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yonpote · 1 month

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I need to know why and how you were anti-phannie from 2014-2016

alright here we go i get to talk about THIS shit now.

i was generally anti-rpf at that point, and honestly? i think it was for fair enough reasons as some people were a bit too eager about showing (general) youtubers stories they wrote about them sucking and fucking their friends. i think i was also pretty high and mighty about being a somewhat oldhead phannie tbh, like ugh do these gaming-channel-only people even know about dan being super edgy and offensive 🙄 and lowkey it was a lot of subtly misogynistic "i'm not like other girls" type shit like i was sooo much better than yall cuz i hadn't watched that video (yet.)

i was generally not into these sorts of fandoms to begin with. i wasnt on the superwhopotterlock side, i was on the homestuck/dangan ronpa/anime of the month side of tumblr, if that gives you an idea of what i was like lol. around 2014-15 i was very much in a community that is kinda similar to what you might see on twitter now, where if you had any interests in media that portrayed anything problematic, that means you are in full support of that problematic thing. if dan howell said something racist in 2010, it doesn't matter that he wasn't being racist in 2015 he's still racist and liking him makes you a racist etc. and of course, rpf is included in problematic topics. if you ship real people, even if said people say they don't mind it, you are a sick pervert and you should be in the loony bin for being so depraved. and if you write or read any fiction that has immoral acts, it means you support those acts in real life too and you are trying to normalize abuse and SA (yknow as if whitecishetpatriarchy hasnt normalized that enough) and you're a danger to children and you deserve to rot in prison (yknow as if a queer person writing stories about queer people hasnt heard that one before)

now here's the real kicker. in 2015-2017 i ran a game grumps fan blog where i did talk about shipping the grumps. "wait how were you anti-rpf if-" well have you ever heard of this thing called Lying? or perhaps even, Cognitive Dissonance? i HAD to run a separate blog for this interest, because if my friends knew i consumed slashfic about arin and danny they would stop being friends with me and think im this evil horrible monster etc. genuinely that was where my brain was at, and is a little bit the reason i decided to this day, to make my phannie accounts completely separate from my main accounts.

nowadays, none of my non-phannie friends actually give a fuck and i do occasionally talk about dnp being silly gay white boys w them! at this point i dont post about em on main just out of respect like "hey im sure you dont actually want to hear about british yaoi constantly regardless of our level of friendship so i'll keep it over here okay?"

also, yeah i grew out of thinking consuming media with deplorable acts makes me deplorable. my favorite tv show is hannibal. i know its shocking, but i dont actually support serial killer cannibals. i will say, i dont fuck with "pro/anti" language with regards to what is considered "problematic" or having that be an identity marker. i think that people are free to write fiction as they please so long as its all properly tagged for people who dont enjoy that kind of content to avoid. but i also think there can be and often are problems in the way these stories are written, and yeah if all the romance stories you read growing up involve some sort of force or danger, that CAN normalize this sort of action as inherent to romance stories/real life romance. but i think thats an issue with like, society at large, and it's not on an individual fic writer to be educating teens who read their dead dove fic despite the explicit rating and tags.

TL;DR: BASICALLY. I WAS A DUMBASS KNOW-IT-ALL BUT DW I GOT BETTER.

#myrambles #sorry for party yapping

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ruthlesslistener · 7 months

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Hello! I'm not sure what proper etiquette is here so I hope I'm not overstepping, pls feel free to ignore if I am. You mentioned in a tag and/or post about having estrogen allergy? My wife is dealing with that, and it's... so difficult, most doctors don't know what it is and we thought we had a short term solution so she could finally get some sleep (she hardly sleeps at all anymore because of nightly itching). It's so hard to find ANY information on it and we're not sure how to proceed anymore. Just...wondering if you have any information at all? I'm sorry if this sounds desperate, it's because...it is lol.

Thanks kindly, from, your friendly neighborhood very worried lesbian wife.

Dw anon, you're not overstepping!! I've been in hormone hell since I was 13 so I know how much of a relief it is to find someone who understands for once. I don't believe that me or my mom (who's also affected) have the same allergic reactions that your wife is experiencing, but I'm hoping that I can help anyways.

