppl who reach out w them weren't the ones actually making the decision #like i got a call yesterday abt a job that was past the time they said they would call me and it was one of those #and the girl seemed so sad about it but she just kept saying such nice things to me #and it's like okay if you like me so much why didn't you fucking HIRE me #and like i know none of these people know me or how it affects me but #it just reinforces to me that im not fucking built for this #and the one yesterday was the only one we handled well because she CALLED not emailed #im just so tired of it im gonna kill myself!