#i also get rwndom moods of sggression and i fucking hate it

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#been so depressed im so tired #vent dont dm or reply #today might be the only somewhat good day i had minus the times a friend dragged me into calls to play sims #but besides that i been sleeping nonstop #i didnt even know halloween was next week i have no xostume i dont hsve the money #best friend cant go anyways so i didnt rly care #i tried mske myself talk to more than two people but so hard #its so so hard when j feel like a bother #i also get rwndom moods of sggression and i fucking hate it #i set my phone down when i get in them though so doing better with rhat #anywyas its almost 3am i should try snd sleeo before 5am again #why do i stay up late anyways #im alone #why dont i hst sleel #probably cause i sleep durjnf the day LOL #my family memebr is in jail for 19 years #i miss my cat that died two years ago im so pathetic #fankly member in jail i dont even xare for them and i dont even know if i believe them or what idk #cant rly talk about it here but idk how to feel #like am i sad? am i mad? do i not care? i jsut feel numb #and i get going people isnt botherinf them but everyone else has soemthing foing on so its like i stsy seay #and i deleted hellopet i thought it would help me change my ciews on someone but it hasnt #i cancelled halloween plans #i fell so behind on my etsy and resin im so sad #but i csnt even do that i struggle making more or keeping the ones i already have so LOL #im also tired of people lying ro me im so fucking tired of it #i wish it was actually easy to ask someone hang out with me #but i think of the times it went to shit when i try streamin a gamand get ditched #also i wish i wasnt so fucking nervous to stream stuff or watch yourube videos with people like obly person im bot is my best friend but he #idk he always just ask me also to strean games so i know he enjos it and hsving fun