#i cant think objectively now

[eldritchqueerture]

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#this feels #SO upsetting #im upset. im so upset #niki.rambles #the white vault #s5ep10 #not speaking about the quality of writing thats not what im upset about #it was good #i think #i cant think objectively now #i mean i love circular narratives and that part was a banger #BUT THE FUCKING. EMOTIONAL VOID I FEEL AFTER THIS #jesus fucking christ. jesus christ #linnea. i uh. sort of understand why you did what you did #and i suppose this was the only somwhat rational way for you to react and deal with all of this #but on god. i dont agree with you. im upset with you. #i was so happy that dragana mirrored my emotions and she didnt even know. about graham #that she lied #ghhhhhh #i cant fucking do this #im holding dragana's hand. good men do not go gentle into that good night #we will fight the horrors together #YOU DONT UNDERSTAND ITS SO FUCKING UPSETTING TO SEE HER BENEFIT FROM THE TRAGEDY #AND HER BEING A OKAY WITH IT #like sure it is probably healthier to focus on the future and acknowledge the positive sides like her arm healing #because im sure it will haunt her in some way #but she doesnt show it and im left here just. so fucking upset #its not her fault not really but how DARE she benefit from what happened #how dare she reconcile with her mother and have her own office and apartment and drink tea with ebba and vidar #fuck. i literally cant add more tags

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Sally is the real neighborhood Rizzler... you all know i'm right...

#she knew what she was doingggggg #she Knew!!!! #'youre going to make me blush' yes poppy i think that was her intention <3 #popstar is A tier ship you cant convince me otherwise #fuck now im tempted to make a For Fun ship tier list.... no im not. the exhaustion is just making me insane #popstar is theeeeeee lesbian pairing tho #fingers crossed im onto something with them #cmon cmon i love being right #i love clocking relationships before they happen its my fav hobby when watching/reading stuff #i know im delusional with laughingstock but Popstar? i! am! so! correct! #probably. maybe. if im Wrong... dont light your torches im just a lil guy #scribble garnish #welcome home #wh popstar #sally starlet #poppy partridge #THAT TABLE SHOT MY WIFE AND ATE MY LEFTOVERS #i rarely scribble objects and the like and its For A Reason #it was fun for like... ten seconds and then it got tedious but i was Committed #although. i will admit. #scribbling the misc items was nice. love me some Stuff and Things

[wuntrum]

honestly sooo crazy to me that people will make sex-focused movies (especially the nc-17 ones) and yet we don't get to see penis? at all? not even a little bit? need equality in my movie nudity...cmon now...

#personal #like if they can show penis in r rated movies. Surely you can find a way #thinking abt crash and showgirls specifically rn. like showgirls yeah. i get it #its soooo not about the men. and all about women as like objects #but crash? not gonna make a scarred cock prosthetic and show me? cmon now... #and dont even get me started on ass equality...like if you cant even show a guys ass #in your film but theres full frontal nudity elsewhere. you need to pick up the slack!

[why-the-heck-not]

procrastination is an almighty force. ”just going to go for a quick chill run before starting to study to re-energize a bit” vs. 2h & 14km later back at my apartment and everything hurts, just bc I didn’t want to start to study

#also like it’s clear by the distance but I walked like 60% of that time bc honestly am not fit and cant grasp the idea of being able to run #more than 10 mins continously #it was the first outside run since october bc for once it was neither too cold nor purely ice roads #so like I _should have_ been chill with it bc like haven’t run for so long (some on the treadmill but very short times bc boring) #but am now back at my apartment and I have a mew procrastination objective: reeaal long stretch (bc everything hurts) shower & dinner #but then I think I’ll have to start lol #2024 #february 2024

[doctorwhoisadhd]

wait can someone make a manic pixie dream girl story where it turns out that she genuinely IS the post-transition future version of the main guy because that would be SUCH an insanely good lens to talk about self love through

#like you could do SO MUCH with like the question of 'Why is it easier for u to love other people more than urself' #which the trans girl like her objective could be to make her transition happen quicker / go better / be more endurable #(specifically WITHOUT directly telling her past self that she's a future version of him. bc u cant break the timeline etc.) #and she doesnt succeed like how she was thinking aka it doesnt change her past at all #but it DOES make her aware of all the things she took for granted (including stuff she hated herself too much to notice) #and therefore still manage to give her major peace of mind anyway even if she 'failed' at changing her own personal past #omg.. that would be so insanely good... #i need this so fucking bad now...... #ari opinion hour

[oathtorn]

// sometimes I think about how many times in bg3 you get conflicts that don't have an objectively "best" outcome. I think about freeing the 7000 vampires, for example. Freeing them is the ethical thing to do, because they are all innocent victims, but it remains true that leaving thousands of vampires loose, even in the underdark, is a bad bad idea. Not only are they traumatized people, but they're predators who have only their instincts to help them survive in an unfamiliar land that isn't exactly bountiful in terms of wildlife. If they don't do well, they'll die or be slaughtered, and if they do they'll ruin entire communities or ecosystems, depending on whether they feed on people or animals.

