#im not gonna fucking apologize

[carry-on-my-wayward-butt]

having a child has taught me that every toddler is completely justified in their frustrations and tantrums because learning how to do something you have literally never encountered or heard of before is insane. and being expected to be completely calm in the face of this constant barrage of overwhelming information is doubly insane.

i got charlie a sticker activity book and it occurred to me i have to TEACH someone how to unpeel stickers. it's SKILL that requires DEXTERITY and FINE MOTOR ABILITY. i thought it was obvious that you have to curl the page a little bit to create a break in the cut so the sticker comes up.

obviously a fucking BABY wouldn't know that because they have no background experience to inform their thought process. OBVIOUSLY. and OBVIOUSLY the LITERAL BABY wouldn't get it right the first few times. it would OBVIOUSLY take practice. lots of it.

i hate this feeling. it's so obvious. why are children treated so badly when they're learning everything for the first fucking time. why do people treat children so horribly and expect so much. they're brand new. why didn't i get the same grace i give to my child? why did no one have patience for me? why, when it's this easy?

it's so easy. it's so fucking easy.

#ok2rb #op #babbyposting #apologizing to my child is second nature #i'm brand new at it too #obviously im gonna fuck up here and there #its only right to apologize #why did no one ever apologize to me #not until it was too late

[crystallizsch]

what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuc

HELLO MISTER JAMIL VIPER SIR WHAT THE FUCK

A MOMENT OF YOUR TIME PLEASE

AND SHOWING OFF THAT WAIST WHY IS IT SOOOOOOO

ALSO HIS HAIRR???? OH MY GOD???????

I LOWKEY DON'T UNDERSTAND THAT SINGULAR BRAID IN FRONT OF HIS FACE???? I HAVE THE URGE TO PULL ON IT

BUT SIR THAT MAKEUP THAT LOOK ON HIS FACE??????????? AUILDKHGKLASDG LJFKLKSM IM GOING TO COMBUST

IM FUCKINFKLDSJFLKLSA

jamil what the fuck

#WHAT THE HELL #I JUST WOKE UP FROM A NAP #I A M LOSING MY S HIT #HE HAS NO RIGHT SERVING THIS HARD #IM GONNA STRANGLE HIM #[— #twst jp #twst jp spoilers #twst #twisted wonderland #jamil viper #✦ i have thoughts #tapis rouge #—] #FUCK IM NOT EVEN DONE YET #I STILL NEED THE LIVE2D MODELS AND GROOVY ART #I APOLOGIZE TO EVERYONE I AM GOING TO BE SO MUCH WORSE

[aadmelioraa]

s4 tomshiv is murdering me...the tension is so peak, matthew macfadyen and sarah snook have so much fucking chemistry, the history between tom and shiv is more dynamic and layered with every line of dialogue, they're insane, i'm insane, never has the line between love and hatred, desire and disgust, been more fluid, i'm going to gnaw off my own arm...thank you and goodnight

#they make me more insane with every scene #this season is so excellent in general but they are fucking KILLING it #tomshiv #tom x shiv #succession #succession spoilers #tom wambsgans #shiv roy #siobhan roy #they are SO GOOD #im never gonna be over this #it feels specifically crafted to undo me in the best way #i will not apologize for the unhinged amount of commas in this post

[just-null-cult]

i've always wanted to try out this trend! i didnt think i drew him that different. i was wrong. very wrong.

hes so baby girl in my style what the fuck. oh i know, i was just drawing what gege meant to draw. dw, i got his telepathic brainwaves 👍

[time lapse + my headcanons for Noritoshi's appearance under the cut]

some headcanons i have while drawing him are semi obvious while others are bc i like it ahehahhaheha

cupid's bow lips! this was semi inspired by Mizuki Umetsu, the actor for Noritoshi in the jjk stage play! hes so. pretty. perfect guy for the role imo! i was captivated therefore my views changed.

longer hair! the thought that his bangs(? are the same length, or longer, as the rest of his hair is nice.. it also makes his inevitable haircut much more refreshing! i also just like long hair and its a fucking waste not to do whatever the i want.

