#i’m genuinely so sick of this world

[sunglassesmish]

if you don’t stand with palestinian people literally just leave my blog. you can be israeli and you can be jewish and still recognise that palestinian people, not to mention that millions of those people are kids, are being killed and have been attacked for literally just living in their own country. the israeli defense minister is cutting off food, water, electricity to attack palestinians in gaza and calling them ‘human animals.’ they aren’t even treated as people anymore, yet half of them are innocent kids.

it’s like only a select few people care about palestinians and the rest of the world think of them as all being islamic extremists and terrorists for just living in their own country. it’s fucking disgusting how the world has turned a blind eye to innocent palestinians for decades.

if you want someone to blame, turn your heads to the people who allowed israel to take over palestine. to the israel government and hamas who are allowing innocent people, both israelis and palestinians alike, to be killed.

#palestine #i’m genuinely so sick of this world #i’m tired of muslims all being lumped in with the extremists who are acting in the name of God when their beliefs are completely against #what our religion teaches #and most of all #i’m tired of this all being about religion when it’s about people who want power and land and innocent people to die for their own selfish #wants

[simcardiac-arrested]

once again sorry to everyone for bringing this to your dashboards. but some of you are like, genuinely delirious. not even in a funny way. & i hope you die. i hope we both die. hand in unlovable hand etc etc

#Just so fucking bizarre to me how people can be Like This. there has to be something so wrong with your brain on a fundamental level #i can’t even laugh about this or anything because i genuinely feel pity for these people. it’s so sad to me how you’re gonna be like 20 #and then go in a niche tumblr community and create drama over Nothing. over Thin Fucking Air #like do you not have a life? do you not have college? or a job? doesn’t it get tiring? don’t you ever feel ashamed about all this #and the fact that they go and complain about the shipping and the ‘fandombrained’ people as well…. oh my god #how are you going to be TWENTY. and DO THAT. are you seriously sick. ? do you need help #just say you are homophobic and that you hate kids and go. it’ll save everyone a bunch of time for sure #anyways. as someone who has been a rain world fan since 2018. i love you embracing canon. i love you changing canon. i love you disregarding #canon entirely. i love you ships that make sense in canon & that make absolutely zero sense at all. i love you fancharacters that don’t #follow canon rules. i love you ‘cringe’ fancharacters and self inserts. i love you self shipping. i love you oc x canon shipping. #and i love you taking inspiration from designs. i love you community & i love you artists & i love you art #i love you borrowing elements and being inspired and referencing something because you liked it. #are fandoms perfect? GOOD GOD no. is every Fan perfect? no. am i also sometimes annoyed or irrationally pissed off over a ship that #i think is stupid and is illogical. Yes! i’m only human! but i can still love and appreciate the whole CREATIVITY of it all. and the whole #Fun that people are having. i love you having fun. if i don’t like it or if anyone else doesn’t like it they can just Cope #instead of hateposting about it on main and indirectly bullying people who are most likely children. or lgbt. or both #anyways. please continue doing whatever you want. The world is your oyster and you only live on earth once #everyone else can fuck off

[castlesinchaos]

I read solitaire last night and I’m actually much worse now thank you for asking.

You can’t just say

“I don’t want people to try and understand why I’m the way I am, because I should be the first person to understand that. And I don’t understand yet.”

and expect me to be perfectly okay afterwards. It’d be easier to ask me to disassemble the known universe atom by atom and then put it back together again.

