#especially his experience at button house concerning Havers

[glowinggreeneyes-e]

"As he watched the dirt settle upon the burial site by the light of the lamp and the moon, he found a strange sort of peace. Grief, yes - good God, he was mourning a man he’d just saluted off into War. But there was also… pride? Yes, pride: they’d survived, thrived for a while, and been able to say farewell. That was more than most men could say.

So (and forgive him for thinking out of the line of duty) perhaps the most impressive secret, his most profound project, of his time at Button House was not the limpet mine - not Operation Solder - but William.

Operation William."

Chapter 32 - Remains

remember when we called Havers 'William' because it was all we had. well i wrote this months ago and only just finished the first fic, and this was my headcanon for why he called it 'Operation William'.

#its the closest he can get to reconciling his sexuality and duty #especially his experience at button house concerning Havers #he compartmentalised it because its easier than being both gay and an army captain #being in love and a leader #being strong and having a weakness #and he's still stuck in the war because of that #the mindset never quite leaves #our man is traumatised and in survival mode constantly #it helped him survive until his death and now he cant move on #anyways ive been stuck on this theory of why he called it operation william for so long #feel free to add to it #writing #the operation #tawgo #bbc ghosts #bbc ghosts spoilers #s5 #capvers #caphavers