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straighttohellbuddy · 3 years

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World building is the best tbh. I’m forever world building and now I have several worlds to play in and my neurodivergent brain cannot stay still enough to focus on one lmao. SLOWBURN ROMANCES ARE MY LITERAL JAM LIKE PLS!!! I LOVE THEM!! Also!!!! Concepts!!!! Pls share!!!! I love learning about the worlds of my fave fics and I can hands down say right now that this fic will literally shoot to the top of my list of favourites which means you’ll occupy the top three spots. Sorry to hear that ur feeling rough, so am sending u the biggest hug. I’m not okay but I’m taking care of myself today so that I will be 🧡-🐈‍⬛

alsjfsldkjf i have too many worlds TBH, literally one of the best parts of my 2020 was writing for the classic rock fandom and writing one of my good friend’s ocs alongside mine, like there’s so many different worlds that our two characters have now, i’m like 26k deep into a high school au that i need to get back to at some point, and then i wrote a oneshot abt the high school au but they’re adults, and then there’s also the original timeline, and then there’s the present day in the original timeline where they have kids and i probably care too much about people who aren’t real...... hahaha

OKAY OKAY OKAY HERE WE GO I’LL GIVE KIND OF AN OVERVIEW OF THE ALBUMS AND A FEW SONGS BUT IF U WANT ME TO GO IN DEPTH ON ANY OTHER SONG JUST ASK!!!

yes i have a playlist for each, if you wanna hear how i interpret the vibes of the songs. if you interpret them differently, thats awesome!! i’d love to hear y’all’s opinions on them!!

testing one two - the first ep they release, the song titles are mostly themed (fast forward, press play, pause, rewind), but are mostly things y/n has been working on for a while but never got around to finishing, things they are rather proud of. i see you shiver with... is the first song they wrote specifically for the album, and it’s the last song on the EP because it’s a Rocky Horror reference; i see you shiver with...

a n t i c i p a t i o n - first full album!! the vibe is Hopeful But Hesitant it has all the songs from the ep, plus some new ones!! collabs with youtube musicians troye and dodie, and y/n’s label sets up a collab that turns into a genuine friendship. the breakout dance hit is what else is there to say ft. Troye Sivan, which is about not knowing what to make content about when it feels like you’ve already told the world everything. it featured the prechorus and hook

You, know, ev-ery-thing about me / gave it all for free / my life in HD / So, let’s dance, let me see your hips sway / we’re gonna be okay / what else is there to say?

So say that you love me, say that you love me, say that you love me / let’s die hand in hand. / I’ll tell you I love you, tell you I love you, tell you I love you / supply and demand.

personally, i also conceptually enjoy srs bsns which is a really upbeat song about how they don’t care if people don’t take them seriously because they know in their heart that what they’re doing is good

hyperfocus - 2nd EP, a pretty substantial departure from their usual style, but also happens to quietly be Corpse’s favourite, and is actually y/n’s most polarising, because it has both the Grammy award winning HEARTBURN and the o brother where art thou which was written partially as a joke to capture a fond moment of them and 5SOS dicking around together in a hotel. written while on tour wit 5SOS, im writing the reader as having ADHD (because I have ADHD and i can do what i want), and the backstory is that they’d changed the medication/dosage they were taking, and as it’s their first full tour, they were under a lot of stress and were in a weird place mentally and emotionally, and hyperfocus is the result of that. i’m going through some stuff has HUGE agoraphobic vibes.

HEARTBURN has the same vibes as Florence + The Machines’ Howl. It’s about being a demon without saying that or directly implying that unless you know demons real well. This is when the pressure for them to confirm their identity got real bad, and it was their way of working through those emotions.

tear in existence in the shape of a person / when i’m seeing clearly i can’t see myself / world can’t swallow what it can’t get it’s teeth into / got everything i wanted but i ain’t got my health

Got heart-burn--- / I’ll tear me apart / I’ll tear you apart / I’ll tear me apart.

