#i wish my brain would stop fixating on this friendship breakup but its just so frustrating and annoying

[sakebytheriver]

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#i wish my brain would stop fixating on this friendship breakup but its just so frustrating and annoying #the way she tells me shes 'done with second chances' as ive felt for months now that i had to be on edge and walk on eggshells around her #the way she always made me the bad guy and had me convinced i was the problem and that i just had to ignore the feeling in my gut that this #friendship was really one sided and broken in a way where i had to always be perfect or else i would be abandoned #the more i go over everything the more im realizing just how toxic she was to me and just how much she built the friendship in a way #that made me feel so unstable and uncomfortable and like i would always have to swallow her bullshit because shed never change for me #but she would constantly tell me how i needed to change for her #its frustrating to get dumped by someone who had you convinced you were the toxic one when in reality it was actually them