#im also very upset bc i wanna book my therapy appointment but im so overstimulated and exhausted i cant. ugh.

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#oh this is so soft. how nice #diary #personal #im. absolutely exhausted. and the amount of stuff i had to do/deal with today was a bit too much so im like. on the verge of tears #its from overstimulation/exhaustion so im fine this is sorta normal ig. its just. taking the bus. talking to ppl. #and having to take care of my bunny while like. barely able to force myself to move. #i think ill have some coffee b4 work tomorrow bc it does help curb this sadly. #i dont like having a lot of it but i honestly cant fucking function #im also very upset bc i wanna book my therapy appointment but im so overstimulated and exhausted i cant. ugh. #and im so tired i just wanna sleep. cant play games #drugs tw #and like. this is sorta why i drink/get high after work. bc after i cant function. and it lasts at least 24h. #so what does getting high do for me? it numbs out my senses a little so i wont get to the point im sobbing bc the bus is too crowded #its... rly hard. this is why i dont like working. bc it sorta fucking destroys me. and it hurts a lot. #and every week it feels like i have to relearn it. and i worry im not doing well and im acting weird or something #on an upnote tho my binder is super comfy n soft and i forgot i was wearing it tbh. id remember n be like #anyway thats my limit rn imma go watch vids n stuff n go to bed.