#how do I get a restrainting order against Alice Oseman for trespassing into my brain and putting my thoughts into words #I genuinely have so many things to say about this book that I cannot find the right combination of letters to tell the world with #i hate it I love it I’m dead I’m alive I’m sick I’m elated I’m on the brink I’ve never been better #i don’t want to like this book or relate to this book or let it affect me but then I am put into a chokehold by the similarities between us #us being Tori spring and yours truly #god this book is living in my head rent free #the entire osemanverse is #tiny talks #heartstopper #solitaire #solitaire alice oseman #alice oseman #Tori spring #Victoria spring #sprolden #micheal Holden #Charlie spring #nick Nelson #tiny talks books

[castametric]

they should invent a dating app for losers like me who want to be loved and show love so much it’s making them unwell but who simultaneously would literally move to mars if anybody had the slightest inkling of them feeling an emotion

#it’s literally such a problem #I don’t really like dating apps but one thing that’s going for them is that they help mitigate this problem just a bit #but like in the real world I’m constantly torn between #wanting so badly to love someone #but also feeling genuinely sick at the thought of them knowing I’ve got like human feelings #and about THEM?! #absolutely not I’d rather die in a ditch #the only reason I’ve ever had a gf in the first place was because she had to tell Me that I had a crush on her #and didn’t let me deny lie deflect my way out of it #anyway

[ebonytails]

This blog is inclusive of different system origins and types.

We don’t have a DNI because we can’t control what you want to do (even if we say our boundaries, it can be used against us or people won’t necessarily respect that). We just ask people to be kind and not to argue people for our sake nor to bring in unnecessary heavy discussions into our space that you are choosing to visit. That being said: because we’re comfortable and secure in our plurality, our life, what matters is now if you are alright with interacting with me. Since you’re coming into my space, ask what feels safe for you, and what makes you comfortable. And I’m being very genuine about how I want people visiting our blog to consider that, instead of asking us how we feel about these external interactions we can’t control (reblogs, likes, etc.)

#I’m making this post as a reminder… #I also don’t need to share with 3k+ people our diagnoses just to have a say in our perspectives.. But yes we have DID- #Yes we do not care of your origins or types. We have too many other problems in the world- I’m sick of infighting. #If you unfollow us that’s completely fine. Your safety should be a top priority. #To the anon who asked: Thank you genuinely for being considerate. I just couldn’t answer your anon- #in any way that didn’t have a strong possible outcome of chaos. This is tumblr and wrong wording can cause so many issues.. #Mod stuff #From Kurapika

[the-sappho-of-lesbos]

Me watching lesbian women and bisexual women go at each other online

#I’m tired man #I’m so unbelievably over discourse #let me lick 🐱 in peace I swear to god #meet in the middle please #yes some bisexual women are lesbianphobic #yes some lesbians are biphobic #you meet any group of any type of people anywhere in the world and there will be people in that Group who are mean to people in another #group #I’m so tired though #it genuinely makes me hate myself and being lesbian so much because I’m just OVER it I’m so sick of seeing it everywhere all the time #I want to be straight and ignorant so I don’t have to deal with it lol #I know given everything that’s going on I’m just very sensitive and in a horrible mood #because everything feels horrible right now #but still oh my gosh #it’s like watching two rabid dogs just go at each other #so much anger and violence and I’m over it #I just want to find a wife and ditch the whole lgbt community as a whole so I don’t have to see or hear about another piece of discourse #for as long as I live - and even that won’t be soon enough lol

[sunsoak]

Everyone’s all “nonbinary is included in every sexuality” until a nonbinary person who is on hormones prefers men who like men and women who like women and all of a sudden I’m being problematic and offensive to…….. well everyone I guess

#WhoGive A Rats Ass #like genuinely why the fuck does anyone care omg why is this a big deal #I’m not being offensive to other transmascs by fucking lesbians like i never said you all need to or you all should or you all want to #it’s MY LIFE….. how is my very personal sex and love life affecting every transmasc in the world ITS NOT…. #it’s your problem for seeing me as a binary trans guy when I’m not I just am on t and use he/him pronouns. like whatever bro omg #like ok. it’s MY OWN CHOICE that I would fuck a lesbian im ok with that. that’s just me! the ftm reading this is not involved. #im not going around fucking parading that transmascs should fuck lesbians this is literally just my personal life and choices #and if lesbians want me and gay guys want me (which they both do) THATS FUN FOR ME AND I LIKE IT BECAUSE IM NOT A BINARY TRANS PERSON…. #anyways yeah so I’m bisexual but not in the traditional sense. just let me live I’m so sick of reading posts bashing people like me #sorry that I have the lived experience of being a dyke and I’m into dykes who are into dykes. #sorry that I’m also kind of attracted to men but only men who will acknowledge and respect and be attracted to my masculinity. #everyone wants to support gender fluidity and sexuality fluidity until someone is actually being fluid lmfao like honestly!!!

