#i must……. finish the job…………

[ekuboo]

Needle felting my boy……

Process breakdown (disambiguation) in tags :)

#i’m out of control #I have no idea how many hours I spent perfecting his head shape #I have to stab him because I love him 😭 #i calculated it… #360 STABS PER MINUTE #6 STABS PER SECOND #21600 STABS P E R H O U R #I’m not stabbing at full speed constantly though #I count 40 stabs per minute when I go slowly and deliberately like laying lines #and then sometimes I pause to deliberate and stare into space #so if we say that over the course of an hour I’m going full speed for 15 mins and low speed for 35 mins and no-stab deliberating for 10 mins #and we say I spent 7 hours on his head so far (that’s not a high estimate… I’ve done way more fine tuning since posting this) #……..15x360=5400 35x40=1400 5400+1400=6800 6800x7=47600 #my god…. my dear boy…….. #OVER THE PAST TWO DAYS I STABBED MY BABY BOY APPROXIMATELY 47600 TIMES IN THE HEADDDDDD 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #is this worth it……? do you feel it…? do you know that I’m doing this to bring you to life???? because I love you?????????? #how can i go on #but i can’t leave him without a body either???? #i am stuck…. no way out but through…… #i must……. finish the job………… #this mob truly is psycho 100 #saint mob of a million needles #needle felting #mob psycho 100 #kageyama shigeo #shigeo kageyama #mp100 #mp100 fanart #fiber art #my art

[may12324]

Halsin- Archdruid of the Emerald Grove

#halsin #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #halsin bg3 #bg3 fanart #can you tell i accidentally added too much space for text? #oh well #my art #anyway that ask made me kick my own ass into finishing this #im sorry the bear is boring #it is better than nothing #but that chest hair ^^ #i did a good job #i must say so

[notbecauseofvictories]

I know my experience is not universal, but I biked 5+ miles to do my errands today and I genuinely think we'd be much happier as a human collective if we increased residential density and switched to largely alternative modes of transportation.

#I don't know /how/ you'd do it exactly but this is my vision: #all cars are kept outside a certain perimeter. you can own a car and rent your outside-the-city parking spot; #or you can just reserve/rent a communally owned car when you need one #trucks and deliveries can cross the perimeter on a job but after the work is finished they must be returned to the exterior #inside the city perimeter you can: walk or run; bike or scooter or skateboard #or you can take public transit! there are many more buses and they can move much more freely in a car-less environment #there is also the option of cabs but - and this is key - the cabbies are unionized and the service is public #like the trains and buses. #there is no privately-controlled transit in the city. it belongs to everyone. #and because the lines of parked cars disappear from the streets; they are much better utilized #more kids play in the street. more block parties. more street fairs. #take back the space!!! #anyway this is my vision. #celestial emporium of benevolent knowledge

[kitkatcodes]

STRESSED but in a good way? IM STRESSED but in a very excited way?????? I've got 3 trips planned, a very important task from a close friend that will require a lot more planning, and a job interview!!!!!!!!!!

very overwhelmed but its all things I very much signed up for very excitedly and now I need to follow thru OR ELSE???? ₍₍ (ง Ŏ౪Ŏ)ว ⁾⁾

#sam thoughts #lil update on my life #progblr #codeblr #AND I STILL NEED TO FINISH MY TODO PROJECT #also need to edit my guest interview vod about web accessibility #I really hope I get this job so I gotta balls to the walls do everything I can to learn everything about this company #must eat breathe sleep this company

[pneumatic-creature]

i. ..... have fallen in love.... with my household printer. [coughs] s...send help

#what the fuck is happening to me #i go downstairs to make a few copies and suddenly #i am blasted backward into the wall by the force of my own attraction to that damn printer #he is so beautiful...when he finished the copying i affectionately ran my hand along his casing #and i told him how good of a job he did......fuck #now that i'm no longer in denial abt being obj my brain's going buckwild to make up for all my suppressed attraction from the past 4 years #and my god has it been a journey for me. #anyways... must kiss printer #objectum #posic #osor

[b4kuch1n]

I'm not gonna screenshot it bc 1/it really doesn't matter that much and 2/the person who made the comment is a kid but: a while ago I made a comic that's supposed to be a genuine study and reinterpretation of someone else's sprite comic (made in the spirit of authenticity too - to recreate the vibes of the sprite comics from that era, iirc very specifically because it's funny) and I got a comment on that comic's post that's like "glow up"

which is a compliment obvs. and the commenter probably didn't mean anything by it, it's a common expression. but I've been trying to find a way to gracefully put that comment away ever since it appeared lol

