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rancid-apples · 3 months
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coldshare · 1 year
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someone trying to stave off a sneeze, but every effort they take backfires terribly.
they try to press a finger under their nose? well, their nose won't stop running - they can feel the dampness on their finger already, and that really tiiihckles...
they blow their nose? well, that seems to clear their congestion a little, but now that they can properly breathe again, their next breath only seems to expose them more to whatever allergen/irritant is present...
if they try to go inside? their tickle in their nose increases tenfold... this puzzles them until they realize - how long has it been since this room has been dusted?
or outside? it's springtime, and the trees are fully in bloom, and the slightest glance at the sun is enough to send their breath into another sharp, ticklish hitch...
they try to rub their nose? oh, but their fingers have just managed to graze the most sensitive part of it, worsening the tickle tenfold. what started off as a small, distracting tickle has become an intense, fiercely irritating - hHiiiH!
(not to mention, all this holding back is practically enough to guarantee that when they do finally sneeze - when the tickle they've denied themself relief from for so long finally has its chance to surface, it will be quite the display)
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maideninorange · 10 months
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All he wanted was just even one more day to live.
He regrets getting that wish.
A very personal (and cathartic) fic I wrote out in three days because I'm currently suffering from Pikmin brainrot lol. It's really, really bleak though, so be careful with this one if you give it a read.
(Warnings here are Species Dysphoria, Suicidal Thoughts, and some minor Body Horror. It's a bad end fic, and boy do I write it like one.)
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cervidaecorpse · 1 month
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First of all, what happened with my last Go Rush post, lmao. I just wanted to kick out a funny little ha ha, that has been stuck in my drafts for MONTHS, because I took immediate notice of Phaser's and Zwijo's beanstalk appearance in t-shirts, but when I looked at their usual clothed selves I thought "well, they always look like beanstalks, so I did this for nothing". And then came last episode. o_o
I think I need a moment before I reply to anyone. ^^'
Anyway... through fitting circumstances I have a public Discord account now. If someone wants to have me around more... there is that option now.
Someone also asked me what they should call me, since, understandably, either "Cervidae" or "Corpse" are not very usual names (the former also being rather difficult to write, if you're not used to it). I think the simple solution would just to call me "Deer" or something along those lines. If that's too weird you can come up with your own solution, as long as it's related to deer. For obvious reasons. :D
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vampireacademysims · 1 year
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Wow.... been 8 years already?
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I am a new reader of your blog, and that is something I want to know (but it's totally okay if you want to ignore this ask!) why you stopped liking [with you]? Is there something in particular that bothered you about this fic?
That... is a question with a loaded answer.
The quick answer is:
I put way too much pressure on myself with [with you] that caused terrible burnout and I couldn't do any creative writing for a long time after; a small portion of my readers were pretty hostile about slow updates; there were criticisms about the story that I had a hard time with; and there are a lot of story beats and writing decisions I made with it that I'm very critical of. All of those things combined, I now have a lot of negative feelings associated with [with you].
The not-so-quick answer involves a lot of self-criticism about my prose, poor choices, the criticisms by my readers, and some behind the scenes stuff. I'll put all that under a "keep reading" for anyone interested in more detail.
When I started [with you], it wasn't meant to be a 50k+ story, it was just going to be a simpler story told in a couple parts... that I then kept expanding. I'm pretty sure every note I have on the original version posted on here starts with, "hey y'all, this story is this many parts now whoops haha"
I had very little planned out, I was just discovery writing my way through everything. I wrote a chapter, read through it a couple times, said, "yeah that's good enough," then posted. Y'know, like what a lot of people who write fics do. "no beta, we die like Ben falling down the bell tower" and all that.
I had ideas of where I wanted to go, but I didn't start an outline until I was well into the story. It was bloated. I felt like I needed to add every single idea I had, and needed to expand on every character, even if it didn't do anything to advance or enhance the story... and that became overwhelming for me to keep track of since I wanted it to all tie together in the end and please my readers.
When I read through it now, there is so much that can be cut that no one would miss. It would flow better and be easier to read.
My prose [the actual writing style] is all over the place and reads like a first draft, especially in earlier chapters. Spelling errors, run-on sentences, whole paragraphs that I should've cut. While I feel better about my dialogue, there are some conversations that read as awkward.
Honestly, the best part of the entire fic is Clementine and Louis' story, which... yeah. I'm pretty happy with the way I portrayed their dynamic, dialogue, and romance. I just wish I hadn't bogged it all down with everything else, like... that's all it needed to be, it just needed to be about clouis.
