#i knew it was gonna be rough

[no-one-hears-me]

I don't understand how people get excited to start college

#even as a freshman I didn't wanna go #i knew it was gonna be rough #and I enjoyed hs ngl. I just knew college was gonna be bad #and it was! hate that place #it literally ruined my personality and I actually am upset about that #I used to be soooo funny and cool. but being absolutely exhausted and miserable constantly drained the life outta me #then I also got very deep into ed behavior which also drains all the energy and personality away #it's weird to talk about ed things bc like. I think of that as a relapse but I never recovered #I have had this for years now and have never stopped. it's still very present #it just doesn't consume me as much at certain times ig. so when it becomes a very big focus I think of it as a relapse #when in reality. my behavior hasnt really changed. I just spend way more time thinking about things #honestly my current situation is worse than it was before. now I'm running more than before while eating less most days #I'm gonna be honest. idk how my body does this #the amount of energy I expend vs the amount I consume. very disproportionate #I also have been sleeping less recently and I normally don't sleep much sooooo that's not great #where is my energy and ability to function coming from? I don't have much to burn up realistically #ALSO idk what I did but I've started feeling genuine hunger for the first time in years #usually what I consider hunger is actually just some sort of sickness/weakness/nausea and pain that lets me know to eat #but a few days ago I actually got hungry. which I did not enjoy but it went away after a little while #idk why that happened #Sera

[front-facing-pokemon]

#oooohhh hell this generation is gonna be reeeeaaally rough on me. the textures on these models are Completely different from the 3ds #versions. and i do not!!! know how to do it!!!! #grookey #ANYWAY. welcome to generation eight!!! this generation will always hold a special place in my heart because it's the one that #reintroduced me to pokémon as a whole #i've talked about this multiple times in small references in the tags so i'm sure you all already know this but #when i was younger‚ i had a Passing interest in pokémon. didn't really need to play every new game or know every pokémon #but when i turned 18‚ on the SAME day pokémon sword & shield released‚ i ended up getting it for my birthday #mostly because my parents hadn't figured out what to get me for my birthday and heard that the new pokémon game came out the same day #which‚ now that i look it up‚ apparently it actually came out 5 days before my birthday. and i was just Told it came out that day #who knew. anyway‚ i got swsh for my 18th birthday. and i played the shit out of it. hyperfixation material #and that's what got me back into pokémon Properly. back into it as an Autism Special Interest type beat #and now it's stuck with me ever since. so swsh is probably always gonna be one of my favorite games in the series‚ and gen 8 one of #my favorite generations just because of what it means to me personally #gen 8 was also the last pmd game we ever got so .

[silverraes]

pathetic little meow meow CANCELLED I'm putting Way into a corner until he learns how to behave what the fUCK

#i knew today's episode was gonna be a rough watch #but jesus fucking christ i did not think they'd actually go there #pit babe #pit babe the series #straw watches things

[simptasia]

my mum died last night

#i was with her. i spoke comforting words to her as her breathing slowed #she didn't suffer - she wasn't in any pain. she heard me and became slower and slower then i... saw her die #i never predicted i'd be there at the moment of death #it was her time. her body had been slowly shutting down the last three days and she'd been officially dying for 5 months #she was so strong. she was hanging on for me. needing to know i'd be able to survive with her gone #once it was clear that things were gonna be fine (besides the emotional toll) she started to truly let go #i've been with her whenever i could be the last three days. and night nurses watched her as i slept #last nights nurse woke me to be with her in her final moments #besides hearing me talk the last few days - i was also running star trek for her to listen to #she couldn't communicate or move but we all knew she was aware of things around her #i gave her words of reassurance and comfort and the last words she heard me say were ''i love you'' #and three days ago before she lost the ability to speak the last words she managed were ''i love you'' #so things went as well as they could be considering the situation #she died a little over 12 hours ago. it was 7 hours before they could take the body away. that was. haunting #it's been a rough day. worst day of my life. but mum is at peace now. and i have a lot of kind people to support me #everything will be okay eventually and i have my whole life ahead of me and mum wants that life to be good #so i musn't give up. now matter how depressed i feel

[amee-racle-ofmyown]

back on my bullshit (brainrotting way too hard a normal amount over Heist)

#I knew it was only a matter of time haha #these were very rough warm up doodles #I drew a lot more after these but didn't want to post yet bc of the strike #it was just to get back into it #also was sick :( still sick but less #anyway I'm gonna spam a few posts now #and maybe I'll go back to posting daily #but maybe I'll just put a lot in one post instead? #my art #ahwm #heist!mark #heist mark #a heist with markiplier #markiplier egos #markiplier cu #mark iplier #always forget that tag

[frostedpuffs]

rough draft's done!!!