I just very much don't want my art to be taken as trying to one-up someone else's art when that's not the piece's intention. especially when the piece that inspired my art is perceived as "low effort" or "shitpost" or stuff like that. I did mention in the tags of that post that my considering it a study is entirely genuine, and I can legitimately write pages about the cool stuff I find in it other than and inherent in the haha funneys, but that's not for you guys that's for me. I just think that approaching art competition-first like that is a miserable way to do it, and (tipping into overthinking here if the whole tiny-comment-got-stuck-in-my-brain-for-almost-a-month part hasn't given that away yet lol) I really don't want that to be the takeaway from my own art. at least generally. if I actually think the source material is trash and what I'm doing is genuinely categorically better I'd just come out and say it lmao

#bakuspeech #yeah it's the darkhog sprite comic #honestly I don't love comments that put my art and other artists' art in a hierarchy in general. wherever my art lands on that scale #especially when it comes to character writing and trans 'representation' #which like. idk man I'm writing One character. he's NOT gonna be The Trans Experience. he's gonna be one character. #but yeah I'd guess I'm writing it all out in a post bc it's not really a race that anyone opts in #I don't actively participate but by virtue of how my art is perceived I just end up on the scale anyway #so uh. I'm suggesting that we do not bring the scale into my house at all lmao #there's also the like. Don't Yuck My Yum guideline of looking at art that's like #I like the things I'm aping! most of the times! if I don't say it's shit and I'm drawing stuff from it usually that means I like it lol #and then you kinda come in like wow what you're doing here is better than the thing you like. and it's not like yknow. #really anything. it's extremely trivial comparatively. but you are in fact yucking my yum there #tldr please try not to think abt art u like vs art u don't as ''better'' or ''worse'' and #have grace for the things that don't please u personally. anyways I'm omw to finishing the frog now. just need to fell all the seams down #and put that boy in da spinner for a ride. and then it can live in a gift bag until the day #I really enjoy holding it actually... maybe after this one I'll make something else. tbh slick stretchy fabrics are superior to fuzzy fabri #doesn't pill And cooler to touch. stuffed toys for the subtropical population #I'll get a combilation of pics once the thing's at its new home. but for now. we must finish the job

[petricorah]

in the end, she drew this instead

#this is inspired by me watching all of gekkan shoujo nozaki kun in a twenty four hour timespan and then reading the first two manga volumes #it's really only been six days? it's felt like forever. sokka withdrawals #good news: i got a job!!!!!!!!! (sorta. paid opportunity) but...i will have less time to draw sokka. alas. sacrifices must be made #this was more fun than it had any right to be #i have three of five pages of one of the zukka comics sketched #so the hardest part is halfway done and i really need to finish it

[anaalnathrakhs]

i keep looking at posts like "i stopped a binge" "i prevented a binge" and all of them are like. "i waited until the urge went away". buddy. the urge doesn't go away. there's no urge. there's just nothing else to do. i don't have anything else to do. every time i stop eating no matter how long i sit with the feeling or not, i always go for more food because there is genuinely nothing else in my life. nothing is enjoyable anymore. the world sucks. no matter what i force myself to do it's the only positive thing i can ever find.

#like okay cool i let the people around me guilt me into eating whatever they think i should be eating #i get it. i'm so fucking stupid for missing out opportunities to try new food. i should never buy the same food twice. #i should always buy all the variety i can and try everything. #i'm so stupid for having eaten the same stuff in a loop for years and years #i'm a massive fucking weirdo for not eating when other people are eating #i keep stealing food from my parents and the people around me i keep taking way too much of stuff intended for a group #nowhere i go will be free of obligations #i have to keep buying my own poison because everywhere i go there's other people's food waiting for me anyway #my parents keep looking at me like a freak no matter if i eat dinner with them or not #they see me binge and nothing happens #we just ignore it #i just eat until Designated Eating Time is finished #hunger doesnt ever have anything to do with it i just eat when food's in front of me #i need the ritual i need the structure it brings to my life #both meals with other people and my ritual binges #i dont know what to do with myself when i'm not binging #and it's like i'm not allowed to not want food #to other people #it's like i must necessarily want all food and anytime i refuse it's restriction #my friends are always like ooooh you can grab some of my fries if you want #or oooooh do you want the rest of my cookie #or ooooooh and how about you are you ordering something #and i'm like :) yeah sure :) like anybody else would :) #and to myself. to myself i don't know. i think i just want to give up. i want to suffer and i want to fuck up so badly. #so badly that no one can deny i need help #i want to be proven right. i'm just a little weakling and all i'm good for is to haunt the halls of a mental hospital. #no responsabilities no pressure nothing but a pitiable suffering victim #i want somebody or something to swoop in and save me #but nobody will come. it's my job to ask for reasonable help from the relevant authorities. and currently they can't offer that care. #so fuck me i guess

