#im sooooo delusional

[kitamars]

inhaling insane amounts of copium rn

#im sooooo delusional #i need them to be happy eventually or i will die #hospital arc you could have been so soft…… #im of the belief that’s when wolfwood fell in love enough said #im going. to start crying and foaming at the mouth #i love them so much #say it with me now #partners (affectionately derogatory) #vash #vash the stampede #wolfwood #nicholas d. wolfwood #vash x wolfwood #vashwood #trigun #trigun maximum #ok bye

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

I hope you know that you have the BEST laughingstock content, boss

THANK YOU have some more <3

#im a bit Out Of Practice since i haven't been scribbling much lately #so this isnt my best However! i hope it still delivers #BUT YEA YEAH YEAG YOU FUCKIGN GET IT #its about laughing together 🤌 #its just. its important to me that theyre sooooo comfortable & affectionate around each other #they are matching magnets. To Me. #scribble salad #laughingstock #barnaby x howdy #howdy x barnaby #my brain is still on a YIPPEE YIPPEE YIPPEE loop whenever They #dont mind me just relistening to their shared audios #and the crumbs from the Bigger audios #while being very delusional in a little world where they have a chance #anyway yes yes Yes romance yes yes yes yes #laughingstock is My kitchen and the oven never truly cools down

[big-moon-little-moon]

Thinking hard about how bells hells are going to whitestone and laudna could say that she appreciates how the city has changed but she can't help but think mostly about her bad memories there and how imogen could tell her that, if she is okay with that, they could make some better ones and then she could ask her on a date and we would have the first official imodna date in whitestone. Because. Because, after all, whitestone is for lovers.

#posting this before the episode airs and im proven delusional #to be fair halloween episodes have both a history of dealing with emotional stuff AND wlw couples stuff sooooo #just sayin' #whitestone is for lovers #zephrah is for fuckers #cr campaign 3 #bells hells #cr laudna #cr imogen #imodna #southern gothic #c3e75 #cr spoilers #critical role spoilers

[suntails]

unapproachably pretty

#SMASHING MY SKULL THRU THE FLOOR FOR SILVIL!!!!!!! U DONT FUCKIGN UNDERSTAND #I WROTE A GOOGLE DOC EXPLAINING WHY IT WORKS. IT IS ELEVEN PAGES LONG. I WILL POST IT TO TUMBLR SEPARATELY IF ANYONE WANTS TO READ IT #THEY MAKE SENSE I SWEAR (delusional) THEY DO #i want them to be dating and meet up to chat after the ceremony real quick and some poor fuckgfn freshman has a q and this is what he sees #they are dreamy they are enchanting ppl want them i know it. pretty #if anyone says silver looks like epel ill kick u. i tried to make it clear but the color scheme do be workin against me #twst #twisted wonderland #twst silver #silver vanrouge #<3 #vil schoenheit #silvil #suntails #im NORMAL im SOOOOO NORMAL #i like the contrast between the two word 'art piece title' and me immediately screaming in the tags

[fairyhaos]

giggles pls he's so LOVELY

#yena talks #it's not fair why does he keep doing this #im sooooo delusional for him wtf #joshua.svt

[myfemininedivine]

Can you please tell us what ending you planned for Taste? Always wondered if stupid Eva would have come back in the last chapters and what else you planned. It's my favorite story of yours.

I’ll give a very very bad and horrible run down of the last few chaps I had. I deeply apologize for not finishing, but I’m sure you understand. Still, im so sorry to not finish something I started.

The run down for the rest of TASTE would've been this:

Basically, if we focusing on the main couple..... (not gonna explain the smut but just know ofc it woulda been there)

WE LOVE IN SEPTEMBER:

I wanted to focus on all the miscommunication/horrible commitment issues. Most of the focus is on Lexi’s past relationship (guy basically ghosts her, moves out without comment, had commitment issues, extremely similar to Fezco in some ways except he never quite gets attached to Lexi unless she had other ppl after her; was planning on this guy and Fezco meeting in this chapter — Fezco does not know that this guy is the infamous ex).

