#im sorry anon i know you wanted me to state my vulgar thoughts but media analysis took the reigns

[bulkhummus]

Do you think Kevin and Carlos got together in DOW? Or do you think that Kevin had feelings for him????? I’m so curious about your thoughts on it after seeing your Earl and Cecil drawings.

What interests me more about this scenario, is Carlos lying by omission, and deciding what’s best for other people without consulting them first.

He does this to Cecil, and also to Kevin. Which is interesting.

I think all Kevin really wanted was a friend. He was alone. And you can love a friend— can be in love with them too. Losing a friend sometimes hurts more than losing a lover. And here comes Carlos, who is not great at communicating but very available to be there for Kevin in that capacity. And Carlos couldn’t leave him, like literally— but especially if he continued to feel he had important work to do there, and could build a life — so it was a safe relationship to indulge in too. And even if Kevin wasn’t really sure how to have a healthy friendship, and ultimately a relationship, (ie. talking over and being dismissive of Carlos, encouraging him to unhealthily indulge in work etc etc) I think it never occurred to him that Carlos would leave. And he does. He leaves. He writes a sad letter, and he makes his own peace, and leaves without having to deal with the consequences of this supposed friend of ten years that he just hurt. If I were Kevin— I’d be devastated, livid, and wondering what I could have done differently.

And then with Cecil— Carlos says that he is ‘sparing Cecil the pain’ of knowing he was there for a decade, but in reality, it’s Carlos deciding that it is information that Cecil didn’t need/ doesn’t get to have. That’s context that Cecil doesn’t have access to to apply to their future relationship, and the town tbh, every time it creates more problems for the two of them, because Carlos won’t/doesn’t want to/ doesn’t know how to talk about it. Despite Carlos’ pure intentions, actions have consequences, and lying by omission is still lying. Even traumatized, even through grief, how you behave with people is still your responsibility— and It Devours! shows us plain as day that he is not handling his grief well.

The thing about the year apart (or ten respectively) is that they both needed to grow as characters in a story. Cecil needed to be more independent, and Carlos needed to find purpose outside of his job. At this point in their relationship, they both were proceeding as if they would continue to be together— which is why Carlos omitting this info, to me, is complicated. It’s the very new relationship quandary— you’re not thinking about your life as part of a larger whole which is ultimately what happens if you marry and if you choose to begin a family.

If, hypothetically, I was in Cecil’s position, and found out that my partner, who has trouble articulating and processing emotions, spent 9 years longer with someone I hated because they took over my home town and hurt my cat and stole my job, and happened to look a lot like me, and became close enough friends with them that they had to write a break up letter, I would feel betrayed.

Even if nothing happened, lying about it makes things seem WORSE from Cecil’s pov. And outside of the drama of ‘did they hook up— did they catch feelings’ it doesn’t matter — Carlos lied. And it’s delectable. Carlos not thinking its important for Cecil to know that Kevin was there, or how long they were together, can mean nothing to him — but because he chose not to tell Cecil, schrödinger’s Anything could have happened— cheating, emotional cheating, nothing— so while he was well within his personal right to do so (for whatever reason that is valid for him) he didn’t account for other people possibly being hurt by that choice, or losing their trust. And this ofc, is all my own bias/hc’s BUT I do think that really Carlos is protecting himself by not telling Cecil. When in media has ‘sparing someone [insert devastating info]’ gone well? Almost never. Especially because it creates a morally gray area that makes it difficult to pinpoint what it is that is upsetting. Ugh its so GOOD.

So— one abandoned for the other. Cecil and Kevin are both the one and the other. Truly each other’s double. It’s so good. And I think they both deserve an apology from one scientist.

(i do think kevin tried to hit that tho, for himself, but also because carlos was cecil’s boyfriend but— like 109% sure he tried and carlos just Didn’t Get It)

#im sorry anon i know you wanted me to state my vulgar thoughts but media analysis took the reigns #that anxious thought of ‘well if you didnt think THIS was important enough to tell me what else are you not telling me’ dilemma #ugh so so so good #juicy #wtnv #ask tag #anon #wtdb #i also think often about cecil being in awe that carlos loved him all that time — but time is also so subjective to him #would he even care that carlos was there for ten years? What is time for cecil?? u know?? #im so thirsty i need to drink water #i gotta do some relistening also sorry if some of this is not ‘accurate’ #sorry its long #long lost