#idk if anyone will bother reading but the imagined expectation and pressure is normally enough to motivate me

[carry-on-my-wayward-hobbit]

I mean it’s kinda been a while since I’ve been properly active on here whoops. But I’ve still but skulking about quietly cultivating my silly little hyperfixations and writing my silly little stories about them and it’s gotten to the point where I may finally have something new to put on AO3 so I figured I would indulge in WIP Wednesday to really put the pressure on.

It has been two years since I’ve posted a fic and this is a Christmas fic so she still has a few months of proofing and fine tuning ahead - but it intends to be very wolfstar turning hallmark movie featuring single-dad/bookstore owner Remus; fancy business Sirius learning to let himself appreciate to little things in life; James being his usual chaotic-Christmas obsessed self; toddle Harry and Teddy being best friends/partners in crime/unintentional matchmakers; and a little side of domestic Jily

It’s strange being back in Hogsmeade. Sirius notes as he makes his way down the winding street, that the small town really hasn’t changed at all since he was last here almost ten years ago. In fact, if anything it somehow seems even smaller and quieter than it was when he used to visit during his high school days. Frankly, he finds it ridiculous that James would ever want to give up the excitement and buzz of city life for a town whose under-fifty population could probably be counted on two hands. And yes, logically it does make sense - Lily started a new job at their old high school in September and it’s probably a good place to raise a kid (not that Sirius knows much about good parenting but he feels like quaint countryside is supposed to be good.) But regardless of that, at the end of the day, Sirius is still just a smidge annoyed that his best friends up and moved to the other end of the country when there are plenty of good schools in London for Lily to teach at and Harry to enrol in.

However, any mild resentment that has quietly brewed over the last couple of months is quickly replaced by excitement when he finally reaches the last cottage at the of the street and pushes open the red garden gate. The front door is open before Sirius if even halfway up the path. There’s a delightful squeal and Sirius barely has time to register what’s happening before a tiny toddler slams into his leg at a speed that no three-year-old should be able to reach.

He leans down to scoop up Harry, lifting him high into the air and holding him above his head. Harry shrieks with glee, making tiny grabby hands at Sirius’ face.

“Hello Hazza, how’s my favourite little Prongslet?” He asks as he gives Harry one more bounce in the air before bringing him down to balance on his hip.

“Pads!” is all Harry has to say with an unwipable grin plastered on his face.

“He’s been watching through the window all day,” another voice calls and Sirius glances up to find Lily leaning up in the open doorway, an equally big smile as her son.

It only takes a few strides for Sirius to make it to the porch and as soon as he’s in arms reach, he pulls Lily into a tight hug. “Hey, Lils,” he says, face pressed into her soft curls. God he’s missed this.

“How was the journey up?” She asks as pulls away from the hug and leads him inside.

He is hot immediately by the warmth and the smell of baking. It immediately reminds him of visiting the Potters over Christmas as a teenager - Effie and Monty had somehow always made him feel more welcome and more at home than he ever did with his actual parents.

“Long,” he says as he shucks his shoes off. It’s a careful balancing act as he refuses to put Harry down. “I can’t believe we used to do that trip multiple times a year without complaint.”

Lily hums in agreement. “I know. Now imagine it that little nightmare,” she says, the last part more of a coo than actual talking and Harry is giggling again as she ruffles his dark hair.

“Aw, you’re not a nightmare, are you Harry?”

“Yeah!” Harry cheers in agreement.

“You wouldn’t disagree after a ten-hour road trip with him.”

Sirius shudders at the thought.

#wip wednesday #wip writing #wolfstar #remus lupin #sirius black #maddy writes #also did not even bother proofreading this bit lmaooo #idk if anyone will bother reading but the imagined expectation and pressure is normally enough to motivate me #marauders

[meteora-writes]

A New Start Ch.2

Fandom: Death Stranding Pairing: None (possible Queer Platonic Sam/Deadman later, IDK) Warnings: Spoilers Description: Sam is finally free. No more being forced to work for Bridges. No pressure to be some savior to the masses. And no one he has to be accountable to but himself and Lou. His life is his own at last and he intends to live it how he chooses from now on. Authors Notes: This fic contains spoilers to the ending of Death Stranding. Do not read if you don’t want to know how the game ends. Chapter: 2 of ? Read on AO3

Read Chapter 1: Mama’s Help

The first time Lou wakes up Sam, he honest to god thinks someone must be hurting her. She’s tiny, but her cry is -loud-. It takes a moment for the fog of sleep to leave him and for his mind to catch on to the fact that no, nobody is hurting her. She just needs a diaper change. And probably another bottle.

