#everything will sort itself out and even if I flunk out it’ll be fine eventually

[voiceshearingyouloud]

Survived another day of severe SI 💪 #unkillable

#cliche to say but g-d will have to try harder than this to kill me #I feel more sensible again now #the problem is I lose the ability to think rationally when it happens; it’s like a dark cloud overtaking me #I should’ve probably gone to the hospital but then again that’d probably make me feel worse #good to be out of it either way! I’m glad I’m fine #nothing is better and everything is still terrible and stressful but I’m not gonna kill myself about it #everything will sort itself out and even if I flunk out it’ll be fine eventually #all day I was thinking what was even the point of surviving all the times I’ve wanted to kill myself since the age of 14 #if all it got me was PTSD three times over and every time I think I’m through it something else traumatising happens #but we’ll see. I’m pleased to be alive right now and I’m sure I’ll be displeased and then pleased again in the future #this post doesn’t really have a message it’s just me marvelling at how I never seem to actually kill myself #like some kind of cockroach. #anne speaks #suicide tw #thanks frank iero for the phrase of all time