thicker brows and visible eyelashes! i naturally draw thicker eyebrows because it looks pretty, but the eyelashes is so fucking canon bro. dont even fight me on this, you'll lose. i read a fic about Noritoshi where it said he took good care of himself and his appearance inspired jealousy. that fucked me up man, so now i draw him as beautiful as i can.

monolids! I've looked through the manga and i think its highly implied that Noritoshi has monolids? yk those lines in between the eye and eyebrow, he doesnt have them in the manga. i thought it was because of the expressions he had, but no. the others have them, except geto! so geto also having monolids is so fr in my head. i like that feature abt him.

loose hairs! the hairs that i draw on his face. they make him look so cute and a bit more relaxed. he's not trying to be perfect nor have a single strand out of place. he's just a bit more at ease... though if there's something important he has to go through, he sharpens up. becomes.. stiffer?

I UNINTENTIONALLY MADE HIS CHEST LOOK A BIT BIGGER IN MY STYLE AND I WANT TO APOLOGIZE, BUT I'D BE A LIAR. DOES THIS COUNT AS A HEADCANON??? I JUST THINK... SINCE. YK. HES AN ARCHER. AND DOES TRAINING. AND COMBAT. AND DOES ALL THOSE HIGH JUMPS... HIS CHEST. ITD BE A BIT BIGGER FOR HIS STATURE.. omfg. that'd imply that his legs are fucking insane. and his arms too, since he has to pull back all those arrows so quickly.. oh my fuck. this. this is a revelation. what are you hiding under those robes noritoshi...???? one day.. one day we'll see...

oh my fucking god i forgot that i wrote shit while drawing. please ignore my fucking stupid writings AND THE STUPID ASS THING IN THE MIDDLE I FORGOT ABT WHILE DRAWING..

#kamo noritoshi #noritoshi kamo #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #dawg my pc is so old. this drawing kept killing it off every few hrs #but nothing will stop my preaching of the gospel #ALSO I DIDNT SAY BUT DRAWING IN THE FUCKING ANIME STYLE WAS SO FUCKING TOUGH??? #LIKE I FEEL LIKE IT LOOKS HALF ASSED BUT I DIDNT KNOW WHAT ELSE TO DO. #I STRUGGLED HARD BRO #FUCK #but i also learned a lot while doing it so it was hella fun #ahaha..... his lips are cupid's bow.. meaning his words are cupid's arrows.... meaning he could make you fall so hard istg #and hes an archer..... ahhaha... a nickname you could give him is cupid. ahahah. thatd be so cute. ahahaha <- insane #also me explaining fucking eyelid lines was spectacular. wheres my teaching license #AND I CANT FUCKING WAIT FOR THE STAGE PLAY DAWG. noritoshi's clothes flowy and in action..... im gonna study and fawn the FUCK out of that #as for the time lapse. ignore how i ignored the guidelines. why the fuck do i do that. bc im a cult leader thats why. dont question me #AND I APOLOGIZE FOR MY REVELATION AT THE END THERE. IM A DEGENERATE AT HEART. BUT I MUST REMAIN CLEAN. IF NOT TUMBLR GODS WILL KILL OUR CUL #but like i said i can be suggestive. heh. heh. #peep how i said [blank under the cut] heh. wow im such an online person. #oh how cool of me

[biblicallyaccuratetrain]

As someone who loves to watch internet drama that i have no stakes in. kinda disappointed the watcher apology is apparently good

#this could've easily carried me through the week if they hadnt done a good job at this #how the fuck am i gonna get through my stupid lab reports and exam if i dont have this dumpster fire to warm myself on #watcher #im happy for the fans who are happy with the apology though

[darealsaltysam]

im at my fucking limit oh my god atreus running to kratos to hug him after freeing garm and kratos hugging him back and then letting go and then realizing atreus ISNT letting go and NEEDS comfort and continuing to hug him and asking him what happened and not getting mad or impatient and just letting him know he’s there for him and even as EVERYONE berates him for freeing garm kratos steps in and defends him because he understands how unbearably COMPASSIONATE his son is even for an evil hellhound and telling him they’ll fix this together and how he’s not angry and is only happy that he’s safe and and and and and AND AND-

