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alex-baebae · 5 years

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Immaculate

Chapter 22

TOP's point of view

The next day I was going take a shower, I could still hear that guys laughing. She was going to take me to those places, she needed money.

"Look at you" she held my face smiling she forced me to look at myself through the mirror "you are so dumb sometimes, you know..." she chucked "does this hurts?" Her grab got tighter, she didn’t loose it. tears fell on the dirty sink, I sobbed it actually hurt a lot.

“Please..” I tried to beg, she laughed “oh my God, you’re such a funny stuff” she commented “what about if I touch you here?” she buried her fingers slowly on my tummy “ahhg” I sobbed hard then, my breath was heavy.

I thought about begging for not being beaten again but that could annoy her more as always, then she grabbed my hair “you should wash properly your body” she pushed me, I was already naked under the shower. The cold water made me shiver.

"My angel" a voice called me. That magical voice always makes me feel better. _____ was home, I put my tablet on the sofa and I ran towards her "____" I hugged her from behind.

"Sweetie!!" She turned around she hugged me back, she put her beautiful arms on my shoulders. "I missed you!" I said "I missed you too, sweetheart" she kissed my face many times.

Months ago whenever I hear a door being opened I got scared to the point I could hear my heart beating... but now, it is different I had never imagined that someday hearing a door being opened could make me so happy.

"Let's go for the jacuzzi!!!" she said "are you hungry?" She asked looking into my eyes "no" I said "what about you?" my turn for kissing her face "neither" she told me.

I took the origami I had made for her from a small table "this is for you!" I said exited to see her reaction "oh, it so amazing. Thank you sweetie!" She hugged me again "it contains a small letter inside" she was surprised "oh! A letter, can I read it know?" She asked me "yes!".

'I can't believe a person like you is real, you are so kind, intelligent and pretty.

Thanks a lot for taking care of me, I've never be so happy.

Seunghyun'

She read the letter, she was crying "ah, sorry I didn't mean to make you cry!" I was panicked "N-no, it is just so lovely... what you wrote, I'm not crying, I just..." she hugged me tight as before, I hugged her waist "thank you, my sweet sweet angel" was she happy? I guess I had never seen a reaction like that.

Everything slowly became better, even doing the housework... of course ____ didn't allow me to do many things because I could got injured, so I had more time for gardening.

"What do you think about this one?" I just nodded "so we are going to choose one, could you give us a minute?" she asked to guy who was showing us the tubs.

"So... Which one do you like?" she asked me "I don't know, which do you like it the most?"

I loved when we did things like buying furniture and doing the shopping, she held my hands all the time. When people didn't see she hugged me or kissed me, she knew I felt embarrassed when someone saw us like that, it's not like I didn't like it, but I don't know why I feel that way. She really cared about me, I was falling for her hardly...

I enjoyed a lot spending time with her but also I got pretty nervous. When she got home I felt the same nervousness. I didn't want to stay near to her because I thought I could do something stupid or that she will notice it... That I was in love with her. However, at the same time I didn't want to be far from her I wanted to be as close as possible to her being, to her body, as close as possible to her soul...

I wanted her to know it.

'But this is real life not a movie and what could her think about me? She's only helping me, maybe someday she will tell me to leave the house... After all, who would like to be with a thing like me? She even didn't want to use me, I’m not a human, I'm nasty'.

After some hours we were at home, three guys were installing the jacuzzi. We were eating the cake I've made for her "you really cook delicious food!" She complimented me "thank you, I did my best" I feel better when she tells me good things about what I do or who I am.

Then I thought that if I confessed to her she wouldn't be rude, how can she ever be rude?

I wanted to confess, I wanted it badly but in an appropriate time to. "Honey" I called her "yes?" She smiled at me "l... I want to show you something" I guided her to the garden "I've planted this roses for you" I was nervous for her reaction again "really, for me?" She seemed happy, I nodded "no one has ever done anything like this for me, thanks you" she hugged me, it seemed that all the punishments became hugs.