[needsmustleap]

Do you create? What? Why?

mmmmm uh haha um. Sort of, sometimes.. I like drawing and stuff but I've been taking this course that has eaten up a lot of my free time so i haven't done any art stuff in a while. Should be all done with it really soon though so hopefully it won't be long before i can get back to it/a good routine. I had this whole art renaissance at the end of 2023/beg. 2024 where I just had this like epiphany re art and was super motivated and enjoying it, so hopefully i can back to that. But yeah I like the process of drawing. I mostly draw from observation, and i love how it gets me to really look at what I'm seeing and appreciate all the details. And i enjoy the puzzle of it, of figuring out how to represent the subject on the page. The epiphany i had was literally just basic art advice you hear everywhere lol but i had spent months in this rut of focusing on the outcome/end product of a drawing and getting really frustrated and upset with what i was doing. Eventually i like clawed myself to the realization that that was the problem and I need to make art solely for the love of the process. It's hard bc it's so easy to want to chase the feeling you get when you make something you're happy with, but I found i would start a drawing and want every line I put down to be immediately gorgeous, and i just a) don't have the skill for that and b) was putting so much energy into wanting it look good that I wasn't focusing on any of the principles or techniques that actually help build a drawing that looks good. Bad all around lol. But also, I can flip through that sketchbook and see evidence that i was learning things, even despite all that. So yeah. Generated a lot of motivation and good feelings.

Thank you for the qs! I wasn't expecting to actually receive any let alone so quickly haha but i love the opportunity to ramble :)

#ask #needs must say things #the course is really good and interesting but i did not consider how it would affect the delicate time management balance i had in place lo #have started missing art so bad lol esp now that it's so close!! #and i had all these ideas i wanted to explore #want to try doing little comic things or illustration type stuff #i sometimes get ideas but have tended to suppress/put them off in favour of trying to develop my skills more #and i do really enjoy drawing from observation #but i wanna explore more!! try more!! more begets more right haha #but yeah hopefully once i finish this course and my taxes i can find a good balance between art and reading and everything else #it's hard bc art and reading are both pretty sedentary activities and my job is also sedentary :/ but physical activity is fun too #just need to find a balance

[kiealer]

if i wasn't busy with P3R and drawing things for valentine's day..............

#║ ✰〳ooc. #[ i have officially quit my job as of yesterday! so that part is done #but now i must. pack. and go to appointments. #and finish commissions........ and draw stuff for holidays...... #and play P3R......... #honestly you can find me much more active on discord right now #but yeah alas i'm still. stuck in responsibility hell. ] #║ ✰〳tbd.

[killbaned]

my brain: crisis core tonight? crisis core tonight king?

me: NO

#you're only asking because you know it's not technically a work night and that's why i haven't started it yet #but i have a couple tasks i must force myself to do tomorrow #so that tuesday and wednesday i can not leave the house and finish fighting off the mystery illness so we gotta go to bed reasonably #i feel like it's 65% gone atp. #also fun update: at least four other people at my job have either had it in the last 9 days or currently have it #so i definitely picked it up from one of them. #my one asm last was so fucked up he sounded like a 12 y/o boy all night (he is a fully grown man)

[opens-up-4-nobody]

If you happen to have any requests for merlin related drawings: I am desperately in the thrawls of obsession lmao

#its bc im on a narut0 hiatus. by my system is to watch until it starts to give me a headache #thats why im still not finished after a year. im just rewatching t4skmaster until i get bored and go back #but bbc merlin is currently a tumor in my head lol #probably bc im also slightly obsessed with religion atm and the hypothetical struggle between Christianity and the old religion in merlin #is like so good. but im ya kno a bit. *ambitious wave of hand* overly academic and neurodivergent lol #and posting at 8.30am bc i dont wanna go do my job lol #also im sorry if i ignore requests after asking for them. i have so many that sit in my head #and i love them all but making them exist is a matter of magic and luck lmao #unrelated #hhhh also im so tired and need to focus on my photosynthesis doc 😫 bc i must be doing 10 things at once constantly or i die

[quirofiliac]

dynamics tag drop because maybe tumblr will respect me.

