#drawing toge saying okaka like that was so scary. it feels like i gave my child a knife and told him to point it at someone. sorry yuta

[tunamayojazz]

the vampire/snake au drawing! i loved toge's expression in it!

AAA THANK YOU!!! that's honestly one of my favorite inuokko aus i've worked on. it's also great practice for expressions bc toge is truly going through it in this one.

bc i miss this au so much here are some angsty, angy and despairing toges!

some very wordy context for each toge below.

caution warning for mentions of blood and violence (towards a cursed spirit)

top left: one of the few times toge lets his guard down is when he thinks he's alone. those are also the times he allows himself to feel just how beaten down and tired by he is because of this "curse" he's struggling with. at this particular moment is when yuta confirms that something is truly wrong with toge. he'd just gotten back from a mission when he sees the boy by himself in the school gardens. he's never seen him look so lost and exhausted, and the sight is something that seriously worries yuta. toge catches yuta staring from a distance and immediately shifts his expression, giving the other a weak smile and waving as though nothing is off.

top right: this moment is mentioned in the first post i made about this au, when yuta tries probing into toge's unspoken struggles (bc he knows something is wrong, and it's killing him to feel this helpless).

"a few more unusual things happen that yuta simply cannot keep quiet about, so he tries his luck finding out from toge himself, and is surprised when on his 5th or so try, toge snaps, and yuta swears tht he saw toge's irises turn into slits for a millisecond and the air around them getting slightly heavier. but together with toge's anger, it vanishes in a flash. toge calms himself and simply signs that "people change". yuta frowns like a kicked puppy."

i would honestly change the tone to something a little more serious: yuta doesn't frown like a kicked puppy, he feels his heart drop to his stomach and is lost for words. toge leaves without saying anything else, leaving yuta to sit in silence, confusion and hurt.

just what had happened in the time he was gone?

bottom: the moment of a horrifying realization. after barely two weeks of experiencing odd changes to himself (heightened senses, bursts of anger, intense dislike to heat, an unquenchable thirst for something he can't quite name), the true extent of this new feeling reveals itself during a solo mission.

it's a tricky cursed spirit to beat and toge feels himself get increasingly aggravated the more the curse tries to play with him. at one point, he snaps. when he shouts "don't move", it doesn't wear off even after the usual duration of the cursed command passes. ruthlessly, he takes his time and tears into the curse with his bare hands, sharp nails digging into whatever he can grip onto and ripping and ripping until there's nothing left. he hadn't even realize he'd been muttering throughout it either, words like "die, just die" contributing to the cursed spirit's violent demise. it takes several moments of silence to take it all in, and it terrifies him when he does.

one: something is happening to him, something deeply twisted and wrong.

two: no one can know.

#as per usual i write mini essays when it comes to toge #also i should really come up with a name for this au #it always feels great to draw my boy... #thank you for sending responses to my post about inuokko aus! they will take time to be answered bc i am sketching stuff for some of them #hope you enjoy the angst and more from this au hehe #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #inumaki #inumaki toge #inuokko #ottoge #okkotsu yuta #yuuta #okkotsu yuuta #art #drawing toge saying okaka like that was so scary. it feels like i gave my child a knife and told him to point it at someone. sorry yuta