SCREAM gets rereleased as a remixed single featuring Fall Out Boy the following year. It won the MTV music award for best collaboration in 2018.

In the time between hyperfocus and working on it, Y/N releases several singles, including a cover of Tell Him by The Exciters to be featured in To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before. They also take time to sort out their health, do a little bit more YT stuff, and travel internationally to do festivals.

working on it - is kind of a middle ground between their original stuff, and hyperfocus, like pop-punk meets horror-pop meets whatever you’d classify halsey as. the first three songs were mostly written before the fic starts, so before they’re getting back to YT, but the last three, nightmare scenario, designed to hurt (touch me), and not scared were all written after they’d started hanging out with sykkuno and corpse.

in-universe, imposter syndrome was originally something else, along the same lines of tired that they’re hiding that they’re a demon, but after meeting corpse nd sykkuno and having people who know, and lowkey being influenced by corpse’s music, the song changes directions, and YO OKAY YO::

I literally am so fucking flattered, my darling friend @bingusmode wrote lyrics for imposter syndrome and I’ve been yELLING about them ever since i’ve read them!! (also bunnie is fantastic and lovely in general 10/10)

if you thought you saw me

i’d think about it twice

cuz while i know i’m naughty

everybody thinks i’m nice

cutest giggles get me

places that i long to be

but it’s not long before

everybody hates me

when you figure out i’m fucked up

you’ll probably think that can’t be right

but babe my image runs to save me

cuz i’m ugly day and night

nothing good about me

not the angel that i seem

cuz i’m a piece of shit

and i’ll ruin your fuckin dreams

i’m an impostor babe

you better run for your life

cuz there’s a bloodlust runnin through me

and you’re dripping off my knife

there’s no one here to save you

cuz you ate up all my lies

so beg me while you can

and draft up all your goodbyes

if any of y’all are inspired by anything i put out, feel free to take it and run!! you have my blessing!! i am so overwhelmingly flattered by people who like my stuff enough to create because of it, directly or indirectly! lyrics, art, songs, anything!! legit! I love you!!

okay so designed to hurt (touch me) has big House of Memories by Panic! At The Disco vibes, and YES it’s about Corpse. YES it sends mixed messages. YES it has greek myth imagery and YES that imagery is confusing. not sure if any of these sets of lyrics actually go after each other but also idk??

will my fall from grace be graceful / as each move i see you make? / propped up on pedestals side by side / beneath our feet they shake / i’m the only one to hear you ask / “What have they done to me?” / My boy, your wax throne is sun-drenched / you’ll fall in the name of your legacy.

eyes like yours watched rome burn / while hands like mine lit the pyre / we both heard me say we’d go down in flames / now you’re turning me into a liar / since you smile like that, like you can’t feel the sting / and we both know i can’t feel the fire

been telling myself i’m designed to hurt / but, baby, aren’t we a sight? /

check your reflection, your angles, apollo / you’re icarus in the right light /

we’re on the edge, i’m not scared to fall / we’ll take refuge in the night /

been telling yourself you’re designed to hurt / but, baby, doesn’t this feel right?

also, albumtouralbumtour is a reference to Bohemian Rhapsody.

OKAY AND FINALLY

n o s t a l g i a - the album the reader’s working on during the fic.

literally as i was writing this, bunnie sent through some FIRE lyrics for how the light gets in, (@bingusmode) i am going to be thinking about these on REPEAT for the next MONTH BRUV

little bit of darkness, treat me like a toy

i got my hopes up and got them destroyed

bitter taste of regret sitting heavy on my tongue

can’t believe i let you convince me that you were the one

sitting here in silence, fabric running thin

petals burning in my lungs and stealing oxygen

embers from a cigarette falling to the floor

god i can’t take anymore

so i stumble to the window and pull the shades

and the moon pours in like you threw a grenade

i can’t understand why

i keep trying

cuz i never seem to win

but having any hope is how the light gets in

from there, moment before impact ft. Billie Eilish is a club anthem along the lines of bad guy or COPYCAT, bass heavy with a drop that’s out of this world.