Okay so first off, the doctors not knowing about estrogen allergies is bullshit. They may not be super common, but they've also been documented since at LEAST 1921. Just a cursory google search has yielded two scientific articles about it (that looked legit when I scanned through them before going to lecture, where I'm typing this rn), which I'll put right here:

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC5745953/

https://waojournal.biomedcentral.com/articles/10.1186/s40413-017-0176-x

I'd suggest trying to read through medical journal articles on it because despite the density of the information and the difficulty of the language, medical articles tend to be more comprehensive about the symptoms and causes than ones written for the general public. They also mean that you have the language to confront doctors about it if you wish- which you'll have to do, because if she's experiencing an allergic reaction like itchieness, then I'd also be concerned about potential anaphalaxis if her reactions get more severe. The intolerance that me and my mother had manifested in different ways (migraines, muscle weakness, disorintation, being hypersensitive to food/unable to keep food down, extreme drowsieness leading to being bed-bound), but those weren't quite on the level of being so itchy that you can't sleep. A more typical allergic reaction is something to be concerned about and I highly suggest not only stressing this to your doctor, but also getting confrontational about it and meeting multiple different doctors if needed before you get care. Force them to run tests, force them to listen to you. That's my biggest regret when it comes to my hormone issues, because they just got progressively worse and worse until I had to go to the ER for it. Turns out that I was not only estrogen intolerant, I also had hypothyroidism! And nobody in 10 years of appointments thought to check for that!!

As for what helps me and my mom, I found that progesterone hormone treatment was effective for us both (until it stopped working for me, but I still don't know why that is. It works for my mother). You might want to be cautious about trying this because in the articles I read, some people were just as sensitive to progesterone, but it's worth a shot. I used to get the DEPO-provera (or however its spelled) shot to offset the issues caused by estrogen, which is an injection once every few months. I also found that once I went on testosterone that a good chunk of my hormonal health issues straight-up vanished, but obviously that's not exactly the best option for everyone. I'm on a masculinizing dose so maybe you can do a really super low-grade dose, but I'm telling you about it mostly just to get the point across that HRT works. It's not just for trans people- cis people get hormone fuckery and need hormone therapy as well.

But there's also proposed solutions in the articles I linked, so I hope those are helpful or give you an idea of treatment options. Best of luck!

#anon #reply #hormone problems suck so much im sorry

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torchickentacos · 4 months

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15 Questions!

Tagged by @gaycey-sketchit !!!!! Thank you so much for the tag, and I loved reading yours! Long post, sorry lol.

1. Are you named after anyone? Nope! Not to my knowledge, anyways. Though if my mom told me that she named me after Taylor Hawkins from Foo Fighters, I would not be shocked.

2. When was the last time you cried? I think monday? I cry really often, at every single emotion. Happy? I'm going to cry about it. Laughing? My high school theatre class would always point out when they made me cry laugh. Sad? ABSOLUTELY crying about that. I didn't cry but I DID tear up yesterday because I was really happy about something nice someone said to me.

3. Do you have kids? Nope, and no intention of having them. Regardless of my desire to or not (usually not, being the oldest of four is enough for me), my health is not, and never will be, in an acceptable position or ability to go through that, and I've accepted that for a while now.

4. What sports do you play/have you played? As a kid, I played soccer and did gymnastics! In middle school, I BRIEFLY did fencing. My mom told me that when I was fencing is the only time she's ever seen me look truly graceful (lmao, love my mom dw. She's right). Then health stuff came up and I had to stop, but fencing just came as easily to me as breathing did. I always wonder where I'd be if I could have stuck with it. Nothing's ever immediately clicked with me the way fencing did, but it's hell on my joints.

5. Do you use sarcasm? Sometimes, usually when I'm annoyed which isn't TOO often. Or if I'm being hyperbolic for a joke.

6. What is the first thing you notice about people? No clue. I guess their demeanor- if they seem happy or not, if they look stressed, how they're feeling (or how I perceive them as feeling, I guess).