This time the hug felt different, now she was letting me 'protect' her, I don't know how to describe it. One day I tried to hug her this way, when she was stressed, I tried to do the same when I had nightmares or when I was scared, but she rejected me.

I knew also that I was not in conditions of being able to protect her, 'but at least I will protect your feelings, your happiness, your heart' I though while I kissed her hair.

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Many months after I found him he seemed to be a new person, I was proud. In one year I was going to graduate, and I would start to work full-time in our company. Maybe... You are thinking about what the hell was going on with my feelings for him, well... It was still difficult, because I didn't want him to felt 'forced' to love me. I mean, I was supporting him, he was living in my house, so he could felt that way.

I also though that the things he used to do for me were only made due to pure thankfulness. So, I didn't believe that he was doing it because he was afraid or he was too shy for telling me about his feelings for me, I he had any.

When he hugged me in the garden while he showed me the flowers he planned for me, I felt like in heaven. All my life I had to be strong, I had never experienced such a nice feeling, the feeling of being protected.

Of course I felt the protection of my parents but it was until I graduated from Primary School. Then I had to move to the city, my aunt was there but you know not as many time as I could've wished.

Perhaps you are thinking about that one of my parents could had gone with me, but believe me they had so much work to do at the countryside that I asked my father to not go with me and better help my mom.

So since I was young I had to take care of myself, that's why when someone wanted to made me feel protected I used to reject it somehow. I didn't accepted it although it was from my friends like Josh, don't misunderstand it, he's not in love with me, he had been in love with a girl who he had never talked to. I guess he's afraid like me.

My birthday was soon but I forgot it because I was working at the company, by the way, please, don't tell my mom about this... Well and the university... I had to think about a tesis.

I remembered it was my birthday until we went to Neal's house. That day TOP insisted on going to the varsity with me so I did.

"Happy birthday to you!!, Happy birthday to you!!" My friends and TOP we singing to me "happy birthday, ____!!! Happy birthday to youuuuuu!" Josh exaggerated the last part, we laughed all together.

The party was good we eat a lot as usual, we had fun, then Neal took us to the beach, we make some grilled chicken while that sunset took place "let's swim a little!!" Neal said clearly exited taking his shirt off then he carried Takashi bridal style then they both were swimming in the warmth water

"You gonna be drowned without me!" Josh said running towards them "wanna swim?" I asked TOP "I-I don't know how to do it" he told me clearly afraid of water "I'll teach you, is not too deep so... Come with me" I held his hand, he nodded and smiled "woa! It feels nice" he said when the sea foam touched his feet. I encouraged him to walk more into the water, as I said it was not deep, the water only reached our knees.

We were playing around like little children, then Neal took of nowhere a shark-shaped inflatable, we took many photos riding it

"Guys! guys! I brought my camera let me take photos of you beautiful couples!!" First he photographed Takashi and Neal, his 5th anniversary was going to be soon. He photographed TOP and me too, his photos were really artistic, after talking about silly and important stuff until the sunset, we returned to our house.

"Did you have fun?" I asked when we were home with our hair still wet "yes, a lot" he has a really big smile on his face "let's take a shower and then we can get into the jacuzzi!" I held his hand guiding him to our bedroom "you first, ____, I have to wash the swimsuit that Neal lend me" I kissed his cheek "sure, oh! For the jacuzzi just put on any short and a shirt" he nodded. TOP used a sky blue swimsuit for surfing, so his body was all covered.

I took a shower quickly then I got into the jacuzzi of course 'dressed'. I shut my eyes, I was relaxing with the warm water that was massaging all my body.

After some minutes TOP was there "can I...?" I opened my eyes, I smiled "of course" he entered "wow it feels nice" he sat down next to me "TOP" I hugged him, he seemed to be surprised nevertheless, he hugged me back, I rested my head on his shoulder "does your shoulder hurt?" I asked "no, it's okay".

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