It’s about two in the morning, and somewhere in the back of Sam’s tired mind, he remembers that newborns need feeding every 3 hours or so. It’s been almost 5 since they went to sleep, so he figures Lou has to be pretty damn hungry by now.

Getting her diaper changed goes mostly alright, he only hesitates for a moment when trying to figure out the best way to do it. He hadn’t gotten this far in the whole learning to be a parent thing when he and Lucy were expecting their daughter. He’d read the first few chapters of the one book she gave him, and that was just on feeding and clothing do’s and don’ts.

“Hey there, Lou,” Sam coos tiredly as he finishes getting her new diaper on and starts to zip her back into her over-sized onesie. “There now, that wasn’t so bad,” he says more to himself than the tiny whining girl he scoops into his arms. 

Lou still looks upset, which briefly has him worried, but then again he imagines it has to be pretty upsetting waking up to a wet diaper and an empty stomach after so long not feeling hunger or really experiencing anything else normal babies experience. He knows she’s not a normal baby, and he knows now that neither was he. He still isn’t really sure how he feels about that… Regardless, he figures given that she’s really over a year old and not a new born, experiencing these things for the first time has to majorly suck.

It’s easy enough to hold Lou in one arm while he fixes her a bottle, and as he does so he wonders how long she’ll stay this tiny. Deadman had said she’d started gaining weight and developing like a normal baby since they had bonded. If he had to guess, he’d say she’s definitely bigger than she was when he got her a few months back.

“What do you think, Lou? Should we go back to bed after this?” he asks a he gives her her bottle and starts to walk back and forth in the empty garage turned lab. 

Lou, to her credit, is too busy downing her warm bottle of formula to have an opinion. Not that he expected her to have much of one.

With a tired sigh Sam heads back to the small bedroom and carefully climbs back into bed so he’s still holding and feeding Lou while he gets comfortable with a few pillows propping him up.

The next time he wakes up, it’s to a drooling baby soaking his tank top where she rests with her head right over his heart.

It’s about 5AM, and after a long few moments debate he carefully gets up and does his best to lay Lou down in her makeshift crib while he goes to get a shower and get changed.

It feels weird being here. In Mama’s lab. It feels different than it did before. And not just because there’s no baby BT there making his skin tingle and something in his mind go we’re not alone, get out!. The place feels like it’s lost something that he can’t describe.

He brushes the thought off as he finds the bathroom and gets the shower going. The water is almost too hot when he steps inside and he finds himself really not caring. It feels good. After so long both out in the cold and inside the controlled environment of the Bridges facilities he welcomes something simple and out of the ordinary like this.

Something catches Sam’s eye as he washes up. His wrist. It has a faint mark from wearing that cuff for so long. Sort of like the mark on his finger where he used to wear his wedding ring. Compared to the hand prints and scars all over his body, it’s honestly a mark that doesn’t bother him. He’s glad he took the cuff off. Was able to get away. And he’s extremely grateful to Deadman for making this possible. For suggesting how to save Lou and giving him this chance to get out of there with her.

When he finally makes his way back to the bedroom Lou is awake and watching the odradek he rigged up spin slowly and play a lullaby as the metallic parts of the sensors shimmer different colors in the faint light it emits. She notices him when he steps closer, and she reaches out with tiny hands for him.

It makes a warmth spread through Sam at the sight, and he can’t help but smile as he picks her up and holds her close to him. “Hey, Lou. What do you say, you wanna get somethin’ to eat?”

 Lou simply grabs at his face with one hand while sticking the thumb of the other in her mouth in response. Sam figures that’s a yes and goes to fix her a bottle.

When they enter the tiny makeshift kitchen he nearly jumps out of his skin at what he sees. 

Lockne is standing at the small stove with a kettle on one of the burners as she reads the back of the container of formula. When she sees Sam and Lou the sad smile Sam remembers Mama giving when she talked about her daughter is the exact smile Lockne gives them.

“Hey, sorry if I startled you,” she says as she sets the container of formula down on the counter. “I got an alert that the sensors at Malingen’s lab were activated. We thought it might be you so I got Deadman to help me find a vehicle without a GPS tracker and I came to check.”

“Anybody else know you’re here?” Sam asks as he tries to get himself to relax. He can trust Lockne. He knows that. But if anyone at Bridges finds out where he is, that Lou is alive, he’s sure that shit will not end well. For anyone. And there’s no way he’s letting those bastards take Lou from him after everything they’ve been through.