powdered pain, i’m in your veins / i’m the sting, the drip, the thing / you’re craving, but you hate to see me misbehaving / i heard my breakdown got you high / it’s true, but baby i can’t lie / i never got that rush, that burn / that makes you feel alive, i had to learn / to pick the slippery slope down which i fell / plan my pitstops on the way to hell / to pick my padding before i spiral / so if i break it’ll be in style

watch my misdirect, now freeze, / notice you can’t see the forest for the trees / you’re so desperate for my demise / but baby, i’ll make you watch me rise.

this is the moment before impact

controlled chaos, crash land / take a breath, trust the plan / i know you hope i’m not okay / you get off on my audio misery

controlled chaos, crash land / take a breath, trust the plan / i need you to know i want it this way / my breakdown won me a grammy

and this is the moment before impact

ur my favourite - interlude ft. sykkuno is probably one of my favourites, it’s just really soft, just a snippet of a conversation between the reader and sykkuno, maybe one of them told a joke and they both just sound real happy and sweet. its nice. it’s a nice moment.

means something is also for sykkuno!! it’s about how good-strange it is to be open and honest with friends, and how they usually aren’t but they’re glad they can be open and honest with him!!

meanwhile, i don’t think about u - interlude ft. CORPSE is a phonecall between corpse & the reader right after they announce they’re going to feature on acting like that, where corpse asks if they do this sort of thing to spite him, to which the reader responds ‘do i consider you when i’m making decisions about my career? no, corpse, actually i don’t think about you at all’ which then directly contrasts the song that ends the album, which is (how it feels to be) beautiful fireworks, which is essentially ‘i know how hard it is to exist like this, to be the centre of attention, to give off light and bring people joy, even when you’re in pain. i’m here for you. i love you.’

okay, i swear im done now, i’ll get back to writing the fic! (also i cannot BELIVE i managed to figure out how to embed those playlists but im so happy) edit: it didn’t actually work when i posted the ask, so anyways im sorry but y’all are abt to be spammed with playlists because i care too much abt this fic

#Anonymous #how the light gets in #corpse husband x reader #black cat anon

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theparaminds · 6 years

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The importance of isolation and love in music can never be understated, both being essential drivers to creation and devotion to the craft as well as creation of meaningful content. For Mississuaga artist Mileena, this is all too familiar, knowing the pain of heartbreak as well as the opportunities it passes along, opening the door for new love and all the music in between. Mileena is a growing master of emotional expression, using her lofi sound to connect to the listener in a way fresh and new, yet so familiar and friendly.

Paramind had the amazing opportunity to chat with Mileena on her inspirations, ambitions and future plans...

PM: First question as always, how is your day going?

Mileena: It’s going quite lovely so far, thank you.

PM: For those who don’t know, who are you and what is that you create?

M: My name is Mileena, I’m an artist who writes, sings and occasionally kinda raps to lofi tracks. I also take pictures sometimes.

PM: Of all the work you've created, is there any that stick out to you as one’s your specifically proud of? And while being proud, how do you not allow yourself to settle for where you are artistically?

M: In retrospect I’m proud of all my work but i think I’d say right now my fave is the third song on my recent release Honey Blues, called Sunshine. I feel like I fell off for a moment with my writing and sound but I bounced right back when I wrote that track and it set me on fire. It felt good to perfectly translate how I was feeling into lyrics after feeling so off, so I’m for sure proud of the comeback. I’m also a firm believer in us as human beings being in a constant state of change and growth and when it comes to music and writing, it’s no different. I could never settle with where I am because I know i can get better and do better than I did before and so im in constant motion artistically. If I’m taking a break from songwriting which I often do to experience things to write about, I try to fill my time with other art like poetry or shooting to getaway from music a bit but this way I’m still keeping my creative-ness (so to speak) alive.

PM: Is there a certain aesthetic you work to achieve in your sound?