#IM IN FUCKING SHAMBLES #THAT WHOLE SEQUENCE BROKE ME #and then the two of them in hel being so quiet and gentle with each other #theyre both angry and want to apologize to each other at the same time and all thats coming out is these quiet reassurances of love and care #kratos understands he fucked up and atreus understands he fucked up but now theyre gonna fix that fuck up TOGETHER and its OKAY and #and then kratos is just letting atreus talk about what happened in asgard and being so considerate of everything he tells him #and atreus is so broken and sad and quiet and kratos is trying to draw more out of him but he CANT so hes just hes just trying to be there #for him and. holy shit i need a minute #sony santa monica im gonna need u to pay for my therapy after this #god of war #gow 5 #god of war ragnarok #gow kratos #kratos #atreus #gow atreus #writing this post through TEARS

[semisolidmind]

got some nasty anon asks last night. you can probably guess what they were complaining about.

so, anon has been turned off.

sorry to the folks who can use it responsibly. 🤟

#im a lil sick of the entitled nature of some of the folks in the current hyperfixin #like what do yall think youre gonna acheive by sending me this garbage #a block and a report is what you're gonna get #and its not gonna stop me? like?? #what i make not following this supposed “canon” youve concocted is not a reason to send me some of the most vile comments ive ever read #how bout you go find an artist you DO enjoy and pester them #its literally as easy as blocking me and finding artists that make what you wanna see #cant be that hard seeing as what youre getting mad at me for is the majority in this fucking hellhole #a genuine apology to the folks who are just shy

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

im trying so hard to scribble PopStar and it was going so well but. but i. uh. Sally (and technically Wally) is floating and there is no fucking way for me to draw a chair that does Not have absurdly long legs. and i mean Distractingly long legs

#I JUST WANT TO DRAW THE 'youre going to make me blush' MOMENT PLEASE- #like they're at poppy's table and poppy is Big #so her furniture is Tall #and sally Is Not Tall #im fucking sobbing in my head but also wheezing #either yall get a fucked up chair or sally is floating and i write in a note apologizing for it #cuz then i was gonna draw a chair stacked on top of a box #but poppy would Not allow something that precarious #SO???? WHAT THE FUCK DO I DO???? #absolutely unprompted #and i am NOT redrawing any of this jfc #im already spending too much time on it #....fuck it sally and wally are floating and thats just how its gonna be

[elmmni]

shout out to jack manifold finally putting us all out of our misery, thanks king

#i didnt even watch the finale and havent watched a lore stream in months #arguable cause there havent Been any lore streams in months #but i am feeling one of the emotions ever dont even look at me im gonna go finish binging puppet history to cope #dsmp #dsmp finale #dream smp #hand in unlovable hand jesus christ #tommy fucking apologized to dream i need to kill something /NEG #jack manifold #she speaks?

[todayisafridaynight]

do you guys think daigo had to make an apology video after his company got called out or whatever

#infinite wealth spoilers #fucking i guess id ont know #snap chats #no one touch this post im drawing it later at some point probably #im still thinking about how stupid this is but im also laughing #like Im So Sorry This Company That Was Publicly Founded On Rehabilitating Yakuza Has Ex-Yakuza In It #said by th ex-chairman. who was on tv. #like i dont imagine theyd try to hide this fact tf even there to expose. Fork Found In Kitchen we know we're hiring ex-yakuza #im p sure he said there were rumors. would be great if we saw those rumors or saw how bad they were so i could believe this !! #like with ichi and the gang we saw how their shit was manipulated i can buy it but i just gotta believe it here. OK. #anyway wheres daigos apology video im gonna throw up. do you think it was majimas idea to make one #jk of course it was

[yourplaceinaugust]

making non tumblr user friends was a mistake bc i was ranting about symbrock to my friend and ended it by saying "the third movie needs to be rated r so they can fuck" and my friends only response was "what the fuck"