#i was thinking again of that line minthara says about how the patriars should have the refugees work for them and have them defend the city #and tav is like 'um that's slavery you're describing?' #and she's like 'call it what you want but would you rather have them die of starvation stuck outside the city walls?' #and i mean the player doesn't have much to say in that matter but there is still a complex situation being presented with no easy solution #because bg has been the destination for refugees for a long time already #like it was already in a state of crisis after the descent when many people who could not return to their homes #massively started to arrive to the gate #right when their duke was gone and left the city without a ruler and the military without a leader #now the government is even WORSE and so is the refugee situation since they're now coming from everywhere #it is painfully true that the guild is still the only truly functioning organism in the city #and they're also having trouble with the absolute #like bg objectively doesnt have the space or the means to sustain the refugees #the patriars may #but in the end gold cant feed a family either #but eating the rich does sound like the most sensible option still- #ooc #the only objectively good ending i think is if you could leave the githyanki egg with lae'zel #also i think of the quest zevlor gives for killing kagha #which sounds like a sensible option when he says it but it prompts the grove massacre #but you can explain it to halsin and he understands that they forgot their principles and attacked defenseless refugees #and you merely defended yourself and them #then again if you look in the right places you can see dialogues suggesting that the refugees are indeed damaging the grove #like chopping trees without the druid's consent #so. #yeah i just have a deep appreciation for some aspects of the game's writing #that show there often isn't an objectively best choice #and you are just doing your best with the information you have and what your morals dictate

[bluesidedown]

I just want to fly to Tibet and not think about character growth or the future or navigating relationships

#im so tired. and like I'll survive it but then i have to continue on and survive the next thing too. #right now im thinking about my next year and just. the rest of february and march sound just barely manageable #april and the start of may will be pretty good probably #the summer idk probably fine #but then. finishing my second degree. working. paying off loans. looking for a job i actually might sustainably want. #i cant. imagine having to do all of that. #i feel like i do so much complaining on here lately im so sorry #irl i feel like i cant complain to anyone cuz objectively im getting to do one of the coolest things imaginable #and like. im really thankful and whatever and thats what i have to project to my irl people. its just also incrediblyy hard and exhausting. #whatever its after midnight and while i feel like this a little bit most of the time sleep will help. it will all feel slightly better #in the morning

[transmasccofee]

being drawn to makokuu like a moth to a flame

#hesr me out. i think them getting together would objectively be the funniest and best thing to happen for everyone #especially if the younger terusai are also dating bc it’s like some weird sitcom romcom type thing now #and it would give them a healthier(? at least less creepy) place for all that insanity and possessiveness to go #and i just really like the dynamic of makoto and kuusuke bc theyre both so different yet so similar #listen. i just. i really like mirror characters ok i cant change who i AM…… #hashtag evil terusai….

[vyeoh]

I take it the gay marriage is going well

Neil gaiman supports gay divorce 🎉🏳️‍🌈

#vio.ask #i cant decide if the ending hurts me deeply or if its objectively the funniest possible outcome #probably both #spoilers ahead: #imagine your cut throat boss and your homoerotic bestie's cut throat boss was having a secret affair and then fuck off together to get it o #so you think. huh. we could do that. after all we've know each other for at least 6000ish years more than them. so you work up the guts #and you prepare to lay it all out on the table. but right before you do your bestie tells you that he now has his boss' #job in his absence. which means he can't be with you whoops unless you join his corporation. #so you grab him by the jacket and kiss him in the most aggressive and passionate way ive seen on screen in a long time #and then you break up somehow even thought you never dated. you both want to be with each other. you are both stupid. #meanwhile your former bosses are fucking their way across the galaxy #im in shambles #good omens spoilers

[quietwingsinthesky]

at some point i am going to have to force even to go back and deal with donna & tentoo & rose & all and everything they ran away from. and that will probably involve them losing tentoo’s chameleon arch watch by giving it back to its rightful owner, whether she chooses to open it or not. and that is. not going to be a very fun or stable time for them.