You get a glimpse into Fezco and Lexi as an actual pairing, not just sex partners. Lot more domestic. curtains are OPEN. Fezco asks about her past relationship and gets the full picture. He sleeps over at her place most nights. He wants her to know that he’s serious about her, so they redo their entire first meeting. Retrace their footsteps under diff context. They go on an actual date, not just some meet up at the same diner I featured them in. She does meet Ash; some faye interaction. We r finally seeing a revealed business fezco voice!!!! lexi is like oh that's fine af actually.

Fezco does meet up with Eva to completely cut the tie. He feels that the only string between them is the fact that she sort of changed his life — I believe that it would’ve been like this reveal: how he got his job? She was the connect!!! And so he feels obligated to be there for her. From what I remember???). Lexi finds this out through Rue.

So, she inevitably doesn't know how to confront him. It doesn't matter tho bc Fezco tells her the moment that they meet!!!!!!

Anyway!

Rue is still plowing through relationship issues. Lexi meets up with Jules and basically sees the effects of heartbreak and gets some bad after taste of it. Jules reveals that it's not that she doesn't love Rue, it's that she doesn't know if they're ready or if they'll ever be ready. She's struggling with trusting the future. This sucks to Lexi. She trusts Fezco, but she also trusted rue and Jules relationship as it was the only stable relationship she had ever been exposed to. If not them, why would it would for her? (and nothing works out for her fr so it's like.)

Core thing is that Lexi is not really sure if she’s capable of trusting someone. All she knows is that she loves him and love is a fleeting, futile thing that doesn't have reason. Without reason, she goes to Fezco's apartment that same night, totally withdrawn and troubled, and he opens the door, doesn't ask question, pulls her into bed with him. This is where he tells her that he sort of really likes her, and she says that sort of really likes him. At first she's content with just that, but then he says something like 'I sort of really more than like you' and all of these thoughts sort of float and die away somewhere between that.

WE BLEED IN OCTOBER:

Halloween party is held to take place as planned by Fezco and Lexi (trying their absolute hardest to rekindle Jules/Rue) annnnddd Fezco does invite Lexi’s ex without realizing !!! It goes batshit crazy!!!!! Rue and Jules do not interact, Fezco's lead to believe that they're rlly done with each other (plot twist tho as Jules and Rue do reconcile and get caught being steamy in another room!!!!! who woulda thought !!!!!).

Lexi sees her ex, gets into a splat where this man is just DYING to get back w her all of a sudden since he seen Lexi and Fezco being full adults in love and shit. The guy does ask if Fezco is her boyfriend, and she hesitates. Fezco overhears this, basically gets this guy out and the energy between him and lexi just BOOM EXPLODE. They go into a separate room, have bit of an argument because he's confused as to why she didn't call him her boyfriend; she says she doesn't know why she hesitated.

Then, he says, "I love you, do you love me?"

She says yes but she admits to not knowing how to fully allow herself to. This literally KILLS him. Fezco says he's not a science experiment for her to prick and play with, and she either wants him or doesn't. They either work or they don't.

Lexi doesn't respond.

Fezco's distraught but calmly decides to take a break with their relationship at the end of this chapter. He isn't angry, he just really wishes they'd met with different intentions/desires.

WE FEAR IN NOVEMBER

you know how the chapter starts with the month? I was thinking of just being like "November." and then having blank space like BITCHHH LFAOOOOO I thought I was so slick for thinking of starting the chap all ominious with the twilight shit (Bellas depressed era!!!!).

ANYWAY. November.

