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decemberhigherpower · 6 months

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hiii scott hiii!!! i'm here to ask about the qualms e.p. ^_^

as promised, an itemized review:

track 1 - swing low

the vocals are so feaking good on this track... the instrumental is so pretty and i can see myself listening to this in the wee hours of the morning & feeling extremely sorry for myself. a well made little emo song. when the instruments come in proper its so good plus the vocal melody (?) is so freaking catchy

track 2 - real low

the riff is so pretty..!! in love with that riff honestly. so good. also i love the way swing low transitions to real low.. so cool. breakdown goes so hard cant wait to see this one live. i am a big fan of the way he says real low. well constructed. solo is so awesome i love it so so much.

track 3 - old haunts

again beautiful riff and beautiful vocals and they work so well together here... such a pretty song. the drums compliment the riff so beautifully as well. the solo is so awesome on this track also, no surprise there. the vocal melody is so so good and so catchy and so pretty and every other positive adjective out there. the abrupt ending works so well

track 4 - burnt

so freaking good... my favourite off the e.p. for sure.. hits so hard and is just so catchy. the screaming is so good and the last part.. "everything i think about sound like something that sounds like blah blah blah" guttural groaning its so fucking good. so fire.

track 5 - 'topes lose

(as with many tracks of theirs i am going to ignore that the title is a simpsons reference) the lyrics are so awesome in this one. also the guitars compliment the vocals absolutely beautifully in this one also. "oooh im gonna die" ... gosh. it's almost cathartic just listening to it. the mixing of the vocals in the bridge is so nice.

#first 3 tracks qualms are in their emo bag and i support them 100%... love these guys #the songs also all work well together. banger e.p.#everything is beautifully mixed as always #also not to mention the e.p. cover... SO FREAKING AWESOME!!!! SO COOL!!!i love the cover so much #could be more orange though...#these fellers are such talented songwriters honestly #also yes in this post i did pretend i do not know the vocalist's name. i need to keep some of my dignity

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zellen420 · 9 months

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Warning ⚠️ meaningless rantings

Ok so. Abit about me, I have had clinical depression since I was 9 years old. It doesn't exactly go away or get better. Cupple that with ADHD the inattentive kind, and dyslexia it's hard to feel that people understand your train of thought.

So I've seen councilors, psychologists and psychiatrists. I've even been on antidepressants. Wall I feel that those treatments are grate. I've had enough poor experiences that I'm kinda at a point where dealing with a professional would course me just as much issues on its own that it doesn't feel exactly worth it. Especially as history has dictated that the moment I felt stable and confident enough in my care to stop hiding and open up. I would be met with some circumstance where my providers would ternate treatment. Or it would become immediately clear that this person is not a safe provider.

So hear is my problem. I have a hard time being motivated to do much more than exist. I feel it has hurt my relationships and stunted my life in general.

You see I know there are things, techniques and "strategies" that work for me and I should be using .. I'm not. Becouse making sure I take my medication is such a challenge that there are many days where that is realistically all I've accomplished.

I hate this

I hate that I can't seem to sleep without headphones becouse if I let myself lission to the silence of my own breath my inner voice rears its head like a ugly hydra prepared to grow louder on more violent with every attempt to quiet it's yamerings of every bad thing, sad moment, disappointment, let down, broken promise , short coming, or interaction that I've ever had. So without a numbing I don't sleep

If I don't have other people to feed I can go all day without thinking of food. And frankly I tend to eat mostly out of routine to avoid my hand shaking and my cat getting mad at me. But with that I do tend to have safe foods that I eat over and over that are frankly tarrable for my system.

I want to be more active.

I think if I move more it may help

My back if fucked

But I'm afraid to walk in my nabourhood. Partly becouse I'm embarrassed to be seen. Mostly becouse of dog owners who don't understand that some people don't want to see your dog. Yes even if you think it's well trained and cute. Your dog isn't something I want to interact with, especially when it is off leash running towards me on a trail marked "on leash only"

But yah know. That makes me the asshole right. Because your choice to brake the rules and let your animal run up to me, where I should be able to safely expect that these owners have control and care for there animals, made me feel unsafe and triggered a anxious shutdown.

I hate leving me house.

I have nowhere to go.

I have no friends that I see regularly.

I can't afford to join a class .

I'm afraid to meet people. Becouse that tends to go badly.

Part of me just wants to go to sleep

But I can't

The thoughts keep me up

They tend me be my mother,

But it's not just her voice

"welp.. you have a multifaceted personality."

"if you don't stop eating you'll always have a rotund figure"

"just try harder"

"You have a unconventional face"

"you have no idea how hard it is to find a dark haired doll with blue eyes. Blue eyes just seem to come with blonds"

"if your eyes are blue then so is a elephants ass"

"dont touch her it's probably contagious"

"why would I be friends with a girl that looks and sounds like a boy"

"you only have long hair so people think your a girl"

"we all know your not a real girl"

"no feaks or foureyes"

"what's the skirt for? Hiding your fat cock?"