[daydadahlias]

why won’t you ever see 5sos

just not really a fan of their music :/

#No lmfao it’s that I just can’t physically handle concerts #I’m very weak willed 💙 #flashing lights hurt the ol brainy brain #loud noises make me freak #I just dissociate really really bad during concerts and like not in a good way #the stimulation is just actively too much for my very very small brain #and I always leave super sick and miserable #and it knocks me on my ass for like at least a day or two after #like I’m not trying to be a baby it’s just genuinely too much for me #and then there’s also the matter of cost #like I just don’t have the money to drop on concert tickets y’know #so even if I did want to see 5sos and geared myself up with some noise cancelling headphones and very dark sunglasses or whatever #just don’t really have the means #like will I cry abt never going to a show this tour probably 😌 #but I know it would probably make me more miserable to see my favorite band in the world and not enjoy it bc I’m too preoccupied with #the pulsating horror of overstimulation 💅 #pigeon #anon

[neon-vocalist]

I miss Rya. I miss Rya so much it hurts

#🗡️Cheri #I want to claw my heart out #Anything to stop loving someone who’s given up on me #And for fucking what #Because I stayed in my own house? #Because I saw both sides? Because I sided with my GIRLFRIEND over my metamour that I barely know? #I didn’t do shit to Rie. Or Rya. #I didn’t do shit to anyone. #Neither did Eri. So fucking sorry she CARES #The world isn’t all about Rie. People can have other relationships. People can pay attention to things other than her #For once in her goddamn life she can be a side character #I’m so sick of this #Eri’s been tearing herself up over it and I don’t know how to explain that it’s not her fault #Rie’s just a bitch #And now I’ve lost someone I love #Haven’t seen Lopi since she moved in with her nieces and things got serious with Rin #I genuinely feel like my life is falling apart #I just want my girlfriends back. They used to love me #They used to care #I feel like nobody sees me #I’m just a pawn in the argument #I miss Rya. I wish she missed me too.

[shirkers2018dirsanditan]

i’m pmsing and thus automatically entering the doldrums of mild depression or whatever the fuck but i am also once again confronting my sorry ass life and my sorry ass self and boo hoo hoo throwing myself a pity party. wah wah wah what else is new 🙄

#its not fair that life isn’t fair though #at some point i was somebody people really enjoyed having in their lives #and someone who people genuinely regarded as a meaningful part of their lives #but really i was just a kid #that did change in HS when i really became a teenager #and it’s really just gone downhill from there #and it’s really my own fault at the end of the day #i wish i knew when it got out of control though. i wish i knew how to stop it or change #:( #i know i sound so silly and irrational because i’m just 23 #but when i was a teenager i had an untapped recognition that this would be my life #and now i have the same feeling only i’ve allowed it to be out in the open #i look ahead and i don’t see anything else #not even in a dream #not even in a fantasy #not even in an ideal world of my creation #im sick of this #i want out #its not fair and i want this to be over

[actuallycherub]

“You can leave the church, but you can’t leave the church alone” How about y’all leave ME alone??