7. What's your eye color? Blue! My friend swears up and down that they're kind of green. I think she's colorblind.

8. Scary movies or happy endings? Happy endings!!! I am not built for scary movies. I can do some buzzfeed unsolved and I can watch markiplier play indie horror games but that's kind of my limit. I LOVE some types of horror, but my anxiety does not. I will be paranoid for a month after.

9. Any talents? I can play music by ear. Give me a guitar and a random song and ten minutes at most!

10. Where were you born?

11. What are your hobbies? Landscape/scenery art (also other art but it's much harder), writing, playing guitar (used to play piano too but not well. I also own a ukulele that I'm bad at, but generally I can play something on any instrument you give me). But mostly, I pick up and put down hobbies all the time. I've dabbled in crochet, embroidery, sewing, painting, archery, coding, needle felting, gardening, cooking, a little bit of everything. Never long enough to get good at most of them, though. I get bored too quickly.

12. Do you have any pets? A lovely husky (shelter girlie <3) and a gecko! And, for the gecko, a bunch of crickets at any given point in time, which I guess counts because I have to take care of them, too.

13. How tall are you? 5'2 and a half. 5'4 with my doc martens.

14. Favorite subject in school? Assuming lunch doesn't count, I was a theatre girlie. Assuming THAT doesn't count, English. I liked English because if I didn't have an answer, I could just bullshit one, but I usually did enjoy it and had real answers. I'll tell you why the curtains are blue and why they're the specific fabric they are and what the rest of the room means- if I'm interested, anyways.

15. Dream job? Oh boy, uh. Still trying to figure that out. DREAM job, like, without worrying about money or my physical ability to do it? Pro fencer, but I gave up on that a looong time ago. I genuinely believe I could have done it if my knee hadn't gone to shit at fourteen. I'd love to work in a record store or a music store, though, which is a little more in-reach.

Tagging: Anyone who sees this, lmk if you do it from this post!! But also, NO PRESSURE AT ALL but @soulsilversprings @nowandevermore @lostlegendaerie @mozukumi !!! Also whoever else wants to, I get nervous to tag people so assume you're tagged, too!

#taylor's tag #long post #thank you for the tag andrew!!!!

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plural-bracket · 1 year

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dw about that addition, the whole "chara is an evil murderer" thing is SOOOO controversial in the undertale fandom and the game itself tries to debunk it, in the game theyre literally canonically just a scared traumatized kid lashing out and they can be either comforted or pushed to kill depending on your choices, they wouldnt be an ~evil murderer headmate~ that's entirely a fandom headcanon Jdjdjfjfjfnmfkfk

i mean yeah but if a lot of people misinterpret it that way and them being plural is more on the headcanon side anyway, i do definitely get why someone would be uncomfortable with that and we'd rather someone spoke up than not.

several other asks under the cut ↓

& other ask:

tbh personally as a system we like fucked up evil system members in fiction, systems are just like singlets in the types of people we can be so even if a system member in a story is actually a villain we still like that bc system members can be heroes, villains, good, evil, just like singlets can be too :)

also fair! i do think the evil alter trope does more damage than not, but yeah a system (member or whole) doing ~evil~ stuff isn't indicative of that especially when like everyone in the series does messed up stuff lol. we're personally not too bothered unless the character is clearly meant to be dehumanising and only some evil stereotype, but i do completely understand why others would draw the line earlier than that and we did want this blog to not contain any characters that are too controversial.

& other other ask:

Hi, person who made the original post about Frisk and Chara here. I just feel like I was a bit of an asshole there. Delete it if you want, or don’t. Your choice.

i'll delete it no worries! i don't think you came off as too much of an asshole, and thank you for sharing your thoughts!

& other other other ask:

Yo, just so you know, if you disqualify Frisk and Chara for not being an actual system, you should probably disqualify Harrow and Gideon as well. Their situation is really similar, when they're bodysharing it's because Gideon's ghost is possessing Harrow's body. Personally I think multiple beings in one body is a fun plural vibe even if they're actual ghosts and other entities and not related to mental health per say, but I understand if you only wanna go for dissociated personalities in this bracket and disqualify bodysharing entities that don't fit that definition.

idk what to make of harrow and gideon tbh attempting to read and understand their wiki gave me a headache, but unlike frisk and chara they did get more than one vote so hmm. several other characters are technically two separate characters bodysharing rather than being a realistic system, but if they otherwise feel, function, and/or are treated as a system i'm counting that as a system. the thing about frisk and chara is that i'm not sure anymore where they lie there OTL nobody's complained (or said much in general w) about them yet though, so for now they can stay?