"Holy shit it has tits!"

"I'm so glad Im not ******"

"why are you with her?"

"yah know now that I've actually talked to you. Your really easy to get along with."

"you know I can't let anyone know we hangout"

"why should I ? My partner Is more important than you (ther child)!"

"smile"

"never mind. Umm don't smile"

"come take the photo for us. Thank-you !Perfect then everyone will be in it"

"I thought he only had a step daughter"

"your the first born?!"

"I didn't know _____ had a older sister. They never mentioned you"

" youed better be good at something"

"your brother will naturally be more successful than you"

"meeting/getting to know you had been.... 'interesting'"

"fat girls need to give good head. Otherwise who would date them?"

"I figure my face is only a few centimeters above my titts. I'm sure if I can get the focus up from there long enough they won't see my belly"

"if all your friends are hot, and your not conventionally attractive, well we all know what that means.. right"

"she's grate to have around the creeps run when they see her with us"

"why would anyone give a sit about your birthday?"

"you should totally sell this online! I bet If youed try it would work !"

"just do it"

"oooohh your _____s kid?. Damn"

"I promise"

"ignorance is bliss"

"if only we had met another time"

"you only have titts becouse your fat"

" we thought you where ace."

"your interests are.... Unique"

This is the lullaby my brain sings to me each night . I just want to not hate myself thank-you

Like youed think I would have fetishised this by now.

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hyperpopplaylist · 3 years

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?? does no where in seattle have fucking breakfast tscos i feel so insane

#my bf said they dont like have that here and im feaking out i literally need chorizo egg ane cheese NOW #hogw the fuck do i eat at 6 am when i was awake all nignt like wtf nothing else sounds appealing i cant believe they just dont exist here

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starryspacebaby · 4 years

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#me n the person ive been hanging out with just kissed today for the first time!!!!!!!!!!!#im feaking out i havent kissed anyone in a very long time #i havent kissed anyone but juan in 5 years??????#holy crap #im so shaky and stoked but also omg #i know it doesnt have to mean more than a kiss just omg

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charsimatic · 5 years

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#i have a tiny tiny suspicion i might be l #pregnant but #its also #probably just my brain freaking out #i wanna be SO bad but also #i dont #i have stuff coming up that id have to miss #and were still in a 1 brm apt #no room for baby #but idk #its probably just me feaking out #but if i dont start my period in like a week #im taking a test

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tryhoney · 5 years

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do you think we’re all just in a sims game

#i cant sleep but im dead tired so instead my mind has decided to feak myself out #im bringing you all down with me #its a proven fact that scientists have discovered binary code in the atmosphere #or something idk but theres code and we’re all just made up of 1’s and 0’s #fuck

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tsunflowers · 5 years

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starpre pilot

literally not precure if this doesn’t happen

the cgi in the op is really well integrated. are there other seasons with cgi in the op... hachapre. I want this to be hachapre 2 and I know I’m not alone

fuwa is really cute they knocked it out of the park on this one

*sees a dog* debit

cute that she lives with grouchy granddad and as yet uncharacterized grandma as well as her mom. grandma wears a hoodie and seems supportive and has a star in her hair. so she will be important I think

I LOVE that this girl just makes up new constellations and shows them to this old balding man who wears multiple star accessories

i need a fuwa. SO cute

interesting that she has not yet gone to school and has just biked around outside and hung out with fuwa and an old man. I feel like usually they would try to establish her friends and school life by now. I think it might be kind of a pair cures season though so maybe they think it’s more important to introduce both girls

THE SPACE POLICE ARE AFTTER THEM IN THE MOVIE?? I HEARD UCHUU KEIBITAI

oh no space travel made green baby sick :(

she and the little squid man freak out more about seeing an earthling than she does about seeing aliens. she is loving it and theyre like help. love it

the stars in green baby’s eyes. so precious

oh hikaru and lala are their names. I knew that

densetsu no senshi precure

wow I guess they have kappas in space. this guy looks like a sailor moon villain

they tied fuwa to a chair bc they dont have seatbelts in their spaceship. highly unsafe.

FUWA GOT SUCKED OUT INTO SPACE

HIKARU GOT SUCKED OUT INTO SAPCE

another series where precure can just breathe in space. really really good

kappa lightsaber

I think it’s so sweet how she sings through her henshin. I was worried about the way they would integrate it and I thought it might get too idol-y but it’s really just like she’s singing her own background music

this girl had no reaction to being sucked out into the void of space but she feaks out when she has a new outfit

god I love how she creates stars and uses them to leap forward. she rides them too. there is so much potential here for exciting fighting styles

the way she winds up for her precure star punch. im gonna say it. cure lovely 2

it’s cute that it’s the alien girl who seems totally in awe of the human girl. again like hachapre 2 where hime is a princess but she totally looks up to megumi

ed is adorable

it’s so funny that lala has colored streaks in her hair in civilian form but not as a precure. opposite of everyone else in the franchise

cute first ep!! can’t wait for subs

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worthxsclr · 6 years

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Im so freaking tired of antis and their bullshit bp l0nce/keith bc they have “a better leader- co-leader” my ass. You just want Shiro out of the picture i hate y’all.

