Nereden başlayacağımı bilmiyorum aslında neye başlayacağımı dahi bilmiyorum. Düşüncelerimin nefesi iliklerimde kesiliyor nefes verirken nefessiz kalıyorum. Birden fazla düşünceyi kafamda tutamıyorum. Unutuyorum bazen yemek yemeği ya da su içmeyi. Dışarı çıkmayı unutuyorum mesela karın yağışı nasıl acaba hala taneleri yere serpilirken titrek ve Cesur oluyorlarmı. Ellerim kalem tutmayı unutmuşçasına bana şiirleri hatırlatıyor. Yağmur sokakları ıslatıyor ama ben içimde kurutmaya çalışıyorum sararan yaprakları. İçimde birden fazla son baharları her sonbaharın bende bir acısı her acının da bir kapanmayışı var. Artık etrafa seni sormayı bıraktım aslında ben seni kendime sormayı bıraktım. Sen Bi avuç toprak.. Ama ben o topraya çiçek bile ekmeyecek bir tutam bahar... Sustukça sararıyor baharın cilvesi uzaklardan bir meltem estiriyor yüzüme bu bahar. Kokun değişmiş... Yabançılaşmış geçen her saniyeden bu sokaklar. Anısı olan hiç bir sokağa adım atmıyorum artık bilirsin çabuk akar gözyaşlarım... Aslında seni suçlamıyorum da yaşanması gereken onca yalan günler varmış biz de o yalana ayak uydurmaya çalıştık. Sonra yalanlaşan her şey bir bir uzaklaştı. Seni anısı olan o sokakta bırakıyorum. Sen seversin ayazları. Ayazda bırakıyorum. Herkes yediği ayazı unutur bir gün sende unutuyorsun yavaş yavaş.
lol im seeing why your tag for ralsei is light blinded now. that kid's sort of creepy with the purpose shit sometimes. way too happy about all of it too
Mm.
He is...
My feelings on the ANGEL's Prophet are... complicated. If someone... created him this way, then...
...Can I really say that he deserves the vitriol I give him?
I'm not sure. He reminds me too much of the way I used to be. But he is a child. He is a child, and he did not deserve to be born with a purpose carved into his Pseudosoul like a promise from some forgotten god.
And even with all these complicated feelings, should I even care? He isn't the Ralsei I knew, so starved that he could easily be tamed by a single kind word from the Light he worshipped. And yet, I can't...
...My apologies, you did not ask for such a tirade. I think he is full of [#@$!], but I don't think he knows any other way of being.
I can understand what it means, to want love so desperately. And so, I cannot bring myself to speak ill of him besides to quietly rebuke his platitudes.
...By the Fountains, I hope his Lightners are kind.
I just received word that my 5 month old kitten Heyv managed to get into some form of toxin. We don't know what it could have been, but we've already spent at least 2-4k on her. Her kidneys are failing, and our only options going forward are dialysis and fluid treatment. We're trying to fundraise for her treatment. If you can donate anything, please do. She's my first pet and newly adopted, and she's only 5 months old. My Venmo is @JinnChild
hey guys, my good friend and their partner’s kitten is sick and they asked me to share this with my circles;
Hi everyone,
I just received word that my 5 month old kitten Heyv managed to get into some form of toxin. We don't know what it could have been, but we've already spent at least 2-4k on her. Her kidneys are failing, and our only options going forward are dialysis and fluid treatment. We're trying to fundraise for her treatment. If you can donate anything, please do. She's my first pet and newly adopted, and she's only 5 months old.
My Venmo is @JinnChild
if you have any funds to spare or are able to share this i know it would mean the absolute world to them ❤️🩹 thank you so much!!
have you heard of the freshwater dolphin species called the baiji? theres like less than ten of them left in the world and but t heyve lived on in my head because of an old math games website called sumdog
mhm though i know them as the chinese river dolphin. their existence alongside other river dolphins is a product of convergent evolution - multiple dolphins across the world adapted to a freshwater habitat. i dont know much about them in detail but it is extremely interesting to me the way their bodies contort so dramatically to accommodate a freshwater environment, especially in murky waters where their eyes diminish almost entirely. i learned about them only briefly, as the near extinct cetacean that most people are focused on today is the vaquita, though it could entirely be due to geographical location as the vaquita inhabits baja california and thus the north american science community turns their eyes to it