Set the scene. They don’t talk. It’s hard to do that shit when you’re always 1 degree away from the person and planning a very very very small wedding ceremony that's due in 3 weeks. And the worst part? He doesn’t ignore her. He looks her in the eye, pretends as though they never tore away from each other. like !!!! He has literally no animosity for her and she's so riddled with guilt that she doesn't know how to soothe the fact that they aren't together without being selfish, saying she wants him when she, herself, is pretty broken in some way. but she loves him. she knows it but it's hard to accept that 'this' (her) is all she has to offer. She wishes he’d ignore her. He wishes she had more decency to not ignore him.

Wedding ceremony happens. Lexi IS best girl as Fezco IS best man, and they do walk down the aisle together. very much tension!!!! He tells her that she's beautiful!!!!!!! and she tells him that she misses him, to no response from him as the have to go on and walk in front of everyone. a bit gloomy but Fezco does stay looking at Lexi, and they do have a lil dance moment later in the night.

While everyone is cooling at the lil wedding after party, Lexi confesses to Rue that she always wanted something like that, what she has with Jules. And Rue basically hints that Lexi does even if it incarnated differently. Gives her some pep talk. If Jules didn't confront Rue, they wouldn't have gotten back together vice versa on if Rue didn't ask Jules out, they would've never been together. The chances of finding someone is slim and fleeting, that's why you grip onto the ones that root something into you. Fezco (of course) leaves the party.

Lexi does show up at his apartment later that night. He opens the door, doesn't know what to say but Lexi says that she's not all together, being broken and all. Fezco says that he is too, so they're of the same thing. A beat and then she says I love you and you love me. Fezco nods, says every little piece.

This terrifies Lexi and, in conjunction, terrifies Fezco. but what's worse to her is not being with him. And, thank the lucky stars, as he says some shit like “well I guess we gonna be scared together huh?” And she brightens up and says that she's never been so happy to be scared.

WE TASTE IN DECEMBER:

More of an epilogue. A calm after all that stupid shit.

Lexi decides to renew her apartment lease as does Fezco. They upgrade them friendship bracelets!!!!! Ash got himself a girl, on the phone with Fezco as he's getting ready for a lil party.

Reveal that mans has apartment key privileges!! He's letting himself in her apt and calling out her name !!!!

New years party that will be held at Jules's/rue's place (woop woop), Lexi is late as always but it’s ok bc daddy Fezco is there to joke about her needing to wear heels so she can stop running from him!!!!!!!!!!! They go, separate for a bit at the party where she DOES refer to him as her boyfriend, as he does refer to her as his girlfriend; then come back to the couch where they originally met. Lexi sits first, Fezco finds her this time!!! He jokes about whether she’s still in the streets and she says some cheesy shit like yeah, waiting for you (and we scream TOUCHDOWN!!!!). Fezco and Lexi basically simmer in their seats, smiling and kissing and finally fully engulfed, entwined to the soul.

P.S. Guilty pleasures would've morph into a connection between both characters; more interpersonal things rather than materialistic/celebratory items.

Here’s some of the writing that sits all glum! Hope this explanation gives plenty of closure.

#this is a very large sort of shitty detailed post on a tumultuous sex crazed fic lol #it is nice to write a little after note about Fezco and Lexi. extremely nostalgic to me. #I’m not confident that I’ll ever come back to this fic #Sooooo that’s why this is so very long!!!! tried to give some nitty gritty. #I fear I’ll never obsess this hard #yes this fic probably would’ve tipped to 150-200k of prose and conversation yes im annoying like that!! #also I could be remembering wrong/ the details may be off but that’s just bc my actual outline was skinny Minnie and I was delusional!!

[deus-ex-mona]

unnecessary comparison of the day!

volume 5’s release of one of asuna’s chapters changed the subject of her stan twt cancellation posts from mona to miyu (of frusu)!