#so sick of it #genuinely #out here on the rare occurrence of talking with my mother and she goes off with #‘well I just don’t understand how people can live in this world and think there isn’t anything bigger out there’ #as if that shit even matters #she says she’s going to pray for me #and I’ve never minded people praying for me #but she specifically told me her prayer was for me to find god. #fuck that shit #even if I thought he is real #which I don’t #I don’t want anything to do with him #I don’t want a single thing to do with him #why tf would I even follow him if I knew he was real? so I wouldn’t go to hell? #fear of punishment should not be the basis of love. that’s not love at all #I’m so tired of hearing about god #I’m so tired of being told I can’t be kind or moral or live a fulfilling life without god #I’m tired of people using their beliefs to deflect any sort of arguement against themselves #I’m so tired #tw religion #tw religious trauma #vent

[oglegoggle]

Ugh. Woke up at like 4am. Couldn’t go back to sleep. I miss so dearly being able to roll over and hold somebody and easily fall back asleep again. I genuinely resent how much easier it is for me to sleep beside another. I deeply resent my own hunger for touch and affection. I resent needing support that I know I won’t get because I shouldn’t need it. I resent not being strong enough to just comfortably exist in isolation. I resent not being able to make the peace with solitude that I’m supposed to.

#this is goggles #bleh today is a bit of a I resent even existing kind of day #the biggest thing that had me trapped in my last relationship is how accessible affection was #it sucked so much I spent months enduring my shit getting broken and my health ruined and and my sanity shredded #but fuck that’s been my entire life #the benefit he brought was a warm body to hold nightly which is something I’ve never had before #and just…. I keep telling myself that I’ll have it again but I genuinely don’t know #I miss him but I know that it wasn’t because he was actually a good partner it’s because my life is defined by isolation and abuse #I’m so tired my dudes #I’m itching to leave again #I’ve only been here for two months but I’m already kinda sick of it #idk fuckin 11 months to go until I can leave again I guess #I don’t think that leaving is going to help really it’s just going to make it that I’m in a different lonely and isolated place #the autism is so deeply isolating and the abuse really did not help me learn how to Person any better #exact opposite really #I just want to be held #more than anything else in this world I want to be held #it’s surreal to me that folks around me read me as super chipper and always in good spirits even on hard days #like it’s an act! it’s a facade! it’s fake! it’s the performance I’ve learned makes people like me enough to not totally avoid me! #I want to blow my goddamn brains out! #I just want to be held and I don’t understand why it’s so distant #I don’t understand why I feel trapped in a snow globe where I can watch the world going on around me but never participate in it #I’m a novelty plaything at best cutesy and chipper but nothing of notable substance #I just want to be held I just want to be held I just want to be held I just want to be held I just want to be held I just want to be held #fuck I want to eat some acid and zonk out for a couple days and bawl my eyes out and then do a ton of weird art #I miss so dearly being held #I miss loving cats #I miss the version of me that could’ve existed with gentle parenting #I don’t understand why it’s so difficult in our world #please I just want to be held for like an hour and to feel safe

[francisforever2014]

i’m so embarrassed for how i behaved this weekend like it felt like the world was ending i was considering dropping out quitting work ending it all etc etc. i called my best friend so often bc i was worried i would do something crazy if left alone and now i’m just. fine. like whyyyyyyy does that have to happen can i calm down

#i’m not GREAT but like damn 😭 #i felt awful. genuinely the worst i’ve felt in years it feels like and for what #it makes me feel so silly and dramatic when i eventually swing back to apathy :(( #like u made such a fuss for what. but when i'm in it... oh my god. world ending is not an exaggeration #i’ve already apologized to him but i’m gonna do it again lol nobody should have to deal with this #including me like i’m tired. #i'm sick of things just being Okay or Horrible i need some genuine goodness and i need it now

[kavehater]

One pet peeve is when people be like “so and so is sick too” try : I don’t care !

#I honestly do not care if the whole world is sick #I don’t care ! this is exactly how I got to the stage where I get so severely sick but I think I’m normal because everyone tells me to shut #up about my symptoms. they always think that for some reason I can’t have issues or struggles which is wild #I think it’s to do with how I look #oftentimes older people feel like kids and young people can’t have issues and since I look younger than I am allegedly #they find it so much harder to realise that I’m genuinely so chronically sick #cause I don’t think said sick people are crying real tears from both pain and frustration at them feeling so sick all the time !!!! #dora daily

[asexualjedi]

Seeing people twelveclara post on Twitter and living. for some reason I was so scared to twelveclara post when it was airing live lmao. I think I thought people might think I’d just ship every companion with the doctor/be made about the age gap. Which I like bc I thought it made it more apparent the characters age gap. But also could just be my mortifying ordeal of being known and the fear of anyone knowing that I had ever once thought of the concept of shipping. some of this is just like 9+ years passing lol. Growth. Also I didn’t see as much as it before but it could have just been my circles at the time but it’s seem people have really come to love the dynamic platonic romantic whatever like in retrospect which im glad I remember people shitting on it a lot so I’m glad to see it looked on fondly even if it did have some clunkers.