Oh, and I still like the dream sequence. That's probably one of the better chapters, if not the best chapter.
Now, when I say I made bad choices with this story, one of those choices I'm referring to is my "big rewrite." This was incredibly stupid. Past CJ thought it was a good idea but she's a dumb ass. You can't listen to anything she says.
Basically, I got the brilliant idea that I would take [with you] down and rewrite the whole thing before I wrote the final chapters. I wasn't satisfied with how it was written. I felt I could do so much better. I was going to trim unnecessary fat, expand on important details, make some heavy changes, improve everything, and then repost it with the ending.... so I deleted it off AO3 and got to work.
Terrible idea. Don't ask me why. What I should've done was discontinued that version, made a note that it was old, and then published the new version separately. But I didn't. And a lot of people were pissed at me. Shocking.
I should've just finished it. I should've finished it, posted it, and then went from there. But I didn't. Ever since then I've gotten a lot of readers who would go on anon and send me messages about [with you] that are passive aggressive or guilt trippy. That soured my feelings about the story and myself as a writer tremendously.
Then there's Violet.
I wrote the first few chapters before Ep4 of TFS was released, meaning I wrote Violet before we found out that she's blinded in the explosion in her kidnapped route. I took the "Violet despises you" route, and a big plot point of the story is Violet dealing with all these conflicting feelings about Clementine, hating her but also not, distancing herself from the group, the strain it put on her and Louis' friendship, etc.
I don't like how I portrayed Violet for a number of reasons. I know what I was trying to do, and I knew I couldn't [or wouldn't] scrap everything I already wrote about her and rewrite in a blind Violet on friendly terms with Clementine... because sure, I wanted to do this grand rewrite that sounded easy enough on paper, but in practice that was so much work that intimidated me.
Because behind the scenes fun- for the rewrite, I wanted to do that. That was a major change that would've cut so much from the story I wasn't happy with, and would've been a more positive portrayal of the character. But then I saw just how much would be cut and how much I'd have to write and it scared me off from the idea... so I tried to work with what I had and I still hate it.
Violet's very antagonistic in the story. She attacked Clementine after the boat explosion. Everyone thinks she'll attack her again. Mitch calls her a traitorous bitch and doesn't trust her to not stab Clementine in a conversation. There's even a point where it's mentioned that in the past she slapped Louis during a conversation. She just has a pissy attitude throughout the story but then berates herself for it and I just... I was going for a slow burn recovery that explores her trauma and ends with her reconciling with Clementine... but it doesn't come off that way? Some parts I think I executed better than others but most of it I look back at and say, "...No, past CJ, that doesn't read like you think it does...."
But that wasn't my only criticism I got about the way I wrote Violet, and this one is... a little complicated? And something most probably wouldn't take issue with or even notice unless you're a major Violet stan... but I pretty much gave Mitch [a character I loved at the time] a lot of Violet's canon character points and explored them more positively, then turned around and made Violet more antagonistic, which......yeeeeeah.
The only defense I have for this is it wasn't intentional. It really wasn't, but I understand and think it's a valid complaint. Like... I used to get these anons who would tell me this and I'd quietly delete them because, "...nope, not touching that. If I don't acknowledge it, it doesn't exist."
Lemme explain: In my fics, Mitch is gay. He had feelings for his best friend and roommate, Justin, before he died to walkers, and Mitch hasn't trusted "gross feelings" ever since... until James shows up and Mitch has to face the fact that he has romantic feelings for him while not being completely over Justin...
...y'know, totally different from Violet who is gay, had feelings for Minerva before she "died," and hasn't trusted mushy feelings ever since... until Clementine shows up and Violet has to face the fact that she has romantic feelings for her while not being completely over Minerva....
It's surface level stuff since they are written differently, and it's not like you're not allowed to have more than one character with character beats like that, but it's enough of a similarity that I get why it would rub Violet lovers the wrong way. Especially since nothing about that is canon with Mitch's character, y'know? It's the character I gave him.
I don't think it was coming from the Violet crowd [the aggressively obnoxious fans no one likes], I think it came from people who were genuinely bummed or put off by my more antagonistic portrayal of her, only to see similar traits portrayed positively with Mitch.
And that bothers me. I do like the way I wrote Mitch, but I hate the way I wrote Violet. It's made me step back and analyze why I wrote them the way I did, y'know?