#there are also minor dialogue changes from the piccoma release to the volume versions but still~~~~ #though ngl i love how asuna is the one who has received the most dialogue changes out of everyone in the series lmao #she received one in vol 2 when. like. no one else did iirc #ily asuna frusu i wanna k n o w your after story auauaauaaaaaaaaa #but. man. now im faced with a tough decision for vol 4. #do i or do i not have asuna cuss mona out in the name of localisation or should i just tl directly? #bc so far i’ve tried to tl asuna based on vibes and such as much as possible (instead of direct tls) sooooo #i just. wanna do her justice mannnnnnn. she’s a dumbass but she’s *my* dumbass yk? #but aside from that… i gotta try my best to come up with tls for the variety show segments auaaaaaaaa #i think my little theme of attempted alliteration would work? im sorry appare☆manten you’re sunny⭐︎skies now #hmmmmamamsmmdmdkdjdmdjdjdjdjse im sorryy im goinggngngng insaneeeee from the lack of lxl album shipping updates auauauaaaaaaaaa #p l s ship my album i n e e d to inject meoto into my veins #pls cmonnnnn you cant just suddenly up the shipping price by 20 bucks and *not* ship it on timeeeee #im gonna e a t d h l if it’s the last thing i do #m. maybe it’ll ship if i finish tling the vol 3 bonus chapter today (delusional) i hate waiting for parcels smmmmmm #ok insanity over i think i should get some dinner bye

[stay-funky-ponyboy]

I was secretly hoping Yussa would show up or mention soon but like, I was very doubtful bc we had been blessed with Dorian and Essek. It felt like asking for too much.. but here we are. I'm blessed.

#critical role #cr spoilers #fully delusional now #i am at such a high point lol #yussa is one of my fave characters too so im sooooo happy

[zelda-without-a-licence-plate]

hear me out okay-- HEY COME BACK I SAID HEAR ME OUT!!!

#mod car #totk yunobo #totk spoilers #totk link #totk #loz tears of the kingdom #yeah this is real to me okay. its real #totk edit #real light edit but eh #anyways NO im NOT delusional yunobo is an anarchocommunist revolutionary leader AND a healer AND the new pilot of rudania AND is deaf #AND IS THE SAGE OF EARTH OK ITS EARTH ITS EARTH #and. most importantly. he is my best friend #and also links boyfriend #this is all real to me ok it is SO real i DONT CARE about canon its real TO MEEEEEEE #sorry about that. felt like iw as turning into the joker for a moment. im normal now #im so normal about yunobo its okay come closer its fine im sooooo normal #its past 3 am btw this is how i post now #who is the sage of fire instead then you ask. well about that-- #the answer may surprise you #yunolink #yunoblink

[sproutbell]

im going to become the worlds first influencer who doesnt use social media

#urge to make youtube channel about my little projects and art and hobbies is stronger lately #i dont like instagram or tiktok and twitter is dead sooooo….. #i like thrifting and fashion and illustration and picture books and i paint clothes a lot…. hm! #im delusional completely delusional to the fact that i think in another life i was a successful youtuber LMAO

[throwawayasoiafaccount]

god tywin lannister deserved worse

just remembering elias death and i wanna puke and the way tywin talks about elia and what happened is so damn gross

but rip tommen and myrcella we all know what’s about to happen in the next book :/

the cycle of violence just keeps spinning and damn you tywin for beginning it

(i got a bit crazy in the tags 💀)