#and oh god is it ROUGH. #bitch needs some serious editing #text post #ppu #i knew 37 was gonna be long from the getgo

[bumblingbabooshka]

Icheb, Naomi, Miral and T'Meni

#st voyager #st voyager art #I redesigned Icheb to make him more alien-y....butterfly inspo v_v I hate butterflies they freak me out #Icheb #Naomi Wildman #T'Meni #Miral Torres #Miral Pairs #I personally don't think Miral or Icheb become Starfleet #or I think it'd be neat but Icheb DID make it into the academy but he had a rough time and once he learned they didn't accept Seven he quit #So now he works in a general lab and can focus exclusively on astrophysics while also being a consultant about borg tech #Miral seems like she'd have a complicated relationship with Starfleet what with her parents' history #& T'Meni has no dog in this fight she's gonna marry a spa owner and be a spa heiress her life's breezy v_v #Naomi seems like she'd do well in Starfleet and like she'd have a more complicated relationship with Earth...Earth took her from #the only family she ever knew and also made them all miserable - fuck Earth all my homies hate Earth #Naomi is exceedingly calm and clear headed during emergencies and I think younger ensigns would quickly rely on her...weird big sister type #friends with borg...won't shut up about how good something called 'leola root stew' is...keeps joking about how she died once #Icheb and Naomi Wildman - wildest birth mythos ever. Kids who should be dead but aren't. #Miral & T'Meni frenemies....only two kids at the family function type of tenuous friendship #bea art tag #Icheb's eye isn't a trait inherent to his species

[kastillia]

#neal pennywort #god eater #god eater 3 #ge3 #that's my guy! #this one's a little rough around the edges but honestly so is neal #the chrysanthemum family continues to mean everything to me #he's leaning on something - you see that line under his arm? that's the something. trust #i have such a soft spot for the tragic ones but you already knew that #AGE armlets are so hard to draw i gotta practice more... #i also wanna attempt drawing some aragami at some point but...well we'll see #this + the next few prompts are gonna be selfish but those are the letters' faults #my art

[wispscribbles]

Just want to say your art does things to my cold heart. Please know how happy it makes me to see it on my feed or phone, no matter how many times I see the same picture.

♥️

Aw thank you sm <333 I’m happy I can contribute something to a fandom that’s so incredibly talented

#ask #dovabunny #ppl taking the time to send an ask just to be nice to me is consistently wild to me #you guys are awesome #I rly thought that getting into cod was gonna be rough #all I knew beforehand was misogynistic dudebros #so I was like ‘uuhhhh here are the military men if they held hands’ and I fully expected to be hatecrimed lmao #but apart from like… 2-3? comments on tiktok #I’ve only been met with kindness and fellow nerding out #it makes me so happy #I would’ve been obsessed with ghoap either way but probably more quietly if things had gone how I originally expected

[thieves-never-say-die]

Finished White Collar season one

And that's one hell of a cliffhanger

#I'd seen general spoilers so I mostly knew what was gonna happen with the plane #but like. yikes man. #that's rough #I'd feel bad for Neal but I'm also mostly certain Kate isn't dead #(and I never liked her much. she's not written super well or made at all interesting beyond Neal's crush) #forgot how much season cliffhangers annoy me #leverage got me into that mindset lol #of always ending a season in a good way bc you never know if a show will be canaceled #but I know I've got 5 more seasons baybee #also WOW Neal not saying goodbye to Peter bc he could change his mind #fucking gets me dude #white collar #m speaks

[jaguarys]

My particularly painful little pet hc is that they didn't know Razzia was Korbo when he first joined them. He certainly didn't go into it planning to lie to them, and technically he didn't, but a lie of omission is still a lie. And by the time he realized it was too late to tell them, it was way too late.

Of course, eventually they worked it out, but it was a long path to trust and forgiveness, and Danaël was by far the last to it.