But the BIGGEST criticism from readers I've gotten?
[with you] is unfinished.... valid, but there isn't anything I can add that. Sorry y'all, it's discontinued, I'm never going to finish it.
The best I can give you is what I planned: a big wedding scene where Clementine and Louis exchanged vows and kissed. Violet showed up and made amends with Clementine. Clementine talked Mitch into dancing with her even though he hates dancing. Aasim tried to ask Ruby to dance, panicked, and asked Mitch instead who was like "...Fuck no, RUBY COME DANCE WITH AASIM!" Louis and Clementine left early to head back to their room and it probably would've ended with some sappy line about being together to the end.
So... there ya go? It's not a final chapter but that's the gist of what would've happened.
But moving on, I was also going through a lot of things in my personal life that I won't get into. I was working on other writing projects that I had more interest in, so [with you] was put on the backburner. Then, over time I grew more sour about it the more pressure and guilt I put on myself, added with the pressure and guilt put on by my readers.
I do want to clarify that it's not like ALL of my readers were like this. Most of them were sweet, supportive followers who only had nice things to say. But you know how it is... you could get ten comments/asks, nine of them positive and one negative, and it's the negative one that's going to stick to you.
So, to my lovely readers, I am sorry that I let you down by not finishing it. To the rude readers, I'm less sorry because y'all were dicks.
Y'know... I can look at all of my other works and either be like "Yeah, I'm really proud of that story," or "Eh, it was one of my earlier works, so I can't be too hard on it."
But [with you] puts me in a crisis of "oh god I'm a fraud, I was never a good writer, what am I doing??? why?? why are you like this??"
and I have to snap myself out of it. That's why I'm so like this about it now.
There are other little things I could go into, but this answer is long enough. I figure if anyone has any further questions or criticisms, they'll send 'em in and I can answer them that way.
I've moved on from all my twdg writing, I'm writing dragon age stuff now, and it's finally working for me so it's not like [with you] has me all hung up still. Plus, I think it's good to go back and learn from mistakes made in old works, y'know?
#asks#[with you]#twdg clementine#twdg louis#twdg violet#twdg mitch#twdg ruby#twdg aasim#twdg james#i have a lot of feelings about my old writings and trying to not repeat mistakes sksksks#because hhhnnnggggg... i made mistakes#but it's fine#it's fine i am different now and current cj has improved.... she said through gritted teeth#no but really i'm doing so much more writing these days and it's actually *fun* again... writing hasn't been fun for a long time#and writing da fic is like... a totally different experience? because it's a very different world/fandom than twdg... obviously sksks#plus i'm just a lurker in the shadows of the fandom and i haven't posted any writing yet so there are zero eyes on me#there was a point where i felt like stagnant with twdg? like i wanted to branch out and write different kinds of fics but was too worried#about my readers and followers judging me for it or that no one would want to read it because it wasn't tfs stuff#like.... ugh do i dare share this? ....it's in the tags and no one reads those so i'm sure this is a safe place for confession... sksks#i entertained the idea of writing a long fic about david and lilly meeting and joining the delta together#that would've dealt with much heavier mature themes than any of my tfs stuff did#...don't look at me like that okay I KNOW sksksk livid was a huge meme on this blog and behind the scenes i was like#'...wait what if though??' and never did it because i *know* how it would've been received and frankly i didn't wanna deal with that#plus i had so much other shit to write and [with you] constantly on the back burner screaming at me sooooo.... yeah#but anyway... i'll stop venting in the tags and thank anon for the ask and for reading my stuff#despite my hang ups with it i do truly appreciate you for reading my work and hope my answer makes sense
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aramblingjay · 1 year
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a creation for every month of 2022
post your favorite or most popular post from each month this year (it’s okay to skip months).
thank you for tagging me @ughmerlin and @lamberts! ❤ it was a lot of fun to look back through everything i've made this year and see how much i've learned!
i split the list out by month from june, which is when i started using PS + HD video and making gifs in earnest. but i wanted to pick a favorite from the first half of the year, too, because i couldn't have made any of the later sets without the experience from the earlier ones!