#this part is v vague and fuzzy because i want to watch the rest of 12 & 13 and finish the doctor/donna specials before i set anything in #stone about it. but i think i need to rearrange some things in the timeline here vis a vis when the doctor is also forced to go back and #deal with his baggage. #i dont think 14 exists in even’s universe for this reason. and for the reason of tentoo kind of taking on his role? the human part of the #doctor who can stay with donna & with rose. #she’s also trans to me because i love trans!tentoo. her name is johanna. i think it’s pretty. i make a singular exception to my rule of #never changing characters names when i trans them. #but i think. what im getting at here is that this cant be a happy ending. not so cleanly. its more bittersweet. #like i think this version of the story. what i have so far. donna does remember. (tentoo doesn’t but that’s because she’s become her own #person. the doctor is who she came from but she isn’t just the doctor anymore.) and rose knows her doctor is out there and loves her but #she has her wife at home. #and even. oh even. you can’t hold onto a heart that’s not yours forever. you have to give it back. #this. i think. is a moment of respite and recovery for the doctor. and a really really low point for even. however this works out. #its not perfect but there’s kindness in it. and there’s a home to go back to. if they can bear it. both of them. #but like i said. this is all preliminary based on what i might play around with here. and how watching more of the show changes my ideas. #but i think. whatever revelations come in 13’s arc. i think in even’s universe they have to come after donna. i’ll find a way to make it #work. #but mostly right now the important thing is forcing even to give up the watch because why would i let them have one single comfort object <3 #dw oc

[lightbubbee]

theyre so fine and also silver is there

#sorry for changing silver's hair i wanted the spoon shape #also pb burn scars bc anger issues harm the self as well i think #ALSO CANDLE STRETCH MARKS YOU CANT SEE THEM BUT THEYRE THERE IF YOU ZOOM #i think pb likes to keep their piercings symmetrical and junk. organization #also candle and pb have like. fire powers. i just now realized that #mebby everyone has that power but candle and pb have better access to it #but pb cant control it like candle #anyways they get cool eye colors #my art #ii #inanimate insanity #ii2 #object shows #ii paintbrush #ii candle #candle ii #paintbrush ii #ii silver spoon #silver spoon ii #inanimate insanity invitational

[todayisafridaynight]

chewing these until i explode and die

#snap chats #sorry i cant describe things normally im sleepy but anyway #NO they made a tweet showing off all the funeral merch and theres some shit here i didnt see last time #the mine one's a part of. a postcard book ?? i think ?? #this the only one that ate from that ... to me anyway.... #i just really like how they chose a similar shot of him esp with how drastic the lighting differs and the camera angles #not even MENTIONING how the top scene is. from the orphanage bulldozing LMAOOOO #its art to me in ways i refuse to elaborate on ...... ok but the AOKI ONE THO LEMME GET INTO IT #what the fuck is an acrylic block i dont know but anyway .... theyre foul for the shots they chose <- screaming kicking my feet #it makes me want to make a proper gif set of aoki using those shots now .... and a mine set with Those Shots ... #im just sayin they def had a tumblr girlie on the team ... it just reminds me of gif sets on here ... im stealing their ideas idc #aoki's scene with his head held high at presumably the highest point of his life #to contrast how dreary masato's shot is. Shot Lol Get It on the worst night of his life with his dead drooped kmsing right now #AND WHEN THEY BOTH POINT THEIR GUNS AT THE CAMERA... SCREAMS ... #like the other merch didnt Give like these did ok ... is it my bias No Im Totally Objective.. i want these as gif sets .... #i was gonna put nishitani's here too since they ALMOST did something cool too #they had the top of his being when hes sittin in the grand with his arms spread out #and i THOUGHT the bottom one would be when he's Getting Lit Up and his arms were spread but no .. #its that scene but ... they didnt show off that part ... just him looking back at majima ... #love how they chose the most bbg still of aoki dying for the egg merch meanwhile mine's is just. Rage #they cant go with the same wet cat shot of him tho i get it ... they used it twice for merch fjerLKVAKVJE #anyways im typing way too much about these i gotta go BYE

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

some hasty Laughingstock ft. butterfly!Howdy for your mild enjoyment...

