do you know how fucking mad i am at the fact that the webcomic gave us lloyd giving javier his own mana in an attempt to save his life and javier overcoming literal dimensional differences in order to be able to accept it into his body effectively foreshadowing how far he's willing to go just to be able to protect lloyd,,,, but they did it all with a fucking 'haha lloyd is ugly' joke. do you.
this could've been one of the best scenes in the entire thing. it could've been such a pivotal point for their character development. it could've been one of the most earnest moments in the story. but it's made into a joke because they just need to draw the ugliest faces possible to make a cheap joke that has been made a hundred times already. i'm not being funny i'm genuinely mad at the wasted potential lmao
the tone of the scene was changed from the webnovel so much it's almost unrecognizable. and not in a good way. like. why would you cheapen the emotional core of your own story like this. do you trust your own plot and characters so little to keep your readers engaged with the story that you feel the need to make everything in a joke. is that it. was the original story not funny enough to keep your attention so you think no one will care if you turn what's meant to be an earnest and heartwarming scene into a joke you've made hundreds of time before.
i'm not. mad. about the changes themselves (mostly). like i said this particular scene had so much potential to compliment the original story and foreshadow the ending that i'm actually upset that the tone and art made it so i can't in good faith say i like it.
they just. shot themselves in the foot by trying to make the scene funny. all the tension and emotional built up is wasted when the webcomic makes fun of itself. it cannot take itself seriously so i can't either.
like. it was going so well. i loved the built up with the scene where they talk about javier's parents and you see that they're still emotionally guarded with each other, they don't quite feel close enough to the other to call themselves friends even when we know that they care deeply for each other. i liked that they changed it so lloyd had the opportunity to save javier the way he wasn't able to in the novel. i even liked the development with lloyd's mana being so different from javier's that he struggles with accepting it, cause it was a chance to call forward to a very important event in the future.
the scene where they're reaching for each other as they realize that yes, they're friends and god help them they will save their friend no matter what?? gorgeous i loved it so much, it wasn't 'We'll be together forever, just like we've always been. Casually. As natural as breathing air.' yeah but it was perfectly okay on it's own too.
and then they do this.
like. what.
all that emotional built up, all that tension, all of it,,, for this?? this????
what's the point of making your audience feel emotionally engaged with the story if you're just gonna make the art equivalent of a fart noise. a well executed yet still completely out of place fart noise lmao
it doesn't feel funny, it just makes me feel like i wasted my time being emotionally invested in something that isn't interested in delivering. it's like watching someone setting up dominoes to topple them in a gorgeous pattern only for them to put on clown shoes and start kicking them all over the place without rhyme or reason. like yeah they're in their right but then what was the point of all that work in the first place.
and yeah maybe it's my fault for expecting something earnest and heartfelt from a webcomic that has shown multiples times that it's not interested on that but like. is it really too much to expect for an adaptation to, well, adapt the original source in a way that doesn't feel like it's making fun of it??
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You know what, fuck it, I'm sad and I'm angry and I want to scream at the world so here goes.
We had a chance. We had the biggest chance. To create lasting change, to exorcise the ghost of one of the worst periods of our history. We had a chance to move forward, finally, and we... didn't. The fear won out. The self-righteousness of the right, the fucking "red scare" yet again, because if a Constitution guarantees rights for people that have been ignored and left out and stepped over for literal centuries it's communism, right?
Almost fifty years ago my country was torn apart because a bunch of gringos decided we were a threat, because they saw us as their playground, as their property, because how dare you bring communism into their backyard? And for seventeen years it was the common people of Chile who suffered from it. Who disappeared, who were tortured, and killed. And they slapped that fucking Constitution to make their shit stick, they wrote it in our blood and said "you'll never be free of us".