january - may 💕 favorite: sevasey + i'm even more grateful to have you 🏅 most popular: sevasey + mi casa es tu casa part 2
june 💕: witcher core 4 + linked by destiny 🏅: geralt handling ciri with care
july 💕: geralt trying to make ciri smile 5 + 1 🏅: witcher 1x04, geralt and jaskier at the banquet
august 💕: geralt & ciri + rockabye 🏅: geralt calling everybody on the continent his friend except jaskier
september 💕: merthur's once and future love + marbles 🏅: geraskier + welly boots
october 💕: daemon's hood of hijinks 🏅: viserys & daemon in hotd 1x08
november 💕: daemon + when is a monster not a monster 🏅: doctor who 5x02, the doctor and amy hug (ik this was posted dec 1 but shhh)
december 💕: geraskier love languages + words of aggravation 🏅: translating viserys's pained daemon smiles
nothing terrifies me as much as having to pick who to tag, so i’ll just say if you’re a gifmaker who sees this and wants to do it, here’s your open invite to say i tagged you!
under the readmore, to not clog up the dash: here's one gif from each of my favorite sets from this year!
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gettothestabbing · 1 year
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My sister keeps telling me that I should make more personal posts here and vent and be more open. Not a bad idea, on its face. But she also reads my Tumblr. She’s the only person I know IRL that reads it and knows it’s mine. So I could vent on here about pretty much everything . . . unless it pertains to her, in which case she will message me and tell me to change what I wrote about her. Even though NONE of you know who she is.
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xavmaldonian · 1 year
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Just in case people think this is a Bot Account
It's not. I'm slowly working my way back onto tumblr and trying to ween myself off of Twatter. It's gonna take some getting used to and I've just been liking/faving things for now. Just putting this here so people I want to follow don't think I'm a random bot and just block me because I have nothing on here, haha.
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jaletsplay · 1 year
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I’m now down to 16 followers. All of which are HUMAN followers. If you follow me and have a blank page. I will report and block you for potentially being a spam bot. Please, just reblog or post anything that isn’t just a spam link, and you are certified to be human.
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princesscaterpee · 2 months
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Hello all!
My name is princess caterpee. I'm a long time lurker, first time poster. I've been wanting to join the space for a while but I never had the nerves. That said, let's all play nice and enjoy our diaper kink together 😉
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dandelionmage · 1 year
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Greetings!
So I'm not really new to tumblr, as I've been lurking for uh... 8 years? I finally decided I should do something with my blog.
I'm not sure exactly what I'll be posting; probably a little bit of everything. I do a lot of craft things (sewing, quilting, crochet, and soap making to name a few). I love video games (I play many, but Dragon Age and Mass Effect are favorites). There will be political posts (specifically anarchist and anti-fascist).
I'm in my 30s, and I'm non-binary and aro/ace. Any pronouns are fine with me.
Let's see if I can actually get my lurker self to use this blog!
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cream-stew · 5 months
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So I saw you want prompts in your inbox and I'm a quiet lurker when it comes to your works especially that Neuvillette fic ahshshhssh I'm a proud dragon and monsterfucker so if you don't mind another fic that's kinda similar or all round different with Neuvillette and Zhongli please
Just Dragons fucking their darling wife to breed full of eggs you can ignore the eggs part if you're uncomfortable or change it
And I hope to interact with you more if that's ok🥺🐑
Ps. Size kink go brrrrrr
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🔞minors dni
warnings: afab reader, monsterfucking, belly bulge, creampie, size kink, reader gets stuffed with eggs (genuinely idk if this should count as pregnancy but since it doesn't disturb me like pregnancy does I'll allow it <3 )
// note: monsterfucking is always 10/10 so I definitely don't mind lol also yeah you're more than welcome to interact more !! I always enjoy seeing your url in my notes thank you for the prompt <3
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neuvillette: he's very worried you'll end up hurting yourself bc you're riding him SO forcefully, whimpering and gasping for breath whenever you're fully seated on his huge dragon cock, but he should have expected that the moment he let slip he could fill you up with his eggs... like. how else did he think you could react? ofc you'd scream and beg for him to fuck you like that, you're not a fucking coward!! and the more it goes on, the less control he has on his baser instincts, and it's not long before he flips your positions and pins you to the mattress so he can pump in and out of your eager pussy at his own pace, even more frenzied than your own... who was he fooling with all that "noooo the size of my dragon form would be too much for you my beloved don't do it haha" talk from before, obviously he wanted nothing more than to fill you to the brim😌 and he's just as into the size difference thingy as you are, staring at the bulge in your poor tummy whenever he slams his cockhead all the way though your womb, sometimes even pressing his palm down on it so that you'll feel even more pressure in your insides !