#inner thoughts to keep me sane #like im noy saying i want to watch them have sex #im literally asexual i dont fw sex scenes #i just think it'll be really funny for all of the straight guys who watch the movie thinking it's gonna be violent #plus like i want them to be so explicitly canon it cant be denied #and my friend was like ummm i dont want to see that #and it took everything in me to say #um well then these movies aren't for you? #he was talking about how he doesn't want yhem to fuck and wants their baby to be born in a lab #and i was like what? huh? #i just want them to fuck bc it'll be so funny #also bc theyre in love and deserve it #to all my non symbrock shipper mutuals who saw this i apologize #venom 2018 #venom movie #symbrock

[scrunkly-scribe]

Lord, forgive me.

#I’m feeling fucking crazy #this is crazy girl shit #im so cringe #I used my roommates printer for this and had to apologize for printing old white men #I’m gonna print more #spn gabriel #spn lucifer #marv speaks

[ao-xingyume1987]

Your favorite vocaloid survivor

( inspo from this post )

#im gonna kms and write an apology later TOT #(also he beats every infected with a fucking leek) #// #l4d2 #left 4 dead 2 #l4d2 sfm #left 4 dead 2 sfm #sfm #source filmmaker #l4d2 nick #sfm poster #source filmmaker poster #shitpost #shitpost art #l4d2 fanart #fanart #fan art #fanwork #my art

[animentality]

Did they get a postive response from adding those Gortash lines? I thought a bunch of people hateing on it instead? Also what if they removed the lines to change them a go a diffrent direction. I'm sorry. I have a lot of worry they wont do something I agee with.

The overwhelming reaction was positive. Durgetash artists went on Twitter to celebrate, and the small but passionate fans of the ship went nuclear here and on Twitter, and helped BG3 trend, yada yada, tale as old as time.

Most people don't care about Durgetash or Gortash. The majority of people you hear from would be the people who like both of those things. It's also a small ship.

The haters of that ship are even smaller in comparison, because the hand that reaches out will always touch more than the hand clenched into a fist.

And the only "legitimate" complainers, who don't just dislike the ship on principle, are the whiners who keep insisting their durges are lesbians, and how dare Larian "force" them into a relationship with a man - which is literally not what Larian did.

No one bitches about how Gale's ORIGIN completely precludes him from being gay.

I see no reason why you can't similarly have Durge's ORIGIN make them attracted to men. Or, you know. Enver is special.

Oh. And also. It's so fucking platonic, if you want it to be. Stop being stupid and just say you don't like Durgetash. It's as easy as that.

Stop using "lesbophobic" as a handy label for your self righteous soapbox. You just don't like the ship, and that's fine. It's FINE. But acting like Durgetash is lesbophobic - oh, go play a Tav.

And also, Astarion and Gale and Wyll better not flirt with you in game, even though you can tell them to fuck off, or else they're lesbophobic too.

That's the only discourse that gained traction on Twitter. As far as I know.

If Larian had made Gale wear blackface or something, and people got pissed, then yeah. They'd back up on that, and get rid of it pronto.

But Durgetash???

Aside from the general evil antics, they're not that fucking controversial of a ship.

Most people don't even PLAY the Dark Urge.

I don't know how to stress this any other way...

People act like Durgetashers are loud - we're honestly not that loud.

Astarion fans are far louder, and yet, the most romanced companion is SHADOWHEART and then Laezel and KARLACH.

He's not even in the top 3. And yet, he dominates the content on Twitter and Tumblr... he's definitely more popular than Gortash or the Dark Urge or Durgetash together...but his fans are still technically the damn minority.

So Durgetash in comparison to Starries???

Infinitesimal.

And Durgetash haters?

Would be even smaller.

So what I'm saying is...

I'm kind of tired of answering asks about this.

I don't KNOW for certain whether or not this is Larian backing up or walking forward, and while I don't believe they'd walk back on this, and especially not for a handful of people, it kind of annoys me to even think about things outside of my control.

now if Larian makes a big grand statement and says actually we totally rescind something WE WROTE AND ADDED TO THE GAME because some people got mad...then I'll call them cucks, and complain.