Three years ago we said "fuck that". We took to the streets, we screamed and raged because thirty years is too much, it's too long, and we've suffered enough under a system that is fundamentally unjust. That favors the rich and leaves the rest of us out to rot. To die waiting for a doctor's appointment. To be crippled by debt for the rest of our lives because we decided we wanted to study. We fought, for fuck's sake, we fought, for months and years, because we deserve better than this shit. And we got the military thrown on us, and the cops, we lived under curfew, people were wrongfully arrested, the lost their eyes, they were tortured and killed, and we kept going because at least we were seeing change, right? We were going to vote on whether or not to have a new constitution, and then we voted yes and we kept going because this was a chance, this was unprecedented, this was... this was our moment. And for what? For fear to win, again? We had the opportunity for lasting change and we're just going to let it pass like that? Because, no matter what they may say right now, the reality is that the right is gonna fight back with everything it's got to make sure we don't get a new constitution. They're gonna pull out every single fucking argument to say that that was it, it's over now, no do-overs.
The new proposal wasn't perfect. I'll be the first to admit it, but for fuck's sake, at least if we'd voted it in we could've made changes, we could've perfected it, and it would've been so much easier than with the current one. But we didn't. And now we get to live with the consequences.
It shouldn't be over, I know that, and I still want to fight for a new constitution, for change, but for fuck's sake I'm so tired. I'm sad. I look at my parents, and how they lived all of those horrors in their youth and I can't help but feel like this country failed them, them and everyone who still remembers what the dictatorship was like, who still lives with the scars. I look at my siblings, at myself, and I wonder how we're supposed to have hope for a better future if this is our present. There's so many people in this country who were just slapped in the face and told that nothing is ever gonna change and we're fools for thinking otherwise.
Fuck, I don't know where we go from here. It still feels like a bad dream I'm waiting to wake up from. And this'll probably end up lost in the sea of the internet, with no one to know or care, but it had to be said. Fuck, we deserved better. We deserve better.
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A bit of doomposting,
One day later :
Yesterday I said I wouldn't talk about QSMP anymore, and while my feelings about it are still the same, I'm not closing the door about posting about QSMP forever. It will take a lot of time for me to not feel sad, angry and bitter about Pomme and Dapper. I think I will hold Q responsable of not taking care of his own company and winning awards for this without having a clue about what was happening for quite a while too.
But
This server brought so much joy, made me know so many cool ccs, allowed me to be in an awesome community, and for almost whole year, it has been a blast (I'd say almost because being a french ghostie, there was so many occasions were it was more stressful than exciting). Maybe one day, if the problems are settled and the feeling of loss regarding Pomme and Dapper are lightened, maybe I'll post about QSMP again. Until then, I'll watch BBH, cry in a bittersweet way over every memories of our sunshines and enjoy our lovely community, just perhaps a bit more quietly.
So yeah, my feelings are still all over the place right now, but I'm more in a wait and see position than in a definitive boycott or anything like that.
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I've been (helping) taking care of my grandma who's bed-ridden and has dementia for over 3 years now, which has obviously very strongly influenced my whole ~pandemic experience~ and made me lose hope in lots of people, but I still get surprised at how insensitive people are sometimes.
Yesteray I met up with friends who I don't see that regularly, and they asked how my grandma was (and like, they're nice people, they were trying to show an interest in my life and they didn't mean to be rude) and then basically just asked me if there were any estimates as to how long she would live, implying heavily that it might be a good thing for her to die.
And I just... can't. Obviously dementia fucking sucks and not being able to move around freely sucks but I fucking hate the casual attitude of "oh well I guess that's not a life worth living then" when they have NO FUCKING CLUE what my grandma's life actually looks like, the joy she still gets to experience even though she's in a shitty situation. It makes me so upset and mad and frustrated when people see people with dementia not as full/real people anymore, it's the same as with a lot of other disabilities where people are just classified as lesser human beings and I just fucking hate those eugenic attitudes so so so much. And after 3 fucking years of me advocating to everyone I know about how yes, people with dementia suffer and it is a shitty disease but they still fucking deserve to live their lives with dignity and deserve to do the things they love if it's still possible and they are still worthy of just basic human respect. I'm just so tired and angry.
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