#rest in peace elia and rhaenys #i’m one of those crazy ppl who thinks jaqen h’ghar is aegon 💀 #literally lost the teeny tiny amount of credibility i had #anyways i think doran’s in on it and i think rhaegar switched out asharas child for aegon paralleling the baby swap jon does #the pact made in braavos about viserys and dany marriages is a half truth half lie #and arianne being sent to faegon is simply doran testing his heir. if she messes up then whoever’s spying for doran will correct her #gerold dayne knows too much that’s why doran thinks he’s too dangerous #but this would make the dornish plot sooooo much more interesting and would show that no doran hasn’t been doing nothing #it would also automatically make the daynes more important #jaqen (aegon) was in kings landing to kill robert but got caught by varys. syrio was sent to find him. ned cleared out the black cells tho #saving aegon in the process. fun how we’re actually introduced to this character through lyanna starks mini me arya #aegon was able to kill robert with a boar tho so mission accomplished. #now he’s in old town trying to hatch his dragon egg. the stone beast taking flight in danys vision is aegon being symbolically depicted… #..as a spinx #i’m crazy delusional. but ppl who think faegon is actually aegon are even more delusional than me #plus the real aegon being alive fulfills the suns son part of quaithes warnings #i like this theory bc it makes the dorne plot more interesting and it explains whatever is going on with jaqen h’ghar cause he is sus #yes yes i know i’m delusional 💀 i just think it’d be a very interesting twist #kinda hoping no one sees this post at this point bc i know no one will take this theory well lol #i do think this theory can be supported by the text tho #and cerseis throw away line about ned stealing asharas baby would suddenly become peak foreshadowing #barristan comparign dany to ashara would also be peak foreshadowing bc ashara would take the place of gilly in this parallel and she was dis #dishonored by someone at harrenhall. likely aerys and then she turned to a stark probably brandon for comfort #tbh i think it was ashara who lied to brandon about what happened to lyanna. perhaps she was trying to mess with brandon’s wedding and #was trying to get back at rhaegar for humiliating elia at the tourney. i highly doubt it was baelish who lied to brandon cause brandon #has little reason to believe him and no reason to trust him. ashara tho? arthur daynes sister and elias lady in waiting? also his lover? #anyways varys the spider potentially stealing aegon away (if he did take a child it was the false aegon) is there to parallel the others #who ride ice spiders taking crasters sons. tbh i think it was aegon who decided he wanted to train as a faceless man so he could get revenge #on his own terms. and the sea lord of braavos at the time was in on it and helped aegon with his plans #the unveiling coming up is going to be a lot more important than arya just reclaiming her identity. yes im delusional lmao. rant over

[monocaelia]

lovesick by laufey makes me so . GRARARARARA

#didi talks #like. im so scared to fall in love #but despite that and yearning for someone is so. #LITERALLY ME. ITS LITERALLY ME AUGGHGG #the entire bewitched album is sooooo good #ty queen for another album I can be absolutely delusional to #‘​lovesick’ is sooo ‘philophobia’ coded

[skitskatdacat63]

It's so funny having an insane project cooking and I'm just delusionally giggling to myself in the corner on here like "no one knows what's coming" *rubbing my little paws together*

#lol i worked on it for a while and i am sleep deprived #so i actually am a bit nuts rn #that being said #you dont know whats coming >:) #lol tho its funny being delulu like this ^ as if im not working on smth thats still pretty niche #sry i blame it on 5 am brain #but also like non-delusionally #it is fun to know you have smth youre gonna eventually get to drop on people #also its a pretty big thing id say? #but i am feeling sooooo delusional rn abt the possibility of finishing it within a weekend #but it sucks bcs i was like hey i should try and write a paper for my class(dw its not like pertinent) #but then i got sucked into this and im like well thats not happening #alright anyways please wish my luck and motivation djfkkglg #as i said its big so i just hope i can remain motivated 🫡 #catie.rambling.txt

[mothlover69]

Looking at myself and pointing like "really? Thats ur man? Thats the one for you? Are u serious rn?" And im just like 😔 "yeah thats mine"

#look at him hes adorable #🥺 hes sooooo cute so so cute #or im delusional maybe who knows #also sorry im partial to i.mpel d.own b.uggy but also thats the one that started it all #ship: chop chop slide

[aroace-cat-lady]

Please don't hate me for saying this but Imogen usually uses blue pink and white clothes

#im sooooo delusional i know

[thesingingrevolution]

this is so my boyfriend coded ! 🌸

#real #guys #reallllllllll #HE’S SOOOOO MINE #look at his hair ohhhh my goooosh 😭😭😭😭😭 #he looks perfect im losing it #😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #i love that cup too like???? #to go on a starbucks date with yuta and get matching cups 😔 #peak delusional hours #nct yuta #☹️💗