#＊ 💥 𝐊𝐑，thusspoke：i can't help but wonder… and i know you'll laugh but do you like me？ #＊ 💥 𝐃𝐁，godforsaken：leave me alone. can't you see that you've taken enough from me？ #＊ 💥 𝐆𝐆，determinazione：where is that rage？isn't it time you taught them all a lesson？ #＊ 💥 𝐓𝐀，truelovebenefactress：isn't it about time that you learn your place？ #＊ 💥 𝐃𝐁，bloodydevoir：who do you think you are… you're nothing but a fraud！ #＊ 💥 𝐊𝐘，bloodydevoir：it's like looking in a mirror… they do say your best company is none other than yourself. #＊ 💥 𝐇𝐉，bloodydevoir：meddlesome brat— i'll make sure you're buried right beside your grandfather. #＊ 💥 𝐒𝐑，bloodydevoir：take it easy… after all，they'll never find you. #＊ 💥 𝐇𝐂，duplikiss：since when are you the victim— you've done nothing but harass me！ #＊ 💥 𝐊𝐒，rottingkiss：women like you have never belonged in the man's world; you should know this by now. #＊ 💥 𝐘𝐘，lovehounded：now be a good girl and keep your pretty，little mouth shut. #＊ 💥 𝐒𝐀，idyllicserendipity：you're better off dead. allow me to finish the job… properly. #＊ 💥 𝐈，yukikorogashi：hasn't anyone taught you to keep your nose out of places it doesn't belong？ #＊ 💥 𝐎，seesforever：i never asked for this; i never asked for your rotten help！ #＊ 💥 𝐌𝐀，rottingkiss：i wonder how it feels… to finally have a strong male figure in your life？ #＊ 💥 𝐉𝐆，rottingkiss：you're a man，aren't you？start acting like one ！！ #＊ 💥 𝐀𝐒，trehontin：you got what you wanted from me… i must insist that you leave me be. #＊ 💥 𝐔𝐊，adsevel：why should i thank you for doing the absolute bare minimum…？ #tag drop! #＊ 💥 𝐕𝐃，epitaffia：you're nothing but a freak… little more than the dirt beneath my heel. #＊ 💥 𝐃，epitaffia：how would you like your latest death done？ i've thought of a few methods…

[aquilamage]

that little scene of Kabbu giving away the green ranger plushie was so cute

...but now I do kinda want a thing of Leif and Vi making him a new one (either collaborationally or independently). They are Not Very Good At It, but, Kabbu being Kabbu, among other things, means that that doesn’t matter much

#because you know he'd be teary over the mere sentiment of them doing that which would be adorable and emotional #but then also the fun part of them finishing their efforts and it just looks /so/ bad. absolute beginner sewing product #and then Kabbu puts them in the same spot he kept the old one anyway. funnie #an aquila original #aquila plays bf #bug fables spoilers #only thing stopping me from trying to write it immediately is that I can't figure out the leadup/excuse for them deciding they /have/ #to make it themselves instead of trying a different avenue #because there could be other cute ways for that but I really really want the humor factor of their bad sewing jobs you must understand

[bsaka7]

jobs r evil job offers are evil figuring out what you want to do is EVIL

#Did an interview Monday got a job offer today and I'm going to say NO but like. Feels bad. #Also like. Their candidates must have fucking sucked cuz he told me 2 wks #I'm like. Can I justify fucking off and doing language study.... I'm like truly no good #And tests stress me out... #But I could be good :( #Literally just want to *** #Why didn't I apply to grad school. I would kill grad school #Well that's easy. Cuz I don't know wtf to go to grad school in. #And need more language for it. #Please tell. Me why I can't imagine a tolerable career. #This is so minor but if it emotionally prevents me from finishing my fic tonight I'm gonna b so fucking bummed

[irisbaggins]

For myself, I only feel a lightly simmering anger. But begin to threaten and frighten teenagers? I will become a raging fire of rage. I do not allow for such behaviour within my vicinity. Not at all.

#text_iris #Fucking AWFUL customer #Can't you fucking see I'm doing something? Like sorry I'll help you just fucking GIVE ME A SECOND #Let me finish what I'm doing for another customer! Don't get mad at me! ESPECIALLY not when you WILL NOT clarify what you want #Oh I'm sorry but I CANNOT HEAR MUMBLING especially when you TURN AWAY FROM ME #Like excuse me?? I'm- god I was shaking with rage #Because better rage than the terror that wanted to creep up. Too many bad memories I'm afraid #But fuck man! I just! The moment he turned to those two girls I felt my hackles rise. I know that type of customer #They will attach and drag in others. And these girls got visibly uncomfy when he turned to them. It Did Not Feel Safe #Anyway I feel Anger! Rage! But Must Be Customer Service and do it all with a smile #But at least I'm allowed to set my foot down at this job :)