M: To be honest I have no fuckin clue, my aesthetic is kinda all over the place but really and truly I just want to embody myself. My music is where I get to be honest with myself and others so really I just want my sound to be wherever I’m at.

PM: Has that aesthetic been inspired by other artists, whether musical or not, and if so, by who? How did they change how you approached music and creation?

M: Noname’s sound altogether just took me so off guard in the way she took rap music and made it soft. And really I’d never heard music like her’s before and it made me realize that rapping could be like that 100%. That really your sound as an artist could be whatever the fuck you wanted it to be and that you didn’t have to fit in a box. I used to be really insecure and so I always felt a really strong need to belong in terms of genres and what the typical artist from said genre should be like but Telefone pretty much drove me to saying FUCK IT. I was a late bloomer on Tyler but he reinforced that too with how fuckin different he is and how he highkey inspired a whole new generation of music that I feel like the industry will never give him credit for. Also Frank (of course) and Syd with her soft voice that can really get on any track and belong there. I have a soft voice too, so my music’s usually moody n’ slow but she makes me wanna push my boundaries.

PM: More so, aesthetic directly relates to emotion and experience, do you find you have a such feelings you’d like fans to take from your music? Maybe a mood it should put them in?

M: I want them to relate to my stuff if anything. I’m usually talking about boys n’ how they love and hurt me all at once but these feelings aren’t new to the human race and I know people know exactly what the hell I’m talking about in my music. I want them to feel close with me because I open myself up to the world when I release something, my shits really honest and from the heart and the things I’m talking about are real. Its kinda cheesy but I want people to know that theyre not alone in all that love shit, I know what It’s like to feel super lonely and i wouldnt wish it on anyone.

PM: On the topic of your fans, do you have any future projects to share with them going forward?

M: Be patient with me I’m going to knock ur socks off...

PM: How do fan interactions affect you, whether positively or negatively, and how do they shift mindsets in how you present yourself?

M: SOMETIMES I FEEL REALLY INSECURE ABOUT MY MUSIC BECAUSE I’M VERY CRITICAL AND ANALYTICAL OVER ALL MY STUFF, but when people approach me or DM me or anything me about my music it really fills my heart with some motherfuckin JOY. Somebody actually DM’d me recently asking when I was going to release something new and told me they liked everything I’d put out so far and to hurry up. It really motivated me a lot, especially because I was feeling SUPER insecure at the time. Feels weird calling them fans because I still feel like the same lame brain I was in highschool but somehow people think I’m kinda cool now, but they really make me want to do the best I can. I appreciate them more than anything.

PM: As time does go, how do you see your style developing, whether instrumentally or conceptually?

M: Well, as I keep working at it I’m only getting better. Instrumentally and stylistically I’m always exploring new sounds, but really Imma go with what feels right with my soul typa girl so who knows whats in store.

PM: What is the most valuable asset to growing and developing as a musician? Is it experience, practice, reputation etc…?

M: Staying humble. 100%. You can be hella fuckin confident, but you gotta stay humble. If you don’t you won’t grow or improve much and youll be stagnant. You can be great but it doesnt mean you cant be better, so you gotta push yourself and have the drive to always get the upper hand on yourself. Be critical, he honest, and get off ur ass n’ get shit done!

PM: Above all though, how do you hope to make yourself stand out and really make a mark?

M: Imma be the best fuckin me ever. Ain’t nobody popped off with longevity following waves. I wanna make one, and I want people to only be able to get my sound from me and me only (unless im out here inspiring people ya know).

PM: How can you establish yourself in a tier of your own and one which will continue to innovate while engaging?

M: It’s definitely hard doing things and making music other people around me arent but, it’s all about doing it and doing it well. I’m establishing it by being different and shocking but undeniably good and I’ll continue by getting better and better as I polish myself off.

PM: Is there anything or anyone you want to shout or promote? The floor is yours…

Shout out to my mom for making me and all the people that actually fuck with my music, I love yall and I see you.

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words and interview by guy mizrahi.

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