#i'm working this into my razzia fic! #i think danaël knew the most about korbo because of the faucons d'argent (though by the time he was on the front lines razzia had left) #but danaël probably lost a lot of fellow soldiers to him! so that's gonna be a rough path to moving forward #i also think shimy and gryf would be the first to connect with razzia. they were the furthest from the ramifications of his actions #which of course doesn't mean at all that they're ignoring it. it just means they have more emotional space to look at him and realize he's #trying his best to make up for things #type: headcanon #fandom: les légendaires #les légendaires #les legendaires #razzia les légendaires #danaël les légendaires

[rottengurlz]

I was complaining about possibly having to get a new job because I wasn’t getting any hours but I’m back to working 7 days straight this week

#good news tho my coworker is finally gone 😁 #there was sm drama that went on but it ended with her promising she’d be coming in #but never showed up to her shift and declined everytime we called and ignored our texts #we haven’t seen her since #I think it’s because she was allowed to stay in one of our rooms for a few weeks #normally with our policy workers cannot stay in our hotel rooms #but she was going thru a rough time so they allowed her 2 weeks to help her find a place #when she checked out we found out that she was smoking in her room #the ENTIRE TIME even tho she was on the bottom floor!!!! #there was literally ash on every surface 😒😒😒😒 #not only just a shitty and gross thing to do it’s disrespectful to the housekeepers #she knew she was gonna get fired and have to pay the smoking fee

[princesswithsomeinterests]

Me getting hyped up for big brother 25 knowing that a black hg is prolly gonna be put through the wringer

#bb25 #I remember after 23 was over ppl knew that a black bg was prolly gonna go through it and look what happened to Taylor #we had 1 black alliance and two back to back black winners likee #ik it’s gonna be rough for my people this year 😭 #gif warning

[kazoologist]

not to be a colossal fucking cowabummer about everything but it really does suck that like. my really chill and like. supposedly more realistic type of career goal feels about as unattainable as like a kid saying he wants to be a singer or something

#kazoo noises #like yeah this was supposed to be a job i COULD get. i thought bc like. i was going into the field bc i loved the work and not bc i couldnt #make it into academia (fuck u alt-ac term users yall are snobs) id like maybe be able to cobble it together bc like. im good at doing work. #i can usually make something happen and i got a good attitude. but jesus ive got one year left and every job app comes back negative if the #even bother to respond #like idk man. i knew iwasnt gonna be making money or shit and i knew it was gonna be rough but like. everyone else i meet already has a gig #or at least like gig adjacent. volunteer or field experience or internship and like. i cant get anything to stick. its not like ive done #nothing either? ive worked extensively with small scale exhibition design. i have worked extensively with special collections libraries. #i have literal years worth of research experience from college. i have an entirely customer service based resume thats not academic so i #can handle a patron (and crucially different from my peers: I WANT TO) #i can organize. i can write and design labels. i can communicate. i can handle special collections objects. i can make ANY microfilm reader #work for me even when it doesnt want to #and im not saying my classmates arent qualified. but like. surely this has to amount to something. i have been so stupidly lucky #to have even half the experiences i do. i have variety in my degree that even some of my classmates would kill for i think. i did. so much. #i have had so many advantages and i like to think i use them well and that i am grateful for them. but why cant i make that shit connect??? #my resume is good. im reliable. i want to work more than anything. so why cant i get a call back??? #legitimately how much longer do i get to keep telling myself i a not the common denominator here #sorry for diary posting but im prepping to walk to the house tour and planning what job apps i can fill out when i get back and literally. #just like. why do i bother. i should have just held my nose and done the online only program in state. i'd probably spend less time rotting #god being 23 fucking sucks. it is going to be better. im literally just barely an adult. this cant be it and it wont be it. but jesus. i go #over having to beg for a rejection letter about ten months ago when i still felt like i had a shot at these experiences

[ophelia-bloodletting]

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#so i guess this is it #4 and a half years #my partner just broke up with me #cant say I didnt see that coming #specially with a whole month were we didnt spek to each other #but god this fucking hurts #i knew it from the start that it was gonna be rough #they also knew they werent good woth this relationship thing #but we both tried #and id like to think we both enjoyed it #but i hate that now I know it wasnt meant to last #and also the trip that I made #visiting them and staying at their place #the whole thing felt off #i saw this breakup approaching fast #at first i didnt want it to happen #but i was powerless to stop it #so all I can do now is accept it #and move on #god damn 4 and a half years #my longest relationship yet #and I still love them so much #GOD THIS FUCKING HURTS SO MUCH #bloodletting

[localgardenweed]

