#i am so fucking self centered Jesus christ. urghhh so many thoughts so many thoughts

[pissfizz]

The mental unwellness has transferred into physical unwellness

#i feel like vomiting and also passing out lmao #i have so many fucked up thoyghts going through my head right now el oh el #goddd I should probably just delete my tumblr without telling anyone at this point #do you know how much it sucks knowing that every single person you interact with is constantly worried for or by you #the price to pay for using this as a vent space. now everyone’s scared that with one wrong move I’m gonna go psycho on them too or just - #- straight up kill myself and that’s the only reasons they stick around because they have morals and a conscious and are good people #but it’s in every interaction I have with anyone and I actually want to drown myself throw myself off a building etc etc #i am so fucking self centered Jesus christ. urghhh so many thoughts so many thoughts #everyone hates me but I need everyone to love me more than they love anything or anyone else #i want to get hit by a train #urgh maybe I should try that tylenol thing someone mentioned earlier on here I wonder if that actually works #vent