#i have this... scene in my head #where howdy is having a bit of a breakdown over his Yassification™️ #he just destroyed half his store w/ his wings and etc etc barnaby finds him curled up in the Back #howdy's all like 'i was such a handsome green.... now im this horrible blue w/ ugly black forearms blah blah blah' #and barnabys all '??? the fuck are you talking about youre literally stunning??? shut up lmfao ill make out w you' #and then i also thought Oh so butterfly howdy cant really fly #but what if he like.... does this cute lil flutter when he kisses barnaby #and it generates enough Lift that it makes him way lighter and lets him aaaalmost hover #because i think it'd be ADORABLE and im RIGHT- #anyway those are my thoughts behind these silly scribbles #scribble salad #laughingstock #yassified howdy <3 #i have soooooo much affection for laughingstock + butterfly howdy #barnaby and his girlboss gaslight gatekeep gorgeous husband <3 #he's ken & howdy's barbie #and he is Kenough <3 #and howdy is. uh. Barbalicious <3 #do i sometimes wonder why i lean towards viewing howdy more Feminine than the others? yeah #and then i immediately go 'bc its rad as hell and objectively Correct' (delusional) #and then i high five myself and move on with my day

[neo-shitty]

finally catching up with bsd after one hell of a month (+ midterms) 🫠

#bsd spoilers #updates for ep 2 :3 #right off the bat all i can just say is fukuchi is such a well-written villain; while i can’t completely emphathize with his plan yet #i have to applaud him (uh and asagiri too) bc that’s quite a villain to fear—he’s already in a position of power that puts him in a major #advantage compared to the ada; it’s like he masterminded this whole thing to lead up to this but WHY (idk if i just forgot) #point and case: i hate him and im always terrified of his next move but damn he’s such a well-written antagonist i can’t even 🤐 #ATSUSHI GET OFF THAT FUCKING BOAT RN WHY DID IT HAPPEN SO EARLY INTO THE SEASON IM CRY WAIT NO #fukuchi pointing out that ranpo is just jealous that he and fukuzawa way back is just so adorable made me forget what happens next haha #how come i dont remember these cute moments from the manga 😩 #god im stalling so much :(( i hate it i hate it i hate it #the reveal was so… he should’ve deducted this shit sooner (objectively the build up was so nice hsjdhdj) #MY JAW DROPPED THEN AND IT STILL HAPPENED NOW :))))) #ok fukuchi in his complete villain mode is kinda 😗 #watching this after being detached to bsd in general is so much better bc i can now appreciate the whole thing as is without much bias??? #THE WAY HE JUST TURNED COLD ALL OF A SUDDEN AND I OOP— 😗😗😗😗😗 #oh both canon and beast atsushi and their paralyzing fears :(( my heart actually hurts #ATSUSHI THINKING HE’S ALONE ANDDDDDD #OH MY GOD I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE MY SSKK #I CANT WATCH THE NEXT EPISODE #toff.txt

[lycanthian]

i need to fuckign explode

#i need to talk tohim i need to talk to him i need to talk to him i need to tlak to him but i caaaaaaaaaaaaaaant bc im too scared of that lol #it was on my mind two months ago it was on my mind a month ago and its on my mind now and it is driving me insane #bjt k dont want to say what it is because thats a can of worms of potential for people to Know i dont want #so glad the guy in question is locked out of tumblr and the other guy involved barely looks at tumblr #only fucking place i can get this thought out even vaguely #i need to talk to both of them bt i cant because i feel like i will die trying to. heart attack on the spot #as much as i dont want him to i hope he gets a notif for this and asks me sbout it #even though theres no way hed knownim specificslly talking abt him #bc at leas that way it spares me the fucking nightmare kf bringing it up to someone #and its like. objectively not s problem #if i just used my words and talked it out it would be done so fast.but the problem is even though i talk to both of them so much #the thought of talking to them abt this specific thing scares me so bad that #i think if i sent a text about it i would close discord snd not open it for 2 years #sighghhggggghhghgghhhggh ive been rlly good abt not venting on tumblr lately bc i didnt like doing it in the first plsce but #there is literally nowhere else for me to complain about this in a spacethat i am comfortable complaining sbt it in #that does not include one of the affected guys #lycan howls

[br1ghtestlight]

imagine starting a silly youtube animation series in middle school and ur still working on it throughout high school. talking about episode ideas in math class etc. then GOING TO COLLEGE still working on episodes and taking psychology classes to better understand the characters. 4+ years of college and animation/writing degrees and ur STILL working on it and then graduating COLLEGE(!!!!) and getting a real life adult job and getting married moving in together and ur still working on ur goddamn youtube show. they're not even close to being finished either 😭 theyre gonna be working on this Long enough that it'll see the birth of their firstborn child at this rate. good lord

#if that was me i would probably cry a little bit but its also sweet they've gotten to grow up with this show #i dont think its seen as like a obligation or a burden. its an unchangeable part of who they are almost .like yknow #goes for many other object shows too like bfdi etc #actual literal CHILDREN when they started this and now they're living full adult lives Approaching their 30s..... they were playing hide #and seek after the release of early inanimate insanity episodes at a sleepover. what am i supposed to do w/ that #i cant imagine loving anything that much and it being apart of my life for suuch a long time but also i guess i can?? idk #txt #inanimate insanity