About to lose my shit over my shitty Algebra teacher cause i think he’s the devil incarnate cause he doesn’t respect kid’s 504 plans, there is this kid who may not always show up to class on time for some reason im not sure why but they try their best to catch up and work hard and they asked to send over and take the recent test they missed in a certain classroom and he was like “No you cant, you have to show up tomorrow in here to take it” when literally in their 504 plan says they can take it in that room no one can force them to take it in their classroom, but DOES HE CARE??? NOOOOOO. I think he was just trying to be tough or smth god knows what cause he has a huge ass power complex like dear god dude we get it you were a army guy but is yelling at teens really what you wanna do to feel that high of power again?? The kid then complained to the school and he got a ass whooping but sadly not fired and then the next day was pissed as hell and took it out on all of us 😍

he doesn’t care to actually help students at all, he just gives up on them if they don’t understand the first or barely the second time and tells em to basically fuck off and find someone else to explain it and i get it teaching is hard you might not be able to get everyone to understand BUT ITS LITERALLY HIS GO TO RESPONSE WHEN YOU DONT UNDERSTAND SMTH IN HIS SHITTY RAPID FIRE EXPLANATION WHEN HE JUST JUMPS FROM THING TO THING WITH NO VISUAL OR EVEN SENSE CAUSE WTF HOW DID YOU GET THAT ANSWER HELLO?? SLOW DOWN?? We were going over the study guide and he started doing a question and then realized half way it was “too hard” to do on the board so he gave up and kept going to the next question and a kid at my table who didn’t do that part pf the study guide cause they dont know how asked “Can you go over that please i don’t understand it” and his response was “im not going over it just to fill it in” and the kid said “im not asking to just fill it in im asking cause I DONT KNOW HOW TO DO IT” and guess what. HE DIDNT DO IT HE JUST IGNORED THEM AND KEPT GOING. YOUR STUDENT IS ASKING FOR HELP AND YOU AINT DOING SHIT. HELLO??? AND THIS ISNT THE FIRST TOME HE ALWAYS PULL THIS SHIT ALL THE TIME, GOD FORBID YOU ASK A QUESTION MORE THAN ONCE THATS TOK SCARY AAAHHHHH.

I hope all his classes fails and they fire his ass cause omg there has never been anything positive said about this man that isn’t from favorites/people who already are godly at math. The average student who’s had him HATES HIM.

Im really debating like cussing him out Thursday after my final cause i cant just walk away and act like it was a okay class no he needs to get fucking humbled at least see what he does is harmful and shitty and douchey. I dont care if i get in trouble im not gonna go down like this so many kids in that class have struggled cause of his ass not doing his job. And sure some of there are rowdy and sure some are a bit off task but that doesn’t give you the right to abandon them. If i ever kicked my own bucket he would be 5 of my 13 reasons why.

#localgardenweed #the weed is rambling #i wish upon his downfail almost daily cause like i feel like a death wish isnt good enough thats the easy way out #i need his ass to think and contemplate what he does and reevaluate his lfie #he needs to get off his fucking imaginary throne and look at what he actually does as a teacher #i know teaching is hard and now pays next to nothing but he just doesn’t do his job and if he wants to keep it shit better start changing #there are other teachers in the same topics that do swimingly not to compare but i have to for him #they are patient they give their kids resources like idk FULL WORK ON ANSWER KEYS #that was my biggest ick with him he never posted answe keys with the work hust answers #i know he probably did it to avoid ppl cooying but also screwed over kids who need to see what went wrong with their work #also minor complaint but he used the math textbook for ‘notes’ and YOU KNOW HOW SMALL THE SPACE IS YO WRITE IN THOSE??? #WHY IS ALL THE WORK IN THERE WHY DO YOU DO THIS #HE SAID HE DID WORKSHEETS LAST HEAR AND I TOOM A SUGH OF RELIF THINK WE WOULD TO BUT NAHHH HERE IS THE GIANT ASS BOOK THAT WILL GUVE YOU #BACK PAIN AND ALSO IM NOT GONNA SAY PAGE NUMBERS IMMA SAY TOPIC HEADERS #WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT #Thats also a minor complaint but i knew shit was gonna be rough when he said the chapter names and not page numbers #so much time was lost trying to find the oage in the book #also kinda important not really but there were only 5 girls in that class including me #in a room of like 19 #…IM JUST SAYING #he did treat my table a little shit which was coincidently all girls #coincidence? yeah probably but ya know. #he mostly ignored the girls unless they were the 2 kids at my table cause they actual spoke up #but he ignored them too so ya know #i may be over thinking it but if he did get fired for sexism ya know i wouldn’t be surprised #school if you’re reading this know that yeah im pissed at him and yeah i do want to talk in student services i think its for the best