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#for context: im on a vacay with my dad and sis and his childhood friends
girl-bateman
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Gaslighting, my old friend, I'll fall for you every single time <3
#i have known my dad is an alcoholic since i was literally 4 and my mom told me thats the reason she divorced him
#ive been to COA support group twice in my life. i have the horrible personal anecdotes. i have the constant anxiety.
#and still !!! with the right amount of ridicule in the right setting ill question everything
#a spiral of misery and self doubt and paranoia etc etc
#for context: im on a vacay with my dad and sis and his childhood friends
#and i published a short nonfiction story where i talk about how isolating it can be when your parent is an addict
#and EVERYONE is making constant jokes in reference to this text like 'ohhh like the alcoholic i am *wink wink* im gonna have another beer'
#several times a day. and ive just not been saying anything abt it bc i feel guilty abt 'exposing' my dad even tho isnt not even a secret
#but seeing as my sister is never on my side abt this and that his friends are obviously on his side i feel like the loneliness girl on earth
#and tbh there rly isnt any sides to this bc addiction is just a horrible fucking disease for everyone involved
#but he makes it into this awful game where i always come out the loser bc im just a kid and i cant make anyone believe me
#im not a kid. obviously. but thats what this feels like. like im the little kid with silly stories no one believes
#and the worst part is i wrote the text trying to reclaim what has been a lifetime of centering HIM and his addiction into everything i do
#trying to protect him and his dignity
#and this was my trying to reclaim my life and talk about how IM affected for once
#but once again he ends up being the centre of conversation of my text. which. btw is about a lot more than my dad
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