But as of right now?

As far as I know personally, and assume in my heart... it's neutral.

The lines are probably just bugged. Also, not ALL of them are bugged either, so.

Please stop freaking out, guys.

I am the world's biggest resident durgetash freak, and I'm shrugging at this, and just saying it's a bug.

Don't let it bother you. It's out of your control, regardless.

(And I stress again - if we find out they're legitimately backing away from something they did...they have the spine of a ham sandwich. But until we know that for sure, I won't condemn them for this, because as far as we know, it is legitimately an accident.)

#durgetash #please stop asking me about this #i dont know what you want from me #i just dont think theyre walking back on it #peartree was totally different #after this addition too #even if they do alter lines i just believe its still going to be durgetash coded anyway #although if theyre changing them so soon lmao cuz theyre embarrassed and want to make them a little less #idk cheesy maybe #then damn larian you have no self esteem #stick to your fucking guns #dont you stand by your own writing at all #stop letting fans change how you write #grow a fucking spine #if youre gonna add durgetash then add durgetash #if youre gonna remove it then go ahead and be a bitch and remove the only character you bothered to give gortash #but dont sneak back and try to edit shit that you already sent out #but also im sorry if its just a hotfix bug #then this is me being mean for no reason and i apologize

[reel-fear]

MIKE BLOCKED ME ON TWITTER FOR ROASTING HIS DUMBASS RESPONSE TO THE GRAPHIC NOVEL STUFF!!

grown ass man scared of the 19-year-old queer being mean to him over his public meltdown more at 8.

#ramblez #little white boy sad? U sad bc nobody likes you? Bc u constantly make a fool of urself and show off ur distaste for ur fans? lmao #this is one of the greatest things to ever happen to me imagine how mad he'll be when he finds out the fangame Im making has queers in it #hes gonna have a whole other white boy meltdown on main KJSNFDGKJHFGKJHGKJHSDFGSD #hes so fucking sensitive maybe just get off of social media Mike this never ends well for you #batim #batdr #bendy and the ink machine #bendy and the dark revival #and look Im joking around about this but it really is sad that the bendy devs cant handle this kind of critique towards their decisions #it seems despite the backlash once again they are choosing to ignore their fans which is yknow upsetting #But hey ig if the devs being awful was a dealbreaker for this fandom I wouldve left a long time ago and I havent #dw Im not going anywhere <3 #also if anyone else here was also criticizing Mike maybe check his acct to make sure ur not blocked now since apparently #old habits die hard and this is certainly a pattern with him KJHDSFKGJHSDKFGJHDFGSD #also look before anyone asks yes I was kinda mean to him over this but to put bluntly if hes gonna be this dismissive to his fans concerns #he deserves it. Theres this persistent attitude esp in bendy fanspaces of being defensive of the devs #and I dont know why they have been extremely horrible people every single chance they get #and its very hurtful to see how many people would rather tell me to be kinder to the people who broke the heart of a child me when they #dismissed any ideas of putting queers like me in their stories than to realize Mike n Meatly bring this bad attention to themselves #to put bluntly I dont owe them kindness not until they at least apologize for the shit they did which they still havent #mike hasnt even addressed his vent poem in the code of BATDR let alone the other shit he said n did #so no I will not be kind to him ever hope this helps!

[that-guy-sleepy-miles]

Me when I'm emotionally unstable again

#sav rambles #girl i forget that im like #mentally ill. #actually #not for fun #my period hit and i hadn't taken my medication and I thought I'd be fine #it was not fine #and i told them to stop talking to me because i realized i was fuckin bugging #(they did not stop talking to me) #and like you know when you know you're bugging but you can't STOP bugging #so you're completely aware you're being an asshole but you're just up in your head like that?? #yeah #and so i finally got them to stop talking to me #and i was like “im gonna take my meds and drink something and eat some icecream and then apologize” #because i can't apologize right then because it'll seem fake and also if they respond at all ill get PISSED. #for NO REASON #y'all understand #and they fucking LEAVE THE DISCORD SERVER #fucking DAMNIT #mental illness #mentally ill