I sat with my anger long enough until she told me her real name was grief.
C.S. Lewis
David is thorny at the beginning. And I like the idea that he knows that. That he realizes, in the months that follow his father's death, that his grief has made him unnecessarily cruel. Especially towards people he loves. People like Asher. People like Milo. People like Marie and the Talbots and Gregory.
And it's annoying because he can't stop it. Whereas before he was too grief striken to to notice, now he has enough perspective to see that the way he talks to people has changed.
[Is it because he is the Alpha?]
And he knows that it hinders his ability to lead, because he may not have experience as an alpha, but he has seen how others were around his father. They were open, and honest and willing to be vulnerable.
And when he enters a room everyone tenses up. There must be things he is missing because his own pack members won't open up to him. Because he cannot just stop being so guarded and prickly.
He must've met angel at that sweetspot of his journey through grief. Where the hurt is still there,but has become more habitual and there is willingness to try living again.
Angel doesn't care much for his thorns. Which is good, because he cannot bring himself to trim them yet.
And they don't expect things of him: like leadership or guidance.
He's a hot dude, and his foul mood just makes him funny. Not uncomfortable to be around. Not an authority to suck up to or second guess.
And that's refreshing. That's new.
Here is something that the calamity hasn't touched. Here is something outside of it, or maybe it is the eye of the storm.
But of course that would be too simple.
Because they get closer. And he craves their presence but he still is David. He still says things in a somewhat cruel way sometimes. He doesn't say sweet things without prodding.
And it all comes to head when his own mate, in their own home, says that they didn't tell him about their pet cat for fear of upseting him.
And that just gives him pause for a while. Because it confirms what he already suspected; his loved ones wouldn't seek him out if they needed his help.
That's a failure, as an Alpha, as a mate, as a friend.
I think he spirals for a while. Old insecurities rise to the surface. He is a man of few words which means, of course that he is listened to when he speaks only the bare essentials. But it also means that he cannot (or has lost the ability to) express more complicated feelings that would require lengthy and heartfelt sentences.
So when his mate admits to being scared of storms, and he tries and succeeds to calm them, it's a paradigm shift. He can say things how he feels them now. Without being too mean.
He has less thorns on him and the ones left are dulled.
The rest follows. Milo talks to him about the bullying. He catches up with Tank. He invites Asher for Halloween. And yes, his handelling of things isn't always perfect ,but he is handling them. In more words than he used to. With more of himself than he used to give.
And the pack senses that.
It's like the final piece of the puzzle that would solidify his footing as Alpha.
Better yet; his progress is not lost after the inversion. He can still open up when he needs to or wants to. Like with the anniversary of Gabes death in the hoody thief video.
I know it's been said before but he's come so far from the frustating guy we meet in the first couple of videos.
I love him so much!!!
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ugh i must confess i hate naoya so much i can't like that brat's cover
PSHDHDHHD THAT’S UNDERSTANDABLE ANON!!!!! he’s awful i do NOT blame anyone for not liking him 😭😭 unfortunately i’m a sucker for wellwritten villains laced in irony so i <3 him but that’s my own issue LMAO
i’ve been thinking abt him a lot recently so i’m using this ask as an excuse to talk abt why… i like him…. pls feel free to ignore this anon !!!!!
sigh….. he’s just . so Good. definitely my favorite minor jjk villain (reggie & uraume are close behind >:3)… he perfectly encompasses everything that’s wrong w the world of sorcery + the zenin clan in particular and i genuinely think he’s such a realistic take on what misogyny looks like?? he makes me want to throw up. the fact that he idolized toji so deeply and hated his family for not understanding toji’s loneliness and strenght only to make that EXACT mistake w maki just because he never saw her as a person…. refusing to accept that she caught up to toji before he even got close….. 😵💫😵💫 it’s so Good.
and don’t even get me STARTED on his deaths bc they’re some of my favorite moments in jjk when it comes to pure poetic cinema LMAO….. his whole speech about how “any woman who can’t walk three steps behind a man should get stabbed in the back and die” only for him to die when maki’s mom stabs him in the back + a SECOND time when maki stabs him in the back (and she’s even standing three steps behind him <3 so considerate of her <33) yeahhhh it just Does something to my brain. oh and that’s not even mentioning the fact that his domain expansion is formed in the shape of a womb + that he loses against maki because his domain registers her presence as an object….. akutami COOKED w this fight holy shit
but yeah i just. think he’s awful and wonderful and i can’t WAIT to see him die in s3 :333 i am fond of him but . in the same way a scientist is fond of the frog they’re dissecting…. yk………
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Alright, I think I need to sleep.
Tomorrow I will be unfortunately (Well unfortunate for all of you) be screaming to the high heavens once again about Ben and posting some screenshots and just generally being super fucking insufferable. :)
'cause I haven't even gotten part way through TLJ and I still have TROS to go and THEN gif making after that.
Sorry I literally cannot shut up about my husband to be, yes it is absolutely going to happen again.
I have so much god damn love in my heart for Kylo.
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Aaaaaanyways Ben baby, come to bed with me please, I'm putting on 10 hours of ambient rain and smooth jazz to sleep too with aesthetic visuals of a caravanner in a settlement at night (Fallout 4 lol)
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