#asks #sticking all of these together for less non-poll posts

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idleglowingpixels · 7 months

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I Started Typing A Regular Post When Oops It Turned Into An Update Post (Mainly about MH-AU & XXY)

Just spent the last couple hours give-or-take on completing Cleo's profile, which I'm excited to be releasing later today! Her post is scheduled to release around noon EDT (I scheduled Lagoona's and it made things a lot easier to post her at a reasonable hour so I'm doing that from now on cause OH MY GOD :'D). She will be the last in the current set of character designs/bios I have prepared.

I have one teensy tiny more MH-AU goodie for Halloween before I get back to XXY full-time (dw I have been working on it in the background, progress has just been super slow cause I'm trying to finish the fic's outline). I will still be working on the MH-AU, don't get me wrong, just not as my top priority cause my PPG followers have been patient enough with me for more XXY content. I do plan on making another series of character design/bios, this time focusing on the mansters since they actually serve a purpose in the fics other than "the boyfriend" (Sorry they didn't do too much in a majority of the movies okay, I love them in the webisodes tho!). And once Cleo's post drops, I'll make a masterpost for the MH-AU since there's enough out now that I feel it necessary; keeps all the lore organized and junk. I'll have it linked in my general masterpost for quick access should anyone need it for reference. If they are updated at all later on, I'll make a post about it.

My current oneshot WIPs for the MH-AU are: - My equivalent to G1's New Ghoul @ School (tbh I might just use that name cause it's so iconic and I can't really come up with anything better lol), which might end up becoming a SMALL multichapter should it require that (3-6 Chapters max). There's a lot that goes on in Frankie's first week, more than the original series of mishaps unfortunately (poor Frankie :'D), and it also sets up a lot of stuff prior to the first week of school for them that I think is super important to their character. - Taking A Lycan To New Salem (Working Title), a short story about one of Clawdeen's human-side escapades gone wrong. (I want to talk about this one SO BAD but alas, it'll have to wait til I finish the fic. I'm already 1k words into it!) And I have several more in mind that I can't wait to write and share. Until then, I'll keep you guys posted!

(Random side note: I had no idea how many of these characters were gonna have a criminal record like holy shit dgfhgsddfg)

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I've been in a super artsy mood so if I can manage to actually complete a sketch of the team, I really wanna post a drawing of XXY as a whole (I tend to ditch my sketches after 1-2 characters are drawn q-q). I also really wanna draw the "Normie Trio/3" as I call them, consisting of Robin, Mitch and Mike. I eventually wanna draw more characters that get redesigns from age, alterations in the case of the reboot villains, and such, but I think I just needed to get into the art mood again cause now I actually plan to do these things! :D

Also, while progress has been slow, I'm gonna assume from my current status that I'll be able to complete XXY's next batch probably around the end of this year, to be released in January. I'm so sorry to delay its release to January, but please understand I am really passionate about this story and wanna make it the best (and most fun) I can make it. And I'm not gonna go out and say "hey this is exactly how many chapters there'll be," but I might end up making about 70 chapters total including all the intermission/MultiPOV chapters, but that remains to be seen.

I do have good news for you guys, however; considering where the story is headed, I've realized I'm gonna need to throw in another intermission chapter at the end of this batch, with a new character's POV! They haven't shown up yet, and won't until that chapter, but believe me when I say I am VERY VERY excited to write it and I really love this character. The chapter name for them is super appropriate too lol.

While I'm here I'm gonna drop the chapter titles, as they don't really reveal anything. The previous theme was weather patterns, focusing on the coming and going of rain and shine. This one's flowers!