“Just Deadman, Heartman and Fragile. Deadman told us where you went,” she says, pausing to stare in wonder at Lou, who’s turned her attention from grabbing at Sam’s face and hair to watching Lockne with a new fascination “Is Lou alright?”.

“She seems fine to me,” Sam says as he takes a hesitant step into the room.

“She?” Lockne says with a smile, this time more warm than sad. “That’s good. I’m glad.”

After another moment's hesitation, Sam takes another step closer, bringing him just an arms reach from Lockne. “Do you, uh, do you want to hold her?”

Lockne raises her hands, but then pauses and bites her lower lip before she reaches out and waits for Sam to hand the small girl over. He does, and for a moment Sam is sure he saw Mama standing side by side with Lockne as she holds Lou close and smiles down at her.

“Hi there, Lou. It’s nice to meet you,” she says in a soft voice as she gently rocks the tiny baby in her arms. “I’m really glad she’s okay, Sam. We were so worried for you, if you really lost her…”

Sam feels the air shift with the words being left unsaid. They both know what losing a child does to a person. 

“She’s a fighter,” is all he can bring himself to say before he steps past Lockne and grabs the kettle off the stove before it can start to whistle.

“I wonder where she could have learned that from,” Lockne says with a slight laugh as she moves to take a seat at the small table off to the side of the room. “Did you plan on staying here a while?”

“For a few days at least. I wanted to make sure Lou was really alright before I looked for someplace else for us to go,” he admits as he fixes Lou’s bottle and sets it to the side to cool a bit. “I came across some abandoned places here and there that weren’t destroyed by time fall. I figured we could go to one out of the way and get settled there.”

“We can help you with that, you know?” Lockne says, catching Sam a bit off guard.

“Yeah, how?” He asks as he comes to take a seat opposite her at the table. She’s not looking at him, attention focused on Lou, who grabbed a strand of her hair and is holding it in a tight grip with both hands as she makes a soft babbling sound.

“Now that the timefall has stopped and the BT’s are gone things are going to get a lot easier. Especially getting supplies. Wherever you end up we can make sure you and Lou don’t have to go without anything you need,” she explains as she carefully gets Lou to let go of her hair, her smile growing wider as that gets her finger grabbed in response.

“You don’t have to do that. You don’t owe us anything,” Sam protests.

“We want to help. You’re family. Real family helps each other. And I know you didn’t have the best experience with family in the past. But I swear we all just want to help you. You and Lou. We all care for you and this little girl,” she says earnestly as she looks Sam in the eye. “We won’t abandon you, Sam.”

They stare at one another for a long beat before Sam finds himself ducking his head a little and nodding. “Alright, you can help us,” he finally concedes. He knows he can trust her. And the others. He just needs to keep reminding himself that. For his sake as well as Lou’s.

When he looks up again Lockne is standing and coming around the table to pass Lou to him. “I’ll head back to the city and let the others know you’re here and that Lou is alright. I’ll be back either late tonight or sometime early tomorrow. Nobody will question my coming and going from here since it’s Malingen’s lab.”

“Hey, Lockne, “ Sam says as she turns to walk away, making her pause and look back at him. “Thank you.”

Again, for a flash, he sees Mama standing with Lockne, both of them giving him a smile and nod before turning again to leave. “Take care, Sam. We’ll see you again soon.”

And like that they’re alone again. And Lou pulls Sams attention back to her with a tug at his hair. He looks down at her with a huff of a laugh before getting up to grab her bottle. “Looks like your family just got bigger, huh, Louise.”

#death stranding #death stranding spoilers #death stranding fan fiction #sam porter bridges #bb 28 #bb louise #bb lou #louise bridges #lockne #malingen #mama

[kinktae]

The penultimate part🥺 I’m not ready to say goodbye, Bitchin!Jungkook has definitely been one of my fav characterizations of him that I’ve ever read. Thank you so much for sharing your work with all of us💖

bitchin 9 asks bc i suck

sapphireprinces5 said: bitchin’ pt9 was just so beautiful?? the way you explained the emotions and interactions between the characters was just amazing!! I felt myself hanging on every word wow excited for the end but will miss bitchin’ so much 🤧

Anonymous said: TAEHYUNG AND YARA SIGN ME UP GURL!!!!