#I went on Twitter to complain about being constantly sick all the time bc of my chronic sinusitis since birth #and saw people being so genuine with their thoughts and feelings in the world and it’s like wow no hiding anything with fake not caring or #a facade of irony love that #also I do think the age gap *haven’t looked either actors ages #seemed much more of a deal to me then bf I’m terrible with guessing ages and also I was like 16 #so capaldi seemed ancient to me the way anyone over 50 seems to a teenager #I hope he’s over 50 surely he is right this would be so embarrassing #also like I think they truly were the improved upon tenrose bc I think ten rose was twelve Clara but unintentional #I shan’t explain I have a paper to write #not tagging this bc this is just my random thoughts

[riverofempathy]

I just had a thought about Oppenheimer, about why they used THAT line in THAT scene.

It’s because it makes us uncomfortable.

As it SHOULD. Because out of context, what does that line sound like? “I am become death, destroyer of worlds?”

It’s iconic. It’s cool.

But it’s not. Becoming responsible for hundreds of thousands of people’s deaths is not cool. It’s horrific. It’s disturbing. It’s something that should haunt us for the rest of time.

It certainly haunted Oppenheimer.

That’s the whole point! Of the whole movie! And they didn’t even go as far as they could have. They could have and should have shown the devastation and death within the Navajo people in New Mexico. They’re STILL getting sick to this day!

And yet we still have people today who firmly believe that dropping those bombs on Nagasaki and Hiroshima was the right thing to do. And yet they mourn for the people who died at Pearl Harbor. As if people who die in your own country deserve to be mourned more than those who die in another country. As if those people don’t also have families who wanted them to come home. As if they don’t also believe in fighting for their country, the one that they happened to be born in, which you also could have happened to be born in, if the universe had shifted slightly. And you could have been on their side, mourning their people because they were yours.

It’s all a stupid game. It’s just a tangled web of lies, carefully constructed to fit whatever perspective of the side you’re born on. And we’re never going to get out of it if we keep thinking that war is necessary, that violence is necessary, that we have to protect ourselves against our enemies. But our “enemies” think the same thing about us. And they’re people, too. They think they’re right, too. They want to protect their families, too.

So it’s never gonna end. Unless we ALL work together to make things better, to be empathetic, to see everybody as human, everybody as worth protecting.

And it starts… with getting a little uncomfortable.

#oppenheimer #oppenheimer epiphany #Oppenheimer thoughts #war sucks #violence sucks #the whole world kinda sucks #but it’s also beautiful and amazing and full of extraordinary people #and there’s still kindness and love and empathy and hope #I’m sick of everybody pretending that their side is better while refusing to believe that the other side genuinely believes the same thing #like I just don’t get it #accepting violence and death against someone else you disagree with or hate means you welcome someone doing that to you #everybody wants to win #nobody wants to lose #but if we all keep killing each other everybody loses #team we all need to go to frickin therapy #kinda turned into a rant sorry #I was so excited when I grabbed my phone to share this epiphany #and then I got pissed off at humanity #let’s do better okay? #also can we just appreciate the thematic and cinematic masterpiece of Oppenheimer? #is it perfect? no #god no #but I really think that moment was done well #that line in that scene #is the right choice #because if we heard it during any other scene people would celebrate and cheer #like yeah they did it! #but it’s not something to celebrate #it’s something that should carve a hole in our gut and make us feel like something is wrong #because it is