Listen,,, i may be over acting but Shiro is the best character of the show and you just go and throw shit at him, and even so,, he’s a feaking fictional character.

#Shiro #vld #voltron #takashi shirogane

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dollfat · 5 years

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ive pretty much decided im gonna sacrifice hawke over alistair but that doesn't stop me from thinking about leliana sending her agents to find athen with a letter like

1. its not just you, all the wardens are feaking out

2. i work for the inquisition u should come hang out (morrigans here too)

3. alistars dead :/

#4. sten is arishok :0

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disneyprincessmodelworld · 7 years

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LA CHRONICLES: The “apparently i pissed off the phobia God somehow” edition. Or as X is calling it, when the Birds Fight back.

WARNING> ALOT OF CUSSING TO FOLLOW.

Okay. let me start this by saying... there are three things I am absolutely terrified of:

Rats= I see them as walking bubonic plagues. Totally not rational I know.

Clowns= killer klowns from outer space legit jacked me the hell up.

phobia 3

I can handle snakes and mice and everything else like a champ.

And of course in the last 24 hours I had to deal with both so of COURSE here comes number freaking three.

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*sitting in the great room on the plushy sofa as I have yet to go back into what i am calling the rat room that makes weird noises. *

* Hears whining*

*looks up, sees Harry and Pupperly sitting over by the big wall of windows to the backyard*

me: you all need to go out? huh?

Two barks and a mad dash from Monie who came out of freaking nowhere.

*goes to get shoes, grabs leashes on the way back, and peeks head into office to do one of those motion things that means the universal “YO taking dogs for a walk”

L: hold on a sec.

*looks at me*

L: take your phone

Me: im just going around the block...

L: dont care, take your phone

Me: *rolls eyes* but it's a gaa..

*glares at me*

Me: Fine DAD.

His Agent: She always like that?

L: at home yes *laughs* but she has big brothers who will kill me if something happens to her stubborn ass.

me: hhhmmmmpppphhhmmm

*starts to walk out*

L TAKE YOUR PHONE

Me: FINE

*heads back to hook up the dogs, passing x on the way*

X: taking out the dogs?

me: yep.

X: take your phone

me: omg i only got lost once and it was the first week i was here but im taking my phone.

X: good, love you, taking a shower. *kiss on the cheek*

Me: eww cooties, ass

X: Brat (heads off to his room)

*continues back down the hallway to hook up the dogs.*

*heads to the carport door, instead of the front or back door as it's closer to the gate, giving the dogs my normal lets go for a walk pep talk*

Me: Now, we are going to be good. No pulling, no jumping, no getting the leashes all tangled up!!!

*heads out the door, pulling it closed behind me*

CLICK

It's at this moment i have less than 1.5 seconds to realize I have made a mistake.

A HUGE MISTAKE

Me: Oh Shiiiii

BANG.

BING BING BING

BANG

BING BING

BANG BANG

ME: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA (ducks and runs)

BANG BANG FLAP SOUND FLAP SOUND

ME: OH FUCK OH SHIT AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

*at some point has thrown leashes up in the air and has run to the other side of the carport*

BING FLAP FLAP FLAP BAM BING FLAP FLAP

Me: *blood curdling scream

4 hours later (wasnt really most likely 2 minutes later............. maybe)

(door slams opens, out runs L followed a few seconds later by a dripping, towel around his waist X. Door closes)

L: The fucking hell??

X: what what?

PING PING PING BARK BARK BARK (pupperly) FLAP FLAP FLAP

me: AAAAAA BIRD BIRD BIRD!!!!!!

L: FUUUUUUUCCCCKKkk *ducks* (this fucking rat with wings is dive bombing people)

X: Bloody fucking hell! (turns to open the door)

X: Oh you have GOT to be fucking kidding me

L: WHAT NOW!??!!

X: doors locked

L: FUCK!!!!

Me: AAAAAAAAAAAA

Pupperly and his dumb ass brother think it is a game and are running through the carport jumping up at and chasing the bird that is flying around like a lunatic because apparetly when i threw open the door and stepped out i completely forgot about the new birdsnest and that was why i was avoiding going out that door like the plague.

Me: *literally sitting on the ground in the carport screaming* KILL IT KILL IT KILL IT!!!!