Anonymous said: Like I just feel like if Jk really liked y/n he wouldn’t have slept with Kiri, you know? It shouldn’t matter that he didn’t know how y/n felt. And it’s obvious that he has feelings for y/n so I just hope that’s something y/n addresses when she talks to him. Don’t settle for less girl! Get you a man who will fight for you regardless 👏 (btw this is not me criticizing how you wrote it in any way! I’m just so invested in the characters and am thinking about how I would feel in this scenario :) )

Anonymous said: I KNEW SOMETHING WAS GONNA HAPPEN WITH YARA AND TAE I FELT IT SO DEEP IN MY BONES IM SO HAPPY FOR THEM 😭😭😭

Anonymous said: Hi! I just binge read bitchin in a day and can I just say that I loved it! I really love the female characters as well, you’ve written them so beautifully 🥺 if I was y/n I wouldn’t be concerned so much about Jk not sleeping with Kiri if he knew the way y/n felt, but rather the fact that if Jk didn’t want to sleep with Kiri, he wouldn’t have, regardless of y/n’s feelings or not. IMO y/n’s feelings shouldn’t be the issue here, but Jk’s should! If I was y/n’s bff that’s what I would tell her LOL

Anonymous said: OH MY GOODNESS! YES !!!! YESSSSS Y.E.S Muchas graciaaaas!!!

Anonymous said: tae and yara are my new ship)

unknowntalesx said: okay but like tae and yara thooO they got me all smiley being like oh yeah bayyybeEE das what im talking about 😏 ALSO OKAY NOW THAT I AM MORE LUCID KIRI GOT FUCKING WRECKED I LOVED THAT SHE GOT A DOSE OF HER OWN MANIPULATIVE MEDICINE I AM 😤😤😤😤😤

Anonymous said: im not ready for bitchin to end )):

Anonymous said: I SCREAMED WHEN Y/N TOLD KIRI THE TRUTH. YES QUEEN. STAB AND TWIST THE KNIFE!

Anonymous said: ROSE AHHSHSJSKSD FUCK U I’m all hot and bothered with anticipation for pt 10 now 😩😩😩🥵

sydney--chan said: We really stan y/n for using her big ol brain to rock kiris world oh my god I yelled also I say what's your damage all the time bring that shit back

Anonymous said: a tae x yara spin off series or one shot...... haha jk..... unless..... 👀

Anonymous said: Fuck kiri's scheming ass. I'm glad YN ripped her a new one

Anonymous said: AAHHHHHH once again, I love this chapter so much!!!! I was screaming at Yara and Tae part. Seriously!!!! I am SURE she felt that spark when he kissed her. Is she going to be the one falling for the guy while he wants something casual now? Or maybe Tae will fall for her as well? Ahhhh so cute! I feel like that would be a nice spin off yk (no pressure, I swear). And Erik, woah I didn't expect him to be like that. To be so nice and wise. Great character development indeed! It was really nice (1/2)

Anonymous said: To see their interaction and the way he opened her eyes (for some reason I couldn't help but picture him as Namjoon). Ohhh the Kiri part tho!!!! I felt really petty but in the best way lol. Anywaysss I am really excited for the last chapter (really sad too) and I am sure it is going to be the best because you are a genius! Thank you for sharing another amazing chapter with us! ♥♥♥ (2/2)

Anonymous said: OKAY I absolutely adored Bitchin part 9 😻 I always thought that it was also OC fault for what happened between her and jk, he obviously was the main jerk but she never actually admitted her feelings to him and he doesn't read minds so??¿¿? Really loved that she came to understand it. And I was rooting SO MUCH for yara and tae MAN I AM CRYING THEY DESERVE IT 🙌🏻

Anonymous said: you came through with the tae x yara content we all needed omg thank you!! if anyone’s gonna make yara fall in love it’s tae lol

Anonymous said: I honestly lowkey hate bitchin’ jungkook right now. I thought I’d get over it but I just can’t imagine how hurt and disgusted Y/N was when she found out that jk and kiri were together just hours before they were like ugh. It doesn’t help that I’m also really interested in Erik’s character development now so it would’ve been really interesting to see how he’d fit in Y/N’s life. 🥺

Anonymous said: jungkook and y/n wANT what yara and tae have

Anonymous said: TAEYARA YES FINALLY OUR WISHES HAVE BEEN ANSWERED 😍😍

Anonymous said: just want to let you know you’re an absolute angel and all you create is nothing short of perfection. *sends you all of the love*

spring2787 said: I jus came from a 4 hour long class and it's finally here... Thank you so much dear 🎂 💜

Anonymous said: Is yara me ? Like when she said that boy act like they understand the no string involved but then fall in love , dude I felt that , that's literally the story of my life lmaoooo Like the number of time a dude told me yeah I'm okay with that and then acted shocked when I told him I didn't feel anything for him is impressive lmaoo Anyway I'm so eager for the last chapter!!!! you did an amazing job!!

kuhweenbri said: The way I already finished but anyways girl I absolutely loved this part and now I’m excited for the next part 😭😭 will we be seeing more of T-ara??