Chapter 8 - Gladiolus Chapter 9 - Hyacinth Chapter 10 - Spearmint Chapter 11 - Coriander Chapter 12 - Hibiscus Chapter 13 - Violet Chapter 14 - Jasmine Tobacco

Hope all the little tidbits I shared hold you guys over and get you excited for the coming months. Thanks as always for your patience!

#linposts #monster high au #xxy #blog update

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cheolbooluvr · 3 years

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look wonwoo is just very friend shaped imo and i love that for him? like i would love him as a pal he looks like such a fun guy to chill with and ive always thought he'd be the perfect person to have late night chats with...

hehe i'll do my best! i can unfortunately have a bad attn span with reading things (my to read list... actually straight up my to watch/to read/to play list is horrendously large and will never be defeated 😔) but i wanted to check out your stuff since its always neat to see what other creatives on here are up to! also i had a feeling but i think that definitely also added to it i think! when you are writing for a friend and have that kind of sweet (and a little bit of a 😈) intent by it it does have an impact on the story in a good way! and up to u hehe! what kind of y/ns or mcs in your stories do you tend to go for?

hoshi is a VERY good answer and i commend your fighting taste HAHA. he always seems like he's having a riot when seungkwan is about to dropkick him too, so he does seem very fun to fight!!!! also seungkwan is a lovely person to be like! in general i actually don't know a lot of boo stans so it did make me happy to find out you're one!!!!

and yes 100% hahaha. i would fight minghao and i want it to be an epic battle, like I'm talking we are bound by fate to fight on a rickety bridge that goes from one end of a volcano to another fight. or i guess if it has to be mundane he just looks like he'd be fun to get into a lot of like... fake arguments with you know? mingyu (like if u told me that the tallest, and one of the most conventially attractive guys in seventeen was the butt monkey... I would not have believed u) and hoshi (I pretty much agree with everything you've said) are other options but mainly I am focused on fighting minghao hahaha

ok so another question (or sets of questions, rather) I'm always curious about... how long have you been a carat, what had u tip into caratdom, and... who was ur first bias?

(honestly its inconsistent in general but it is very strange that desktop seems to still have a word limit and u gotta squeeze everything into one paragraph which... tbh makes me a little insane like I tend to be the type to write a lot djdhskdjdhd... which... I am a little apologetic for HAHA)

- 😺 carat anon

yes!! i agree i feel like wonwoo would be a great friend to just hang out w and have deep talks but also just be silly w!! i think he and i would def have been friends post-hs.

ahhh dw and plz don't feel pressured to read anything haha i totally feel you, my list of to read/watch is suuuuuper long as well D: you said "other creatives" so can i ask what kind of creator you are?? you don't have to tell me if that will spoil anything tho!

mmm to answer your question, my mcs tend to be similar to me LOL or like versions of me i wish i was irl (idk if that makes any sense). usually kinda cool, bit of a klutz, that kind of vibe! but now i'm wondering if i should start branching out.... 🤔

i AM a boosadan and a proud one at that 😌 seungkwan is truly the ultimate bestie vibes, i know we would get along so well if we ever met bc we're so similar in so many ways!

omg fighting minghao over a volcano :o you're insane!! but awesome!! that sounds so freaking epic plz lemme just watch from a helicopter!! also mingyu a butt monkey sdtcvjjdswtkl LOL that's so funny plz 🤧

i actually only became a carat last year on left and right day (june 22?) what's funny is that my friend started stanning svt the same time i started stanning sf9 last march, so she would send me pics of dk and i was like aight cool i'm only gonna stan sf9 okay. but then she kept spamming me content and told me to watch svt play mafia (don't lie 1) and so i put it off. eventually i got around to it, and then just started watching gose in the bg until i realized it was FUNNY (omg who would have guessed). also somewhere before that, i learned all the members for her lol!!

my first bias was actually seungkwan! and it was in boo's past life destiny that i decided he was the one for me. but my bias wreckers have changed and been so volatile that i made a bias tracker for that asfdfgjkikl

what abt you? who was your first bias vs now? bias wreckers? how long have you been a carat? :o

#cheolbooluvr asks #🐱 carat anon #carat anon event 💎

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