zhongli: he's stunned that you'd let him do that but he doesn't need to ask twice. he locks you in a mating press immediately, not even letting either of you strip, he just rips your clothes to shreds and fucks you against the carpet, making you feel him shift in his dragon for while he's already balls deep in your pussy. you are so wet for him luckily, so the stretch stings pleasantly more than anything else and you just cling to his shoulders moaning and babbling about how "you've never been this full before!" despite his eagerness it takes him a while to actually get going at his usual vicious pace, too busy mouthing at your neck and leaving bruises and bitemarks wherever he can reach, but by the time you're telling him just how ready you are for his eggs in excruciating detail, he can do nothing more but actually start railing you as roughly as he can... you feel him cumming deep inside you and way more cum than usual flooding your pussy, but before you can say anything else you finally feel several eggs press inside in rapid succession! it's a real stretch to fit them all inside your tight pussy, but you'll do anything for your dragon husband <3
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tatagotchi · 1 year
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the way my old blog has almost a thousand drafts from like 2017-2018 before i even paid attention to anything kpop is so wild to me
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doomduck · 1 year
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Thinking about the mad man...
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kpop · 27 days
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K-Pop Spotlight: DAY6
Come one, come all to a K-Pop Spotlight that is sure to dazzle and delight ’til the final curtain. This week, all eyes are on DAY6 following the release of their eighth mini-album, Fourever, and brand new title track, "Welcome to the Show." We caught up with the band to discuss their goals as they approach their 10th anniversary and their ever-growing connection to their fans through their music. Check out our full interview below!
Tracks like “Welcome to the Show,” “The Power of Love,” and “Get The Hell Out” seem to have very different themes. Can you tell us a little about how these songs relate to each other and what aspects make this album cohesive?
SUNGJIN: As we pursue the idea of being a 'band that sings every moment,' it seems like our albums, including the recent one, prioritize diversity in songs and situations rather than unity. Consequently, our albums contain various genres and narratives. However, there seems to be a commonality in most songs, depicting situations that everyone has either gone through or might experience.
Young K: First and foremost, I would say this album is a compilation of the best songs we could create. There's definitely a theme of love running through it. "Welcome to the Show," "The Power of Love," and "Get The Hell Out" all talk about the concept of love.
What goes into creating titles for DAY6 songs and albums, especially those that don’t come directly from your lyrics? Do you find it hard to condense the intentions and themes of a song into a title?
Young K: While there have been cases like that, all the songs on this album came from the lyrics. Sometimes, when choosing a title, we select the one that best describes the song—other times, we choose to give it a twist or make it more intriguing.
WONPIL: Naming songs involves a lot of deliberation. We often contemplate which title will catch the eye and capture the song's essence. Usually, we try to take it from a verse in the chorus. This can be a challenging part of the songwriting process.
Is there a creative project you’ve always wanted to work on but haven’t gotten the chance/found the time?
SUNGJIN: I'm very curious, and have a principle of "trying to experience as much as possible." There are so many things I want to try musically and personally, especially among the things I know but haven't tried yet.
DOWOON: I hope we can have a song that we can collaborate on with My Day, like a choir.
What does your work/studio setup look like? Where do you feel the most creatively inspired?
DOWOON: We try to keep the studio as tidy as possible and make it comfortable for practice sessions.
WONPIL: When working on songs, we talk a lot. We get inspiration from little conversations, joking around, sharing stories, and listening to music from various eras regardless of genre while giving opinions. We also try to build emotional connections with the songs. There’s a lot of communication going on. The songwriting process takes place in the studio of our long-time collaborator, composer Hong Jisang, with whom we've been working together since our debut.
How do you want to evolve as a musician/producer?
Young K: I want to be eagerly anticipated and awaited as an artist. Without those who wait for us, we wouldn't release or even step onto the stage. So I’m always thankful for My Day.
WONPIL: My biggest goal is to make good music for My Day and the public, so I think I'll continue to ponder. When working on songs, I pour my sincerity into them. I constantly strive to express this sincerity musically, fully capturing the emotions I want to convey. I hope to create songs that can still be listened to even after 10 or 20 years.
Design your own Tumblr blog: choose an aesthetic, a blog name, and would you be a frequent poster or lurker?
SUNGJIN: I think I’ll use it to catch up on friends' updates. For the blog name, THUMB BLUR sounds good to me. I might end up being a lurker who never posts.
DOWOON: Maybe a blog for plants? I think I'll post it like a diary.
Want more DAY6? Check out their new mini album Fourever and the music video for the title track “Welcome to the Show,” both out now!
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