Anonymous said: OMG YARA AND TAEEEEEEEEE. NOW I UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU MEANT BY FANSERVICE. JSJSJSJJSBXBSBSB But on a serious note, this fic just keeps on getting better. The fact that there's only one chapter left still hasn't come home to me 😭 but thank you so much for blessing us with this!💜💜

Anonymous said: YO! bitchin is flippin brilliant! you have done so well! jungkook broke my heart in part 9! im emotional but also so ready for part 10! please take your time. have a lovely day

Anonymous said: i don’t normally talk to writers on here but bitchin is really bitchin, i haven’t read a fanfic in so long that makes me excited to read the next part and maybe it’s because i’m so used to all of the aus being recycled but bitchin is truly a breathe of fresh air to me for some reason, maybe because you fleshed out the right hand mans for both characters idk or the it being a different time period, but i just wanted to say you are smashing bitchin dude and i love it!!

shy-kpop-girl said: BITCHIN': I just caught up on 8 & 9. Shocked & angry at JK. Because regardless of whether he knew y/n' feelings it was a dick move to sleep with Kiri one night and y/n the next morning. And it wasn't like he came over to talk/tell y/n about Kiri & things escalated because he went right at it as soon as she let him in. Even tho it was hot. 😳 But Erik. I wanted to hate him but dude surprised me with his reasoning. I loved that dialogue! Once again your writing is amazing & I love this story!

Anonymous said: Bitchin is the best fanfic on tumblr. And no one can change my mind. You’re doing amazing!! Much love xoxo

Anonymous said: “Think of life as one big puzzle and everyone you meet is shaped differently, right? Yet somehow… they fit. We find those that complete us. And they’re not necessarily opposites but—“ MAAM that part hit SOOO different omg your brain!?! Outta this world! Like this is whole ass literature!!!! I stg Bitchin’ is the best thing on this app and I meant that w my whole chest.

Anonymous said: I'm not ready for Bitchin to end. It's soooooo good 😍😍😍

kmultifandom said: Since there's a cast for bitchin I wanna audition for y/n because i wanna be a biologist and I have some similar personality traits *mic drop* Also great work, I seriously love it. No other fan fiction I have read was so close to my actual self and that impresses me even more and make it like it 10 times more djksksks

Anonymous said: how will I live when bitchin ends agghhh I haven’t even read 8-9 cause I’m waiting for the happy ending before I’m heartbroken and left waiting for the last part

Anonymous said: you know what would be super fun and crazy 😛😛🙈🙈 if you dropped bitchin’ pt 10 right now 😳😳 haha just kidding .... unless 😏😏

Anonymous said: lets gooooo!!!!!!!!!!! bitchin pt 10 better haunt me for the rest of the year

Anonymous said: I feel like I’m going to get so emotional once Bitchin’ part 10 is released. It’s like I’m sending off my non-existing kids to university because I won’t be able to see Bitchin!Jungkook anymore 🥺

Anonymous said: I can’t believe Bitchin’ is for real ending 😩 it’s soo gud 

Anonymous said: Can’t wait till bitchin PART 10 Probably gonna fall asleep before u post but I’ll try to stay up for it 🥺

Anonymous said: i love your writing honestly and i just really want you to be happy. your writing is immaculate and i really want you to know that you are talented and skilled so yeah. sorry if this is out of nowhere but i just really want to show appreciation to writers because they don't get enough and you are definitely my favorite writer:)) hope you have a good day!!

Anonymous said: okay but if Bitchin' goes on for 50 chapters that would be good too.. just sayin'.

tpo-quinn said: Bruh, I can already feel that I'm gonna cry from the last chapter of bitchin'...I CAN'T WAIT!

leojjeon said: so i've re-read bitchin ready for chapter 10 an I am feeling all sorts of emotions. it's fair to say it's my favourite series I've read!

Anonymous said: y did i forget bitchin would have an end like 😳😐we’ve been on this bitchin journey w u for so long i’m sad it’s over

Anonymous said: What what what?? Bitchin is ending??!!! Didnt it just fucking start like all the drama and tae&yara!!!! Omg girl!!!

Anonymous said: ur the absolute fucking GODDESS of writing angst, ive never ever waited for a ff to be updated before as if it was a new episode of my fav show coming out. thank u for writing and be so active, muah ur amazing

Anonymous said: a moment of silence for our loved bitchin who will die soon 😔 gone but not forgotten, she will always be in our hearts. all the best rides come to an end 😭

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