X: Pupperly STOP HEEL HEEL

L: FUCK!! grab the damn dog

X: IM TRYING

me: IM GONNA DIE! IVE SEEN WHAT COMES NEXT!! SHE PECKS OUT MY EYES!

L: close you fucking eyes then. (yells at X) GRAB THAT DAMN DOG.

BING PING BAM BAM FLAP FLAP FLAP FLAP

At some point L has made it across the carport to me

L: Up UP come on

me: NO No no

L Up ! come on, if we get out of here she will calm down and go back to her nest

Me: NOOO kill it!! kill it!

L: Im not killing a fucking bird

Me: It's demented it's bouncing off of everything, her brain is scrambled anyway

L: because you scared the shit out of it.

X: Get her out of there and help me get these fucking dogs.

(at this point apparently L had enough cause he drags me up, picks me up and manhandles me out of the carport all the while im screaming no no im too high she gonna eat me)

BING BING BAM BAM FLAP FLAP FLAP FLAP

*L dumps me (liteally) into a spot on the side lawn and goes back to help X, who is barely hanging on to that towel around his hips, to catch the dogs*

(they both manage to snatch a dog about the same time the flying monster with wings manages to figure out how to get out of the carport flies right over my head)

* I dive flat in the grass*

(bird flies up into the tree)

(L and X walk over and plop down in the grass next to me.)

(we all just sit there for a minute or two trying to catch our breaths)

*feels staring*

*peeks up and sees both L and X staring at me*

Me: i dont like birds..

X No shit you think? L: You dont say?

Me: *sniff*

X: omfg is she crying?

L: shit you made her cry!

X: MEE???? You are the one yelling at her?

L: IM NOT YELLING Im talking loud.

me: *wails* stop yelling at me

L: look what you did

X: Me? this is your fault.

L: The hell you say?

X: You know she is afraid of birds you should have taken out the dogs

L: I was on a business call, with my agent. which i ran out on when i heard her screaming, YOU could have taken out the fucking dogs

Me: *blinks looks from one to the other: ummmmm

(they still yelling at each other)

me: UMMMMM excuse me (tugs on towel and shirt)

L and X: WHAT

me: hehe... i forgot

(L and X look at each other, then back at me)

L:........

X:......

L:.... you......... forgot

Me: yeah?

L: youve talked about nothing but the bird nest and you FORGOT

me:................ welll...

X: Well???

Me: .........................Yeah????

X: jesus fucking christ.

me: sorry sorry

X and L sigh huge sighs

X: we are locked out.

L: Is lucinda still here?

me: dont know??

L SHIT.

(we all get up and head around the house to the front)

(Lucinda loading her bag in the car, looks up)

X: Hey Lu....

L: Hey

Me: *looks everyone where but at the woman

Lucinda: I dont know what kinda kinky shit you all into but you need to keep it down

L: what no... X: OMFG Me: WAAAAA no EEEWWWWW

X: *glaring at me* Eeewww? Eeww??????? the fuck you mean Ewww.

L: ANYWAY we had some trouble with that bird off the carport,and got locked out can you open the front door before you leave.

Lucinda: (giving us the eye like we lying) okay. (mumbles all the way to the door)

L: there will be an extra tip in your next check if you keep this quiet

Lucinda: SI

(we go inside and lucinda heads home)

L: YOU (points to x) get dessed and take out the dogs and you (points to me) sit down on the sofa and dont freaking move until my meeting is over

X and Me: *eyes wide* Yes sir/ Yes sir.

L: Good...... (stomps off back to his office)

X: hmmm.

Me: hmmm?

X: He kinda sexy when he all mad take charge like that

Me: I know right? did you see him pick me up? if i wasnt feaking out, that would have been hot

X: it was still hot

L I can fucking HEAR you you know.. Do what i said.

Me: YEEEESSSS SIIIIRRR

X: Got it.

X (whispers) sexy right

Me: Yep yep

L: NOW!!!!

*bang as he slams the office door*

...............................

X and I are sitting on the couch reading when L comes out of his office.

Sits down.

*i look at him*

L: *sighs* what?

Me: Can you go check on the bird?

L: WHAT?

Me: well she hit her head pretty hard. and got disoriented.

L: is she serious?

X: as a heart attack it's your turn I already checked. she said i didn't check right.

Me: you came back too fast, you just peeked out the door.

X gives L a look like SEE?

me: Please

L: Fine.

L starts to walk out of the room, turns around and leans down in my face

L: baby?

me: yeah?

L: you make me so glad to be gay (walks off)

ME: hmmmmppphh well that was rude.

X: well so was scaring us to death but you dont hear us complaining.

Me: ..........

X: what? no snappy comeback?

me: *grumbles* i cant think of nuffin.

........................................................................

I really really really hate birds.

Im going to need tomorrow to be boring, cause damn.

#la life #what phobia god did i piss off?#who did i make angry?#omfg

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